I want more.
I need more.
In a flash I've pushed him backward against the couch and I'm on top of him, straddling him, kissing him hard.
Edwards hands go to my waist and his fingers grip me tightly. I groan into his mouth.
Then he pushes me away from him then over so I'm beside him.
"Bella," Edwards voice is strained.
Embarrassment sets in.
He kissed me and I threw myself at him.
"God, I'm sorry," I groan, throwing my hands over my face.
"Don't be," he chuckles. "I want you too. I just..I don't want to fuck this up. I don't want it to be just about sex."
He's right. I know he is. But I hate it.
I have no clue what I'm doing. I know sex, but I've never had a real boyfriend before.
When I lost my virginity it was to a guy I knew from school. He had been nice enough, but my first time wasn't memorable. We had both been virgins and only had sex that one time.
There had been no one I was even interested in since my moms death.
Not even really Paul.
Until Edward.
"So...we're taking this slow?" I ask.
Edward nods. "Slow. Do you want to do something...safer? We could go out? Maybe a movie. Or we could just stay here. But I could understand if you're too emotionally drained or whatever."
I think about it. "I am hungry, maybe we could go out and get something to eat?"
"Yeah, that sounds good."
Twenty minutes later we're at Mel's Drive-In. We're both pretty hungry and order burgers and fries.
After we eat, we're stuffed and decide to go on a short walk.
Edwards pinky brushes against mine a few times as we walk. It surprises me when his hand grabs mine. I look up at him to see that he's still staring straight ahead, acting like nothing happened.
But then he squeezes my hand ever so slightly, reassuringly.
I look down and smile.
Edward wants to be seen in public with me and hold my hand.
It's a little thing, but to me it's big.
Sorry for posting late. I got distracted first by new pics of Kristen and then Transcendence.
Seems like maybe Paul messed with Bella's head a little more than she thinks?