Say You Love Me
Chapter 25
It had been a year since I had left Jackson and moved into my own place. I had graduated early, as planned, with my business management degree. Chapters was a huge hit in town. People stopped in to pick up my baked goods and coffee before they were off to work. Traffic normally was steady during the day. I loved the fact that I always had ten to twelve kids coming in the shop after four o'clock to check out new books, grab sandwiches, and help each other out with homework. I had two employees, Tyler and Teresa. They were siblings that had graduated high school and needed part time work while they went to college. I didn't mind, I owned the place but besides doing the numbers part of my shop I also loved working in it as well. Business was booming, I had enough money saved up to buy a house but I couldn't imagine leaving my apartment at all for any reason right now, so I used a small chunk of it to buy a new vehicle. An up to date Jeep of course, Kip had helped me pick it out. We were in an awesome place, past the point of saying that we weren't dating. I ended up just asking him to move in with me a few months after I had gotten settled in, it just made the most sense. He was there every single night anyway. Gemma normally stopped in the shop to have coffee with me and catch up. I still loved her, regardless of what had happened with her son and I. As I was putting away the new inventory of books that had been delivered earlier in the day, Gemma walked in. Immediately I knew that she had bad news.
"What's going on now, Gemma? Don't beat around the bush, just tell me," I said as I put the last book away and walked towards the counter to sit with her.
"I just figured I'd come and warn you, Sweetheart. Jackson is home and he probably will be stopping by to see you sometime tonight."
I felt my face fall. It had been a year of peace, not having to worry about seeing him or speaking to him and now he was back in town.
"I don't know why he's coming to see me. He's got a child that he should be home with and I'm not his old lady anymore," I said as I turned around to put some plates away in the cupboard.
Half Sac was on a run with most of the club right now, I don't need this shit right now.
Tara had given birth to a blonde haired baby boy named Thomas, that's all I knew. I tried to avoid Tara at all cost just so I wouldn't have to see him. It wasn't the child's fault that he was born but I just couldn't deal with it.
"Tara is the mother of his child, you are in love Half Sac, you gave Jax his ring back, but from what I can see you still haven't gotten his crow removed from your backside darling. You may hate him for what he did, as you have the right to, but you do still love him," Gemma said.
I gripped the edge of the counter and tried to count to ten before I let another tear fall over Jackson Teller. Of course I still loved him, that didn't mean I wanted to be with him, to be hurt repeatedly again.
"Gemma, the damn thing covers my entire lower back! I've looked into getting it covered up but the only thing every tattoo shop suggests is to just have 'Teller' grayed out at the bottom."
"And the reason you haven't done that yet is what exactly Shay?" She asked with a smirk as she lit a cigarette.
"I'm not worried about getting it fixed right now."
Gemma laughed, grabbed her purse and came around the counter to give me a hug and kiss on the cheek.
"If that's your story Sweetheart, I'll leave you to it but I know better."
God damn it.
Gemma left and I followed her to the door to flip the open/close sign over on the front door and turn the 'open' light off. I flipped all the chairs on top of the table and mopped the floors. I had just emptied the mop bucket before I heard the roar of a bike that I hadn't heard in what seemed like an eternity. I don't know why but I checked my reflection in mirror. I had on jeans, converse, a cream-colored sweater with the sleeves rolled up, and the necklace Kip had given me when I graduated, basic fall outfit for California weather. I walked out from the back, saw Jackson opening the door, and froze.
I forgot to lock the damn door and he looks damn good.
Jail had done him good, way more than good. Jax looked like he had put on about 15 pounds of muscle, his hair was still buzz cut, and he had a really nice tan going on as well. I was in a daze until I heard him clear his throat.
"You done checking me out now, Darlin'? I know you haven't seen me in about two years but I couldn't have changed that much."
"You're still full of shit, that probably will never change," I told him as I found my voice and looked him in the eye. I saw his eyes darken.
"I told you that you'd be one of the first people I'd see when I got out. I wasn't lying."
"You need to be at home with Tara and your son. What do you want, Teller?" I asked as I crossed my arms in front of my chest.
I wasn't calling him by his first name at all; he didn't deserve to have his name on my lips.
I saw him look at me from the top of my head all the down to my converse before he looked like he had made his mind up about something. Jackson started walking towards me and as a reflex I backed away until I felt my back hit the nearest wall. He moved my hair from my face to behind my ear and then wrapped his arms around me.
"Don't touch m-" I tried to say before his lips were on mine. You know how volcanoes bubble with lava for long periods of time before they finally erupt? That's what kissing this man felt like after all this time and I couldn't understand it. I had tried to not care but that was easier to do when I didn't have to see him and could ignore his phone calls. I felt his tongue asking for entrance to my mouth and like an idiot I let him in. He still tasted the same, smelled the same, and could pull the same emotions out of me as he could before. I couldn't hold my hands clenched at my sides any longer. They made their way up his arms and around his neck, playing with his hairline. Jackson moaned and his hands were all over me, grabbing my hips, gripping my ass, squeezing my breasts. His aura was just everywhere. When I pulled away for air his kisses landed down my neck and at the top of the little bit of cleavage that he could get too. I tried holding in my moans but I couldn't help it. Jax pulled back and looked at me. I saw a lot of emotion flash across his face quickly. Anger, lust, sadness. His son probably had his eyes. I took a deep breath and tried to push him off of me.
"Let me go, Teller."
Now it was just lust that was smeared across his face.
"I don't want to Shay. I know you missed me. I know your body missed me."
"I don't give a shit. Let me go!"
Apparently he took that as a challenge.
"Tell you what, if you're not wet, I'll let you go."
Fucking hell.
I pushed my hips forward, that ended up being wrapped around his hips, trying to get him to get away.
"What's the matter, Shay Bear? If that pussy isn't wet for me, we shouldn't have a problem should we?"
"Fuck you Teller!"
Jackson pulled back a little bit to unbutton my jeans and slip his hand in between the heat that was between my legs. I was really wet but I wasn't about to tell him that.
"Shit Shay…" he moan.
"Please just let me go," I moaned as he started stroking me. I couldn't help that my hips started thrusting to meet the motion of his hand.
"I'm going to get this shit figured out Shay. There's no way that I won't have you in my bed again. You're my old lady, I love you, and your still fucking mine."
"I'm not your old lady anymore. I am not yours," I told him as he moved his fingers even faster.
I was almost ready to explode and my head was getting cloudy. Jackson leaned forward and bit the side of my neck, hard. I screamed and wrapped my arms around the top of his shoulders as I felt my toes curl inside of my sneakers and I came all over his fingers. He gave me a minute to catch my breath before he removed his fingers from me, buttoned my jeans and finally put me down. Jax backed away a few steps, looked me dead in the eye, and licked his fingers. I felt a chill go down my spine.
"Whatever you say Shay Bear," he said with a smirk.
I pushed him, adjusting my shirt as I made my way to grab water from behind the counter. He must have seen a flash of his crow while I was fixing my shirt.
"Not my old lady huh? Not mine, my ass. You still have my crow above your ass."
"Get the fuck out Teller! I'm not your Old Lady anymore!"
He laughed as he walked towards the door.
"If that's your story…" he said as he headed out to his bike.
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck!
I hurried up and grabbed by bag from the back office, locked up Chapters and headed home. I needed a shower. I needed to get the smell of him off of me. I couldn't believe that I had let any of that stuff happen. I just couldn't be alone with Jax anymore. I let myself into my apartment, set my stuff down, and grabbed a beer from the fridge before I took a shower. I needed to tell Half Sac what happened. I had no idea if he was suppose to be coming back home tonight or tomorrow morning. All I know is that when I fell asleep my dreams were filled with me hearing the sounds of two different bikes and just standing in the middle not knowing which direction to go.
The morning came faster than I wanted it to. I woke up and felt someone's arms around me. I took a deep breath and turned around in Kip's arms. He was already awake and looked pissed off.
"Morning, the run go okay?" I asked.
"Everyone is whole. There's some shit brewing with the Irish though. Jackson is home."
"I know and we need to talk about that. Something happened Kip. He came to see me as I was closing Chapters last night."
Half Sac had failed to look me in the eye up until then. When he did all I saw was furry. I'd never seen him so mad before.
"Is that why you have a hickey on the side of you neck that wasn't there before I left?" he said with a calm tone.
"Listen Kip, nothing happened okay! I don't even know how any of it went down. I told him to get the fuck out and then the next thing I know is he's kissing me and has his hands all over me. I'm sorry and I promised myself that I would tell you about it when I first saw you face to face."
"Did you fuck him?"
"No I didn't! I swear I didn't!"
"Did he touch you?"
"I …"
"SHAY! Don' t fuck with me right now, did he touch you?"
I went to respond but Kip got out of bed and yanked me by my legs towards the end of the end.
"Where did he touch you? He fucked you with his fingers didn't he?" he yelled.
"KIP I AM SORRY! Yes that's all that happened and then I pushed him off of me. It wont happen again, I'm sorry." I said as I started to let the tears that I had been holding fall.
Kip ripped the shirt that I had worn to bed right over my head and ripped my panties off of my body. He already was shirtless, but he hurried and undid his pants.
"Half Sac, what are you.."
"Shut the fuck up! You make me so angry you know that?" he yelled as he slammed his mouth against mine. I opened my mouth to let him explore. I had no idea what was going on but I just knew I didn't want him to be mad at me.
"You shouldn't have let him touch you," he said as he bit my bottom lip hardly. I hissed.
"You shouldn't have let him mark you." Kip bit, licked, and sucked on my neck where Jackson's mark was along with the other side as well as he slipped his fingers inside of me.
"Ahh, Kip!"
"You let him inside of what's mine Shay. Now I have to remind you who you belong to," he said as he removed his fingers and filled me with his dick.
"Oh my god, Kip please."
"NO! You don't get to cum yet. I'll let you know when you can cum. Did you cum around his fingers when you let him touch you?!"
"Yes, I'm sorry," I whispered.
A switch flipped inside of him because he started pounding into me like a jack rabbit and I couldn't hold any of it back. My hands ended up in his hair and pulling on it.
"Fuck! Kip, please can I cum?! Please?" I asked.
"No!"
He pulled his dick out, sat back and rubbed the tip of in against my clit as his other hand ended up around my neck and squeezing. I felt my eyes roll back into my head.
"KIP! I can't hold it. Stop! Stop! I'm going to cum!" I yelled.
"I told you no!" he yelled as he kept rubbing himself against me. I turned my head into a pillow and screamed as I felt my legs shaking as I squirted all over him.
I let out a muffled 'fuck' into the pillow as I refocused and looked at Half Sac. He had a smile on his face.
"Shay Bear, I told you not to do that! Now turn around and get on all fours."
He'll be able to full on see my crow, this probably wasn't going to end well. I sat up, turned around and got on all fours. Kip grabbed my hair and pulled.
"You going to let him touch you again?" he asked as he slipped himself back inside of me even faster than before.
"Oh my god, no! Kip I didn't mean it."
He leaned back and slapped both of my ass cheeks multiple times until I screamed while he kept fucking me.
"I'M SORRY!"
"You still have his crow but he's not the one filling you up right now is he? He's out playing house with some other bitch and a baby but he's got my girl acting like a bitch in heat. You won't be leaving this house anymore without bouncing on my cock, you hear me? I'm going to fill you up every single day so that all you can think about is how bad you ache from me fucking you. Won't be able to walk without feeling me inside you. You hear me?"
"Yes! Yes! Yes! Don't stop. Don't stop!"
"You close?"
"Yes, yes Kip please let me cum! For the love of God, please!"
"How bad do you want it?"
"Really bad, please!"
"Bad enough to marry me and get that crow above your ass fixed?" he asked as he slapped my ass again.
"Yes Kip! I'll marry you, I'll fix it. I'll fix it I promise!"
"Cum now, Shay."
I had one of the most intense orgasms I had had in a while. As I felt Kip release himself inside of me, I had another one and passed out.
I must have been sleeping for a few hours because when I woke up, I was covered by a blanket and Half Sac was freshly showered and eating leftover roast and potatoes that I had made the day before. There was a box sitting in the middle of the bed in between the two of us.
"Kip?'"
He put his plate down, grabbed the box, came over to my side of the bed and placed my hand in his.
"I was serious earlier when I asked you to be my wife. So, Shay, would you do me the honor of being my wife?"
"Yes I'll marry you!" I kissed him and couldn't believe that he wanted me to be his wife.
NOTE
I'm super sorry that I've been away for so long! So as an apology I'm going to try to post this chapter along with another in the same day. However, it's going to get really sad and depressing in this next one.
You've been warned.
- Ashley