A/n: Sorry it's so late.
Sam sighed happily as he rolled onto his back. He pulled Gabriel onto his chest and smoothed back the sub's hair. He smiled at his little lover and pressed a tender kiss to his lips.
"That was amazing, Beautiful." Sam praised sweetly as he lovingly kissed the tip of Gabriel's nose. He took the sub's hand in his own and linked their fingers. He held him close and lovingly gazed into the beautiful subspace-glazed golden eyes.
Gabriel blinked cutely at him in return and purred. The sub dipped his head and lovingly dragged his tongue over Sam's cheek. He pulled back and Sam laughed happily. Sam loved it when Gabriel was like this. The omega was so loving and relaxed.
"So, can't leave my side, huh?" Sam asked softly and tenderly kissed Gabriel, "I think I can handle that." Sam lovingly trailed his hands over the sub's soft skin. He loved the feel of his little lover.
Gabriel loved it when Alpha spoke. His voice was so sweet, so soft. It was so soothing. It started to calm a storm in his mind he didn't know was there. It was like finding a piece of himself.
He took a deep breath, resting his forehead against Alpha's. His eyes fluttered closed as Master pressed a kiss to his lips. Each tender act was like fresh water lapping over his skin, refreshing and sweet.
"I love you so much." Sam was finding himself saying it so often but couldn't stop. All he wanted to do was say it over and over again. Sam smiled and hugged Gabriel to him, snuggling his warm skin. He lovingly lowered Gabriel to the bed again so the omega was lying on his belly. Sam hummed, lying over him slightly.
"I think we could both do with a nap after that fun little romp, Baby." Sam laughed softly, kissing along Gabriel's spine. He moaned softly, sucking on the sweet skin at the dip of Gabriel's spine. As he kissed there, Sam put his hands to Gabriel's hips.
Skin to skin, Sam tenderly skimmed his hands up Gabriel's flanks. Gabriel's lack of significant muscle saddened Sam greatly. He could not wait to fatten his little lover up to a nice healthy weight. Sam wanted his little sub to a nice healthy physique.
"Shhh… Just relax, Beautiful." Sam kissed softly between Gabriel's shoulder blades. Gabriel moaned sweetly, eyes fluttering. Sam smiled and rested his head on Gabriel's back, hands still on Gabriel's flanks. He hummed happily and started to drift off, "Love you."
The words were a whispered slur slipping from Alpha's lips. Gabriel could feel Alpha partially laying atop of him, a comforting weight. Gabriel simply closed his eyes and rested his head on his crossed arms.
He expected to drift off into sleep now that Master was resting with him. But that didn't seem to happen.
Instead, a strange vail seemed to slip from Gabriel's mind. The world grew quiet and he simply listened. He could hear Sam's gentle breathing, feeling each breath brush his skin. It felt like a sweet caress.
Gabriel blinked slowly and easily shifted under Sam. He rolled onto his back so that the slumbering dom's face was resting atop of Gabriel's stomach. Gabriel couldn't help but smile softly, hand going to Sam's head. His fingers tenderly brushed through the lush locks, silky smooth against Gabriel's skin.
Still, Gabriel's smile faltered. He sighed sadly and grabbed a pillow from the head of the bed. He pulled it over and easily maneuvered Sam so that the man was lying on the pillow.
Gabriel drew in a weak breath as he was freed from Sam's weight. Quaking from the weight of everything, he slowly sat up on the edge of the bed. His eyes misted up as he looked down at his legs to his feet. He wasn't ready for this.
But, he had to try.
Fear spiked through him as he shakily got to a standing position. A sob caught in his throat as his legs threatened to give out from under him. Tears dripped down his bruised cheeks as he straightened up only to collapse to his knees.
He whimpered and sobbed at his pathetic parody of being human.
Hands shook with emotion as he crawled across the room to the desk. He grasped the corner with trembling fingers. A strangled cry of exertion escaped him as he defiantly dragged himself up. He grunted and whimpered, body resisting him as he forced it to straighten.
God, how long since he had stood on his own two feet rather than crawling like the animal he had become?
Broken and useless, his soul urged him on. He growled in triumph as he dragged himself to his full height. He sneered and gripped the edge of the desk for support. This was a victory and he would claim it for his very own.
A glint caught his eye and he looked at the mirror on the wall behind the desk.
The world seemed to crash to a sudden halt as he looked at himself for the first time if twenty years. The filthy, broken whore he saw staring back at him broke his heart. His soul fractured as his hand came up and traced the lines of the pale face.
Golden eyes blinked as thick tears dripped down gaunt cheeks. The salty droplets caught in the scraggly stubble that was starting to grow. His shaking fingers came up as he trailed over the silvering streaks found in his scruffy facial hair.
Gabriel didn't recognize the disgusting creature that faced him in the mirror.
How could Sam call this "thing" beautiful? How could someone so perfect touch something so revolting? What had Gabriel ever done to deserve someone like Sam?
A watery sob bubbled up in Gabriel's throat. He leaned against the desk, sinking to the floor. He curled up into a pitiful ball of despair. He hugged himself and sobbed his heart out, releasing the anguish in his soul.
The creature living in the mirror should have been put out of its miserable existence long ago.
~Z~
"Cas! You're home!" Dean exclaimed as his mate finally came home. Cas should have been home hours ago. Had the other sub been that much of a hassle?
Cas blinked brokenly, looking at Dean standing in the door. He whimpered and went to his lover, hugging the pregnant sub tightly. He clung to his lover and sobbed.
Cas sobbed his heart out. He sobbed for sadness, sobbed for joy. He sobbed to release the pain of so many wasted years.
"Cas, Babe, what's wrong? The hell happened?!" Dean asked frantically. He held his husband close, stroking his dark hair soothingly. He was frightened and confused. What the hell had happened to his lover?!
"H-he's alive." Cas whispered, drawing back from Dean. His eyes were full of pain yet also so much joy. He cupped Dean's face in both hands and kissed him passionately. He drew back and whispered in awe, "H-he's alive, Dean. Gabriel. M-my brother's alive."
~Z~
Gabriel sobbed for a good twenty minutes before no more tears came.
When was the last time he had cried? What was the last time that he had had the emotions to cry? It was oddly so freeing.
Gabriel was hiccuping now. He had tried to stop his weeping too early. His body hadn't been ready and now fought back with the curse of hiccups.
Still, it was better than feeling nothing but fear.
Gabriel swallowed down the hiccups, he had a job to do. So, he grabbed onto Sam's desk chair and clambered into it. God, it felt so strange to sit in such a nice chair. Felt so foreign.
He whimpered pitifully and grabbed a piece of paper, laying it out in front of himself. He grabbed a pen and tried desperately to remember how to hold it. Who knew that writing was so hard!?
But, he did not let the hardship stop him. No, he had to do this. So, he did.
It took over twenty failed attempts but he figured out how to write. His handwriting looked like that of a child. It was sloppy and varying in size from letter to letter. It looked nothing like the beautiful script that he could vaguely remember writing all those years ago.
Writing was difficult. Gabriel was struggling to remember what some of the upper and lower case versions of a letter looked like. The entire letter looked pathetic and childish.
Gabriel was embarrassed and humiliated but he had to say this.
-DEar SaM
ThaNk yU for SaviNG mE
Sorri i Mised yU
MaybE NExt i wakE i'LL sEE yU
Luv yU
~ LovE, GaBrEL-
Words were misspelled, letters missing. Punctuation didn't exist. But, it got the job done. It said everything that Gabriel felt for the man.
Gabriel smiled sadly at the piece of paper. A few teardrops splattered on the page, smearing the words but they could still he read. So, he left it on the desk where it would be seen.
After that, Gabriel lowered himself to the plush carpet. He yawned sleepily and started to crawl back across the floor. He clambered back into bed and found his comfort.
A sleeping Sam smiled at Gabriel's return. His arm wrapped around the sub and pulled him close. Gabriel smiled and curled up in the man's embrace. He yawned cutely and started to drift.
Yes, this life was good.
Better than he deserved or thought he'd ever have. He was content.
He was happy...
~*~Chapter End~*~