Jade tossed & turned in her sleep. She hated being so cold to Randy, she considered it self preservation. She couldn't get over the feel of his lips though against hers. It was so soft, so warm & welcoming. The scent he had to him. She didn't think it was any one kind of soap or cologne it was…just him. His gaze at times tried to look through her to grab deep inside to find out what made her tick, but she kept throwing walls in his path. Other times the icy looks he gave most people melted away to something softer, a look she wondered if he only shared with her. She wanted so much to know if she could trust him. Her problem was she thought she could trust Punk & she had for over two years. Only to find out his betrayal & he had the nerve to try to justify it. Then to find his new conquest was told of her damaged past. Tears fall down her face before drifting to sleep wondering if she could truly trust the viper or would his fangs rip her heart even more beyond repair.
Jade couldn't see anything, but she could faintly hear a voice…it was distant like down a long tunnel. "Jadie what the hell girl. You need to stop scaring all of us big guys. I'll be honest if I was him I don't know if I could of dragged myself to the show tonight." It was Randy's voice, it was hard to pick up his words. "I don't even know what happened but I sure wish I did." Was he that worried…what when was this? " For your sake I hope he is fine & maybe just scared." Was he talking about Phil…wait this is the hospital…the miscarriage. "Of course for my sake I wish he was out of the picture. If only you hadn't kept yourself hidden for so long." Was Randy really burning a flame for me that long? Back of her mind she felt something against her skin. She thought it was her hand but she don't remember. It was silent for a while before she heard his voice again. "Jadie please wake up. You don't get out of this I don't know what any of us will do. Your brother is a wreck, your parents…come on you finally started warming to them. I don't know what I would do without you around. You just have a brightness to you I don't even think you know. People just like to be around you Jadie. I think…know I know a part of me would die if that went away. You need to wake up for us hun." She could hear the sadness & worry in his voice even if her body prevented her from moving at the time.
She was not sure how long she listened to his voice over & over giving her words of encouragement. "Punk almost jumped Paul, well he did hit him saying he was responsible for this…what did he do now? How could he have done anything to you? We were almost always around him…me or Shawn. I don't know Hun I just don't know. When you are better & want to talk…I'll listen." She thought she felt the odd sensation on her hand again but her mind still could not place it at the time. As some point she thought she could almost picture Randy with his head on the bed sleep. It wasn't that he snored, but she could almost make out his breath in his sleep. Plus he was mumbling at times still wishing she would wake up.
At one point it was quite again & she then registered Phil's voice in her head. "I am sorry I am not the prince charming you thought I was." If only she know then how right that statement was.
Randy spend who knows how long pouring his feelings out & then he waltzes in says one thing. She guessed he was leaving cause she then heard Randy's voice. A questioning tone with a hint of disappointment. "And where the hell you think you're going?" She felt Randy reluctantly letting go of her hand allowing him to walk towards Punk. The voice was fainter now barely hearing him "Well?" She couldn't heard what Punk exactly said but she could still faintly hear Randy's reply to him. "That's a load of crap & you know that Brooks." His voice held the anger Randy felt towards Punk. "You honestly feel you don't deserve her. Well guess what boy it don't matter if you think she deserves better. It matters what she thinks. As much as I hate to admit it…she chose you over me. One clear way I know this. I spent over an hour holding her hand, talking to her, trying to encourage her. Without the slightest inclination anything was getting through. I know Shane did the same thing for who knows how long before that. Then you come along say one simple thing & she moved her hand." She couldn't believe she didn't remember any of this till now. Why couldn't I have heard Randy then? He has always been by my side…but would he or could he still if I told him what happened? If I told him why I ended up in the hospital. Only time would tell.
The voices at the point faded away for the rest of the night till she awoke the next morning. Jade got up moving to her kitchen making a small breakfast her mind still trying to process the dream. Unlike most dreams that fade with the morning light this one stayed with her. Randy's voices playing over & over in her head. She always thought Randy's flirtations were just him playing around. She couldn't believe it was his true feelings trying to break past the facade of friendship. He read her body response as her choosing & she guessed at the time it was. She did love Punk at the time, but he ended up changing from her prince into an ugly toad. Finishing eating she was going for her phone when it rang. She looked at the caller ID before answering with deep breath. #Good Day Master Mutoh…Yes how early do you need me there?…yes of course sir….the Tokyo Arena of course sir…until then Master Mutoh.# She hung up the phone looking at it debating again. She already decided it was time to lay her cards down for her friend, but exactly how many & which ones was the question.
Before she could decide that answered her phone rang again. Picking it up she gave a sigh answering it. "Hello Dad…I'm doing ok…things are ok, I am not on the winning side much but at least I am performing again…Yes I know about the show…well since you will see him I guess I can tell you that yes like in the Past Master Mutoh will be in attendance…that I do not know Dad even if I did I don't know if I would be able to tell you that…I know you are family, but I must be also loyal to All-Japan at the moment…he said it depends on how your guys react to his attendants…I am not at liberty to tell you who…I am really sorry if you called me on a fishing expo you will come back with an empty line…why would you care when my contract is up?…yeah for how long this time?…well the moment I got injured of course I was removed from the road. But I felt the company doctors were stalling on purpose as to when I would be able to get back in the ring…by that point my contract was up & you then refused to offer me a new one. So I ask again. If I agree NOT to resign with All-Japan how do I know you won't keep me in ring just long enough to get me back home to only have you convince creative to write me out so I am stuck at home waiting out a useless contract."
She tried not to laugh. "You honestly ask if I think you would do that?…in a heartbeat…I know you worry about my safety dad, but look at me I went off & did it anyways…remember dad WWE is not the only show in town…even on our own soil…you really don't think I would?…Put it this way dad, I know quite some talents between the two have traded at times or made visits…so who knows I just might be there at some point even if I am still under contract to Mutoh & if Dixie & Jeff like Shadow, well who knows." She heard her father almost stammering speechless at her knowledge on the matter. "Now if you really want to know because you want to offer a, reasonable offer & not screw me over in the end then fine. My contract is up in March…I'll talk to you later dad…bye." She hung up moving to a chair sitting down shaking her head. No matter what he said she would always worry he would find some excuse to pull Shadow off screen & out of matches under the excuse of protecting her. She didn't want Vince to protect her that is why she traveled half way around the world to get away from his 'protection'. She would also need to deal with Phil again. The thought made her stomach turn.
For the third time that day she went for her phone & actually able to place the call she wanted.
"Randy?..Yeah it's me…no I actually called to apologize for last night…do you have any plans today?…no no I understand….um I would, but I really want to talk to you…well Private…well yeah I guess I can. I can be there in about." She then paused cursing herself. "Randy I am really sorry I can't come to the hotel…I just can't…go take in the sights…that is really sweet…yeah you & John can get me I guess…ok by." She hung up & quickly checked her outfit & how her hair was done. The boys met up with her & they spend a few hours sightseeing dealing with fans & all before John returned to the hotel while Randy took her back to her apartment.
She had him stop at one of the small grocers so she could run in to grab a few things. Reaching home she started to unpack a few things she could tell Randy was nervous. She was thinking if only he knew how many butterflies were in her body. "Rand grab a seat please." He looked over at her before moving taking a seat. She walked over with a glass of soda & a bottle for him placing it on the table in front of him.
"It's not that late Jadie."
"Trust me Randy with what I am going to tell you, you may want that sooner or later."