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He sat back in the chair more his shoulder squaring some his eyes a mix of questioning & his predatory look. "What is it you want to tell me Jadie?"
"Quite a bit, but I am scared how you will react."
"How you think I will take it?"
"I don't know…if I knew I wouldn't be scared. The last I told…or they found out…well…"
"Was Phil right?"
"Right." She took a sip of her soda setting it aside.
"I understand, I am not him though."
"Yes but he also assured me time & time again he would never hurt me. So you can understand why even if unfounded deep inside I worry in time you may betray me too. I am sorry Randy."
"Don't be sorry I understand. Hey I have had a few cynic moments when it comes to women."

Jade looked down shaking her head. "Jadie not about you though…"
"Thanks Randy…it's just…I really doubt you ever been hurt as bad as I had been." Her voice low as she was almost pulled into her own thoughts. She then looked up towards him trying to offer a faint smile. "Randy what if I tell you that I think…I can't be sure…but I think I remember you talking to me when I was unconscious at the hospital the night I…well you know?" She wasn't sure how to read Randy's face at that moment.
"Do you now? What do you think I told you?"
Jade blushed a little "You talked about the light I bring to a room. How people like to be around me because of it. That I better pull out of it because…well…" She moved her eyes looking into his across from her. "You said you knew a small piece of you would die if that was taken away from you." Randy's face stayed calm as he closed his eyes. "Randy did I just dream it…was it in my head?"
"No." His voice calm. "No Jadie it wasn't your imagination. I did say it & meant it." He opened his eyes looking back at her. "Anything else."
"You told me Punk tried to jump Paul blaming him for me being there. You wanted to know why." She was looking a little green taking a few more sips of her soda.

She whispered to her self more then out loud. "God where do I even begin…" Randy could see her almost shaking as she had a hard time meeting his eyes.
"Jadie just take your time."
"Remember when you separated me & Paul the night he won the title back?"
"Yeah? Backlash."
"Well…the situation was not defused when he got back to the hotel."
"Jade…I ha…I had no clue. I admit he was a bit drunk, but I thought cooled down about the whole thing with you. That was almost a month between they two though. You seemed fine…well except what about a week before that they said you suffered an allergic reaction to something."
Jade slowly sat back in her chair closing her eyes as she sighed. "Randy…he didn't just beat me up…" Her tone almost dead sounding. "Please you can't repeat a word…say what ever you want to me, but you can't speak a word or seek restitution on my behalf. It was over two years ago at this point & for the most part I have come to terms with what happened between me & Paul."

"You have my word Jade. I know with what Phil did it may be hard for you to believe me. I promise though." Randy stood up walking over to her he lowered to one knee touching her shoulder. She jumped her heart leaping to her throat her eye shooting open in a panic. "Jadie…relax it's me." He could read the fear in her eyes. "I know you said you came to terms with it..I don't fully believe that."
"I.." she gulped "I just don't want you thinking any different of me…or him. I know you two are not as close as you once were, but I know you still consider him a friend."
"That I can't promise, but I will keep in mind that was two years ago & with Paul he was sadly a very mentally unstable person." He lightly rubbed her shoulder before sliding his hand down her arm to her hand taking it in his. "Now Jadie...what happened?" She closed her eyes trying to fight the tears that wanted to fill her eyes as she slowly told Randy about the night Hunter raped her. Randy had to fight the rage slowly building in him. He gave he word not to go after Hunter & now he knows why she made him promise before she spoke. He was glad her eyes were closed so she would not see the rage in his.

Tears fell from her cheeks as she finished he leaned forward lightly kissing her cheek. "It's ok Jade."
"No…It's not ok Randy.." She opened her eyes looking at him. "I know partly why Punk cheated on me...I just wish he was honest about it."
"Nothing can justify a guy cheating."
"Even if he couldn't have sex with his girl?"
"What?"
She closed her eyes again. "Don't get me wrong…we did…sexual things…but sex itself…" She blushed looking down "I..I couldn't without almost breaking down or making myself numb…" She shook her head standing taking a hand from Randy's grip. "My body would be there with Punk...but my mind…I don't know where my mind would be…somewhere else to block the pain."
"How long that go on for?"
"Still does…well last I tried anyways." She walked to the window looking out. "I don't know if the pain is in my head or not…I can still be turned on…just not by that. I am a damaged woman Randy…pure & simple. I know Punk would try to tell me otherwise…but then Serena one day made a comment that told me he told her what Paul did to me & that I was indeed damaged goods."

"Jade that still didn't give him the right to cheat on you. If he couldn't handle the baggage caused by you being assaulted then he should of just left. You said yourself you still could do other intimate things…did you enjoy those?" She blushed a bit scuffing her foot.
"Well…yeah…when…when I was….well before we knew…"
"I get the point."
"Sorry, but yeah…seemed I had a very high…um…drive."
Randy's eyes grew big a moment pieces fitting together to a puzzle he didn't like the picture to. He walked to the bottle Jade gave him picking it up taking a big sip before he spoke. "Jade…sorry to ask & feel free to tell me it is none of my business."
"Go ahead."
"The baby…it wasn't Phil's was it?"
"No…" Randy took another big sip of the beer before setting the bottle down walking over to her.
"Jade, come on look at me." She slowly turned her eyes moving to look at him. He took his hand lightly brushing her cheek. "I am so sorry you went through that. I wish I could somehow take it away, but I know I can't. I'll stay by you though."
"As a friend."
"No…more…"
"No offense but if Punk with his discipline couldn't deal with my limitations…"
"Yeah I know my reputation…and at one time it was earned. I will work with you through this." He moved both hands to gently cup her face looking in her pain filled eyes. "If the pain is in your head then we will work together to erase it. If the pain is real, then we will find you a doctor that can maybe help heal the cause."

He knew he risked having her chase him away again, but he couldn't help his desire to kiss her lips. He kept it soft & held her face with no pressure so she could easily slip away. She oddly didn't pull away her arms lightly going around his neck holding him there till she had to pull away beginning to cry again. Randy gently pulled her close to him rubbing her back as she just sobbed. "Shh it's ok Jade I got you, I am not gonna have you alone in this." She sobbing almost stopped but she kept her head buried between his shoulder & chest. "You believe me hun?"

"Yes…" Her voice a little muffled till she lifted her head slowly looking in his face even though her eyes now swollen red from the tears. "Yes I believe you…how though if I am here & your back stateside." She could see the gears turning in his head.
"You sure you can't get out of work before next March?"
"Positive."
"Well then, we keep things as they have except we know we have each other. When one of us can get an extended vacation we can come see the other. As for any Doctors I guess that will depend on if you want to find one here or back stateside."

Jade looked down a moment then back up at him. "Well I already gone two years not knowing…I should be able to handle another eight months?"
"If you're sure hun. If you find someone here then I will try to get back to be by your side if that is what you want. Or if you want look for a Doctor stateside & fly back there for the visit." He smiled down at her brushing her face which she lightly leaned into his touch.
"Thank you Randy." her voice soft with a sigh. "I…I don't know why I never even thought…may…maybe I was just scared of…of sadly really being damaged goods."

"Stop using that term…please" She moved her head looking back into his eyes seeing the hurt in them. The hurt he was feeling for her. "You're not just some item. You are a human being, a human being I care about very deeply. You may be injured….ok I'll give you that much. The thing is most injuries can be healed or adapted to. This will be like any other & I will be with you through as much of your recovery that I can." She closed her eyes as tears ran her cheeks but she had a soft smile.
"Thank you….thank you Randy." She opened her eyes & the smile ran to them as well even with the tears as she reached up to pulling him into a kiss. He broke the kiss slowly whispering in her ear.
"Anything for you Jadie girl." She turned taking his hand leading him to the sofa where they just sat & talked with her cuddled against his side. She was planning on telling him about Shadow, but the subject just never came up.

They were not sure how much time passed before he let her up from his grasp to freshen herself up so they could get something to eat. When he asked about the show she just politely said she already had plans for the nights of the shows. She saw how hurt he was, she tried to assure him she would call him after them if that was ok with him. He nodded & walked her back after dinner. He then headed back to the hotel the viper had a smile that for now no one could wipe off.