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Chapter nineteen
Eric's POV
I can't believe I have ruined everything; I have pushed away everyone in my family. My Lover will not talk to me, and if she does it is very formal and her tone is usually rather harsh. Ammy has not contacted me, and she will not answer any of my calls; as for the twins. Well, they are currently not even living with us; Sookie has sent them to go live with someone else while we try to sort this out. She will not tell me where they are, and that kills me. They are my children too! But after everything I have done I do wonder if I even deserve the title of being a father. I sigh as I flick through the website I am looking through, I know that I cannot buy back Sookie's love and trust, but I will try to regain it. I have already bought her a dress, some heels and a necklace to wear tonight for our date. She agreed on it, but you could tell that she was very hesitant.
I have 5 days left to try and gain her love again; so far I haven't really done anything. I have tried to communicate with her; so far we have managed to get to five minutes before she has to walk out of the room. I am hoping that will change tonight, I have spent the last 2 days searching through the internet on how to create romantic gestures and how to show someone you love them. It has been very helpful. I can only hope that it works. After peering over at the clock, I get up and head down into my room where I get changed into the suit I have chosen for tonight. The suit consists of black trousers, a dark blue shirt that I will leave un-tucked and I will also leave the first two buttons undone, and to finish it off I have put on a black blazer and some smart black shoes. I have braided my hair back so that it is out of the way; I want to look my best for my Lover, especially if I wish to woo her. But not into bed, but back into our relationship.
I realise now that I have neglected Sookie, I have not shown her how much I love her, nor have I told her. And then I almost cheated on her; that must have completely broken her heart. Not only did I neglect her, but I almost cheated on her. I am despicable. I am surprised she is even giving me a chance to reconcile with her. After getting changed I stand at the bottom of the stairs, waiting for my dear Sookie to walk down the stairs, the dress I have bought her is a princess dress. The reason I bought her that dress is because the place I am taking her is very special. She has told me about her dreams when she was younger, back when we were first together, she told me that she had always dreamed of being a princess. Even if it was just or a day. So tonight I am going to make her dream come true.
The second I see her walking down the stairs, I could have sworn to God that my jaw hit the floor; I knew that she would look beautiful in the dress, but actually seeing her in it…wow. Just wow. She us breath taking. The dress is a pale pink colour and it fits her upper body like a skin, but the skirt part of the dress is puffed out and hits the floor. She has allowed her hair fall over her shoulders in soft waves, a headband that matches her dress in her hair. She is also wearing the heels I bought for her, and right there around her neck isn't the necklace I bought her. No, it's the white gold heart locket I got her for that very first Christmas we were together. The engraving on the locket says, To my Lover, I love you and on the inside of the heart locket is a picture of me and Sookie together. Happy. Unlike how we are today.
She truly does look like a princess. I didn't even realise I had bloody tears streaming down my face until I felt the soft skin of her finger touching my cheek. Wiping away my tears.
"Please don't cry. I know we've gone through a rough patch, and you're trying to make it better. That's all that matters. That you care enough to actually try and fix this" she smiles at me, her beautiful smile just making me want to pull her into my arms so that I can hug her. Hold her. I miss being able to hold her. I look at her belly, almost as if I expect to see a baby bump there, but there is still nothing yet. The clear blue test she took said she was 6 weeks, of course we both forgot about the fact that this pregnancy will most likely be shorter than a normal pregnancy. But after factoring that in, we found out that she was roughly around about 3 and half weeks pregnant. Ludwig did confirm that this is going to be a shorter pregnancy as well and that she was indeed about 3 and half weeks pregnant back then. But now she is about six weeks.
"Eric, I'm only six weeks pregnant. There isn't a hugely visible baby bump yet. It's there, but this dress covers it up quite nicely actually" Sookie giggles, the light positive sound soothing my soul. It's amazing to hear her be happy.
"Can I fe- No, sorry. Stupid question" I shake my head, scolding myself mentally for even thinking that she would allow me to feel her belly. It has been around about 9 years since she was last pregnant, I cannot help but feel excited regarding our baby. I can only hope that she will allow me access to our children, but I am hoping it won't come to that. I am hoping that we can make-up and get through this. That way we can be a proper family.
She has already called off the wedding for now, so even that won't be taking place for a long time. If not at all. I really screwed up big time.
"Shall we go?" I smile as I offer her my arm, hoping that she will at least accept this small gesture. To my relief she does, her smile never faltering as I lead her outside towards the horse and carriage I have hired for the night.
"Eric…what…what is all of this?" Sookie probes as her eyes sparkle as she takes in the beautiful white horses and the sturdy and well-designed black carriage.
"I thought it was appropriate for what I had planned. Tonight is all about you being a princess, and what princess doesn't have a horse and carriage?" I point out as I open the door to it, offering Sookie my hand so I can help her inside.
Once again she accepts the gesture, giving me some hope that I can fix this, as she gets inside. Once she is safely inside I climb in after her, sitting across from her; already figuring that she won't want me next to her.
"Eric, where are we going?" Sookie queries, her bright blue gorgeous orbs meeting mine.
"I'm taking Cinderella to the ball" which is the absolute truth. I am taking her to the grand ball that Pam is holding, there will be plenty of people there, and I thought Sookie would enjoy it greatly. It is her time to shine; even Pam said that this was a great idea for me to do. Sookie wanted to be a princess when she was younger, now I am going to make it come true. Even if it is only for this one night, but if I can fix this; I vow to forever treat her like a princess. She is a princess in my eyes. Annika looks like Sookie, so she, too, is a princess in my eyes. But Sookie is the bright shining star that holds everyone's hopes and dreams. Specifically, my hopes and dreams.
"A ball? As in dancing under spotlights, waltzing and just being close to each other?" her voice sounded cautious, which worried me, but her expression is soft and positive and her eyes hold so much excitement.
"Yes, that is, as long as you wish to be close to me" I assure her, not wanting to push her into this.
"Eric, I want to be close to you. I want us to be closer in general, since we've had children and since you moved to Arkansas, we have sort of just…drifted apart. It's time we pulled us all back together again, especially now that you are back from Arkansas permanently" she smiles at me, although every smile I have seen from her lately are not real ones; I can still see the hurt in her eyes from everything I have put her through, but her eyes still hold hope for us. And that hope I am going to hold onto. I will fix this. I will pull my family back together again.
"I love you, Sookie. And I promise to fix this. This is only the beginning" I assure her with a small grin of my own.
"I'm sure it is" she agrees, and for the first time in a long time. I saw her give me a genuine smile.
AN: I hope this chapter was okay for you all. Here is the link to Sookie's dress:
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