A/N: Hey everybody. Sorry that it has been a few days since my last update but here I am typing this out just for you guys. I hope you're enjoying the story so far and I also hope you enjoy this next chapter. This chapter is mainly focused around Kendall
Chapter Three: A Rough Day and a Dinner Party
It had been a couple of days since Kendall had found out that his father was being released from jail. Kendall's father was put in jail for attempted murder for almost killing one of Jennifer's friends when she began to worry about what was going on in their home. If she hadn't of almost died she would have discovered the secret that Mr. Knight was keeping from everybody. He was abusing his 12 year old son every day. He would beat Kendall with his fists, his feet and with his belt. This caused Kendall to become scared of men who have a lot of power over Kendall. Only two people knew why Kendall was so terrified of his father and why he was now scared beyond belief for his father's return. The first person was Katie, only because she used to hear Kendall scream and beg for their dad to stop. The second person who knew was Jennifer. She had thrown her husband, Kadin, out after she saw him beat Kendall with his belt and after she saw how many bruises Kendall had on his body. The only reason why these were the only two people who knew was because Kendall begged both of them not to say anything until both of them agreed.
It was in these couple of days that Kendall barely slept, refused to eat and kept himself locked up in his room, only leaving to go to the bathroom and to go to school. Kendall didn't want anything to do with anybody; he just wanted to be left alone for a while so he could think things through.
Kendall laid on his bed, looking at the ceiling waiting for his alarm clock to go off. He didn't want to get out of bed just yet. Hell, he didn't want to get out of bed in general but he knew he needed to. He didn't want to miss class and to make up all the work he would have missed. He also didn't want to miss AP Bio. No, he didn't like being lab partners with Logan because he knew that Logan hated him but the class was really important and it was necessary for Kendall to go so he wouldn't miss out on anything.
It took a minute for Kendall to realize that his alarm was going off. He shook his head, shaking away all the thoughts he had going on, reached over and killed the beeping noise that it was making. He got up and out of bed before going to his bathroom. He looked in the mirror to see how shitty he looked. He had dark bags under his eyes and he was paler than normal. He had been like this for two days now but he didn't care. He quickly fixed his hair before walking back into his bedroom to get dressed.
After getting his school supplies in his backpack Kendall walked downstairs to be surprised by his mother waiting at the bottom of the stairs.
"I made breakfast" She said softly, concern in her voice.
"I'm not hungry" Kendall gave her a kiss on the cheek before walking towards the door to put his shoes on.
"Honey, you need to eat. You haven't eaten anything in three days now. This isn't good for you. I know you're scared that your father is coming back, but honey he is not going to step a foot inside this house or even lay a finger on you." Jennifer sat next to her son on the couch. "Please eat something"
Kendall sighed and looked at his mom in the eyes before shaking his head. "He'll find a way to get to me" he said in a whisper hoping that his mother didn't hear.
"No he won't, I promise" she pulled Kendall into a hug. "Now I made pancakes and bacon, so come eat."
"I'm still not hungry, but if it makes you feel better I'll eat something at lunch and James can call you and give you proof that I ate." Kendall said knowing his mother would try to push him to eat breakfast one more time before giving in.
"But you love bacon"
"Please mom, I really just am not hungry. Besides Katie and I got to get going"
"Fine, but I expect a call and you have to eat something for dinner." Jennifer said standing up, hugging her son one more time. "I'll go make sure that Katie is ready. And Ken, I love you" she kissed his cheek before walking up the stairs and headed toward Katie's room.
Kendall sighed as he grabbed his bag and looked at his phone. He had a couple of texts from James, wondering what was going on with Kendall. Kendall didn't really want to explain any part of this to anybody, and if he were to he wouldn't do it with James. James was his best friend, yes, but Kendall needed someone who knew Kendall better. The only person that Kendall would tell was Logan.
He wouldn't care about my dad. He doesn't even care about me that is why he wanted to stop being friends. How would he even react if I told him I used to be abused? I bet he would feel sorry for me and I don't need his sympathy. I don't need anybody's sympathy. I'm strong, I can handle this on my own. I will just live life and hope that he never finds me
Kendall was brought out of his thoughts by a sharp pain on his cheek. "OW!" he exclaimed now looking at his little sister.
"I've been trying to get your attention for a minute now. We have to get going" Katie grabbed her brother by his wrist, handed him his keys and backpack and dragged him out the door. "Let's get going. Come on" she said waiting for Kendall to open up the trunk. As if on cue, Kendall walked over, opened the trunk and tossed his bag in before getting into the driver's seat.
The whole drive to school was completely silent. Once they reached school, Kendall was about to get out when Katie pushed on his shoulder, causing him to stay seated and to look at her with confusion.
"I want to know what's going on with you" Katie said not knowing that her father was being released from jail. Katie was never physically abused but she was verbally and she also was terrified of their father because of Kendall. When Kendall was being beaten, she would ask herself when Kadin was going to get tired of beating Kendall up and switch to her.
"Katie, not now" Kendall pleaded with her. He didn't any weakness showing while he was at school.
"Yes now. You are scaring me Kendall. You don't sleep or eat and I know that something is going on. I'm not stupid"
"Nobody said that you were stupid"
"Tell me what is wrong with you!" Katie yelled looking at her brother, now noticing the fear that Kendall had in his eyes. What happened next surprised her. Kendall started to cry. It wasn't sobbing but a few tears started to stream down his cheeks. "Big brother?" she asked in a soft voice.
"What?" he snapped at her.
"Please tell me so I know what I can do"
"THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO. THERE IS NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO. I'M FUCKED, OK? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO HEAR? " Kendall yelled before getting out of his car, wiping his tears away and opened up his trunk. He got his bag and left it open for Katie. "Make sure to close the trunk before you walk away" he said before walking off and heading into the school.
As Kendall stormed off to his locker he noticed James running towards him. "Hey man," Kendall sighed, faked a smile before turning around.
"Hey, what's up?" Kendall asked opening up his locker.
"The usual, what about you? What's been going on with you man? Is Logan bothering you in AP Bio?" James was asking too many questions for Kendall's liking.
"Same here and nothings been going on with me and Logan doesn't bother me more than he usually does"
"Don't lie to me, I know something's up."
"I'm not lying, I just haven't been getting a lot of sleep the past few days" Kendall giving part of the truth.
James knew that he wasn't going to get anything more out of Kendall so he just decided to drop the matter. "Ok" he said as Kendall got everything he needed to out of his locker. "So, should we go to the staircase and meet up with everybody? We have about fifteen more minutes before class"
"Nah, you go ahead. I'm just going to head over early. It's been a rough morning so I just want a few minutes to clear my head"
"Or an extra few minutes to look and daydream about Logan" James chuckled a little when he received a glare from Kendall.
"Not funny and no." Normally when Kendall would go to class early was to have a few extra minutes to look at Logan, even though he never admitted it. Today was different though. Today he cried in his car and today he had yelled at his little sister who was trying to do nothing more than help him. It had been a rough morning but Kendall could tell that it was going to be a rough day.
Once Kendall reached the AP Bio classroom he noticed that Logan wasn't there yet. Kendall let out a sigh of relief as he took his seat. He then started to think about what all happened that morning. He then hid his face in his arm and muttered "I'm a horrible brother"
"That's not the Kendall that I remember" Kendall looked up to see Logan who was taking his seat next to Kendall. Logan then looked at Kendall and could tell something was up. "What's wrong?" he asked concerned for the blond.
"Like you care" Kendall muttered before putting his head in his arm again.
"Just because we're not friends anymore doesn't mean I don't care and when I know that something is wrong" Logan said looking at Kendall, just wanting to run his fingers through the blonds hair, pull him up so their eyes connected before kissing Kendall.
"Well whether or not you care or can tell when something is wrong doesn't mean I'm going to plague you with my issues. That's what friends are for" Kendall snapped before realizing what he had just said.
"Ouch" Logan said putting his hand over his heart. "I guess I deserve that. Well I guess I'll just leave you to deal with your issues by yourself because I know you haven't told James"
"How do you know that?"
"Because I know you Kendall, whether or not we're friends anymore"
Kendall sighed before looking at Logan. "I yelled at Katie today"
Logan was confused. They were siblings, they would sometimes yell at each other all the time. "Why does this time have certain significance?"
"Like you, James and my actual friends, she was trying to figure out what was going on with me"
"Oh"
"I just feel bad because she is trying to help me" Kendall said and before Logan could respond the bell rang and class had started.
-Running Back to You-
After about a twenty minute lecture from the teacher everybody was supposed to do independent work filling out a worksheet that was passed out. As Kendall was working on it he felt a piece of paper hit his hand. He then looked at the piece of paper, then at Logan who was pushing the paper against Kendall's hand. Kendall grabbed the paper before unfolding it and reading what Logan had written.
Since we're not friends I can tell you this. You look like shit, like you're sick or something Kendall smiled at this.
Well it's not like you look perfect or anything Kendall lied, Logan always looked perfect. From that gorgeous short brown hair to his stunning brown eyes to his strong cheek bones and then there was his smile that Kendall fell in love with oh so long ago.
Well at least I look closer to it than you Logan slid the piece of paper back over to Kendall, loving the smile that Kendall showed after reading it.
Well at least when I look sick I don't look like you Kendall said knowing that Logan thought he looked like complete and total shit when he was sick, no matter how many times Kendall disagreed with him
That's mean. I should stop talking to you now
Well since we're not friends why don't you
Because I know something is bothering you and I want to know what it is. I may not be your friend but I still am here if you need to talk
Isn't that something friends say?
Logan was about to reply when the bell rang. He stood up, and before Kendall could leave Logan grabbed his arm. "I really am here if you need to talk" Kendall nodded before leaving the room. Logan put the note they had shared in his folder, planning to show it to Carlos, before getting all the rest of his stuff ready. He was about to leave when Mr. Williams stopped him.
"Logan, you are a really great student and so far I can tell that you are going to do the best in here but when you allow yourself to do foolish things it makes me question my assumption." Mr. Williams said looking at a confused Logan.
"I don't know where you are going with this, sir"
"Next time we have independent work time, I don't want to see you passing notes with Kendall." Mr. Williams said before pointing to the door. "You are dismissed"
-Running Back to You-
It was afterschool and Logan was surprised to see that both of his parents were home. He walked into the house and headed to the kitchen when he heard Kendall's name now being used in his parent's conversation.
"Jennifer told Kendall" Joanna said to Lucas.
"That's good, and did she tell you how he's taking it?" Lucas asked and Logan was now intrigued. Whatever they were talking about is what was going on with Kendall.
"She only mentioned a couple of things, like him refusing to eat and sleep and how he locks himself in his room all day. I could tell from her voice that she's really worried about him but I can't do anything to prevent this. They knew that this would happen" Logan was now concerned and curious. Why hadn't Kendall been taking care of himself? Logan now knew why Kendall looked like shit today, though.
"I know honey, and I know that they appreciate what you do but he served his time that you made sure he got" Logan now knew that they were talking about a court case that his mother worked on for the Knight's.
Logan wanted to get closer so he could hear them better but he ended up running into an end table that was sitting in the hallway. Shit he thought to himself.
"Logan, are you home sweetie?" Joanna asked as Logan acted like he had just got home by throwing his stuff down onto the floor.
"Yep, just got here. So what are you two doing home today?"
"Well today I got the day off and your mother's hours were changed today so now she works in the mornings and has the afternoons off." Lucas said drinking a glass of milk looking at his son. "Hey Logan, follow me out into the living room, I need to ask you something."
"Alright" Logan said slowly because he was confused. He then followed his dad to the living room, knowing that his mother wouldn't be able to hear them.
"I know that you aren't friends with Kendall anymore, but I need you to become friends with him again" Lucas said not giving him anymore information.
"What? Why?" Logan exclaimed, a little louder then he should of.
"Sshh" Lucas said putting a finger to his lips. "I don't know why you guys stopped being friends, and I can't share details with you, but I know you already know some from ease dropping." Logan blushed, embarrassed that he got caught. "You're not that sneaky" he chuckled a little bit.
"Dad, I can't be friends with Kendall anymore" Logan said trying to avoid this. He also didn't want his dad to be the reason that the two became friends again; Logan wanted it to happen on its own if it were to happen at all.
"Son, please just listen" Lucas started. "I know he has other friends now, but I feel like he could use a friend that knows he extremely well."
"You don't know that James doesn't know Kendall extremely well. Besides I already talked to Kendall today and he doesn't want help or anything from anybody. You know how Kendall gets"
"And so do you, which is why he needs you"
"What's going on anyways. I know that you can't share details, but dad please."
"Kendall should be the one to tell you, not me." Lucas sighed. "You will have a chance to talk to him tonight about it because all of us are going over to his house for dinner so your mother can discuss things with Mrs. Knight." Logan's eyes went wide
"Dad, please don't make me go." Logan said quietly, even though secretly he was really happy about this.
"I'm sorry son, but you're going. If Kendall doesn't need help then Katie will. I know that she still thinks of you as a brother." That made Logan smile. Katie had always been a little sister to him and every now and then Logan would receive a text from her with an update about her life.
"I know she does" Logan said before looking up at his father. "Fine, I'll go" he said in an angry tone trying to fake his anger. He didn't want his parent's to suspect that he actually wanted to be a part of Kendall's life again because then they might catch on that he was gay and that he just didn't want to be Kendall's friend, he wanted to be more, so much more.
-Running Back to You-
Kendall had gotten home after a pretty decent day and he had to thank Logan for that. If it wasn't for Logan making him smile, then Kendall would have had one of the worst days ever. Kendall had already apologized to Katie but still didn't tell her what was wrong. Hell the only person that Kendall mentioned anything like that to today was Logan. Maybe Logan really didn't hate him, but that made Kendall wonder once again why their friendship was ended.
Once Kendall walked in the door, all the bad things just started to rush back. This is where his father beat him, this is where his father is going to find him and beat him again. Kendall shook all the bad thoughts out of his head but they returned a second later. Kendall then walked into the kitchen to get a snack to see his mother all dressed up cooking a nice meal.
"Mom, what's going on?" Kendall was curious because he noticed that the dining room was all set up and looked really nice.
"Oh hey Ken" Jennifer said looking at her son. "We are having a few guests over tonight for dinner, so you can't skip out." She said knowing her son was going to say he wasn't hungry.
"Who's coming over and what are you making? It smells really good" Kendall said walking over to her, giving her a kiss on the cheek, like he did every day.
"The Mitchell's are coming over and I'm making a ham dinner. Are you actually going to eat tonight?" Jennifer was curious. She hadn't expected Kendall to even ask about food and yet he was not looking in the fridge. "Uh uh" she said walking over to him. "No food until dinner"
"But mom" Kendall said before he sighed. "Wait, you said the Mitchell's were coming over? As in Logan Mitchell?"
"Yeah, I have some business to discuss with Joanna."
"Is this business about dad?" Kendall asked with a frown.
"What about dad?" Katie asked as Jennifer and Kendall turned around quickly to see her standing there. "What's going on? First you yell at me Kendall and now mom has business to discuss with Mrs. Mitchell about dad."
"Kendall, you yelled at your sister?" Jennifer asked raising her eyebrows
"I apologized"
"He did, but that's not the point. What are you guys keeping from me?" Katie really wanted to know
"Honey," Jennifer said walking over to her. "Your father is being released from jail" Katie's reaction was the smaller version of Kendall's. Her eyes went wide with shock and her face slightly paled.
"What? How?"
"His sentence is over and he is being put on probation."
"Can we at least get a restraining order?" Katie asked now knowing why her brother has been freaked out.
"No!" Kendall yelled causing the two girls to look at him. "You promised me you wouldn't tell anybody and to get a restraining order you'll have to tell. Please don't tell" he now sounded like he was going to cry. It was just then when the doorbell rang.
"I'll answer it. Kendall, honey, you don't have to eat if you don't want to. I just want you to be out of your room for a while today, ok?" Kendall nodded his head and his mother left the room.
"Kendall, it's ok to be scared." Katie started but Kendall made sure she wasn't going to add onto it.
"Katie, don't just please don't. Not now, not ever just drop it" Kendall said leaving the room to go greet his guests and try to sneak up to his room.
-Running Back to You-
It was now after dinner and Jennifer and Joanna were discussing Kadin Knight. Much to Logan's liking he was kicked out of the room and was forced to hang out with Kendall and Katie.
"Well, I'm done." Kendall said before standing up and started towards the stairs.
"Kendall, mom said that you needed to stay out of your room for an hour. It's only been ten minutes" Katie glared at her brother, causing him to groan with annoyance.
"Just tell mom I stayed down here"
"No"
"You know what, why don't Logan and I just go up to my room that way mom can't complain how I'm locking myself alone up there" Kendall grabbed Logan's wrist and dragged him upstairs.
As soon as they were in Kendall's room, Kendall quickly shut and locked the door.
"Ken, are you finally going to tell me what's going on?" Logan asked and Kendall shook his head no. Logan sighed, knowing that asking again wouldn't help the cause so he just dropped it. "So what are we going to do?"
"Sit here and not talk" Kendall said laying down on him bed, pulling the blankets over his head.
"So you're just going to leave me to be in here while you sleep?"
"Yep" Kendall said putting an emphasis on the "p"
"Oh no you're not. Your mom is worried about you, Ken and I know Katie is too." Logan said sitting down on Kendall's bed. The first thought that popped into Logan's mind was the first time he was ever on this bed. It was Logan's very first sleep over.
"Fine, if we have to talk then I don't want to talk about that." Kendall said sitting up looking at Logan, who was looking at the bed smiling. "What's up with you?"
Logan snapped out of his thoughts and looked at Kendall. "N-nothing" he said now blushing.
"So you just suddenly stutter nothing out of nowhere?" Kendall raised an eyebrow.
"I was just thinking about the first time I was on your bed" Logan said and Kendall chuckled. "I take it you remember that day"
"How can I forget? You spent most of the time under my bed rather than on top of it" Kendall said laughing now.
He just said how could he forget Logan thought happily. "Hey! It was a thunderstorm and I was scared. Not to mention I left my favorite toy at home"
"I also remember the only way to get you out from under my bed was to promise you that I would make sure that nothing bad ever happened to you." Kendall said, his smile now dropping down to a frown. "Can I ask you something"
"Sure" Logan said unsure of Kendall's tone.
"Why did want to stop being friends with me?"
Logan was thrown off guard. "I-I uh, I figured that's what was best for us"
"Did you even consider how it would have affected me?"
"Of course I did. But you have James now, so it's not like it matters." Logan said looking at Kendall, who looked really hurt. Logan mentally cursed himself for hurting Kendall once again.
"James is great and all, but he's not you" Kendall said in a whisper, hoping Logan didn't hear that.
Logan blushed. He couldn't believe what Kendall just said. It made his heart beat faster and his palms to get sweaty. "I feel the same way you know. Carlos is a great friend, but nothing can beat the friendship you and I once had."
"Do you regret it?"
"Regret what?" Logan asked confused.
"Do you regret ending our friendship?" Kendall looked into Logan's eyes.
Logan meant to lie, but when he looked into Kendall's eyes his mouth was just moving without thinking of what was coming out. "Every single day" he said.
Before either of them really thought things through they were leaning in slowly. Kendall got tired of waiting and crushed his lips to Logan's. He was surprised when Logan was kissing back. Kendall noticed that both of their lips were moving perfectly together, like they were made for each other. Kendall then ran his tongue along Logan's bottom lip practically begging for entrance. Logan opened his mouth as Kendall slid his tongue in, exploring the brunette's mouth. Logan moaned into the kiss when Kendall brought Logan closer, their slight erections rubbing against each other.
It was when Kendall had started to kiss Logan's neck when Logan realized what was happening. Logan then jumped back looking at Kendall with sad eyes. "Oh god" he said looking like he was going to cry. "Please don't hate me Kendall" Logan said before unlocking Kendall's door and running down the stairs. Logan went into the dining room with tears pouring out of his eyes. "I'm going home" he said before grabbing his coat and running out the front door.
It took Kendall a second to gather himself before he then ran after Logan. He heard the front door close. Kendall then sprinted to the door, opening it and noticing he was too late. Logan had jumped into his car and drove off. Kendall then closed the door and put his back against it. A few tears fell down his face as he took some deep breaths. He didn't want Logan's parents to see him like this.
Jennifer and Joanna walked over to where Kendall was. "Ken, honey what happened?" she asked worried.
Kendall didn't say anything, just shook his head in response as he walked up the stairs, slamming his door shut and locking it. It was then when Kendall let the real tears fall. "I could never hate you Logan, I love you" he said in between his sobs.