Say You Love Me

Chapter 21

"She's a major pain in my ass that's who Tara is," Gemma said as she walked into the clubhouse. She went behind the bar, grabbed two glasses, and a bottle of Jack Daniels. She pored both of us a drink and skid one of the glasses towards me. She chugged hers and I downed mine right after. I lifted my glass out for a refill and she pored double the amount that she had the first time and then proceeded to do the exact same for herself.

"Who is she to Jackson, Gemma?"

"Stahl is right. They were high school sweethearts. Tara was like a goddamn saint to Jax. To him, she could do no wrong. She was his old lady at one point and time. She got into some medical school in Chicago during their senior year and she tried to get Jax to follow her up there and leave the club and his family behind. He didn't want to go and she left him. She broke his heart. I had no idea she was in town. But if she is, it's not good. That twat is really good at fucking with Jax's head and I've seen it first hand," Gemma explained.

"So Brenda probably did that on purpose? God! I knew she wanted me away from the club but I didn't think she'd sink this far," I told her.

"But what about the others? Huh Gemma? I don't think those two had anything to do with Jax dicking down god knows how many girls!" I yelled.

"Baby girl… what happens on a run is suppose to stay on a run so technically by club rules.."

"GEMMA I TOLD HIM I'D LEAVE HIM!"

"Well maybe he thought with putting a ring on your finger you'd stick around regardless of what you told him. I'm trying this mess out just like you sweetheart."

"You don't see me walking around trying to fuck the next guy. Trust me I know about the prison clause. So 'technically' I get to fuck whomever I want when he's locked up! Right? Isn't that how that goes?! I'll hear him out about all this shit but in the mean time I'm going to find out what the hell Brenda thinks she's doing,"

"Yes that's basically what that means but I would find out if Stahl planted those girls right in front of his face. He learned his lesson after Ima, trust me. Whatever it is going on in his head with this, it's not just all his doing."

I grabbed Jax's keys to his truck and head to the sheriffs' station. I sped all the way there, parked and was through the front door of the station before I could blink. I was pissed. What type of mother helps their fiancé cheat on them to prove a point? What kind of person wants another person to hurt this badly for no reason? I got passed most of the offices before I spotted her walking into hers. I sped up and yelled out her name.

"Brenda!" I yelled.

She turned around and I backhanded her and she fell back against her desk.

"What are you do..."

I cut her off as I balled my hand into a fist and landed on the right side of her face.

"What's going on in here?!" a guy yelled.

I turned around and looked into the face of David Hale.

"Get out of here Hale. I got this," Brenda told him as she whipped the blood from her chin.

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"So Mother, what the fuck are you doing with Stahl?!"

"What are you…"

"Don't. Lie. To. Me! She gave you up. You know next time you do dirt with someone; you might want to let them know not to brag about it. YOU GOT TARA TO COME BACK TO CHARMING! The one person you KNEW could take him away from me! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME!? WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO YOU!?" I screamed at her.

"You're the reason Tara got that new position at the hospital?" asked Hale.

"Mom? Did you?!" I asked her.

Brenda took a seat in her chair at her desk and took a deep breath.

"You don't want the life that you're getting into Shay. I've been in it, I've been in the position and it doesn't end well for anyone. Stahl came to me after she had started an investigation on the club and Teller in particular. She noticed that the town sheriff's daughter was fucking none other than Jackson Teller. Of course she came to me, asking questions! She knew I wanted you away from him. So I told her everything I knew. She's the one who mentioned Tara… I did some digging and thought that if they were in love anything like your father and I were that she could possibly be the one that pulled him away from you so that you could live your life MC free. I DIDN'T WANT THIS SHIT FOR YOU!" she explained.

I started laughing. I don't understand why she thought she had anything to do with it.

"It's funny that you think that you have any control over my life especially since you kicked me out. I had planned on marrying Jackson. I still plan on going to college; the only thing that has changed is I plan on opening some type of business inside of Charming. Everything that I said I wanted to do is still going to get done. YET YOU HAVE TRIED TO RUIN EVERYTHING! Jax has been ripped away from me; god knows what's going to happen in our relationship because you and Stahl made me doubt him and Jax look like a fool! DID YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE OTHER WHORES HE FUCKED TOO!?" I asked.

Hale had taken a seat in Brenda's office; apparently it was a bit too much to take in that the fact that his boss was an evil bitch.

"The two girls were Stahl's icing on top of the cake. I wanted to stop with Tara. I thought Tara would be enough to create some space between you too. However, Stahl thought it would do more damage if he were with more than one girl. She hired them. From what I'm told he did push off both of them, more then once, Stahl gave them ecstasy to drug him with if it got to the point where they knew he wouldn't put out," Brenda said with a sob.

"You drugged him!?" Hale asked.

"I didn't do it. Stahl had the women she hired drug Jax and I found out after the fact. She forced her hand on that! Like I said, I thought it would be bad enough bringing Tara back and getting her settled within Charming and Jax and her would find their way back to each other. I had no idea how far she was going to go," she said.

"You are both sick! You know that right? You are just as guilty as Stahl is. This is the last straw. I'm done with you Brenda. I really hope you don't try to ruin Steph's life like you almost did mine," I told her.

I walked past Hale and stopped.

"I don't know if what they did breaks any rules or laws when it comes to the investigation but if you need someone to testify about what my mother and Stahl have done, be sure to call me," and with that I left. If she thought I was pissed, I couldn't wait to tell Gemma.

I tried calling Gemma a few times but it went straight to her voice mail. I figured I would just go home until she called me back. As soon as I stepped in the house I started to cry. I couldn't believe all of this shit was basically Stahl and Brenda's fault. I headed to the bathroom, took a shower, threw one of Jax's shirts on and layed in bed. It was nice to just relax but it would have been nice if Jax were home with me. Thinking about it brought even more tears to my eyes. As I whipped my tears away from my face, I reached for his pillow and my phone rang. I rolled over and answered it because I thought it was Gemma calling me back.

"This is a collect call from…"

Oh thank god.

"Yes I accept the charges!" I basically yelled.

"Hey Babe."

"Oh thank god! You're in county already? Thank god you called Jax," I told him.

"I slept with them. I'm sorry, I don't know how it happened but it did. I was drunk, I'm not really sure what happened but I woke up with both of them and I'm sorry," Jax told me.

"Babe, I found out some more info about the night that Stahl said she had pictures of you with two girls. She hired them. You tried shutting them down multiple times that night. When you kept saying no, Stahl gave them EX to drug you with and then you were more agreeable," I told him in a rush.

"Shay, are you fucking serious? This bitch is seriously trying to ruin everything good that I have."

"That's not the worst part."

"What else could be worse than that shit?!"

"My mom knew about it. My mom knew about those girls. Stahl partnered up with my mother to help get Tara back to Charming to get in between us. I went to her office today. She said that she was only responsible from bringing Tara into town and Stahl thought it would be better for them if you screwed around on me with more girls. Thought that they would be the nail in the coffin. She told my mother about those girls and the drugs afterwards," I told him.

"YOUR MOM BROUGHT TARA BACK!?"

"Yeah apparently they both knew how you would react around her. They didn't drug you though when you went and spent the night with her," I said with a snort.

"Well, no."

"WELL WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING WITH HER!? You don't get a pass for that shit. So explain it. Now Jackson!"

"Look, that shit was way back in high school and I.."

"Why did you sleep with her? That's all I want to know and when!?"

"Will you let me talk!? I FUCKED UP! I KNOW THAT KNOW! The fact that Tara had something to do with me being played pisses me off!"

"She hurt your feelings now you're not going to talk to her? Boo Hoo. Miss Perfect let you down. Good maybe you will realize that the sun doesn't shine out of her ass Jackson! When did you sleep with her!?"

"A few days before your graduation," he sighed.

"Did you wear a condom?"

"I….fucking Christ. I tried to put one on but she…"

"STOP! So not only did you cheat? But the bitch tried to trap you and you didn't even think about me? I can't believe this shit!" I started to cry on the phone.

"Look I'm sorry! Shay! I'm sorry! If I could take all of it back I would. I'm probably going to be in here for awhile and I wont be able to make any of this up to you," he explained to me.

"Why did you propose to me if you weren't ready to be faithful to me? Why even do it?"

"Because I love you and I want you! I want you to be the mother of my children and I want you be where I lay my head. I just fucked up. I'm sorry and trust me, this WILL NOT happen again. I promise you, Shay. When I get out of here I will marry you, if you'll still have me."

"I love you Jax. I want to marry you. You are the only one that I have and your going to be gone for a long time," I said.

"Christ from what I'm gathering, Stahl wants us in here for at least five years minimum. That's three and a half with good behavior and less than that if we can parole out early," he said.

"Fucking Christ Jackson. What am I suppose to do?"

"Just like last time. Take care of the house. Enroll in college just like we had planned. If you finish before I get out, start that bookstore that you wanted. I know you've talk to my mother. I called her first before I called you. I know you know about the prison clause. Can you please not use it?" he asked.

I looked at the phone and laughed.

"After all you have done you are asking me not to do anything while you're on the inside? You've got some nerve Jackson. If you're worried about Half Sac, don't worry. I basically had a break down in Teller Morrow's parking lot and he didn't come near me. So you got what you wanted, I lost my best friend and I have to go through all this shit by myself because of your insecurities, so thanks!"

"So are you planning on using it or not?"

"I didn't plan on using it but if I do trust me, you'll be the first person to know asshole," I told him.

"Love you too, Babe," he told me as I hung up the phone.

As soon as I hung up, I grabbed my laptop and checked my email. I got accepted to three different colleges, all on full scholarships, for a bachelor's degree in business management. It was time for me to pick one, I was waiting to try and choose one with Jax but now that he was gone, I had to do this on my own.

NOTE:

Sorry about the hang up between chapters. I'm trying to get everything placed right in the story for future chapters. Shay's dad is going to make an appearance. Not yet but he will be in the story.