"I couldn't sleep. All I wanted to do was sleep. I had alcohol and and a bottle of pills left over from an injury I had. I just wanted to sleep. I took too many. Then...it's so stupid. But I had a razor and I just wanted to feel a different type of pain. I couldn't handle the emotional pain any longer."
The memory is hazy in my mind. Most of what I know only comes from what I was told when I woke up in the hospital.
"I guess...I'm not sure what happened, but I called 911. I woke up the next evening in the hospital. The doctors said that they had to pump my stomach. My dad and my step-dad both flew out to see me. They put me in a treatment place, Bridges. I stayed there for a month and now...here I am."
"Bella...you tried to..to kill yourself?" Edwards voice is hoarse.
I whip my head around to glare at him. "I didn't try to kill myself. Don't, just don't even go there. It's bad enough that my dad and Phil and all the doctors I've seen don't believe me. Not you too."
"Okay, Okay," he holds his hands up in the air in surrender. "I believe you. I just hate to know that you went through that. I don't like thinking of you like that."
I guess this is last night/this mornings update. FFn wasn't working and I couldn't log in.
Do you think Bella is in denial about a suicide attempt?