Fade Away
Ichimaru Karyushima/Kurosaki
I'm cold and broken
Cold everything's so cold. Her voice sounds distant and distorted. Broken. Am I dying, slipping away, never to hear her wonderful voice again? Suddenly I realize I don't care.
"Goodbye, Keta."
It's over
I didn't want to see
It come to this
I wonder if I will ever see
Your face again
God my head hurts. A lucid nightmare echoes in my head. "Good you're up, Ichimaru."
"Zangetsu?" I open my eyes slowly. My black cloaked zanpactou holds me tightly in his arms worry imminent on his face. "What's going on?" I ask.
His face grows sad. "You died Ichimaru. Your brother and you were reincarnated. Only this time you live inside Ichigo." My eyes widen. If I'm dead. If I died, then will I ever see her or hear her again.
And by now
I will find a way to shed the skin
It's simple
I know that I will suffer in the end
That night I curled up to Zangetsu's side and cried. Mere months later my idiot of a brother lost his soul reaper powers. And I saw a chance to escape and shed the skin of my brothers body. It didn't work though. He smashed my mask with Zangetsu's hilt. Of
course, Zangetsu firmly reprimanded me with a whack on the head. It hurt.
Then Zangetsu left me to reprimand my twin. Poor Ichigo.
I watched my brother from our inner world and somehow I knew somehow I
was going to suffer.
Fast I Fade Away
It's almost over
Hold on
I scream at the top of my lungs. As my control fades to nothing and I have to leave my brother to his fate. I don't want to. He's my only hope to find her. I collapse with Zangetsu's hand on my shoulder. "Hold on. It will get better. I swear," he says.
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone
'Ichigo your so stupid. Let me protect you. We have to find her. Please moron.' I hiss in a breath as the visords' spiritual pressure reins down on us. It's suffocating but I can withstand it even if I was alone. Cold seeps in to my body and on instinct I think of my death and of her.
It's hopeless the end will come
and wash it all away
Forsaken I live for those I lost along the way
'Stupid shinigami girl' I growl to myself. Ichigo's friend Rukia is on my last nerve. My brother has been having dreams of the girl we lost. And he's been drawing her, at school. His teacher found them and showed them to the entire class. And now the shinigami are pestering him with everything they have.
I watch as my brother growls at them. He storms upstairs, locking the door behind him. He materializes in our inner world, his tea brown eyes flashing a venomous gold.
And I can't remember
How it all began to break
We'll suffer
I live to fight
And die another day
"Hollow! Who is she?" he screams. His tone frightens me.
"Ichigo?" I mewl softly, stepping from my hiding spot. He bears his teeth at me and a shiver crawls up my spine. He races towards me, grasping my throat in his hand. He slams me up against the wall.
"Answer my question hollow. Who is the girl?"
"How can you not remember her Ichigo? She loved us and we loved her. How can you not? Why can't you remember Keta?" I screech.
At the sound of her name he recoils as if it feels like acid.
Fast I fade away
It's almost over
Hold on
I screech at him, my stupid brother. Why doesn't he trust me? I don't want to take over his body or his soul. I just want to protect him. I close my eyes screaming louder. "Why don't you let me protect you? I just want to make sure you're safe! Listen to me!"
But he doesn't. He's not really there. And then he fades away.
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone
Zangetsu rests his hand on my shoulder. "Ichimaru," he says, "Why do you beat yourself up like this? You can't control your brothers actions. You'll suffocate yourself."
"I know Zan-Zan. I know."
Fast I fade away
It's almost over
Hold on
"Ichigo!" I cry out. The stupid bat hollow hurt him. My power seeps into him and his mask laces his face. "Oh, Ichigo." He roars, a cero forming between his horns. I close my eyes, growling at him. If he doesn't get some sort of help his hollow powers could kill his friends.
And then she shows up.
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone
Keta...my pressious Keta has come back for us. "Getsuga Tensho!" she cries.
"Keta!" I attempt to call out to her beyond the shroud of my world. Her eyes latch onto mine and I think she knows; she knows I'm here. And I won't be alone again.
I'm cold and broken
"Maru," she clutches my hand as blood pours from a wound across my chest; a wound so much like the one that took my life in the past. It's cold now. But I won't leave not like I once did.
I won't Fade Away.