I say nothing.
I don't know what to say.
It's all so much to take in.
He wants to possibly...be with me?
Nothing makes sense.
"Bella? You're killing me, here. Say something," Edward pleads.
"I don't know what to say. I just..I'm sorry you had to go through that."
I take a deep breath for what I'm about to say next. I don't think Edward will like it.
"I need time, Edward. What you told me is a lot to think about."
Edward looks sadly down at me. "You're kicking me out."
"No," I shake my head. "I'm asking you to respect my wishes and give me time. I'm not running away."
"Okay," Edward nods his head.
"Up until today, I never had any idea that you would ever want me that way. I've spent months reminding myself of that fact."
I drop my head in my hands and rub my face. "I don't know if I can do more, Edward. Yes, I like you but my head is so fucked up. It wouldn't be fair to you to make any sort of decision before you know my history. Who knows? You'll probably end up running screaming."
"I doubt that, but if you need time, I can give you time." Edward sighs and walks over to the door, opening it. "You'll call me when you're ready, right?"
He looks so unsure, I have to stop from telling him that I don't need time after all.
"Yeah. I'll call."
I usually don't update weekends, but I'm posting this now cause I don't think I'll be able to post tomorrow. I'm also going back and making notes/outlining the first 73 chapters. I don't feel like I can write more until I sort out all the bits and pieces that have happened up to this point.
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