Yes I said it once & here I go saying it again thanks to antihero32 for reviewing.)
"OK ready to head out?" Randy brought her from her thoughts.
"Yeah lets go I know a place not to far from here."
"Real Japanese food or Americanized food?"
"Real you mind?"
"Nope you know I like sampling local chow when I travel."
"Good." She grabbed her purse flipping it over her shoulder as they headed out of her building & headed down the street. Of course some people recognized Randy & tried to stop him. She didn't mind & just stayed off to the side some. Once reaching the place they headed inside to one of the tables. The Waitresses came over to take their order.
#Yes two hot teas, please bring sugar I am not sure how he takes his.# She nodded walking away.
"Wow Jadie, what did you say?"
"I just ordered us both some hot tea. Hope you don't mind?"
"Not at all order away." He gave her a smile which she returned.
The waitress brought the tea cups over pouring them from a pot setting it down along with a bowl of sugar cubes placing them near Randy's side of the table. He watched Jade as she took the cup in both hands sipping it slowly. She had such a relaxing look as she closed her eyes taking in the flavor. He decided to try the tea without anything first. It may have been a tiny bit bitter for his normal pallet but decided to leave it black for now. The waitress came back & Jade quickly ordered a Chef sampling for them both. When Jade told him what she ordered he asked what exactly that meant.
"It is a…well in this case a soup & then five tasting courses of the chefs choosing. More then likely a noodle dish, some sort of tempura, a few sushi offerings & a desert. It sounds like a lot but the servings are smaller then I am sure you are used to." Randy just nodded sipping more of his tea.
She had to hold back a few giggles watching as Randy was trying to get use to chopsticks. She finally asked the waitress for silver wear. He watched as she used them like a pro. She jumped a little when she didn't notice Randy touching her hand till they were already touching. She blushed slowly pulling it away to grab something so hopefully he didn't think it was him. Finishing up the meal she paid the bill before walking back to her apartment.
Reaching inside she let him come in for a while. She was slipping off her shoes lost in thought a moment till she felt his hands on her shoulders from behind her. She tried not to tense up.
"Jadie." His voice rich in her ear. "I know you think I am just flirting. I am just hoping in time to realize how genuine my intentions are." He lightly rubbed her shoulder with his firm hands. She shivered at his touch.
"I….I'm sorry." She stepped away from his touch moving to a chair in the apartment sitting down. He watched her, his eyes a faint predatory look to them before he moved to sit as well.
"Tell me why. Besides the fact you won't be back in the states for who knows how long."
"That is only one piece."
"What else is there? If the time apart is the only thing I don't care…Jade I have been admiring you up close yet from afar for years. I can wait more if I know there is even a chance."
"I am not what you need." She looked down before standing moving to her kitchen getting a glass of water.
Randy stood up following her as her back was still turned to him downing the glass. "Jadie how you know what I need."
"I don't…I just know it's not me."
"Why not? From everything I seen & know of you why not? Your Smart, sexy, fun when you relax, strong, athletic…did I mention sexy?" The last he tried to say joking, but saw she didn't take the humor in it. "Come on Jadie talk to me."
"I can't." She looked down again leaning on the counter setting her glass in the sink. She was shaking her head. "I'm sorry Randy, just every time I seem to open myself up. I always get hurt. I was with Phil for 2 years…two years & now I am left to guess how much of that time was he honest with me or was he full of lies the whole time? Was he just using me to propel himself? How many lies did he tell to may face when he was offering comfort when I was hurt?" She sniffled trying to wipe some tears away.
Randy walked over to where she was resting a hand on her shoulder causing her to lift her head towards him despite the tears threatening her eyes. "Not to bring a sore topic up…I apologize in advance. Maybe it started after you two lost your baby? Cause you're right Phil was a strait shooter as far as most know." Jade shook a little looking down again. Randy gently pulled her towards him wrapping his arms around her as she cried. "I am sorry Jadie I shouldn't have brought that up." He took one arm from around her lifting her head so he could look into her eyes. Tears fell freely at this point and it pulled deep at his heart knowing that even a fragment of the pain she was feeling he caused. He placed his hand lightly on the back of her head as he leaned down resting his forehead against hers. "I am really sorry…please forgive me?" She closed her eyes a faint nod pulling her head back slightly as he was not holding her that hard.
Before he fully realized what he was doing Randy leaned in kissing her. Jade's heart started to race quickly pulling back her skin flushed the Same time Randy's cheek grew faintly red under his tan complexion. "Jadie…" She had her head turned away her chest heaving.
"Ju…just go…" Randy swallowed deep before hanging his head leaving her apartment. Hearing the door close she just lowered to her knees in the kitchen shaking. She didn't want to admit for maybe a brief moment the kiss felt good, felt needed, but in the end she couldn't allow it…not again & not with one of the few friends she had.
Randy caught a ride back to the hotel in silence. Once inside he headed for the bar needing a beer. Once he was there it didn't take long for Cena to find him grabbing a seat next to him. Randy sometimes joked that John must have had some sort of tracking device on him.
"What's wrong Randy? Some local shoot you down?"
"Yes…and no." He curtly answered taking another swill of his beer.
"Riddles again Randal Riddles."
"OK Fine." He almost snapped but kept the volume down. "Jade has been living in Japan since March. I went to visit her…and I let me words & actions get the better of me." Taking another big gulp from his bottle "I think I just screwed up a good friendship."
"What the hell you do to her man?"
"I kissed her…She was upset & I tried to comfort her & I ended up kissing her." Randy lowered his head shaking it.
"How she react? I know you been looking at her more then friend for years."
"She nearly freaked out. I was worried she was going to hyperventilate, but when I even tried to open my mouth to…well I guess apologize she told me to just leave. So I did. Last thing I wanted was to upset her more."
"Sorry to hear that…you know if she tells Brooks he is gonna be on your ass when we get back stateside."
"She isn't going to tell…they broke up before she came over here."
"Whoa…so what she moved here to get away from him?"
"No clue, she would only tell me she was over here for work. She told me back in February she was coming for a few weeks to do work for her other business. Tonight she said she MAY be back after March." Randy tipped back the rest of his first bottle calling for a second. "She seemed happy & I screwed that up."
"Don't be so hard on yourself. Just give it time." John ordered himself a beer too.
"Hey I want to give her all the time in the world…I just want to know what she is not telling me. She said about Brook offering comfort when she was hurt…I thought I knew what she meant, but now I am second guessing that. I think she opened up to him about something…but he then betrayed her trust, so now she is too scared to open her emotions up again." He grabbed the new beer taking a big gulp of it. "I can't believe I actually finally told her how I feel & got shut out."
"What you really told her you love her?"
"Well I may not of used the L word…but yeah I told her how I feel about her. How smart, sexy & strong she was. How I wished I knew who she was before Brooks swooped in & took her."
"Did you tell her you love her though?"
"Not in those exact words, when ever I tried she would say she wasn't want I needed. Like she thought she was poison to me or something?"
"OK Change of path here. Did she say she didn't like you?"
"Well we friends man…or at least we were before the kiss."
"OK did she say she didn't love you?"
"No."
"Well maybe she is just confused over how she feels. Give her time to sort it out."
"Yeah maybe man...maybe." The guys finished their beers before calling it a night.