A/N: Glad you all are enjoying the story and thanks to all of you for the amazing reviews. You guys make me smile. So here is chapter four, I hope you enjoy and please remember to review and give me your opinion! Just so you know the title is named after a song. It's Running Back to You by Matt Wertz. I listen to the song on replay whenever I'm writing a chapter. You should all go check it out because it's an amazing song. I also just want to say happy late holidays to everyone and I hope everyone has a great 2012!
Chapter Four: A Big Mess and A Reacquainted Friendship
Logan was speeding away from the Knight's house. What had he just done? No he wasn't the one who started the kiss but he certainly didn't stop it. What did that mean? Why would Kendall start the kiss? It must have been a in the moment thing. They were once friends and maybe Kendall was desperate to get Logan back into his life. No, Logan couldn't let that happen. He was finally accepting the fact that Kendall and he would never be friends again and now he had to go and ruin that by talking to him in class and by kissing back. I am such an idiot! He doesn't really want me; he just wants the old friend that he wants back. No, I can't be friends with him; it would just end badly for everyone. Logan thought to himself as he continued to speed away with a slightly blurred vision from the tears in his eyes.
Before Logan really knew it he had reached his house. He didn't even want to go in there; he just needed somebody right now. He parked his car and quickly walked over to the Garcia household. Knocking on the door a few times, Logan waited a minute before knocking again this time the door being answered by Carlos' mom, Sylvia. She took one look at Logan and concern was spread all throughout her face.
"Can I see Carlos please?"
"Sure honey. He's up in his room, just head right on up there." Sylvia opened the door wider so Logan could walk past her. She turned around to ask Logan what was wrong but Logan was already sprinting his way up the stairs into her son's bedroom.
Logan knocked twice before entering Carlos' room. Carlos hadn't even noticed because he was too busy jamming out to the music on his iPod. Logan walked up behind his and pulled the headphones out of the boy's ears, causing the boy to jump and quickly turn around, letting out a sigh of relief when he noticed it was just Logan.
"You scared the shit outta me dude" Carlos sat down on his bed, patting the area next to him. "Come tell me what's wrong"
Logan said down next to his best friend, his eyes glued to his own feet. He muttered something that Carlos or even anybody else could understand.
"What was that?"
"I kissed Kendall" Logan looked at his best friend who now had wide eyes.
"When did that happen?"
"Well, we went over to the Knight's house for dinner" Logan paused taking a breath before continuing. "And after dinner my mom had to talk with Mrs. Knight about something so all of the kids were forced out of the room. Kendall didn't want to stay in the living room and Katie and him were arguing about something and then he just grabbed my arm and took me up to his room."
Carlos wanted to give input but he knew then Logan wouldn't tell him the rest of the story if he did. "Then what happened?"
"Then he tried to ignore me" Logan was letting tears fall again. "I should've let him ignore me" he said burying his face into his hands.
"Why should have you let him ignore you? Tell me the rest of the story"
"We started talking about a memory we had when we were kids and that led to him asking me why I stopped being friends with him. Then he asked me if I regretted it"
"Regretted what?" Carlos was confused by this.
"Breaking the friendship off. Without thinking I told him that I do every day and before I knew it we kissed. I mean, he kissed me first but I kissed him back. Carlos, there were sparks, fireworks and everything else people say you feel whenever you have the perfect kiss. It just sucks knowing I can't ever have that kiss again" Logan was sobbing now. Carlos scooted over and hugged his best friend, allowing Logan to cover his shirt in tears.
"Why can't you have that kiss again? He kissed you that has to mean something"
"Yeah, that he was caught up in the moment." Logan ignored telling Carlos that it was him that ran out on Kendall.
"Don't ignore the question Logan"
"What question?" Logan wanted to prolong answering it. He felt ashamed of himself for running away after he got what he wanted for years.
"Why can't you have that kiss again?" Carlos asked looking at his friend now.
"Because"
"Because why?"
"Because I ran out on him!" Logan said in a louder voice. Carlos didn't know what to say to that. If anything, he thought that Kendall would have done something bad. "Besides, he was caught in the moment and he is still into girls, not guys and defiantly not me." Logan said but Carlos highly doubted that. He knew that Kendall had always stared at Logan whenever they were near but Carlos always thought it was because Kendall wanted to get their friendship back, not because he secretly had feelings for Logan. Though these were only assumptions, Carlos could tell that he was right.
"Logan, I'm just going to say it. Is it possible that Kendall feels for you as much as you feel for him?" Carlos asked knowing that Logan would think he was insane.
"Are you serious? He's Kendall Knight, captain of the hockey team"
"Don't forget your former best friend"
"Shut up. Anyways, how could he like me, of all people? I am nothing special plus I told you Kendall is straight. Tits instead of dick for him." Carlos chuckled at Logan's last line.
"I'm sorry, but the last thing you just said was funny."
"Whatever. Anyways, can you get my homework from school tomorrow?" Logan asked Carlos knowing that Carlos would do it in a heartbeat.
"I know that you just want to run from this, but you can't. One, you need to go to school so you don't miss out, two you have to go eventually and when you do Kendall will still be your lab partner."
"Don't be a jerk" Logan glared at Carlos, realizing the he was still leaning up against the boy from when he was crying. He sat up and looked at the floor again. "How can I face him after all of that? He probably hates me"
"If he does than he's an idiot." Logan chuckled.
"Thanks man"
"Anytime"
-Running Back to You-
After a while Kendall had stopped crying, his knees still pulled up to his chest, and he was still looking at the wall with a few posters on it facing him. His throat was really dry and he was tired, but too afraid to sleep. Deciding that his need for water was more important than the ton of questions he was going to get as soon as he unlocked his door. Getting off his bed, Kendall quickly walked over to the door, taking a deep breath, and then unlocking it.
Kendall took one step out of the doorway before Katie opened up her door, realizing that Kendall was coming out of his room. "Hey big brother" she said looking at him with sad eyes. "How are you feeling?" she asked as he shook his head.
Kendall just ignored her and started walking downstairs when he heard Mrs. Mitchell's voice still here. He would have expected for her to have left by now but apparently there was a lot to talk about when it came to Kendall's father. Kendall sighed before making it all the way downstairs where he saw Mr. Mitchell getting on his coat. Mr. Mitchell turned around to see Kendall.
"Oh hey, Ken" he said before walking over to him. "I know you probably don't want to talk about it, but can you tell me what happened between you and my son? I know that he won't tell me when we get home so I guess I'm just looking for some answers."
"I'm sorry, Mr. Mitchell, but I'd prefer not to talk about it" Kendall said. Even if he was willing to talk about it he wouldn't tell the father of the guy that he just kissed and the father of the guy that just ran out on him.
"I can accept that, I just hope that you boys fix everything. Even if Logan won't admit it I can tell that he misses you. Every time someone mentions your name he pays close attention." Lucas said grabbing onto Kendall's shoulder. "And even if you and my son don't work things out you are still welcome over there anytime if you need to get away. I'm also here for you if you ever need to talk."
The way that Mr. Mitchell was talking it sounded like he knew about Kendall being abused. "What are you talking about Mr. Mitchell?"
"I'm not going to hide this; I actually think that it is about time that you knew. Look, don't be mad at your mom but she didn't know what to do. She told us about you being abused right after she found out." Lucas was now looking at Kendall who had a tear running down his face. "Kendall, someone had to be told, even if it was just a friend."
"But she promised" Kendall whispered, now feeling sick to his stomach. His mother broke their promise and told the Mitchell's about him being abused.
"I know, but Kendall, you have to think about how she felt. She had no idea what to do or say to you and she just wanted help."
Kendall's sadness was now anger and he balled up his fists. "That doesn't mean that she should break a promise to her son!" he yelled and Jennifer then walked into the room.
"Kendall?" she asked confused and concerned.
"Don't talk to me. You broke the promise to never tell anybody!" Kendall yelled before walking back up the stairs to his room and locking himself back in there. He then grabbed his phone and called James.
"Hey Kendall"
"James, I'm going to be headed over to your place. Is it cool with your mom if I stay the night?"
"Dude, she loves you but I'll double check quickly" it took a couple of minutes before James to answer Kendall. "Yeah dude its fine."
"Good, I'll be over soon."
"Ok dude, see you soon" James said before Kendall hung up. Kendall quickly packed a bag full of his stuff and grabbed the stuff he would need for school the next day.
Kendall then opened up the door, planning on just walking past his mother and sister. He did not want to deal with them at the moment. Katie he wasn't mad at but he just couldn't take being around his mother right now. When Kendall reached the bottom of the stairs his mother stopped him.
"Kendall, you're not going anywhere" she said sternly.
"Actually, yes I am" he said trying to move around Jennifer but she wouldn't allow that.
"No you're not. You are going over to that couch so we can sit down and talk about this. I know that you're mad at me for telling but what did you expect me to do?"
"I expected my mother to actually keep her promise to me and keep her mouth shut. What other promises have you broken?" Kendall glared at his mother who was surprised by what he just said. "Now, tonight I don't want to deal with this, I just want to get away and that's what I'm going to do." He said moving her gently out of the way. No matter how mad he was Kendall would never hurt anybody he loved.
"Kendall Donald Knight, get your ass back here!" Jennifer finally yelled as Kendall was walking out the door.
"I'll see you later mom" Kendall shut the door behind him and walked over to his car and tossed his stuff into the backseat before getting in and driving off to James' house. Once he was there he knocked on the door before James answered it.
"Dude, are you ok?" he asked concerned for Kendall.
"Outstanding" he said before walking into James' home. "I need to talk to you about Logan." Kendall said softly just so James would hear.
James nodded his head and led Kendall to his room. "Ok, so talk."
"I kissed him" he said as James gave Kendall a shocked look.
"Oh wow. When did that happen?"
"A few hours ago" Kendall said staring at the floor.
"What did he do?"
"He kissed me back. Before you say anything, he was just caught up in the moment." Kendall said knowing that James would want more information. "We then started to make out and then he pulled away and asked me not to hate him and ran off." He has a tear in his eye that he hoped James would notice, even though James did.
"He asked you not to hate him?" James asked confused. He had a hunch that Logan liked him but this threw him off guard.
"Yeah, I don't even know what he meant by it"
"Neither do I, but I'm telling you that he likes you. This just proved it" Kendall was getting a little frustrated with James.
"Before we made out he said something that caused me to kiss him."
"What did he say?" James was curious about what caused all of this.
"He said the he regretted ending our friendship every single day"
"See, dude I told you he likes you"
"Just because he still wants to be friends doesn't mean that he wants more. I keep telling you that he's straight."
"Whatever you say man" James said before sighing. "Wanna play some video games?" James looked at Kendall who nodded. Kendall really just wanted to take his anger out on something, and even if that was video game characters he didn't care.
-Running Back to You-
Logan went home wanting to just go straight to his room but when he saw his parent's car he knew that wouldn't be an option. Sighing, Logan opened the door seeing his parents sigh with relief.
"We were so worried about you honey"
"I was just over at Carlos'" Logan said pointing in the direction that Carlos' house was.
"Well we wanted to talk to you" Lucas said signaling for his son to take a seat on the couch. Logan did what he was "told" to do and looked at his father.
"If it's about Kendall, can we just not" he said before his father shook his head.
"It is about Kendall, but not about what you think. Look, if Kendall did anything to hurt you, you have to know that he is going through a rough time but if he did hurt you I need to know about it."
"I am the one who hurt Kendall" Logan muttered to himself
"What was that son?"
"N-n-nothing. Look Kendall didn't hurt me, so no worries. I gotta go do homework" Logan said nervously before running up to his room. I really hope he didn't hear me he thought to himself.
Downstairs Lucas looked at Joanna. "Did I hear him correctly?"
"If you thought you heard if he was the one who hurt Kendall then I think so"
"What is going on with him? He would never hurt anybody"
"I don't know, but I hope it stops soon"
"Me too" Lucas said looking at his wife with sad eyes. He just wanted his son to return to his usual self that he hasn't been today. Something was going on with him and Kendall and he wanted to get to the bottom of it. He wasn't a detective for nothing.
-Running Back to You-
Kendall hadn't been able to sleep at all that night. He just laid there looking up at James' ceiling hoping that this was all some bad dream and he would wake up and his father would still be in jail, everything with Logan wouldn't have happened and that his mother wouldn't have told anybody. Kendall also thought about what he said to his mother and he felt really bad. He was mad and he had troubles controlling his anger sometimes, something he had inherited from his father. It was the biggest thing that Kendall hated about himself.
Before Kendall knew it, James' alarm was going off. Kendall decided to be nice and shut it off for him and wake James up a better way so he wouldn't be cranky. Kendall walked over to his bed and shook his softly. "James, there is a sale on hair care products" he said smiling.
James instantly opened his eyes before looking around. "Not cool dude"
"Hey, was that a better way to wake up then beep beep beep" Kendall mimicked the alarm sound.
"Ok, your right. Well, I'm off to go make myself look perfect" James said jumping out of bed leaving Kendall chuckling at him.
"I need a new best friend" he muttered to himself.
"I heard that" Kendall just laughed before getting ready for school.
It took James forty-five minutes before he was ready. When James was getting ready, he ate a bowl of cereal and texted his sister telling her to be ready and outside by 7:20.
"Finally" Kendall said when James finally walked downstairs. "I need to go get Katie." James nodded knowing that Kendall needed to get his little sister to school.
"See you there." James said pouring himself a glass of milk.
Kendall waved goodbye and said goodbye to Mrs. Diamond before walking out to his car and driving towards his house. Before he pulled up to his house he groaned when he saw his mother outside. He didn't want to give her an apology right now and he still was a little mad. Kendall parked on the street, trying to give his mom the point that he didn't want to talk. Kendall got out and opened up the trunk for Katie when Jennifer walked over to him.
"I know you don't want to day anything right now, so I just want you to listen. I know I broke our promise but I was scared for you and to be honest I was scared in general. The man I thought I loved was beating our kid and I didn't know what to do, so I told two people who I knew wouldn't say anything about it to anybody if I asked them not to. You also need to know that they are trying to be of help to you." Jennifer said as Kendall rolled his eyes.
"I don't want help mom. I don't need help. What I need is a mom who can keep a promise"
"I've had enough of that Kendall" Jennifer snapped. "I love you and I only want the best for you and I couldn't do that by myself. Now, Katie's going to be out in a minute so I'll let you go. Have a good day at school."
"Like that'll happen" Kendall muttered to himself as he got back into his car.
A minute later Katie came out and then the two of them were off to school.
"Mom was crying all last night" Katie said breaking the awkward silence.
"Well I feel bad for saying that Katie but I was mad at her for breaking the promise to never tell anyone that I was abused."
"I know that Kendall, but she is still our mother."
"Yeah and dad beat me, does that mean I should forgive him because he's our father?"
"Beating you is way worse than what did!" Katie said raising her voice. "Quit being so stubborn and accept the fact that she needed help."
Kendall was silent. Katie was right, like she normally was. "I'm sorry" Kendall said looking at her.
"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to."
"I was planning on doing it after I get home tonight."
-Running Back to You-
Logan hadn't planned on going to school today but Carlos literally pulled him out of bed and forced him to get ready.
"I don't want to face him" Logan said looking at the floor in Carlos' car. Carlos refused to let Logan drive himself because he knew that Logan would turn around and go back home before school even started.
"You need to face him. It's for your own good" Carlos said knowing what was best for Logan.
"No it's not. I just need a day to think"
"Yeah and then you'll over analyze it like you always do. You just need to accept the fact that Kendall kissed you and that I highly doubt it was a heat of the moment type of kiss.
"You have no idea what you're talking about."
"I've seen Kendall stare at you for the past three years."
"Yeah, we used to be friends"
"Whatever you say"
"I do say, now let's hurry"
"I'm going as fast I can" Carlos said with a chuckle, knowing that Logan wasn't really a patient person when he was trying to avoid something he didn't like or didn't want to do.
-Running Back to You-
Kendall showed up to AP Bio seeing that Logan wasn't there and he was a bit relieved but a bit sad as well. He liked being that close to the boy every day, even if he didn't want to admit it. A minute later Logan walked in and Kendall and one part of Kendall was happy to see him but the other part just wanted to get out of there.
Logan sat down next to Kendall, just staring down at the table not saying a word. This bothered Kendall, he just needed to hear Logan's voice and Kendall would feel alright again.
"You know how you said that you were here if I needed to talk?" Kendall looked at Logan who just nodded with his eyes still focused on the table. "Well, I just wanted to talk to you about my mom" Kendall paused waiting to see if Logan would say anything, which he didn't. "Well, I freaked out on her last night for something she did and she broke a promise to me and according to Katie she was crying all night and I just don't know how to feel I guess. I'm still mad but then again I'm sad but I know I had every right to be mad but then again I said something I shouldn't have" Kendall rambled before looking at Logan again.
Logan was confused by this. Mrs. Knight was one of the coolest moms ever and it surprised him that she would ever break a promise to her son. "What did she do?"
"I don't want to talk about that"
"Well what do you want me to say? You have a right to be mad, but she's your mom and would do whatever she needed to for you." Logan said snapping at Kendall a little bit.
"You know what, just forget I asked." Kendall said sighing, grabbing his stuff and walking over to Mr. Williams. "Mr. Williams, I think I'm going to be sick" he said lying.
"Ok, well go to the nurse. If you don't return then I know that you went home." Kendall nodded before walking out of the classroom. Kendall didn't go to the nurse; he just went straight to the parking lot and drove off. He was headed to the place where he would escape to whenever he needed to get away. Only one person knew about was Logan and it's not like he was going to be looking for Kendall anytime soon.
TIME SKIP -8 HOURS
Jennifer was pacing back and forth in her living room. Kendall had ditched school, didn't pick up Katie and has been gone for 12 hours. She was worried about her son, where was he? What was he doing? What is something happened to him? Why did he ditch school? What if somebody hurt him? Those were some of the questions that were running through her mind.
Not being able to handle it anymore Jennifer decided to call Joanna to see if Lucas would help find Kendall.
"Hello?"
"Hey Joanna"
"Jen, what's wrong? You sound scared? Did Kadin show up?"
"No, but Kendall's missing. He ditched school today and hasn't been heard or seen from since. His phone is off and it's dark out and I'm really getting worried"
"I'll put Lucas on the phone to see if he can help and see if Logan knows anything" a second later Lucas was put onto the phone.
"When was the last time he was seen?"
"When he left school. Apparently he left right before AP Bio started. James saw him walking out to his car."
"And you said that his phone is off?"
"Yes, please tell me that you can help me find him"
"I'm sorry Jen, but I don't know where he would go and I can't do anything until he's been gone for twenty-four hours."
Jennifer started to cry when she heard a noise on the other end of the phone. "I think I know where Kendall is, but I have to go there alone. I'm the only person who knows about this"
"Logan, I need to go with. I need to know if my baby is ok"
"Mrs. Knight, please, Kendall would get really mad if I showed anybody this place."
"Fine, but I want a call right away."
"I'm sorry that you can't come with Mrs. Knight but I will get there as soon as I can"
"Thank you Logan"
"I'll call you soon. Bye" Logan said as he hung up the phone.
Jennifer just leaned against the wall sobbing, hoping that Logan would be able to bring her little boy back. She hated that Logan had to go alone but she knew that her son would be better off that way.
-Running Back to You-
Logan got into his car and drove to a forest that was near the edge of town. Kendall had tried to run away one day and he found this little spot in the middle of the forest and built a tree house there. That was the only place that Kendall felt safe, or so he told Logan when they were kids. Logan had been there a couple of times to remember where it was but it was going to be a lot harder to find in the dark.
Logan could remember his first time being in the tree house.
Flashback:
"Kendall this tree house is amazing" ten year old Logan said while looking around the tree house.
"Thanks, I built it myself" Kendall sounded proud of yourself.
"But how?" Logan didn't know how a ten year old could build an entire tree house.
"Remember how grandpa used to teach me how to build things? Well he and I made a tree house together one time and I remembered and did it on my own."
"That's amazing, the tree house is amazing" Logan was still in shock.
"Am I amazing?"
"Of course you are Kendall! You're my best friend so that makes you amazing"
"You are the bestest friend ever!" Kendall said hugging Logan "You're amazing too Logie"
End Flashback
When Logan reached the forest he saw Kendall's car parked out of the way so it wouldn't attract much attention. He sighed, knowing that this wasn't going to be fun. Kendall could be really stubborn sometimes and getting him to come home would be difficult.
Logan parked near Kendall's car and got out; grabbing a flashlight from the glove box he had in case of emergencies. He then started on the path that would lead right to the tree house. It took about five minutes to actually get to the tree house, seeing a small light up there. Logan sighed again and started up the ladder to get into the tree house. When he got to the top, he saw Kendall who was sobbing into his knees.
"Kendall?" Logan asked as Kendall's head shot up and his eyes were wide with shock.
"What are you doing here?" Kendall asked now looking away from Logan, wiping away his tears.
"Don't act tough right now. I want to know what the hell is going on with you. Your mother called my house crying trying to get my dad to find you."
"I don't want to go home" Kendall said softly.
"Why not?" Logan was curious. Kendall had only done something like this once and that was when he ran away. Logan never knew the reason why Kendall ran away either and he figured that it all linked to the same thing.
"Bad things happen there" Kendall was speaking in a whisper. He wasn't going to tell Logan about being abused, not now and probably not ever. Logan was just here because of his mother.
"What bad things?" Logan was now concerned.
"Logan, please don't." Kendall said a little louder to make sure that Logan heard him.
"Don't what?"
"Don't act like you care when you clearly don't."
"How can you even say that?"
"Because you hate me!" Kendall yelled sounding really hurt.
"I don't hate you Kendall"
"Then why did you stop being friends with me? Why do you ignore me all the time and why the hell did you snap at me today?"
"I told you it was for the best and I don't know Kendall. I just wasn't in a good mood today and I didn't know what to say. You are keeping things from everybody and I don't know how you expect anybody to help you when you refuse to let anybody know."
Kendall just rolled his eyes. "Logan, you have no idea how much I miss you and I don't let people know because I can't."
"Why can't you"
"Because I can't"
"That's not a reason"
Kendall was getting mad. "Cause bad things will happen to everybody I care about!" he raised his voice and Logan looked shocked.
"Kendall, what's going on with you?"
"Nothing, just drop it. Call my mom because she's probably waiting for a call and tell her I'm on my way home."
"No"
"Fine, I'll call her"
"That's not what I'm talking about. I'm not going to drop it."
Kendall moved to get out of the tree house when Logan blocked him. "You're not running from this Kendall."
"I'm not running from anything. I'm going to go home." Kendall said finally getting around Logan.
"I'm done" Logan said following Kendall.
"Done with what?"
"With trying to help you!"
Kendall stopped and turned around and looked at Logan. "Look Logan, as much as I would love to tell you how my life is fucked up, I can't."
"What is stopping you, Kendall?"
"A lot of things are stopping me and no I can't elaborate. After all this time, you are the one person I can trust and doesn't it say something when I can't tell you something"
Logan thought for a second. Kendall did have a good point. "I'm sorry"
"Why are you sorry?"
"For snapping at you in class and for being a jerk"
"It's fine, it's whatever." Kendall said looking at Logan just wanting to kiss him again. He loved the feel of Logan's lips when they had their first kiss.
"Look, let's just get you home before your mom dies from a panic attack." Logan said looking away. He really wanted to kiss Kendall right now but he wasn't going to let that happen.
"Wait" Kendall said as Logan looked at him again. "I want us to be friends again"
"Kendall I don't know" Logan started but was then cut off.
"Come on, we're going to be working together in AP Bio for the entire year. It would be a lot easier if we were friends." Kendall said smiling at Logan, trying to win him over. To be honest, Logan wanted that ever since Kendall ran in late that first day of class.
"Fine" Logan said with a small smile.
"Also, before we leave I'm going to call my mom" Kendall said pulling his phone out of his pocket and turned it on.
"Since we're friends, I want you to come to me with any issues you have." Kendall chuckled, leaving Logan a little confused.
"You're going to be dealing with me a lot then" he said as Logan smiled, not liking that Kendall had a lot of issues but that he would be seeing a lot of Kendall.
"Do I need to turn my room into a shrink's office?" he teased and Kendall chuckled before taking a few steps away so he would talk to his mom. It took a couple of minutes for Kendall to hang up.
"I'm so getting a lecture when I get home." Kendal said shaking his head.
"Well, I wish you the best of luck my friend" Logan smiled at Kendall.
"Thanks Logie" Kendall used Logan's old nickname causing Logan to blush.
"Anytime. So I'll see you at school tomorrow" Logan walked over to his car, waving at Kendall and started to drive off. Laughing with Kendall went around him honking his horn.
A/N: Ok, so this chapter wasn't the greatest but it certainly is the longest, so I hope you enjoyed reading all of that. The next chapter will have Kendall's dad in it so be prepared. Please review, I love to read them.