Disclaimer: Mead and The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus own everything. Plot's mine but that's besides the point.

Song: Angels Cry By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

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We didn't take long at Tashas' office. She already had the documents out and ready to sign, and we finished quickly before heading the pharamacy to file my prescriptions. It only took about 5 minutes and we were on our way to Lissas' house. Tanner and Eddie had meet up with us there, arriving shortly after we had. Since I was stuck inside the hospital room for the past few days we went out on to the back porch. Lounging in the chairs, drinking some iced tea and chatting. Mostly, I was catching up with Tanner. He wasn't able to come by the hospital because damage control on the concert subject because Lissa was at the hospital almost the whole time with me.

"I actually tried my hand at writing something while you were in the hospital." Tanner said shyly, rubbing a hand on the back of his head. Mia and I were usually the ones to wrote the songs, once and awhile Christian came up with a good one. But Tanner had never written anything before, always saying that he'd just stick to playing the drums, guitar or singing. We all played each instrument and had our share of singing lessons, wanting to see what our best areas were. Turned out really well in the end.

"Seriously? That's awesome, do we get to see it?" I asked excitedly, hoping he had it on him.

He laughed nervously, "Um...Well-"

"Lissa, Tanner wrote a song. He said he'd play it for us!" I laughed at his face as I completely twisted his nonexistant words and put him on the spot. Yeah I knew he probably didn't want to play it for us but he'd have to eventually.

Lissa looked at Tanner, smiling brightly, "What do you need? Guitar? The drums are in desperate need of use in the studio." She pointed a thumb to the house.

"Uh..."

"Oh come on Tanner, it can't be that bad." Mia said encouragingly from her spot on Eddies' lap.

"Don't be such a pussy, get your ass up and grab your tool of choice." Chris said laughing at Tanners' face.

He huffed, standing up and disappearing into the house quickly. The group and I smiled triumphantly as he reemgered with an electric guitar. Once he sat down and played with the strings to tune it he started playing.

A rock tune floated from the instrument, Tanner lost his nervous attitude as the beat coursed through him.

"Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me." His voice was soft as he looked at me.
"Well it's hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me
This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life
Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear."

He looked down as he continued.

"Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Intentions that were pure have turned obscure
Seconds into hours
Minutes into years
Don't ask me why
I cant tell you lies

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breath
I wouldn't want it any other way

My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
Words can't hide as I'm taking you home
And I tried to see
Tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breath
I wouldn't want it any other way."

He let the beat continue for a moment longer before it quietly drifted off into the air into nothing. Tanner looked up at us, giving a half smile. I continued to stare at him, my mouth half open, as it really hit home. Loud clapping, hooting and cheering filled the air.

"That was awesome Tanner!" Mia said.

"And why the hell haven't you written anything before is because...?" Christian asked in astonishment.

Eddie laughed, "Good shit man!"

Tanner had a shit eatting smile on his face, "Thanks guys." He looked at me, letting me know the song was for me.

"Into the studio!" Lissa ordered. She usually got like this when she heard something she really liked and couldn't wait to get it recorded.

Tanner laughed, "Come on Liss. Can't we just relax?"

"Nope." I said, jumping up from my seat, a pain shooting up my legs, I bent at the stomach. Squeezing me eyes shut as I continued to speak through it, "Let's go. That things-" I squeezed my eyes harder. Note to self, do not jump. Ever again. "Gotta be played out now."

Lissa came over to me, a hand on my back, "Sit back down Rose." She ordered softly.

I straightened myself out, "Nope. Let's go." I gimped to the sliding doors, the pain only getting worse as I walked. Never jump again. Ever. By the time I got to the doors I had to have Christian help me the rest of the way, holding most of my weight. Everyone followed behind.

Since we were at Lissas' house Dimitri and Mason weren't walking in back and in front of us, like in the hospital. But they did seem to be keeping an eye out for anything unusual. They followed behind everyone else as we made our way to the studio at the bottom of the hallway.

I sighed happily as Chris set me down on a soft chair in the room. God that had really hurt my legs. I lifted them up a bit and held them out for a few seconds before brining them back to the floor, trying to lessen the pain by working the muscles. It helped a little but not much.

Lissa went to the mix board in front of the sound proof box and sat down. Tanner, Christian, Mia, and Eddie filed into the smaller room. Dimitri and Mason stood by the doors.

"Sit down guys, it'll be awhile." I smiled to them, "Trust me."

Mason looked to Dimitri, shrugged and sat next to me. Dimitri stayed in his spot, saying a quick, "It's fine." Before Lissa spoke into the mic, "Alright Tanner, this one's up to you. Figure out what you want to do. I was thinking though, maybe some drums?"

Tanner nodded, turning to talk to the rest. They spoke about who would play what, what sounds should be in the song, and who would be playing what. Five minutes later Christian was on back up vocals, Mia on her guitar and Eddie on drums.

Tanner and Mia started up their instruments, Lissa hit the record button.

"Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me" Tanner started singing, Eddie started playing.
"Well it's hard to sustain"
"I'll cry if you let me" Christian started singing along with him, everyone on the outside sat and listened to exactly what it all sounded like.
"This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear..."

They finished the song and after a few moments the music stopped. I was stuck in thought, trying to point out what exactly the song should have and what needed to be taken out. Something needed to get out...Something needed to be added...Not much but something. The song was great how it was; just some minor tweaking is all it needs.

I looked up suddenly, Lissa was saying something to them but I cut her off, "Chris, get out." I looked to Dimitri, lifting my hand a bit, "Could you?" He came over and helped me up. I smiled to him, "Thanks." He nodded, keeping ahold of me as I walked over to the booth. Christian hadn't moved, "Out." Dimitri opened the door and we walked in. He looked at me funny, "Yeah yeah, I know. Just get out." He did, walking over to Lissas' side, leaning over her chair.

I went to where he had just been, "Ok, you out." I ordered Dimitri.

"Are you sure?" He asked, "Your legs may not be in the best shape to stand alone for such a period of time."

"It's only three minutes. Now out." I lifted a hand to the door. He slowly let go, dropping his hand from the small of my back and my elbow then walking out. I noticed he didn't go back to his spot from before but stayed closer to the door.

I thought for a second longer, "Liss, you got that last one recorded?"

She nodded, "Got it."

"Ok." I turned to Mia, "Sorry." I gave her an apologetic smile and pointed a shakey hand to the door, "The song is simple and sweet," I glanced to Tanner and he nodded for me to continue, "So let's try not to put too much instrumental into it."

Mia put her guitar back, "Alright, just let me know if you want me back in then."

I blew out a gust of air, damn. The cowboy may have been right, my legs were already getting tired. I wanted to lay down and take a nap; and to think it's been less then a minute without his help. Ignoring that thought I turned to Tanner, nodding. He started his guitar, I looked to Lissa for a thumps up, she was recording. Soon as Tanner started singing I nodded to Eddie to start.

"Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me
Well it's hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me"
This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life"

I kept myself quiet until here where I sang, "Please Don't cry." Looking over to Tanner he smiled to me as he continued.

"Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Intentions that were pure have turned obscure
Seconds into hours
Minutes into years
Don't ask me why"

"Please don't cry." I begged into the mic, winking at Tanner. He nodded his head to me in a "That what's up" manor.

"I can't tell you lies
Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way."

My legs started to shake. Maybe it wasn't such a great idea to kick Dimitri out. I looked around, there was nothing to keep me up.

"Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way."

I continued to make low noises into the mic. When I wasn't doing that I was breathing deeply, trying to keep myself upright. Trying not to black out from the pain that steadily was creeping up my legs.

"My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
Words can't hide as I'm taking you home
And I tried to see
Tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home"

I shot a worried glance to Tanner, he wasn't looking at me. I looked to Eddie, he was concentrating on the drums. Crap.

"Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way."

The pain started shooting up my spine, telling me I needed to take a rest. Now. I tried to push it off til the last verse.

It's almost over. It's almost over. Don't ruin the song, it's perfect. Black dots danced across my vision and my head felt dizzy.

"Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way."

I shot a glance to Dimitri, he was moving toward the door the instant our eyes connected. Tanner seen him come through the door and looked over to me. I let out a low whimper as I felt my knees gave out and I fell; I closed my eyes as I went. I heard a faint 'Rose!' as I fell but didn't know who it was from. As the ground finally stopped rushing under me I felt the most intenst pain over come my whole body, my head cracked against the hard wood floor and I blacked out for a second time this week.

xXx

I recongized the complete black from before, everything silent and peaceful. And as I felt myself slowly waking up from my black bliss I encouraged myself not to cry out in pain. No need to worry others more then I probably have. I bite my lip as the feeling on a thousand knives enters my body. A soft, plush bed, a million pillows in which my head felt lost in, and no drip sounds or beeping of monitors. I was still in Lissas' house. I silently thanked them for not taking me back to the hospital, though I'm positive Lissa had thrown a tantrum about it.

As I opened my eyes a faint light covered the room, it was night. Shadows covered the walls and you could barely make out the outline of the bedpost at my feet, the bedside table to my left, the tall dresser aside of the long floor to ceiling window. A darker rectangular spot showed the bathroom adjoined to the room, and aside of that another dark door showing a walk in closet. I knew this room instantly, it was my room away from home. This room had a few pairs of my close, some lyric sheets used and unused, shoes, and toiletries I'd need when I stayed at Lissas' home.

I continued scanning the room, there was nothing in here that was new or moved. A large mirror sat across from the window, reflecting the moons' light. A large chair next to it-

With a silouette in it.

I froze.

Oh god. Oh god. Oh god.

I took a deep breath. Calm down, don't freak out. You can't freak out right now. I turned my head to look more directly to the figured that sat in the chair, it wasn't moving. I couldn't tell if the figure was looking at me or not, the body was facing me, sprawled out in the chair looking pretty damn comfortable. I narrowed my eyes to the figure, trying to see who it was. Could it be my killer? How did he get into Lissas' house? How had he got in with her secruity alarm? Had she forgotten to set it? No. There's no way she could've, there's no way she'd forget something like that.

As my eyes adjusted to the light, which wasn't much, I seen a long body. An arm up on the chair, propping his head up. Some hair spilling between the triangle his head and arm made. A darker veil at the bottom of the chair.

Ignoring the pain that shot through my arm I picked up a pillow and threw it at the figure. It made a direct hit for his head and he jumped up immediately, I huffed. He looked around for a second, alarmed. Then looked down the blobby figure of the pillow before looking over at me.

"Sorry, arm spazz." I said in a bitchy tone. Turning the best I could to my side facing away from him.

"What was that for?" Dimitris' Russian accent filled the room, the chair sqeeking quietly as he sat back down.

"Giving me a damn heart attack. What else?" I replied, "Why are you in my room and not at your own house?"

"I'm doing my job." Was his only answer.

"Give me my pillow back." I complained, as though I didn't already have enough. He had seriously scared the shit out of me.

I heard him sigh, I turned to look at him. I seen the blobby outline of my pillow under his head. "I'm actually quiet comfortable now, so no I'm good."

I threw another pillow at him, seeing it was worth the pain as it knocked his head back and made him drop the pillow he was holding. "Now your not, give it back."

He sighed, picking up both pillows and placing them under his head. I glared at him though he couldn't see it. He didn't say a word, probably already asleep.

I grabbed another, aimed it at the two pillows hoping to knock the over, making his head hit the arm of the chair. I threw it, smiling at myself as I realized I was working through the pain. He grabbed the damn pillow. Like, caught it mid-air only moving his arm, without moving his head to look. I gaped, then threw another saying a quiet, "What the hell."

He caught it, again. "Seriously?" I asked outraged. It was unreasonable, my anger, but I was angry at more then just him. It was just his bad luck that he was here and the anger was being taken out on him. Even if it was just by me throwing all my pillows at him.

He chuckled, clutching it to his chest, he had the other one at his side. "Maybe you should quit while your ahead?"

"Like hell!" I said as I threw two more. They didn't even get near him this time.

He laughed, "How many more do you have left?"

"Alot!" I said as I threw one after the other until my bed was empty of pillows. Some had missed him but most had hit the target. He used his pillows as his only defence, putting them up to block one pillow after the other. My breathing was heavy, it was more of a workout than I thought after what happened. My hands stung like hell on Earth. And to top it off? He laughed me the whole time I was throwing the pillows at him! He was still laughing! His laughing was outright, loud and honest and I found myself laughing along with him after a few moments. The whole situation was just so hilarious, I wake up in the middle of the night and throw about thirty pillows at him for no real reason other then I was pissed.

After our laughter had finally died down I asked in a much better mood, "Can I have one of those?"

He chuckled again, "Your not gonna throw them at me?"He questioned.

I smiled, "I won't if you hand it over right now." I was getting uncomfortable laying on my back, nothing to prop my head up since I wasn't sure how well my arms and hands would take it if I used my hand. A soft pillow? Painful but bearable. My hand? I shuddered at the thought.

He picked up an arm full of pillows, walked them the few feet to me, and dropped them on top of me. "Hey!" I laughed as he dropped another load on me. "Are you trying to suffocate me or something?" I asked jokingly as I swatted them away and put some under my head.

"I would never." His voice was serious, back to the old Dimitri.

I sighed as he sat back down on the chair with a pillow. "Come lay on the bed, your gonna hurt your neck." He didn't move, "It's a king size bed, seriously, I don't think you'll squish me or something."

Slowly, he got up and walked to the other side of the bed, leaving the pillow there. As he layed down I moved back to give him a bit more room, I tossed a pillow at his face. "Pillow?" I asked with a smile.

A ghost of a smile danced across his lips, "Thanks."

"Anytime Comrade."

A comfortable silence surrounded us, I feel asleep dreamlessly.

xXx

So I hope I did well. Understand Tanners' song is meant as a protective song, not some type of 'I Love You'...maybe. Hehe. I always did love Tanner. xD

But so, I hope ya'll liked it. 3,300 words before the added Ans. The chapters are getting longer! Maybe I'll be able to keep them up like this? Who knows.

Tif

xo