Ok this is not a figment of your imagination this is an actual update. I have no excuse for not updating except for losing the story lol which I now have found. Also I've just not been in the mood to write life took over and put fictional life on hold unfortunately so hope you enjoy this chapter.

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Chapter 36

A while later, Lily was sitting on her bed looking through the Daily Prophet as Claudia brushed her hair and Michelle and Sophie giggled over something. Lily wasn't even paying attention to what she reading because she kept thinking about James. Lily through the prophet aside and started to pace the room.

"Where is he? It doesn't take this long to talk about a Quidditch game." Lily sighed.

"Take a chill pill, Lil. Hey that rhymes. I'm a poet and I didn't even know it." Sophie laughed. Lily rolled her eyes and threw one of Claudia's stuffed animals at her.

"Hey. Don't through Mr Bobbles. He did nothing to you." Claudia said as she retrieved her precious dragon bear. Lily rolled her eyes.

"Lily what is wrong with you? You are going to wear a hole in the carpet the way you are going." Michelle chuckled.

"I just want to see James." Lily said with a sheepish grin.

"WHOO!" The three girls exclaimed.

"Could this be the night, our precious Lily finally gives her flower away?" Sophie joked dramatically.

"Shut up." Lily chuckled as she blushed. The three girls stared at her in shock.

"Lily she was joking. Are you actually thinking about it?" Claudia asked in shock as the three girls sat on Laura's bed, which was beside Lily's. Lily blushed even more and sat on her bed.

"I don't know." Lily laughed nervously as she wringed her hands. "I mean how do you know if you're ready?" Lily asked nervously. "How did you guys know?" Sophie smiled as Claudia and Michelle looked at each other.

"I just knew Lily. I mean Kent and I loved each other and we knew we would be together forever and we will be." Sophie said with a lopsided grin as she played with a ring that was attached to her necklace.

"How did you guys know?" Lily asked Michelle and Claudia.

"Lily, I thought I was in love. Cameron was so sweet and charming. I thought he was going to be my 'Romeo' but he was just your regular Joe who wanted in my pants. I totally regret my first time. Just make sure James deserves to be your first, okay?" Claudia said. Lily nodded. Cameron Winthorpe was a year older than the girls and had previously been in Ravenclaw. He was a rich snob who thought he owned the world. She then looked at Michelle who looked away.

"How did you know, Michelle?" Lily asked. "Do you regret losing it to Adam?" Ahh Adam Springer the cutest Gryffindor keeper there had ever been. Adam had been two years older than the girls.

"Actually Adam wasn't my first." Michelle said quietly. The girls looked at her but before they could say anything, Michelle continued. "I was ashamed to say to you guys at the time that he was my first but it doesn't matter now." Michelle said.

"It wasn't Snape was it?" Sophie asked disgustedly.

"EWW no! Get those thoughts out your head girl!" Michelle exclaimed. She shook herself then continued her story. "It was the summer before fifth year. It was around the time of my sixteenth birthday and I had been really annoyed because my mum had showed up remember?" Michelle said. The three girls and urged her to continue. "Well that night after we had all gone shopping I had been with the Marauders."

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Michelle was sitting beside the lake near her house and James' houses. Remus was currently staying with James for a week during the summer.

"-So anyway the girl took a psycho at us for no particular reason. How were we meant to know that her new luminous yellow hair had just been done that day by some top hairstylist?" James explained. But Michelle and Sirius weren't paying attention to him. James rolled his eyes then his watch beeped twice signalling his curfew time. "Remus we better go before my parents go mad. We'll see you guys tomorrow." James said. Michelle and Sirius only nodded in reply. James and Remus looked at each other then shrugged as they walked back towards James' home. There was silence between Michelle and Sirius as they looked out across the lake. There was a half moon and the stars were shining brightly in the sky. The moon shone down on the lake, which made it glow like a mirror. You could see the houses over at Mandrake Crescent, which was on the other side of the lake. A few houses still had lights on but not many. Sirius looked behind him to make sure Remus and James had gone then looked at Michelle. Michelle looked at him and watched as he pulled a jug of mulled wine out of his jumper, which he had kept very well hidden. He opened the top and offered Michelle the first drink. Michelle looked at him oddly.

"Ladies first." Sirius offered. Michelle looked at the jug then back at him.

"If there is anything in this I'll kill you." Michelle warned as she took a drink from the jug. She handed the jug to Sirius as she shook her head at the raw taste. Sirius gulped some of it down then winced at its taste.

"That stuff is horrible." He said before taking another drink. An hour later both Michelle and Sirius were very much intoxicated. They were lying on the ground, the top of their head touching each others as they stared up at the sky.

"Nah nah. Jamie is no way hotter than moi." Sirius slurred. "I am way better looking." Sirius said.

"I didn't say Jamie was I said Adamy was. He's a cute." Michelle garbled.

"So am I." Sirius said matter-of-factly.

"Okay let's get off this subject. Why do you need to get drunk? And why did you hide it from the rest of the murderers?" Michelle asked as she put her hands in the air and tried to trace O'Ryan's belt.

"We are not the murderers we are the... heck I don't what we are." Sirius paused and thought about what Michelle asked. "I just didn't want to spoil their evening. Remus was all happy about asking Ruth out. I couldn't bring 'em down tonight." Sirius said as he waved his hand about. "What about you oh wavy on?"

"My mum showed up this morning. The bitch wanted to see me claiming that she had to see her 'little Shellykins'." Michelle mocked. Sirius looked at her and laughed.

"Shellykins? That is too funny." Sirius said as he rolled about the ground. Michelle glared at him.

"Piss of you prat." Michelle said as she stood up and was about to walk away. Sirius stopped laughing and followed her.

"Aww Shellykins don't be like that. I'll tell you my problems then." Sirius offered. Michelle folded her arms and shivered.

"It's getting cold." Michelle said.

"Then let's go to my place. My parents are staying in the city tonight, and Regualas is at his mates." Sirius offered. Michelle looked at him apprehensively. "We can get more alcohol?" Sirius said. Michelle perked up.

"Lead the way." Michelle said as she took Sirius' outstretched arm. When they reached Sirius house they sat in his game room with a bottle of whiskey.

"I'm not one of them. I can't be like them. My mother expects me to be this ideal son just like my father. I don't want to be like them, but sometimes I think I am." Sirius said.

"No harm Sirius but your parents are dickheads. If I were you I would just do what I wanted to do, and trust me you're nothing like those cult worshipping idiots." Michelle ranted.

"True." Sirius said as he poured Michelle's glass with whiskey. "Screw the lot of them." Sirius toasted as they clinked their glasses. The pair sat on the couch of the main room.

"Like we need them. Parents don't know what they're talking about. I have my dad and my friends, which is all I need." Michelle said.

"Yeah Michelle. Ya have me too. I'm your friend." Sirius said.

"Thank you Sirius. I always thought you were nice enough. Just don't tell anyone I said that." Michelle said before she downed her glass. Sirius did the same. They set their glasses on the table and sat back.

"No problem Shellykins." Sirius said playfully. Michelle smiled and hit him. Sirius glared mockingly at her.

"Oh you'll pay for that Shellykins." Sirius laughed as he started to tickle her. They fumbled about laughing wildly. Sirius was then on top of Michelle holding her arms. Michelle grinned wickedly up at him.

"Give?" Sirius asked tilting his head.

"Give." Michelle replied after a while. "I bet you like getting girls in this position." Michelle smirked.

"I don't usually." Sirius admitted shrugging.

"So I'm the first, why I'm pleasured." Michelle dramatically mocked.

"You should be." Sirius smirked as he leaned down towards her. He kissed her and Michelle didn't pull away. She slid her hands up Sirius shirt and felt his muscular chest. She then trailed her hands down to his jeans and undid the button. Sirius pulled away from her and looked at her.

"Are you sure about this?" He asked. Michelle nodded. He was very good so far at keeping her mind of her problems a bit more could do wonders. And with that Sirius and Michelle lost their virginity to one another.

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Michelle's friends stared at her.

"Why didn't you tell us? We wouldn't have judged you Michelle." Lily said. Michelle shrugged.

"It wasn't just you guys; I was denying it to myself as well. That night with Sirius was probably the most intimate moment of my life. I've never experienced anything like that; I just kind of got overwhelmed I guess. It doesn't matter anymore because I'm with Sirius now and I am the happiest I have ever been." Michelle said as she smiled in a love struck way.

"Hope that gives you an idea if you're ready Lily." Sophie chuckled. There was a knock at the door and Lily stood up quickly and went to answer it. James was standing there in his Quidditch robes smiling his handsome smile at her. Michelle, Claudia and Sophie rolled their eyes and brushed past the couple who was standing in the doorway gazing at each other.

"We're outey. Don't do anything I would." Claudia chuckled as the girls left the room. James walked into the room and Lily closed the door behind him. She turned to toward him and smiled as he gazed at her.

"Hey." She said before being swept into a passionate kiss with James. James pulled away and smiled down at his girlfriend.

"I'm glad you wore your robes." Lily grinned mischievously.

"Well I had too. Sirius so kindly turned my clothes bright orange claiming it was a present to the captain." James chuckled. Lily moved her hands from James shoulders and moved them down his back only to fell him tense and his face contort with pain.

"James what's wrong?" Lily asked worriedly stepping out of his embrace.

"It's just my back." James said as if it was nothing.

"Is that the result from you jumping of your broom?" Lily asked angrily. James shook his head.

"No!" James said a little bit to fast. "Sirius and I were throwing hexes at each other yesterday. And he just hurt me a bit." James said taking a hold of her hand. But Lily moved her hand out of the way.

"Let me see." Lily demanded.

"Lil it doesn't matter." James said forcing a small laugh. Lily glared at him.

"It matters to me James." Lily said. James sighed. He knew he wasn't going to win so he gave up. He pulled of his robe then took of the red t-shirt he was wearing. Lily gasped when she seen his back. On his muscular back their were three long deep gashes with deep purple bruising around the wounds. Lily threw a hand to her mouth.

"He did this to you?" Lily asked in disbelief. James turned to her and nodded his head. "That's horrible." Lily said moving towards him and putting a hand on his cheek. James tried to look downcast about it all, but he loved all the attention he was getting from Lily. Sirius hadn't actually done this to him; the wounds were a result of a wild night out with Moony. But Moony hadn't done this to him either it was the womping willow, and a result of Moony pushing him towards it when they were in animal form. Not that James was going to complain because he had put a tenderness spell on his back, but it must have been wearing off.

"There's some cream in the bathroom that Sophie has to get rid of deep cuts and bruises. She apparently bruises like a peach." Lily said rolling her eyes. She walked towards the bathroom and a few seconds later she came back with a white tube. "Okay turn around. Now this is going to sting a bit so be warned." Lily said. James rolled his eyes as Lily applied the cream.

"Lily this is noth- AHHHHHHH!" James screamed and moved away from Lily. Lily giggled.

"I told you it hurt." Lily said with a smile on her face.

"Well it bloody well killed." James said. Lily pouted.

"I'm sorry, baby." Lily said in a sweet voice. "But that will teach you to play stupid games with Sirius." Lily said patting his face. The dorm door then dramatically opened. Sirius, Remus, Michelle and Claudia ran in.

"What happened?" Sirius asked as James quickly pulled on his t-shirt so that nobody would see his wounds but he flinched when the cloth touched his healing cuts.

"James you need to let the air get to them cuts. Take that top off." Lily said folding her arms. James grinned.

"Look at her already trying to get my clothes off. She is a wild one." James winked. "Well I think I'll just go get changed out of theses robes." James said motioning towards the door.

"What happened?" Sirius voiced again.

"You and him playing dumb games, that's what happened!" Lily said angrily to Sirius. "I hope he got you a whole lot worse." Lily said shaking her head. Sirius looked at her confused. James stopped and sighed. He knew he had lost this battle.

"What dumb games?" Sirius asked quizzically.

"The one where both of you hexed the ass of each other and also gave him those nasty wounds on his back." Lily said pointing at James. Sirius looked at James.

"What wounds? I didn't hex you." Sirius stated his eyebrows creased. Lily looked at James in shock.

"James is he telling the truth?" Lily asked expectantly. James put a hand through his untidy hair. He looked at the ground then at Remus then at Lily.

"It's nothing Lil, don't worry about it." James said in a monotone. Remus being the smart person he was caught on to how James had gotten the wounds. He knew it had something to do with the wolf.

"What the fk do you mean don't worry? I can't help but be bloody worried about you when you are gallivanting getting yourself nearly killed." Lily screamed. She put a hand to her head and sat down on her bed. James sighed and sat down beside her but Lily pushed him away. She was too angry to have him around her.

"Lil, I'm sorry." James said. I can't tell her what happened. She would freak and so would Remus. I can't tell them! James mentally told himself. Lily's eyes widened and looked at James then at Remus. Remus was running a hand through his hair. Did Remus have something to do with the wounds? Why would Remus freak? It wasn't the wolf, was it? Claudia and Michelle were looking very confused at the scene unfolding around them and Sirius had concern etched all over his face. Sirius, Michelle and Claudia did not have a clue what was going on around them.

"Prongs tell her what happened." Remus said barely above a whisper. James looked at him in shock.

"That's not what happened-" James began.

"Tell her I... I did that to you." Remus said hesitantly. Claudia's eyes went wide and looked at Remus.

"Remus?" Claudia asked. Remus refused to look at her and instead hung his head.

"Remus you didn't do this. It wasn't you." James said determinedly Remus looked at him.

"James the wolf is me." Remus said angrily. Claudia's eyes widened even more.

"No Remus, the willow did this. Your big dumb animal ass pushed me into it. That's what happened." James said angrily.

"Well you guys shouldn't have been there with me. It's too dangerous." Remus said shaking his head.

"Remus bugger off. We're going to be there no matter what!" Sirius said heatedly. Remus was about to argue but James interrupted him.

"Remus you would kill yourself if we weren't there. You'd probably be dead now. We're not losing our best friend because of something as shitty as this." James reprimanded. Remus sighed and turned his back on the group.

"What the fk is going on?" Claudia asked looking at her friends expectantly. Claudia didn't like the thought of her friends knowing something about her boyfriend that she didn't. Everyone looked at her. Remus looked at her and sighed again. He walked towards her and took her hand.

"We need to talk." Remus said. Claudia looked at her friends then nodded. Remus then led her out of the room. There was silence between the remaining four. James looked at Lily.

"You couldn't leave it could you." James said quietly. Lily's eyes widened in fury.

"If you had told me the truth in the first place then perhaps I wouldn't have had to pry." Lily said furiously. She looked at James lividly. "Why is it that you always do that? You always keep things hidden from me." Lily screamed now. "Do you not understand how much that hurts me?" With that there was a bang. All the perfume bottles that were sitting on the vanity and also the glass of water that was sitting by Sophie's bed had exploded. Sirius, Michelle and James all ducked as the shards of glass flew about the room. Lily then stormed out of the room. James looked at Sirius and Michelle in shock. What the hell had just happened?

Lily had stormed out of the common room, everyone had obviously heard them all arguing. She didn't know where she was going; she just knew she wanted to get as far away from James Potter as possible. She didn't realise that she was standing in the Astronomy tower until she was standing at the window looking down at the ground. She gasped as she took a step back. She took rapid heavy breaths as she looked at the enormous drop down. She sat on the ground in the middle of the room. On the ground of the astronomy tower the constellations of the Zodiac were printed out. Lily sat their and thought about one thing: James.

Why was he always hiding things from her? She understood that perhaps he wanted to protect her from the world but he had to let her see it first. She also knew that James was a very private person and wasn't used to having a steady relationship. But if he wanted to keep Lily he had to open up a bit more to her. He couldn't keep things hidden from her. She knew that she had hidden things from him as well especially this whole ESP business. But she was asked to keep this private from James. She really did want to tell James about this, she wanted to share this part of her life with him. She wanted him to be able to give her input about what she could do. She wanted to be able to have him there for her. But she was scared of how he and her friends would act towards her. Would they keep their distance or support her all the way. Lily wasn't even sure if she wanted to keep these powers.

She had been researching all week about them in the Library and she found out that a great deal of the people who has this extra sense had gone through a lot of pain and had excluded themselves from the world. Lily didn't want that to happen to her. She wanted to have a life, she wanted to get married and grow old... with James. She didn't want to be a heroine; she didn't want to have lots of people's lives on her shoulders. But then she was being selfish. She didn't want people to die because she had neglected these great powers. She was privileged to have them but what good were they going to be if she went insane. Lily sighed.

There were so many thoughts going through her mind now. She just wanted to curl up in James' arms and let him make all her worries disappear. But she couldn't, she had to sort things out. She looked at her watch and realised that dinner had started a few minutes a go. She decided that she might as well go talk to James. As she stood up she thought about what happened in her dorm. Then she remembered that she had let her anger control her and broke the perfume bottles in their dorm. Her friends had seen that. She was going to have to make up an excuse.

As she walked down towards the great hall she thought of a plausible explanation. There was a strong wind? No that wouldn't work; none of the windows had been open. Spontaneous combustion? No nothing had gone on fire. Peeves was playing a cruel trick on them? That could work. Yeah she would use that, she just had to tweak some bits of the story. Lily then realised that she was standing in the entrance hall just a few feet away from the great hall. Lily took a deep breath then walked towards the open doors. Once she took a step inside the noise suddenly overwhelmed her. Lily faltered and took another deep breath. A pounding had started in her head but she ignored it. The noise, however, was not something she could ignore. She looked down the Gryffindor table and could see James, Sirius, Michelle and Peter at the other end of the table. James, Michelle and Sirius looked very solemn as Peter chattered on about one thing or another. Lily started to move towards them but the pounding in her head was slowing her down

"Look at her walking around like she is something." Lily looked around for the source of the voice.

"I wish Jenny would just shut up. She is driving me mad."

"I wonder if Darren is thinking about me right now. That kiss was amazing."

"I can't believe we got beat by the Gryffindor team! Ryan is so going to have to step up the trainings. I bet he was staring at her the whole way through that game. He is going to have to stop fantasizing about someone he'll never get. She's Potter's girl now."

"This chicken is nice. Ugh Tom took the last bit. Damn him."

"I wonder if they know? Do they know what's coming? He's coming for them all!" All these voices were bursting in Lily's head. The last voice however caught her attention. She looked towards the Ravenclaw table and seen the girl who had been in the girl's toilets the other day. Lily stopped walking and held her palms to her head to make it stop. By now Sirius and Michelle had seen Lily and Sirius nudged James to look in the direction Lily was. James turned around and concern covered his face at seeing Lily with her hands to her head. He stood up to go to her. Everything went silent around Lily.

"Stupid Mudblood. She thinks she is everything with that twat of a boyfriend of hers. They'll get what they deserve soon enough. The Dark Lord will kill them all." With that, Lily passed out. She fell to the ground with a sickening thud.

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