Wow. Chapter 50. I literally just wrote this and posted it, so sorry if there's any spelling/grammar issues. I do look over them before posting!
I'm in a pissy mood the whole way home.
I want to clear my head and calm down, so instead of taking MUNI back, I walk.
And walk.
It takes me an hour to get home, but I relish in the stomping of my feet on the sidewalk then up the steps of my building to my apartment.
I stop dead in my tracks though because...Edward is sitting on the floor in front of my door.
My heart jumps to my throat when he stands up and smiles at me.
"What are you doing here?" I ask. I'm in no mood for more arguments or confusion. I just want to go inside and lay in bed and cry.
His smile falters. "I came back to see you."
I should know better.
I shouldn't let him in.
Into my heart or my home.
But I think it's too late.
The inexplicable things he makes me feel, that I've never felt before surely have the power to break me or build me.
"Okay. Come in."
"I want to apologize," he tells me once he's settled down in a chair. "I keep running hot and cold with you, I know. I'm fucking with your head."
I snort out a laugh. "My heads already fucked up, Edward."
"See? You keep saying that. I'm not good for you. I should leave you alone but I just have this...this pull to you. This draw. I want to pull you closer and push you away. Tell me to stay away from you."
I shake my head. "I can't. No, I won't."
"Tell me what happened to you. Tell me why you are so sad."
"I can't. Not yet. Tell me about Kate," I counter.
"Not now," Edward shakes his head. "I guess we're at an impasse, then."
"I guess so," I rock back and forth on my heels. "So what now?"
"I don't know."
Hi guys! Thanks for all the happy birthday wishes. You guys are awesome. Hopefully I'll be back on a regular, twice a day posting schedule.
Are we glad to see Edward back?