"You didn't really have to give your number tho.. it was still in my phone" as I say this I immediately regret it. It sounded more like 'I haven't forgot about you at all' then I wanted it to sound. I'm on the phone with Alex.
"It's okay, but your napkin faded so I was kind of happy I gave it, you know I don't give my number to just anyone" Alex joked. "But I didn't have to put a name to your number since it's still the same as three years ago" I could hear by her tone she was smiling, letting me know it was no big deal.
'So she wasn't that mad she deleted everything' I think to myself.
"So are you going to tell me why you called or do you always leave a girl guessing"
That hit a nerve and she knew it. It kind of goes back to when we were a little younger. I never let her know what I really thought, time for a change. "Yes! You and me, drinks this evening, send me your address and I'll pick you up at 8"
"How about I pick you up. And I pick the place we go to, I've lived here way longer then you do so I think I'll be better at deciding where to go"
"Bossy, but your right.. pick me up at 8. Take me somewhere nice Al"
"You bet I will"
"See you later Al"
"Bye pipes"
I hung up the phone and realized I was nervous. Why though? It's not like I'm going on a date, yet it feels like it. I better start making dinner and get myself ready before she has to wait two hours for me to come outside.
[Alex.] I'm here.
Piper sent her address to me after our call and I immediately thought 'why there'. It is a shitty building in a shittier street. Probably cheap tho.
[Piper.] Coming! Two minutes and I'll be there.
As I was watching my surroundings I suddenly couldn't take my eyes of off one point. It's piper, dressed in the tightest pencil skirt, and a loose top which is tuck into it. I start laughing and as she catches my gaze she starts laughing too.
"Well I guess I should have told you to wear jeans. Not that I'm complaining tho" I smirk and wink.
"Yeah.. guess you should have. Okay I have to get changed, want to come in?"
I hesitated for a second, she looks smoking in that skirt and the only thing I can think about is ripping it off. "yes" I say just a little too eager. "I mean, only if you hurry. Just put on some jeans, you look good in anything. No half hour deciding which jeans it will be"
As I see Piper throwing a smile my way which tells me that is exactly what she did for the current outfit she is wearing I put my motor on the chain lock and follow her into the apartment building. Not even hiding my staring at her perfect ass in that damned skirt.
"Like what you see?"
"You know I do" I answer her as we walk up the stairs. "So how long have you lived here?" I ask while taking in my surroundings. "I know we have lived in a shitty dormitory but this.. I'm guessing it's cheap or the only thing available when you were searching?" we arrive at her door.
"Two months now, it's not that bad though and both, I had to get something fast and this happened to be available" she looks into my eyes "But you of all know that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover" referring to my reading habits at university while opening up the door.
I walk in and I realize she really made an effort to create something beautiful out of a bad situation. There is art everywhere and the furniture is of good quality. The walls are repainted in pastel colors which give the rooms a lightness to it. There are plants, some hanging by the ceiling and some in pots on the ground or on a wooden shelf. There are a couple empty wine bottles standing on the floor, with long candles in them, which I bet make an incredible ambiance when it's dark.
"Wow, Piper. This actually looks really great" I say astonished "very feminine as well, is your boyfriend okay with all of this?" I say laughing a little.
"Well we are not living together for the next two months, so this is totally mine. You want a glass of wine? We could also just stay here for a bit, I'm not really in the mood for people to be honest. Are you okay with staying here?"
"Yeah, that's cool. Do you have red?"
"I do"
Piper never changed into something more comfortable and after talking for what felt like hours she started lighting the candles. It looks amazing and it warms the room up immediately. It had gotten really dark outside so I quickly check my phone and see it's already half past twelve. She got back onto the couch but this time she sat closer to me, not at the other end like before she lit the candles.
"It's weird how normal this feels" she interrupts me while staring into my eyes "I'm sorry was that weird?" she says almost as a whisper with a light blush on her cheeks.
"I think when you have a connection with someone, it never really goes away you know" I look into her eyes and try to understand where she is going with this. But I'll be damned because I see her take a glance at my lips and I can't restrain my actions any longer. I kiss her. And she kisses me back. It's a slow kiss at first, gentle. Then I take it further grab her waist and push her on her back so I'm on top of her, she moans softly against my lips and it makes me realize what I'm doing so I pull back and sit down again.
"I want to say I'm sorry, but I guess I'm sorry I'm not.."
"You have to go" she says while staring at her carpet.
"What? Pipes let's talk about this first"
"No, no you have to go Al. You have to go because I can't sit here any longer without touching you, so you have to go before I cross a line"
"I think you already did.." I got frustrated, same girl same bullshit. Should have known better this time. Not that I was planning this, it happened. Am I guilty, yes. Do I feel guilty about it, absolutely not.
"We can go for those drinks another time but for now you really should go"
It's the first time Piper admits the effect I apparently have on her. And something in me wants to see just how much of an effect I really have. So I get closer, I don't have to move much because we're still pretty close. And as I lean forward I whisper in her ear "What if I don't want to go" I start looking into her eyes but she won't meet mine. "look at me Pipes"
"No"
"Look. At. Me." I say calm as I gently take her chin in my hand and make her face me.
"What" she tries to sound confident while staring into my eyes, but I know I have her where I want her.
"Kiss me" I say knowing she won't but at least it will get her talking.
"I can't Al. I'm in a relationship.."
"I know, just like you were a minute ago" I interrupt her "why did you not push me away?"
"I don't know"
"I think you do"
"Alex stop" she tries to sound convincing but it got out defeated, I know if I push one more time she will give in.
"Tell me" I command her
"Goddamned Al! because I still love you! Are you satisfied now?!" Piper began yelling while she stood up from the couch trying to make a point.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I stand up as well "off course I'm not satisfied now! You think it's okay to pretend like nothing happened just yet? You really have some fucked up morals you know. It's called cheating"
"Don't you think that if you don't want me to cross a line you shouldn't start kissing me" she sounded more calm but was still frustrated.
"Well I think we both know I want you to cross it, but I should know better because you will never.. You know what, it doesn't even matter. I'll go. See you Piper" I start walking towards the door, as I'm putting my jacket on I see her walking towards me.
"I'm sorry Alex" I can hear by her tone that she really is sorry. "I didn't mean to lead you on, it's just.. Why do you always feel so inevitable to me?" she says as she cups my face into her left hand. I give in to her touch, look down for a second and then into her eyes again.
"I'm sorry too, I thought I was over you but I can't be platonic with you. Look I don't want drama, just pretend like we didn't see each other the other day and go on with your happily ever after with Larry" I say his name in a slightly mocking tone, because for god's sake the name. This time Piper was the one to get closer and when her lips almost touched my ear she whispered.
"What if I don't want to"
I could feel her warm breath on my skin and it was hard not to give in to my body's urges. "Then sort your shit out before placing it in my lap again, because I still love you to and I deserve more than being your binky to suck on when you feel lonely". It's hard to walk away from her, but I know that if I don't do it now I will be playing in another episode of a shit show that is currently called my life. And I have no interest in that.