A.N: Well, this is a bit of a fluffy chapter between Crystal and Raph, enjoy it while you can! I don't own TMNT if I did there'd be several more movies with very detailed CGI and costumes if I made a real life movie. rinpup14 thanks for the suggestion, but the next chapter is sorta like that so I guess two great minds think alike! . . Anyway, enjoy!

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For the next week I found myself isolating myself from the girls and the turtles. I found myself working hard at the tat shop, or doodling on my note pad while sitting on a random roof.

Then one day I decided to do something I should've probably talked to about with the turtles, but unfortunately I was too shy to face Raph with my newfound feelings.

I decided to go sneak into the Shred-head's base. And that's where I was, at the moment, when it happened. I guess I should explain, huh?

Well, I was making my way to the sewers underneath his base, which was a large building on the outskirts of Manhattan. I knocked out the few guards and tried to find a way up, when a person put a hand on my shoulder, I whipped around and grabbed the arm, then I saw that it was Raph.

I smiled while sighing a sigh of relief. "You scared me." I accused, he smirked. "Sorry, what are ya doin' here?" He asked. I looked behind me for a second. "Jus' seeing if I could find out somethin' 'bout Can-head." I said, it was true, though only half the truth.

The other half I wanted to actually kill the man, sure it was harsh, but he made my life even worse then it already was. I was a freak of nature and pretty much immortal, which was something I didn't want.

Raph nodded. "Want some help?" He offered, I shrugged uncaringly. "Sure." And we made our way up to the Shred-head's base. We knocked out most of the guards and I had a roughly good idea of where the Shredder might be, so we headed in that direction. I found some pretty impressive double doors and we both went through them our sais up, ready for a fight.

My eyes turned to small narrowed slits when they laid on the metal armored man, he was sitting in a chair. Around him were , I knew he had been watching us, and hadn't done anything about it. Like he was amused by us, bastard.

I walked cooly up to him with Raph right by me, the man in the chair just looked curiously at me. "Well, well. Come back to become immortal, Crystal?" He asked in a sweet voice though clearly it was fake. I growled at him as he got up. "No, I'm here fer revenge." I snarled, I didn't know if he heard it but I really didn't care.

I ran at him, I tried to go for his heart but he blocked it. I went to his right side and he followed me. We circled each other, and I went behind his chair. I saw Raph trying to come up behind him, but somehow the Shredder knew and he turned around barely grazing his plastron with his knuckledusters.

I lunged with my right sai in front of me towards his back, he side stepped to his left but I made a small slash in his cape. He turned to face both of us as we advanced on him, I wondered why no one had come to help him but I didn't think much of it.

"Is this how you repay me, Crystal?" The Shredder asked bringing me out of my thoughts, my eye twitched in annoyance and anger. "What should I be repaying' ya for! You captured me, ya tortured me. An' ya used me as a lab rat. I should be doin' exactly what I'm doin' right now!" I shouted at him, my anger was now a raging fire consuming me like it did my life when it killed my parents. I went towards him, but what if he already had had the injections? What then?

I swiftly went towards him and cut his leg with my right sai. I looked at it, it didn't heal quite quickly, but it did start healing abnormally quickly. I smiled. "Looks like you've jus' started." I said cocking my head slightly. I gave Raph a glance, I wanted to say; "I'm goin' ta do it. An' dere's no stopping me." But I didn't, even if I sent him the message through my eyes.

It was just for a split second but it felt longer. I slid behind the Shredder and slashed his back, he arched his back and fell on his knees. I knew he possibly wouldn't die, but if he didn't he would carry that pain for a long time.

I looked down at him. "You are a twisted, cruel, insane man. Ya think da world revolves 'round ya, don't ya?" I asked, I shook my head at him. And I left him.

I didn't care about Raph, I didn't care about the Shredder, I didn't care about anything. But then my thoughts were filled with the feelings I'd been blocking out since the movie night.

Love.

I was in love with a mutant ninja turtle. This was crazy! Insane! Love makes you stupid! Too bad, it was true.

I walked over to a door that said 'Laboratory' and I went through it. I found two tables with rows of bottles with light blue liquid in them that I knew was the injections they were going to give their army. I stood there in front of them, for a second. Then in a swift movement I brought up my left sai and clashed them into the small bottles. The liquid poured out onto the table, some of it still clung to the blade of my sai, I did the same with the others.

I looked in the back of the room, there were computers, I plunged my sais into all of them. Their electronic cords wrapped around the metal shocking me, but surprisingly I didn't die. Sure, it hurt but I didn't die. I sat down, was I immortal? Or was it just not a big enough shock to actually hurt me.

I heard something behind me, I turned around thinking it was Raph but it was Stockman. In an instant I was on him with my sai up to his neck, his eyes widened behind his glasses. "Why am I immortal? Ya told me I wasn't!" I shouted at him, he trembled but he smirked, a twisted smirk. "I converted it to a powder, I put it in your water. It's tasteless." He explained, my chest hurt where I knew my heart was.

I was immortal.

I lowered my sai, but in a split second I cut his left arm deeply, he cried out in pain. I got up in his face. "When you see dat scar every damn day of yer damn miserable life. Think of me, an' how you ruined my life." I hissed, he nodded sickishly.

I stalked away and found Raph fighting some ninjas in a hallway. I walked up to them almost taking my time, I think it was because I didn't have anything to fear. I was immortal after all.

I struck each one down without thought, then one of them put a sword through my gut. I wasn't scared, it hurt like hell but I didn't fall. I felt the tendons, veins, muscles, and organs around the sword heal quickly, I pulled it out and the hole healed itself. It was amazing, I felt each nerve, each vein, each muscle pull itself back together and heal back like it never happened. The only remittence was a small line of blood.

I looked around myself, everyone had stopped fighting and was staring at me. I looked down in shame, of myself, of what I had become even though it was against my will. I couldn't bare to look at Raph, I knew he probably thought I was a monster. A powerful monster, that couldn't die even if it wanted to.

I knocked the rest out in a long swift movement, and then I looked at my shoes. I had almost forgot about my special shoes, the ones the turtles had took when I had ran away from them. I felt my eyes fill up to the brim with tears, they stung harshly unlike the ones I was used to.

Because I was used to the depressed tears, ones that I cried over sadness and grief. These were tears of shame, I was ashamed at myself, if I could even call myself that. I felt different. Unworldly, an outcast, a mutant. I had been a mutant before but that was only miner, I could still die then.

But now. . .

I turned on my heel and ran.

I ran away from Raph, from the ninjas out cold, from Stockman, from the Shredder who I don't know was dead or not. From everything. I wish I could just do it over again.

If I could I would start from the very beginning, I would take that lighter and throw it to the farthest corner of the Earth. But then I wouldn't meet the girls. Or the turtles. Raph. No, I couldn't have avoided this, if I avoided one bad thing I wouldn't go on to get a good thing.

Life's a bitch like that.

I ran for a long time. I ran out into the streets, I ran letting my body take overdrive. I was surprised at where I ended up, Central Park.

I sat down at the bench me and Raph had sat down at a long time ago, though it wasn't that long ago, it felt like it. I sat there and took my head in my hands, I let the tears overflow into my palms soaking the cuffs of my shirt.

Until I felt strong arms around me, I turned into the chest of that person. No, the plastron of that turtle. I knew it was Raph, I cried into his chest for a long time, he held me tightly swaying ever so slightly.

I stopped and breathed erratically, I calmed myself and finely looked up into his face. He smiled at me, smiled. How could he smiled when me, an immortal monster was laying my face on his chest.

"What are ya smiling 'bout?" I asked almost pouting. He chuckled. "Yer cute." He said replied simply, it wasn't an answer but I took it, I felt a blush creep up on my cheeks. "I'm a monster." I contradicted, he shook his head roughly. "No. Yer not, yer jus' a mutant. Like me, an' I'm not a monster, right?" He said making an excellent point, but I didn't feel like agreeing.

"Haven't ya ever felt like ya were a monster? A "somethin" instead of "someone"?" I asked, he sighed and my head moved with his plastron. "Yeah, I have. But ya know what?" He asked, I looked up into his amber eyes. "I realized dat dere are a lot of other people out dere who are more monster den me. Dat's why I like fightin' dis crime, so I can see real monsters an' remind myself." He said, I looked forward in thought.

I snuggled closer to him, I felt myself getting sleepy and tired. I closed my purple eyes.

"Raph?"

"Yeah?"

"Can we be monsters together?"

I couldn't hear his answer, for I had fallen asleep.

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A.N: Awe, cute, huh? I like this little dramatic chapter, it's not really my style but it's a good thing to branch out. I only got one thing to say about the next chapter. . . Bikinis. R&R!