Say You Love Me

Chapter 24

It ended up being a few days before I could finally stop and take a deep breath. Thank God I have a lot of money saved because I was able to get the basics plus nice furniture for the kitchen and living room. I liked how my apartment looked. My second bedroom room ended up being turned into my office/study space. It looked and felt like my home. Jackson had tried to call me at least three times a day but I never answered. I didn't feel like speaking to him, hell I didn't even want to see Gemma because she reminded me of him. I was folding clothes in the living room when I heard someone knocking on the door. I whipped open the door and was surprised to see Kip standing there with a pizza and a six pack of beer.

"Hey! I'm sorry I hadn't had a chance to call you, stuff got really crazy," I told him as I let him in my apartment.

"I figured that when Gemma basically cornered me in the garage at the end of my shift and asked me if I had talked to you."

He walked into the living room and set the food on the table while I grabbed plates from the kitchen.

"I figured you'd be hungry and getting stuff situated with the new place to even think about cooking so I figured I'd help."

"Thank you. I appreciate it…what did Gemma say?"

"Basically, told me what was going on with you, Jax, and Tara. She said that even though you aren't with Jax right now you are still like a daughter to her and that I better treat you right or else she'd have my other nut in a jar," he said with a laugh.

"Wow, at least she wasn't upset with you. I never said anything about being with someone else so she must have just figured it out."

"She's not stupid, I'm pretty sure Jax had let her know that you weren't suppose to talk to me. Where does everything leave us?"

I put my plate and my drink down and took a deep breath.

"Kip, I love you and I'm pretty sure you know that but I just got out of my first relationship and I'm not in a big hurry to jump into another one. I want to be with you but I don't want to put a name on us right now. I don't want your position with the club to be put in jeopardy because of me. I already have a plan to graduate early so hopefully I can go into business for myself and I don't have to be at the garage twenty four/seven. I hope you understand where I'm coming from."

"Of course I do, Bear. I always understand you and I won't push you to define whatever this is. Just know that I'm here and I'll always be here as long as you let me."

"Thank you! Did you want to spend the night? I've got to get some homework done but your welcome to stay and hang out."

"Of course I would. I won't bother you, I know college is a big deal to you. Hey you said something about a business you wanted to start. What you thinking?"

I smiled as I remember the file that I had on my laptop under lock and key.

"Chapters. That's what it's going to be called. Basically, it's a bookstore/café type of deal. Somewhere that kids can come to hangout and do their homework. A couple of computer there too just incase they need them. You already know I like to bake; I'm good at it. I figured I could buy one of the open spots in town, and sell the things I bake as well. I know it's a lot of stuff wrapped in one but it's really what I want to do. I just want to have something to call my own."

"Well if you need help painting or repairing anything at all, I'm your guy," he said with a smile.

"Thank you Baby."

I grabbed my homework from my office and brought it out the living room. It was kind of nice hanging out with Kip while I was doing my school stuff. It was around midnight before I had finally finished. I put everything away and noticed that Half Sac was asleep. I grabbed a blanket from the hall closet and dropped it over the both of us and fell asleep.

My alarm went off at nine in the morning. My class wasn't until noon and Kip needed to be at the garage at ten thirty. I got up, brushed my teeth, and started to make breakfast. Scrambled eggs, hash browns, and pancakes ended up being what I made. I was serving our plates when I heard my phone going off.

Jesus Christ, what does he want now?

"Yes, I accept the charges."

"Shay!"

"Why do you keep calling me?"

"Because I want to talk to you and get us straightened out."

"There is no us Jackson. You have made that perfectly clear. I'm going to find someone that unlike you can stay faithful. You are a terrible partner, you would be a terrible husband, and I'm done trying to help you be what I need you to be. You obviously want to do whatever you want. Now you can without having to worry about me."

"Morning Bear," Half Sac said as he walked into the kitchen.

I held my finger up to my mouth to tell him to be quiet and I handed him his plate.

"Look I have to go. I need to get ready for class and I don't have time for this. Please stop calling me," I said as I hung up the phone. I grabbed my plate and headed out to sit down and eat with Kip.

"Jax again?"

"Yes. I only answered to tell him to stop calling me," I said as I started to cry. I whipped my tears from my face and we ate in silence. I only ate half of my food before I was full. Half Sac had cleared his plate.

"Thank you for breakfast Bear."

"Your welcome. I figured I feed you before you went to work."

"Shit! What time is it?"

"Almost ten, I sat a extra tooth brush out on the bathroom counter for you."

"Thank you," he said with a kiss on the forehead as he headed to the bathroom.

I washed up the plates, and headed to the bathroom to take a shower.

"I'll call you later. I love you Shay Bear I really do," he said as he grabbed his cut.

"I know you do. I love you too," I told him with a kiss.

I heard the door close behind him and hurried to take my shower.

This weeks classes passed really quickly and before I knew it was time for me to start my shifts at the garage. I parked and saw Gemma in the doorway of the office, staring at the clubhouse looking worried.

"What's going on Gemma?"

"I'm pretty sure Jax told the club about what was going on with you and Kip. They called chapel about forty-five minutes ago. Probably putting his position in the club to a vote. He's a good kid. Jax is the one who fucked up. I just hope the guys realize that Jax basically drove you into Kip's arms. It's not the other way around. I watched the both of you. I knew you guys were on some strict non communication bullshit. All of that was fine until Jax fucked up yet again and you had no one to turn to but him."

I tried to get the paperwork done, filed and organize to keep my mind off of what was going on in the clubhouse. It was about another half hour before we heard anything. I looked out of the window and a few of the guys were clapping Kip on the back and he had looked like he had been punched in the face a few good times. I got out of my chair and ran into his arms. I grabbed his face to inspect it.

"Jesus Christ, what the hell happened?"

"Jax called chapel, called a vote to have me thrown out of the club, not everyone agreed with his logic so of course the vote to have me thrown out didn't pass. So I got my ass kicked instead. I get to keep my cut and I'm still a SON," he said with a grin.

"Thank god," I yelled with a kiss.

"Okay, okay, get back to work you two!"

You would think that by the grace of god that would be the only thing that happened at work today. Of course not, I'm not that damn lucky. Gemma and I were closing up the office when a black SUV speed into the entrance.

"Honestly?! We don't need this shit right now!"

"What's the matter, Gemma?"

"Darlin, I'm going to have to ask you to remain calm and remember that this bitch is pregnant. So if you lay a hand on her, you will probably be going to jail."

"Wha-?"

I stopped talking as I realized just whom it was that was walking over to the both of us.

"Seriously?" I said dead panned.

"What the hell did you do to Jackson?" she screamed in my face.

"Well isn't it the home wrecking whore! I didn't do anything to Jackson. I broke up with him almost a week ago since he couldn't leave you alone. He wanted you, so I told him he could have you."

"I don't believe that for a second! I went to go visit him two days ago and they wouldn't let me see him! I tried again today to be told the same thing! I ended up having to pay a guard just to be fucking told that Jackson removed me from his visitors list and that he wouldn't be calling me anymore either. I AM PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD AND HE WON'T EVEN SEE ME!" she yelled.

"Oh my god," Gemma said laughing.

"I'll give you pass for being in my face because you are pregnant but you need to back up! I DID NOT DO ANYTHING! I packed my shit and left his place. Don't get pissy with me because your baby daddy can't stand your gash ass. Now, I would say since Jax is the one you have a problem with that you need to talk to him…but you can't really do that now can you?" I said with a wink as I walked away.

"See you later, Gemma."

I grabbed my bag and headed home.

I wasn't surprised to see Kip sitting on my front steps.

"Hey Baby!"

"Hi Gorgeous! How was your day?" he asked as I opened up the door for us. I sat my bag on the couch and went into the kitchen to start on dinner.

"Um, I got to meet Tara today after you had left. She got in my face because Jax isn't talking to her. Don't worry I didn't hit her. I calmly explained that I had not a damn thing to do with her and Jax's business."

"Damn that woman is insane. Kudos to Jax for being able to deal with that one."

"Not my business anymore," I told him as I pulled out the sausage and peppers for dinner. Half Sac asked if I needed any help I sent him to go watch TV instead. I had just gotten everything cooking in a pan when I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket.

"Babe, there's shit going down with the club I have to go," Kip said as he rushed back into the kitchen to kiss me before he left.

"Be safe," I told him as he rushed out of the door.

I felt my phone vibrating again and in a rush I answered it before I checked to see who it was.

"Hello?"

This is a collect call from…

"Yeah, I accept the charges. Jackson what the hell do you want!?"

"For you to stop fucking Half Sac! You're my old lady and you should know better than to try and fuck around with another member of the club! This is bullshit!"

The nerve of this man….

"Look, I asked you to do the EXACT same thing when we were in a relationship. Stay away from Tara. Not only did you fail to do that, you slept with her repeatedly while lying to me about it and got here pregnant. I was serious when I told you that we were done. Your ring is at your house on your dresser. I'm not yours anymore and that means I can do or fuck whomever I want and you cannot do anything about it. Your baby mama came to see me at my job today by the way. You might want to actually talk to her before she gets popped in the mouth for getting in my face again," I told him.

"Tara was at the garage? Fuck, what did she want?"

"To yell at me and say it was my fault that you weren't talking to her."

"It kind of is…you wanted me to stay away from her."

"You are a fucking idiot. I don't care what you and Tara do from now on. We are finished, you can do what you want."

"I want you to be my wife."

"AND I WANT YOU TO NOT BE A GIANT MAN WHORE BUT WE CAN'T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE WANT CAN WE?!"

"As for right now, no. But when I get out of here you're the first person I'm coming to see."

"I wouldn't hold your breath."

"Are you dating Half Sac now?"

"Jesus Jax, NO I AM NOT! I'm not dating anyone. I just got out of my first relationship where I got treated like shit; you honestly think that I would jump into another one this soon? That's insane. I'm focusing on keeping my bills paid, and finishing school."

"Yeah but your still fucking him though aren't you?"

"That's none of your business but yes I am."

"Are you guys using anything?"

"Fuck you Jax! That's none of your business!" I screamed as I hung up the phone.

It's none of his business I don't understand why he cares so much now that I've found someone else. I felt a headache coming on and decided to just take a shower and turn in for the night.

When will I ever be able to live in peace?

NOTE:

Hi guys! Did you miss me? Sorry about the huge delay! I had a lot of relationship drama going on, my ex and I got into a huge fight, ended up breaking up and I was house hunting etc. I'm all settled for now and though I'd give you guys a quick update. The Vampire Diaries story between Bonnie and Tyler is still a go, just some minor tweaks to the first three chapters and then I'll post it. Also, I'm working on a Harry Potter fan fic as well. Seeing as so many people love and want to read more about interracial couples in fan fiction my Harry Potter fan fic will be about DUN DUN DUN…. Draco Malfoy and Blaise Zabini's Cousin (who I totally made up) but anyway I'm super excite to finish up with this story and add two more stories into the mix. By the way, I am in no way finished or almost done with Say You Love Me. This story is my original baby and I promise you guys will love where it's going.

Happy Reading!

Ashley