10 days later,
Rajat feels a soft touch on his forehead. Two tear drops fall on his face. He flutters his eyes open. The images are blurry at first, later they clear up.
Rajat (weak voice, surprise):Maa…
Rajat M (crying in relief):Rajattttt….she hugs him and cries out loudly.
Rajat (confused, weak):Ro kyun rahi ho? Aur yahan kya kar rahi ho?
Rajat M (wiping tears): tere accident ki khabar sunke yahan aayi hoon…aaj poore 10 din baad tujhe hosh aaya hai…10 din baad
Rajat (shock):10 din? Main 10 din behosh tha?
Rajat M (fear): haan…bhagwaan ka jitna shukriya ada karoon who kam hoga….maut ke mooh se baahar aaya hai tu….main bahut darr gayi thi Rajattt..bahut darr gayi thi..kyun kiya tune aisa?
Rajat:nahi Maa..maine…maine kuch nahi kiya…who gaadi achanak mere saamne aa gayi..
RajatM: tu jhooth bol raha hai…she has tears again in her eyes…tune apne aap ko maarne ki koshish ki naa…bol…she demands..
Rajat (weak): Nahi Maa…main jeena chahta hoon…sach me..jeena chahta hoon..
Rajat M (happy):sach…she wipes her tears and kisses his forehead…main bahut khush hoon…bahut khush…doctor aate hi honge..
Rajat (remembering Purvi):Maa….he looks around the room..there is no one except his mother…Maaa…sab log kahan hai?
Rajat M: Abhijit toh aaj subah hi gaya…har roz tera haal poochne aata hai…ek do baar tere doosre dost..kya naam hai? Haan Sachin, Freddy, Shreya..yeh sab bhi aaye the…Sharmaji aur Kaaki bhi aaye the..main abhi sabko bataake aati hoon…sab khush ho jaayenge..
Rajat (stopping her, guilty): Maa…woh…woh nahi aayi?
RajatM:Kaun?
Rajat (trying to say Purvi): woh….woh…Tarikaa…he lies..
RajatM:nahi…who nahi aayi…
Rajat (sad):Ohhh..shayad…shayad busy hogi…
RajatM (stroking his hairs):Tu ab aaram kar…main doctor ko dekhke aati hoon..
Rajat (thinking):Purvi kyun nahi aayi? He then remembers their big fight before he left house…he feels very bad and guilty about his behavior. Itna bada jhagda hua hamara…naraaz toh hogi mujhse…aur sach poocho toh meri bhi himmat nahi hai usse nazre milaane ki..
I Love you Purviiiiii… he remembers those words. He still cannot believe he said that.
Evening
Abhijit, Sachin, Freddy and ACP sir have all come to visit Rajat.
ACP: Kaise ho Rajat?
Rajat (trying to sit):Main theekh hoon Sir..
ACP:ummeed karta hoon jald hi physically fit ho jaaoge…hamare aur bhi missions tumhara intezaar kar rahe hai…
Rajat: Ji?
ACP:haan Rajat…hume saboot mil gaya ki woh certificate tumne submit nahi kiya tha..aur woh signatures bhi nakli the…isliye DCP ne order sign kiya hai…tumhare physically fit hote hi tumhe har mission ke liye consider kiya jaaye.
Sachin: desh ko tumhari zaroorat hai Rajat…get well soon..
Rajat: Thankyou Sir..he looks at Abhijit…Sir…Tar..Tarika nahi aayi? Mujhe milne…he says Tarika buthis heart is asking for Purvi. Abhijit understands what he means.
Abhijit: who thoda busy hai abhi…isliye nahi aayi…acha aunty…hum log chalte hai…
They all leave. Rajat's mother comes closer to him to give food.
Rajat: Maa..yeh…yeh khaana? Dr Sabnis (Purvi doctor) ke chart ke hisaab se hai kya?
RajatM: tumhare abhi ke doctor ne yehi khaane kaha hai…mujhe koi doosre doctor ke diet ke baare me nahi pata. Ab yeh khaa looo…
Rajat eats the food as fed by his mother. He tries to sleep, but his mind and heart constantly is thinking about Purvi.
Rajat (thinking):Purvi hai kahan? Koi mujhe kuch batata kyun nahi…main kisse poochoon? Maine jo uske saath kiya…uske baad bhi main kaise expect kar sakta hoon ki who mujhse milne aaye? Magar uske heart condition ka kya? Mujhe apni galti ki maafi maangni hogi….main…main jaldi theekh ho jaoonga..aur phir usse sample de doonga…haan …shayad aisa karne se woh mujhe maaf karde..
Rajat consults his doctors and does everything they ask him for a speedy discharge.
Rajat discharge
Rajat's mother gives the address of his home to the taxi driver. Rajat doesn't sit but he is thinking about something
RajatM:kya soch raha hai?
Rajat (to driver): bhaisaab…CIDbureau le chaliye..
RajatM (shock):Bureau? Rajat tumhe abhi discharge mila hai..aur tum aaj hi bureau jaa rahe ho?
Rajat:maa please….bahut zaroori kaam hai…he urges the driver to go faster.
He hops out of the car before it even stops. He quickly rushes past the security guard. Pankaj, Freddy look up from their place in shock to see Rajat running in full speed. He doesn't even acknowledge them and runs straight into the lab.
Tarika and Dr Salunkhe are bent over a body.
Salunkhe (irritated):Tarikaaaa…dhyaan kahan hai tumhara? Please concentrate..
Tarika:sorryyy..sir.. she wipes her tears..
Salunkhe (removing mask):look…main samajh sakta hoon…jo hua usse bhulaana itna aasaan nahi hai..but you have to move on…hmmm
Tarika (nodding head): yes sir..she picks the knife again.
Rajat (panting):tarikaa….tar…ikaaaa…Puur….Puurvi kahan hai?
Tarika hears his voice and question and she is filled with great anger and hatred for him.
Salunkhe (shocked):Rajat…tum yahan? Tumhara toh aaj hi discharge hua hai naa..tumhe aaram karna chahiye…
Abhijit walks inside the lab. He is shocked to see Rajat as well.
Abhijit:Rajattt….tum …chalo…aunty…aunty bahar wait kar rahi hai…
Rajat walks closer to Tarika. He sees her breathing fast, there are tears in her eyes.
Rajat (soft voice, scared): tarikaa…please bataoo naa Purvi kahan hai?
Tarika (tears, angry low voice):Kyun?
Rajat (guilty):Mujhe…mujhe maafi maangni hai…maine bahut bhala buraa kaha uss din…who mujhse milne ek baar bhi hospital nahi aayi…uski tabiyat toh theekh hai naa? Acha mujhe bataaoo..mujhe theeh hone ke liye kya kya karna hoga…main chahta hoon main jaldi theekh ho jaoon…
Tarika (angry, staring at him): Kyun Rajat?
Rajat (surprised): Tarikaa? Yeh tum puch rahi ho? Purvi ko mera sample chahiye naa..isliye….bataoo naa who kahan hai? Tarika ignores his question and walks away to pick her knife again.
Rajat is shocked and looks at others for help. No one speaks anything.
Rajat (shocked): sab…sab log chupp kyun hai? Kya hua hai? Maana maine galti ki hai..magar mujhse baat toh karo…mujhe meri galti sudhaarne ka mauka toh doo..he goes angrily towards Tarika
Rajat (pulling Tarika arm): Tarika mujhe jawaaab chahiye…Purvi kahan hai?
Tarika (jerking his hand): mujhe nahi maloom..
Rajat (gripping arms again):Jhooth mat bolo Tarika…tum achi tarah se jaanti ho who kahan hai…BATAOOO MUJHEEE..he screams at her…
SLAAAPPPPPPPPPPP…
Everyone looks in shock. Tarika has just slapped Rajat!
Abhijit rushes by her side. She looks very angry and tears are flowing heavily from her eyes.
Tarika (angry): Mujhe chodd do Abhijit….isse..isse jawaab chahiye naa…Purvi kahan hai..main bataati hoon Purvi kahan hai…
She goes near his face and says in a dangerously low voice.
Tarika:Purvi chali gayi Rajattt….
Rajat (shocked):kya?
Tarika (crying): Purvi chali gayi….hum sab ki zindagi se hamesha ke liye chali gayi…
Rajat (not believing): nahi…nahi yeh nahi ho sakta…Purvi..chali gayi? Kahan? Kahan chali gayi Tarika…bolooo…bolo naa..
Tarika breaks down crying and hugging Abhijit.
Dr Salunkhe: Purvi hum sab ko bina bataaye chali gayi Rajat. jiss din tumhara accident hua uss din Purvi ko uska second stroke hua tha..
Rajat is shocked. He realizes she was not acting. He feels enormously guilty.
Rajat:Stroke? Woh…woh theekh toh hai naa?
Dr Salunkhe: haan..woh bach toh gayi..magar..
Rajat:Magar…magar kya?
Dr Salunkhe: uski jeene ki ichaa khatam ho gayi…woh apna koi ilaaj nahi karwaana chahti thi..usne apna faisla badal liya…aur..hospital se discharge ke baad bina bataaye kahin chali gayi..
Rajat (shocked):Purvi chali gayi? Kahan gayi hogi? Aap logon ne usse dhoondha nahi?
Abhijit:Humne bahut koshish ki Rajat..magar kuch pata naa chal saka..woh apna saara saaman waise hi rakhke gayi hai..kuch nahi leke gayi hai..
Tarika (angry, crying):Sirf tumhari wajah se…aaj woh yahan nahi hai…pata nahi..kaise hogi…kahan hogi…zinda bhi hai yaa…she cries loudly..
Tarika gets up and grabs Rajat;s collars.
Tarika:Jaante ho usne mujhse kya kaha hosh me aane ke baad…Tarikaaa..main marna chahti hoon…main jeena nahi chahti hoon…yeh kaha …aur yeh sab tumhari wajah se hua…tum usse apne aankhon ke saamne marta hua chodke chale gaye….woh bhi uss..usss Nisha ke liye…haan…arre jo zinda nahi hai…uske liye tumne ek zinda insaan ko laash banaa diya…I hate you Rajat….main tumhe kabhi maaf nahi karoongi…kabhi nahi…Just Get OuTTTT…Just GO AWAYYYYYY..
Rajat stands there like a statue for 2 mins processing what all he just heard.
Mere andar jeene ki ichaa itni zyaada hai ki baaki emotions haar jaate hai..
He cries unashamedly when he hears those words in his brain. What a role reversal this was! He had asked for death all along and now he was ready to live! She always wanted to live, now is probably somewhere in this world awaiting her death…
Rajat House
Rajat reaches his house with his mother. It's the same as Purvi had decorated it. His stuff is arranged neatly. There are paper flowers on the walls. He touches them lovingly. He goes to Purvi's room…it still has her stuff – her clothes, her bangles, her cosmetics..
He sits on her bed touching the pillow. He feels something below it. He pulls it out. Its her diary.
Ladkiyon ki diary padhna bad manners hai..isme maine sab kuch likha hai..likes, dislikes, kaunsa ladka hot hai..
Unknowingly a smile appears on his tear stricken face. He opens the pages and goes through it. He discovers the true 'Purvi…the zest for life, her desires.
Main jeena chahti hoon..har ek din, har ek pal..sirf apne liye nahi..balki Mummy, Papa, Daadu, Daadi aur Chinki (her family who died)ke liye…unke kitne saare adore ichaayen hai…jo woh poora karne se pehle chal basse…main poora karoongi unhe..
He reads through each page of small desires that each of her dead family member had. Some she had crossed out, many were pending.
Itne saal maine sirf inn sabki ichaayen poori ki hai..sach poocho toh meri koi nayi ichaa nahi thi..lekin ab..ab mere dil me bhi nayi ichaayen jaag rahi hai..bataaoon woh kya hai?
Ek kadve karele ko meetha banaana hai..aaj kal ek naya ehsaas jaag utha hai…har raat ek hi sapna dekh rahi hoon…meri zindagi me koi hai..koi hai jo mujhe pyaar karega shayad..koi hai jo mere saath rahega hamesha…koi hai jisse main bahut pyaar karne lagi hoon…koi hai jo mujhe 'Hott' lagne laga hai…koi hai jiske saath jeene ki ichaa hai…woh koi aur nahi..tum ho Rajat!
Rajat is shocked to know she loves him! He now remembers her strange behavior around him, her coy glances, her caring nature…how could he not have realized! Yes, she was selfish at first but then she was also in Love !
Rajat (realizing, getting up): Purvi bhi mujhse pyaar karti hai…oh my god….main..main yahan aise hi nahi baith sakta….main jeena chahta hoon…lekin Purvi ke saath…mujhe usse dhoondhna hoga…aur main dhoondke rahoonga…
Where has Purvi gone? Will Rajat find her? how? and will she come back with him?
dear Simmi...iss story me 3-4 chapters baaki hai….I will try to complete them soon..
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