Chapter 10

Kagome's Scar

It was called off. Sesshoumaru had actually called off the strike on the southern capital that night. It did surprise Kagome, but she couldn't blame her mate. The castle had been in a gloomy state and no one seemed ready for a major battle. She hadn't left Tsuin's room on account that his fever had not gone down at all. Koinu apparently was scared stiff of Sesshoumaru's training and hiding out in the castle somewhere. Kouga was mad because he couldn't leave yet on the account that Koinu and Corlee were hiding together. And Miyori hadn't appeared since she left.

"Tsuin maybe you should do what your father wants," Kagome told her son as she put a wet towel on his forehead, "he probably knows what's best for you."

"No he doesn't," Tsuin growled through his pain, "if he did it would have worked along time ago."

Kagome unfolded the note that was from Sesshoumaru to Tsuin and read it one more time.

To whom this may concern-

My Tsuin comes to you from the castle of the Western Lands where I try the best I can to protect you, my fellow youkai who are citizens of this region. My son is a huge part of our someday victory against the south; because of this I will need your cooperation. I want my son to be the best he can be, and to achieve this he is visiting your village in hopes that you may do what you can to force unwanted energy out of him. I have talked to your leaders about this arrangement three years ago so hopefully you all won't disappoint me.

-Lord Sesshoumaru of the Western Lands

"How many times has he made you go to this village?" Kagome asked, "and what is all this talk about evil spirits?"

"He has sent me there about five times now and every time he ask why he just ignores me," answered Tsuin, "whatever it is I am pretty sure it has nothing to do with my sickness."

"So what do you need my help for? You mentioned something like that last night."

"All you need to do is ask father why…find out these answers for me."

"Tsuin…I know I should quit bugging you because you need to get some rest, but is that the only reason why you haven't treated me coldly such as Miyori has been doing?"

Tsuin sat there in awkward silence for a few minutes, "yes. I am sorry, unlike Miyori I do believe that you are our mother, but you left us here for so long…"

"It wasn't my fault," Kagome said as she kneeled on the ground close to Tsuin, "I cared about all three of you deeply and when Koinu got sick I had to take him to my world to help him out. There was no other choice I couldn't let your brother die."

"That's not what Miyori told me."

"What did Miyori tell you?"

"That during the battle that was held three years ago said that you ran off with another youkai while my father was distracted and you only took Koinu so incase your new relationship failed dad would take you back."

"I thought Miyori didn't believe I ever had any relationship with Sesshoumaru and that I wasn't her mother."

"Like I said Miyori has no sense of smell but I also believed you were a youkai for the longest time because of what she always told me. She told me that she remembered looking out the bars of her crib that day and she could out the window. She said that she saw our mother shooting powerful pink beams towards the enemy spider youkai."

"She was right that was me, but I am not a youkai I am a miko."

"Whatever you are doesn't matter. You still left us."

"Like I said to save your brother; I would have done the same if it was you. And I didn't run off with anyone. There wasn't even any other youkai there."

"I'm sorry," Tsuin said again in his most Sesshoumaru like voice ever, "but I will believe my sister over a youkai anyway. You are my mother I can smell it, but I don't want to be that close. You shouldn't have left."

Everything was crashing down on Kagome. She would not cry though. Not in front of him. Here she was caring for him while he was sick and all he could tell her was that he had been lying to her face the whole time.

"I think you will be okay on your own for awhile," Kagome whispered to her son as she backed away out of the room before stopping at the door way and looking back, "I don't know what I can do to prove to you and Miyori how much I love you both, but even if it doesn't work I will fulfill the task you originally wanted me to do."

Kagome then left the room and headed back to her own. There Aoi was putting a few things away. Kagome quickly commanded the servant to go check up on Tsuin before Kagome landed in her bed and started crying. Her worst fears had come true…she wasn't wanted here. Not even Sesshoumaru wanted her; that was why he was out to change her. Koinu was too busy with his new life for her and Miyori had never liked it. Miyori must have hated her with a passion to tell Tsuin all of this stuff about her.

Kagome sat up and tried her best to wipe her tears. She needed to prove to Tsuin that she loved him. She had to go to Sesshoumaru's office and tell him to stop sending Tsuin to the cleansing place. She also had a few words she would like to say to her mate.

Kagome stomped angrily through the hallways with only one thing on her mind. Seek and snap. She would find that damn dog youkai and tell him what she thought about everything. Kagome then stopped when she heard something. She was standing in the middle of the hallway where there were really only a few closet doors.

Someone was crying. Crying just as she had been doing a few minutes ago. Kagome looked around for she thought she was alone and it still appeared that she had. She still tried to follow the sound though and she soon found herself facing a closet.

"Hello?" Kagome asked looking as though she was talking to the air, "whose there?"

"Lady Kagome?" a female voice then said shocked as the closet's occupant opened the door and removed herself.

It was Katsu and she looked horrible. Her hair was messy and her eyes were red and puffy as though she had been crying for a long time. Despite her sight Katsu got on her knees and bowed in front of Kagome.

"Lady Kagome I humbly apologize for my appearance," responded Katsu, "I haven't gotten time to prepare myself yet."

"Get off your knees I hate that," Kagome said right away, "and no need to apologize. Everyone needs to cry once in awhile. I should know."

"Your eyes are red too," Katsu stated looking at Kagome's eyes that were the exact same color as Katsu's, "is something wrong my lady?"

"Tsuin is sick," she answered quietly not totally lying about the real reason she was crying, "but what were you crying about?"

"My brother," responded Katsu, "I was home for such a long time because he was sick. I am so worried about him."

It was a horrible thing to think but Kagome was glad she was not the only one going through a period of sadness. Well not many were too happy for the war that was going on, but they had enough to be satisfied with.

"Katsu would you like join me in having some tea?" Kagome asked.

-

"I show deep symphonies towards your brother," Corlee said as she followed Koinu, "he receives my tribe's deepest condolences."

Koinu then turned around and faced the blue wolf youkai, "why do you always talk like that? We have been hanging around each for like three days now and you talk like some kind of fancy person or something like that."

"I was taught the best in manors and edict by my torture so I can succeed in this business world," stated Corlee, "which reminds me I must send give you something in exchange for what you have done to my outfit."

Koinu looked at Corlee and was quite proud of himself. He was glad that he was prince of this castle that way he was able to do what he wanted when he wanted. Before Tsuin's ordeal Koinu had snuck down to the wardrobe room and cut up and sewed about everything in sighed that was black.

Corlee's blue fur skirt had been replaced with a black cloth short that was slightly shorter. Luckily he didn't completely abolish her love of blue for he had cut stripes off of some of the wonderfulest blue kimonos and pasted it on the skirt. So now the skirt was black with looked like a line of blue that started from the waistline and swirled all the way around to the bottom. Her black tank top was made out of the same material as the skirt cept the only place it contained blue was the spaghetti straps made out of silk and the anarchy sign that he made on the back. Last but not least was the thing he was most proud of. After searching and searching through his father's huge castle he had finally found the right material. Black leather. Quickly he had called upon all of his skills and made a pair of boots. They weren't that professional looking since they were very make shift, but the blue shoe laces that he removed from his old dark blue Converse high tops was a great touch.

"No need to thank me," noted Koinu as he walked through the hallways trimuphly, "I just saw a problem and I fixed it. Now if only I could work on your grammar."

"Have you ever thought that its you who has the wrong methods of speaking?" Corlee then lashed out at him before realizing what she had done, "I mean I don't see anything wrong with the way I talk."

"You were about to go off on me," stated Koinu stopping again and looking at her.

"I am sorry Prince Koinu I will not offend you again," Corlee declared.

"See even you say something wrong with the way you talk and your trying to fix it."

"Even if you say it is right it is not the proper language for a young wolf princess such as myself."

"I have been watching that Uindo guy and he doesn't act like you at all."

"He needs to impress people by fighting such as he is trying to impress Miyori. Things are a little different for me."

"What do you mean?"

"Corlee!" a voice then echoed through the hallway.

The two looked ahead and Koinu say the wolf demon that he recognized as Corlee's father Kouga. All he really knew about him was that he was the king of his clan that had grown large in numbers during the last three years and that Kouga had once had a crush on his mother. Koinu also learned that Inuyasha who had been reduced into a smaller form also had a crush on his mom. He often wondered if the curse that caused the birth of him and his siblings were the only thing that brought his mom and father together.

"Yes father?" Corlee asked in a formal way.

"Just to tell you we are heading back home tomorrow and…" he then stopped, "what are you wearing?"

"An outfit that Prince Koinu put together," answered Corlee, "I like it."

"It's a little bit too different for me," responded Kouga, "speaking of clothes make sure you pick yourself up something nice to wear for tomorrow night."

"Father since Koinu is a prince and a son of your friend's do you think he can join us for dinner tomorrow," pleaded Corlee.

"As much as I would like to say yes you know he can't," Kouga answered, "your fiancée wouldn't like that much now would he?"

"No he wouldn't father," replied Corlee in an almost sad tone of voice.

(Jeez Corlee aren't you the damn heart breaker?)

"Glad we see eye to eye now I need to go find that damn brother of yours before Sesshoumaru or Miyori kills him," her father told her disappearing into the hallways.

-

"Lady Kagome I should not be in here," Katsu informed Kagome for about the fifth time since they had entered the sacred tearoom that Kagome discovered in the castle about three years ago.

"Your point?" Kagome asked as she sat at the table.

"My point is other servants who were not of the royal western family have been sent to death for even daring to enter this room," continued Katsu, "this is a sacred room."

"The only thing sacred to Sesshoumaru is reputation which doesn't revolve around his tearoom so you will be just fine," she reassured her, "so sit down and talk with me."

"Okay Kagome," replied Katsu finally sitting down.

"So Katsu," started Kagome, "Aoi has been complaining a lot about you. About how you want to be Miyori's servant so bad, but yet you are never here at the exact time as her and you have only appeared once a month."

"None of that is my fault. I don't come on my own accord it is Miyori who tells me when to work."

"Miyori is the one who tells you when your going to work and when your not?"

"Exactly. She has told me that she thinks I should spend more time with my sick brother instead of here working on meaningless things that she could take care of herself. Well that's what her notes have said, I have still never seen Miyori."

Now Kagome thought this was weird. Ever since she met Miyori she had struck her as a female version of Sesshoumaru claiming to hate humans and be very strict and uptight, but yet Miyori seemed to show kindness towards a human servant. Someone who was way lower then her. Katsu had mentioned it was because Miyori didn't see the point in her working on meaningless things and when she could be home with her sick brother. The human and youkai wannabe hanyou actually had something in common. They both had a brother suffering an illness. Maybe Miyori saw Katsu's situation similar to her own so she believes her servants needs to be with her brother.

"That actually sounds nice of her," Kagome told Katsu, "but yet you said some negative things about her when I first met you."

"Well I was just passing on things other servants say. Imagine how I would look if I was the only servant she treated good but yet I hardly worked."

"I still don't see why Miyori has you working at all for you are hardy ever here."

"I don't understand her reasoning either. And they're at the weirdest times. Like once a month she summons me and just has me do a night time shift and she wants all of those nights to take place during a crescent moon."

"That is pretty strange," Kagome noted, "and what about the times that you are working during the day time?"

"I don't know they are usually times before Miyori disappears for a long period of time…just like she has now."

"That is very odd and yet when you are here you hardly do anything for her and you end up assisting Aoi."

"I don't see why Aoi complains its not as though she is a hard working servant. Remember the first day I met you? It took her about an hour to arrive with a glass of water."

"Yeah and she isn't that great at cleaning up either; for that very same glass of water is still sitting there full on my table."

"Would you like me to put it away for you?"

"No I can take care of that myself, but now what do you think about my situation?"

"Just confront the Lord and tell him that if he really has feelings for you he would accept you as you are and maybe help his children think the same way."

"The day Sesshoumaru would listen to that plea is the day Miyori believes I am her mother."

"Why are you here Kagome? Clearly your mate's feelings for you have disappeared over the last three years and your children will never accept you."

"Do you believe his feelings have really disappeared?"

"I don't know the situation that well," stated Katsu, "but if he loves you why would he want to change you. Maybe he just wants someone to act his youkai urges out on."

"I believe your saying exactly what I knew all along. Its just that it is hard not to have feelings for someone when the last thing you remember about them is the feel if their lips upon yours."

"I guess it would be. It's getting late though."

"You just showed up here and you want to leave already? Miyori might actually be coming back soon it would be a great opportunity for you to meet her."

"You can help me with that once you settle your own problems. Anyways you can also tell Aoi to shut it for I do more work in the few days that I am here then she could ever do in a month."

"I will tell you if I have too Katsu," Kagome declared as she stood up, "well now if you really want this time off I guess I will be on my way and settle things with a certain jerk."

"You go girl," responded Katsu as Kagome left the room in search of her mate.

-

"What now Kagome?" Sesshoumaru asked when she came into his office.

"You know what it is," Kagome pretty much screamed when she walked up to his desk and slammed her hands on the wooden surface.

"Don't raise your voice at me," the taiyoukai growled, "now I guess you want to continue our earlier discussion."

"No!" she cried again, "I am sick of discussing. I am not taking classes! I am not going to be a castle mate! And I am not going to allow my children to treat me like this any longer!"

She had finally done it. She took all of her feelings and let it out in one explosion. She had snapped and hopefully Sesshoumaru would now think twice before being an ass to her ever again.

(She had a BF! BFBitch fit for those who haven't seen white chicks)

Sesshoumaru had then done the opposite of what she was expecting. He just looked at her with a smirk. She wanted him to just nod his head and say she was right. Or maybe at least frown at her revelation a little bit.

"You're actually telling me how you should be treated?" he asked as he stood up.

"Yes I am," Kagome replied trying to not look phased as he stalked closer to her with a menacing look in his eyes.

"This is my fault I should have taught you more about youkai culture," he told her as he grabbed her wrist, "I guess there is no better time then the present."

"Let me go!" she screamed in his ears.

Her eyes then widened with terror as the room glew with a strange green light. It was coming from his hands. She screamed as she felt acid burning her flesh.

"Listen Kagome and listen well you must learn your place," he continued easing up on his poisonous grip just a little, "you are female I am male. I am dominant you are obdientant. You disobey I have the right to punish. You are actually treated better them most youkai bitches are and your just a human. Hell most mates who have your attitude would have been beaten into submission by now until they obeyed. Now I am sure you don't want that."

What was Kagome suppose to tell him? What was she suppose to think about him? Here she was for three long years urning for his touch and love just to come back and revisit the monster that was deep inside him. Revisit meant she already knew who he was. She had seen enough of him before the birth of Koinu to know all about his evil ways. Why did she ever think him marking her would make him change?

"I will say it one more time," Kagome whispered, "let me go."

Sesshoumaru laughed as his poision was injected into her skin through his claws. He was not going to let his bitch get away with this type of attitude. She was his and she would have to accept that.

"I warned you," she said through grinded teeth as she felt her body flare up with an uncontrolable rage.

To Kagome there was no longer such a thing called love. At least not between her and him and obviously between her second litter of children. True she was once in love with Sesshoumaru, but after this it all felt like a dream. The only one she had ever loved had died when he gave his heart to the one she was reincarnated from. There was no love for her. All she could see was hate. Hate that was transformed into pure pink miko energy that rose up and smashed against Sesshoumaru chest making him fly on to the ground.

"Never touch me again with your filthy claws," she said with all the bitterness in her voice as the pink disappeared, "I refuse to stay here where all I have in he world is hate. Thanks to your mark I will never be able to love again, but being alone is better then this."

Sesshoumaru was half listening to her as he was on the ground and half snarling. His youkai instincts were kicking in. He wanted to show her who she was speaking too. He wanted to throw her on to the ground and take her so maybe this need for her would end, but that wasn't what Sesshoumaru's soul wanted. He wanted her to go outside take a while to cool down so they could talk all this over. His eyes glow red as his soul and instincts fought each other; all he could see was red, his desire of her leaving the room, and the desire of causing her harm.

Finally Sesshoumaru could no longer control himself as he lept up and scratched her right in the cheek with his claws leaving a permentant scar. Kagome tumbled backwards on to the ground in surprise. He had scared her. She could feel it. He had now given her an ugly undesirable face.

"Leave," he snarled out at her, "and never come back."

Kagome stood up and rushed out into the hallway and back to her room. She would leave. It was her only choice. Like she said she would rather have a lonely life then a life of suffering. Alone, that was what she would be for the rest of her life. Even though there was one that probably loved her, that one being Koinu, she would leave him behind. He would be happier here for she had only caused him pain in the present. She would suffer her miserable life by herself without affecting anyone.

Quickly as Kagome could she packed all the belongings that she arrived her with tossing aside all the kimonos that Sesshoumaru had given her. She also grabbed her jewel shards that she would use to get back. She would be dammed if she ever took that sapphire anywhere with her.

Her chocolate brown eyes scanned the room once more searching for anything that belonged to her that she needed to take. Her eyes fell upon the glass of water that lay on her table. It would be a long walk back to the well, what if she found no water on the way. She couldn't allow herself to die of thirst no matter how tempting that seemed at the moment.

She reached for the glass and took a big gulp until every drop was gone. That would last her awhile until she found a small stream. Unfortunately it didn't seem as though the journey would ever happen. For Kagome didn't even make it one step before she fell to the ground and could see nothing but deadly colors swirling around in her mind.

(End chapter 10)

AN: Okay um what I need to say about this chapter is that :got knocked out of her computer chair and looked up to see that Sesshoumaru had stolen it: What the hell? This is my comp and my fic.

Sesshoumaru: And this is my story and I want to see what people are saying about me so I must check my email. :opens one and reads out loud: Sesshoumaru why are you such an ass? Well there is only one answer for that and that is…your author made me that way. Now that was so fun I think me Sesshoumaru should take it upon myself to answer all of your reviews.

Sesshoumaru's review for Chisuto: Wanna know what happened to Shippou? I personally took my claws and skinned him alive cause I thought he was annoying. Even though TamashaToko says differently and that he will appear in the next chapter. I guess that means she wants me to revive him with Tensagia.

Sesshoumaru's review for corlee1289: Your not girl who is always reviewing to this fic…well I only have one thing to say to you and that's Kagome was lucky this time but if she ever put stuff in my food she would be dead.

My review for Wind Witch 555: I love it that you think my rp character's Tamasha and Inferno are cool they might be showing up sometime soon.

Sesshoumaru's review for kagome of the western lands: After this I don't know

My review for angelamisaki: I read ensnared along time ago that was the best fic ever

My review for Sarah: This whole chapter is actaully your fault…I didn't want Tsuin to act this way to his mother but your review gave me the idea.

Sesshoumaru's review for Aqua Miko: Trust me the author doesn't think that way at all. She isn't as smart as me. I think her plan is too put a moral in the story to prove that point.