Ch. 9 Bond Fight

Waking up to Eric every morning or night was like no other. He was like my vampire teddy bear really. Each time he would wake he would lightly stroke my cheek and place a kiss either right on my forehead or right on my heart. Truthfully I never understood why he would place a kiss right above my heart, but I never asked and let it drop for now.

Again I was at Fangtasia and speaking to a new waitress named Ava. She seemed really nice so far but something in my gut was distracting me from our conversation we were having and made me want to go see Eric. It was weird, like I wasn't even in charge of my body. Without hesitation I walked through the hallway and opened up his door. Confusion and a little hurt splashed their way into my head as I saw a girl with no shirt on but her bra and a very short skirt straddling Eric and letting him feed off of her.

The smell of blood wafted through the air and to my nostrils causing me to wrinkle my nose. Still as I tried to not intake the weird scent I couldn't block out Eric's lust when he was feeding and the girl's ecstasy she was practically painting me with. What the hell? Eric you're getting off on it?

"Wh-" I started to say but ended up speechless. Eric stopped feeding from the girl long enough for us to look each other in the eye and me see the flowing blood coming from his mouth before I stormed out.

In a way I felt embarrassed but also really confused. It was if I should have been the one in there letting Eric feed off of me. Somewhere deep inside I was actually feeling jealous of the stranger straddling my soul blood bonded. What is the matter with me? Stop it! Violet you know very well if Eric and you exchange blood totally you could loose your mind or something! Great I'm freaking out about myself to myself! Shit I do it anyway! I need to get out of here now.

Pam's face would have been quite funny to me with her eyebrow cocked if I wasn't feeling like such an emotional mess and jumping into a taxi.

"Where is a good place to eat?" I asked the older cab driver.

"Well there is Merlotte's in Bon Temp," He suggested.

"Sounds good, could you please take me there as fast as you can."

Merlotte's didn't look too grand on the outside but on the inside it almost felt homey. Guys of all ages were sitting at the bar talking about the football game, some families were talking happily and eating their meals with smiles on their faces, and the food smelled really good.

"Hi- oh Violet! What are you doing here?" I turned to see Sookie standing in front of me with a white t-shirt that said Merlotte's on it, a pair of black shorts, and a black apron with her hair in a pony tail.

"Hi Sookie, I just needed to get out or whatever and I heard this was a good place to come to," I smiled and she showed me to a small table since it was only me.

"Yeah it's a nice place, so what can I get you to drink?"

"Can I get a cup of coffee please."

"You sure can," she smiled and headed towards the kitchen to get it.

"This is so fucked up," I sighed to myself and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Here you go! Oh Vi what's the matter?" Sookie asked me concerned and sat down in front of me.

"A lot is just going on. This stupid bond…" I sighed again and put some creamer and sugar in my cup of coffee.

"I know the bond between Eric and me is-" Sookie started to explain.

"No the bond with me and Eric-" I began but stopped when her face turned to confusion.

"What bond between you and Eric?" She asked kind of hurt.

"He didn't say anything to you did he? Typical!" I burst out and smacked my hands against the table top.

"What bond Violet?" Sookie kind of yelled at me.

"Oh my god, I can't believe it. This is been one hell of an hour and a half. I really think I'm going to be going now," I stated and pulled out some money to put on the table.

"What bond do you have with Eric? You've actually had his blood?" She questioned me kind of harsh but not loud enough for the other customers to notice anything being wrong.

"Sookie I will leave it to you and Eric to talk this out. Have a good night," I said and began to walk out the door. Of course I didn't make it five feet outside without Sookie coming after me demanding what had happened between me and Eric and someone's very firm grip on my upper left arm.

"Get your hands off of me now!" I demanded as I looked up to my 'vampire teddy bear'. He wasn't so soft and cuddly now and I was irritated.

"No," Was all Eric said as he turned towards Sookie who began to yell at him.

"Eric what bond do you have with her?" She raged. I could actually see small tears forming behind her eyes.

"Are you going to cry?" I asked in disbelief. "You have a boyfriend you know! His name is Bill!"

"It is a complicated situation," Eric responded coolly and looked down at me. His expression was unreadable. For all I knew he could be pissed, sad, or just in deep thought.

"Well un-complicate it for me then?" Sookie raged causing me to just get more annoyed as I continued to struggle in Eric's grasp. My attempts of walking away from the situation were getting me no where except for Eric to grip my arm tighter.

"Dude can you loosen up! I'm getting bruises Eric!" I cried in anger.

"Sookie, even though we are blood bonded there is something- or someone I should say that can break that bond," Eric began, "If a vampire who is blood bonded to someone who is not their soul blood bonded then the bond is not completely permanent."

Sookie's gulped, "Soul blood bonded?"

"Yeah soul blood bonded! It means if the vampire's true soul mate were to come along and exchange blood with them vampire, the previous blood bond would be severed and a blah, blah, blah!" I concluded trying to end this awkward conversation as fast as I could.

"What? So are you saying Violet and you," Sookie looked at Eric who looked a little anxious but did a good job of hiding it, "are soul blood bonded or something?"

It was Eric's turn to speak, "Yes."

"Well now that we have that established!" I cut in sarcastically and gritted my teeth from the lack of feeling in my arm.

"How is this even possible?" Sookie asked hurt, but by now I was having enough of her little drama.

"Look! I am what I am to Eric! There is no way around it! You have Bill who loves and adores you, I don't understand why you shouldn't be jumping into his arms! One day Eric and I will exchange blood and the bond will be complete. I don't know when or how but it will happen. Until then you need to get over that two guys aren't fighting over you anymore! It's ridiculous! You don't always get what you want! For fuck's sake, I didn't want this but I have it anyway!" I yelled at last letting out all the anger I had been holding in through this nice little chat we had been having.

"I think that pretty much covers it," Eric spoke softly and said a goodbye to Sookie who looked dumb founded.

Slowly Eric pulled me to his nice car but I wouldn't go in. "I am not going anywhere with you tonight Eric Northman." I stated serious.

"Get in the car Violet or I will force you."

The look in his eyes screamed annoyance and a hint of a wild animal's anger. In truth if I were just a pathetic little scared girl I would have feinted, but I wasn't and therefore I wasn't going to get into the car. "No."

"You will get into the car or I will personally do it for you!" Eric hissed at me causing me to flinch for just a second.

"Suck it." I sneered and flicked him off.

A growl of frustration escaped his lips and I was lifted and almost tossed into the passenger seat of his car in a split five seconds.

"Eric damn it!" I screamed irritation and tried to open the door. He must have put the child lock on or something.

"Violet we are going to talk."

The whole ride back to Fangtasia could have been a straight up war. I would furiously bang on the window or try to open the door and Eric would retaliate by pinning me down with his right arm.

Now here we were again in Fantasia with dozens of people around trying to get laid, bitten, drunk, or all three. As soon as Eric wasn't looking I made my way to the door faster than a robber running from the cops. I just barely brushed the handle with my index finger when Eric hoisted me up over his shoulder. I screamed, kicked, thrashed, and yelled at the people who were staring and starting to whisper to each other.

We were in Eric's office now and before I could blink I was up against the wall pinned by this god of a man. "What the hell? LET ME GO ER-?" I screamed but he silenced me with his lips.

It wasn't a kiss of love or affection but of desire, lust, wanting, and irritation. I couldn't even listen to my own feelings because of the intensity of Eric's swallowing mine. I was like a volcano ready to explode from the heat and anger flowing from me. Only a part of me was trying to get Eric away but the other half was just as bad and encouraged Eric's grinding and hard handling on my body to continue. It was like the both of us were two different parts of nature trying to dominate the other and either one wasn't going to go down without a fight.

Lightning and thunder clashed outside as if the gods of Olympus were cheering us on or telling us to stop. I was becoming a whole new person as Eric's emotions continued to swallow and consume mine and soon I bit his lip almost so hard blood could have been drawn. His hands still gripped my waist lifting me off the floor and I wrapped my legs around his waist. The combination of fury and lust coming from the both of us was deadly and I tore my lips away to get some oxygen. As I breathed hard Eric and I stared daggers at each other.

"I hate you," I breathed.

"Good."

"Let me go."

"No."

I gritted my teeth in frustration, "Now!"

"Make me." Eric sneered.

"Don't ever do that again, now let me go!" I yelled and tried to move but Eric wouldn't let me budge and moved closer to my face.

"I will do what I please and no."

"I can't believe you." I whispered sourly and banged my head back against the door letting it rest there while I fumed to myself.

"What? Me feeding? I have to survive Violet, and since you will not give me permission to bit you yet I still have to go feed from other people." Eric explained but I wished it would just go in one ear and out the other. Of course it didn't and my eyes began to water.

"Go to hell." Was all I could manage to get out and I closed my eyes.

"What is it that you want? She was no one to me." Eric explained softly to me while tracing small circles against my sides and I just stayed silent. "Are you jealous?" Eric asked in disbelief.

"Maybe I should be the one to make you feel that way Eric," I started, "I felt what you were feeling. She who as you said is no one to you can make you feel so much. I should have been in her place. You shouldn't have to wait for me, the bond should already be complete, and we shouldn't be fighting about this," I sighed as silent tears rolled down my cheeks.

"That is what this is about? You feel like you are letting me down but not letting me take your blood for myself. Violet the reason for me not just biting you against your will is because I want you to want to be able to give all of yourself to me without me forcing you. It would not be right. I don't want to have to force you to do something like that with me, I want you to be able to want to do it all on your own."

Eric finished and I looked at him. The look in his eyes was sincere and I placed a small kiss on lips. He continued to look at me and whipped the tears from my eyes and carried me to the couch where he sat me on his lap. For an hour we didn't talk but just sat there holding each other. I was getting a little sleepy and started to close my eyes as I laid my head against his cold chest. Just as I was half way to Dream Land Pam came through the door with a not so cheery face on.

"The Magister is here."