Ch. 15 Is Change Really Good?
(A/N) Holy cow I finally did it–well enjoy–maybe...
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter...or it's characters
For Christmas, Lily and Severus decided to stay at school while Lucius went home. Even though he didn't say so, Lily suspected that Severus was staying at school because of his parent's problems. Lily didn't mind him being there at all, though. They had fun by themselves, enjoying the holidays.
It seemed like life was going great until Christmas Eve. When Lily went into her dormitory that night, she found all of the occupant girls sitting in a tight cluster discussing something. When they noticed Lily, they hid what looked like a cluster of papers in a drawer and feigned innocence.
"Um, hi guys," Lily said, trying to break the awkward silence. When no one answered, she added, "So...what are you guys up to?"
One of the nicer girls in her dormitory named Adrienne stood up and walked over to sit on her own bed. "Um, nothing Lily...how are you?" she said, brushing her reddish-brown hair out of her face and giving her a half smile.
Before Lily could answer, the girl who had gone out with Goyle said in a loud, annoyed voice, "We weren't doing nothing, Adrienne, we were having an important discussion! This mudblood can just go away and leave us alone!"
Adrienne glanced warily from Lily to the girl. "Jenny, that was uncalled for..." she said softly.
"It was not! Especially with this new...news we've received," Jenny protested, giving Adrienne a meaningful look.
Standing up and moving towards Lily, Adrienne looked like she was preparing to fight a war. "That news..." she said, her voice gaining in strength, "isn't right, and you know it!"
Jenny snorted. "I'm surprised at you, Adrienne! Too bad...I thought you were all right...but I suppose we could kill you and the mudblood easily enough..." she ended with a smirk.
Adrienne laughed, getting out her wand. "I'd like to see you try," she said, "especially since my dad is your dad's boss..."
Jenny's smile disappeared at this, but returned after a moment. "Your dad supports him even if you don't...he might have a problem with us hurting you, but he certainly won't if we knock this mudblood off and make it look like an accident."
Through this conversation, Lily stood near the door, becoming more horrified by the moment. Him? They must mean Voldemort... she thought. The rumors were real!
"You'll have to go through me," Adrienne said coldly. "Besides, I'm sure some of you will help me..." she said looking expectantly at the cluster of girls, but none of them moved. "Fine," she said after a minute. "I'll find someone sane enough to know right from wrong elsewhere."
With that, she grabbed Lily's arm and pulled her out of the room, slamming the door behind them.
"The rumors are true then," Lily gasped out.
Adrienne nodded bleakly. "Yea, too true. Some people are getting so caught up I this new...doctrine." She paused for a moment. "I can't believe Liz didn't say anything. She knows it's wrong too, but she's too scared to stand up to Jenny."
"Thanks for what you did," Lily said, looking at Adrienne. "Who knows what they would've done to me..."
"Probably nothing today...Jenny is all talk, but I'm still worried," she said, going down to the common room. "His beliefs are gaining strength–eventually one of the fanatics might decide to do something drastic."
Just then, Adrienne realized Severus was seated in a corner. He had been reading, but had stopped when he heard voices.
"What's going on?" Severus asked, sounding very worried.
Adrienne sighed. "Jenny's causing problems again," she said. "I think it's best if Lily didn't sleep in there tonight..."
Severus made an angry sound in the back of his throat. "Jenny's been going too far lately," he said angrily. He then turned his attention to Lily and his tone softened. "It's ok, Lil, we can get some pillows and blankets and you can sleep on the couch."
Adrienne looked up at the girls' dormitory door apprehensively. "Is it ok if you get the blankets from somewhere else? I was going to make myself scarce for a few hours..."
"Yea, it's ok. I'll get some from mine," he said, starting for the boys' dormitory. "Thanks, Adi," he said sincerely.
Adrienne smiled wryly. "I don't know how much longer I can hold them off...but I'll try," she said before going out into the hallway.
Severus returned a few seconds with a few plain green blankets and a pillow with teddy bears all over it. He smirked, "It's Luc's...who would've guessed, huh?"
Lily grinned back. "Thanks, Sev" she said, helping him spread them out on the couch.
"No problem," he answered. "You ok?" he asked with concern.
Lily nodded slightly. "Yea, I'm a bit scared, but I'll be ok."
They both sat down on the couch and he put his arm around her. "Don't worry, Lil, I won't let anyone hurt you."
She sighed and put her head on his shoulder. "Thanks, Sevy," she said, smiling a little and then looked at her watch. It was after midnight. "Happy Christmas," she said, stifling a yawn.
"Is it that late already?" Severus asked in surprise. "You need to get to bed or Father Christmas won't come..." he said teasingly as he stood up.
Lily grinned and laid down, wrapping herself in the covers. When Severus was about to go up to his dormitory, Lily said in a small voice, "Sev...please, could you sit with me awhile? I know it's silly, but I'm...scared."
Severus stopped in his tracks and walked back to sit in an arm chair next to the couch. "It's not silly, Lil..." he said sinking into the chair, "sure I will."
"Thanks," Lily said, snuggling under her blankets.
After a minute of sitting in silence, Severus said in a joking voice, "You don't want me to sing you to sleep or anything, do you? Because I don't sing all that well..."
Lily laughed. "No, just being here is more than good enough."
"Good," he said laughing back.
***
Lily woke up by the noise of an owl dropping packages on the floor next to her. She sat up quickly and looked around. Severus was still sitting in the arm chair. He seemed to be just waking up, moving his neck gingerly.
"Ouch," he groaned.
"You stayed there all night?" Lily asked, amazed?
He smiled. "Yea, what kind of guard would I be if I left? I was trying to stay awake too, but that obviously didn't work."
Lily jumped out of bed and gave him a big hug. "Thanks, Sev," she said. "That...really means a lot to me..."
"Ouch," he groaned again.
"Oh," Lily said, jumping off of him again. "Sorry."
He laughed. "It's ok. Happy Christmas Lily!" he said, standing up.
"Happy Christmas!" she replied, walking over to her presents and grabbing the first one.
Severus grabbed his first gift as well, and they began ripping them open.
Lily got a beret, a necklace, and a bunch of pictures of cute French men from Tara, a broken quill from Lucius, which actually exceeded her expectations, and a box of assorted candy with a lengthy note from Sirius attached from Lupin, Sirius, and Peter. She then came to a huge box of roses. Who could these be from? she wondered. She opened and read the attached letter.
Dear Lily,
I am so sorry for behaving like a complete idiot for the past few years. I know I have no right asking you this, but could you please find it in you to forgive me? I've missed you so much as a friend. I also am worried sick for you. The rumors of Voldemort are increasing. I'm worried that you will be hurt in some way.
Please, please Lily, forgive me for being an idiot. Name your price...Tara already has told me what I have to do before I will have her trust again...What do you want? Please give me another chance!
Yours always,
James
Lily sat there for a moment after closing the box to hide them from Severus, thinking. She missed James, but could she ever fully trust him again? What was Tara's price she had demanded?
She was snapped out of her thoughts by Severus saying expectantly, "Hurry, Lily, you still haven't opened the best one!"
Lily looked down and saw an envelope lying on the ground with "To Lily" written in Severus' handwriting on it.
She snatched it up and opened it quickly. It was a ticket to France.
"So you can go visit Tara this summer," he explained, smiling.
Lily's parents had had to really save to send Lily to Tara's house last summer, so she had been sure she wouldn't be able to go this year.
"Thanks, Sev! This is the best!" she said, giving Severus another big hug.
"Glad you like it," he said slightly out of breath. "Thanks for the glasses by the way..."
Lily smiled. "I'm glad you liked them. I didn't really know what to get you..."
The glasses were magic, of course, allowing the wearer to see the exact location of a lost object.
"They're perfect," he said grinning.
The rest of Christmas was wonderful, with the exception of the glares she got from some of the Slytherin girls. She had read Sirius' letter. It had contained an apology similar to James', except it said that if he didn't forgive him, at least to forgive James. "It's killing him!" the letter had said. Lily sighed. She didn't really know what to do.
Finally, she got out two pieces of parchment, and wrote a very simple message on the front of each.
I suppose...
Lily
***
For the next few nights, Lily continued to sleep on the couch in the common room, even though she assured Severus it was ok if he slept in his dormitory. He said ok, but only after saying he would come check on her every few hours.
After Christmas break ended, however, it became more awkward to sleep in the middle of the common room. People started to spread rumors about why she couldn't sleep in her dormitory. It eventually got back to the headmaster, apparently, since he called her into his office one afternoon.
When she entered the room she noticed that James, Sirius, and Lupin had come as well. She gave them a confused, half smile.
"Sit down, Miss Evans," the headmaster said.
She took a seat and nervously looked up at him.
"I've been hearing some disturbing rumors of death threats...against you...in your own house," he said quietly. "Is this true?"
She took a deep breath and then answered, "Well, yes sir, but..."
"This is serious, indeed," the headmaster interrupted her. "I didn't know the teachings of Voldemort had penetrated so deeply in my school...the question is, what is to be done?"
James spoke up at this. "She can't stay there...it's too dangerous. She needs to be moved to another house."
"Another house?" the headmaster mused, "unheard of in other times..."
"As is putting a muggle born in Slytherin," came a voice from the corner. The sorting hat was speaking.
The headmaster turned his head curiously and said, "What?"
"I bet that old coot Slytherin was turning in his grave when I put Lily Evans in Slytherin five years ago..." the sorting hat continued. "But, what did he know. It was the best place at the time for her. Now, I'm not sure." The hat stopped.
"Are you going to tell me your reasoning or are you going to leave us in suspense?" the headmaster said dryly.
The sorting hat looked like it was thinking deeply. "In some ways, to change her would be best, but there's no way to know for sure. Put me on her head, perhaps that would help."
The headmaster placed the hat on her head and it continued to speak. "Oh, yes, moving her to Gryffindor would be the safest course of action for this young lady, but the question is, does she want to go? She has at least one friend there whom she is very close to. But, is risking her life worth being with this friend? Hmm...interesting...what do you think, Lily?"
"I don't want to leave Severus," she said determinedly, but then her voice grew quieter, "but, I can't keep sleeping on the couch forever..."
"That settles it!" James jumped in. "She's moving to Gryffindor..."
"Wait a minute, young man," the headmaster said, turning to face him. "I suppose you think you three will be able to protect her better if she changes houses?"
James nodded. "Yes, we will."
The headmaster thought over this carefully. "What will happen when you three graduate, though? Will she still be safe?"
"I'm sure there are other people in Gryffindor who will take care of her..." Sirius started.
"But, she doesn't really have any friends in her own year," Lupin finished.
The headmaster nodded and thought for a long while. "Alright," he said after a minute. "I've decided. Lily, I have every faith in you as an intelligent young woman. That is why I've decided to skip you ahead a year. This should help with your protection, seeing as you have good, loyal friends in Slytherin and Gryffindor of that year, which is truly an amazing feat. Also, since you cannot continue to sleep on the couch, I do find it necessary to change you into Gryffindor house."
James cheered, but Lily sat quietly, thinking.
"Ok," she said quietly. She felt funny. All house pride seemed to be being stripped away from her. Also, she was sure she would have to do lots of work over the summer to be able to skip a grade. Most importantly, however, how would Severus take this?
She continued to think of this question through the rest of her meeting with the headmaster. In a daze, she walked through the hallway to her house to tell Severus.
Apparently news traveled fast and people knew what her meeting had been about, so Severus was waiting for her at the door.
"So, what'd he do, give you your own room?" Severus burst out as soon as she entered the room.
"No," Lily said in a small voice.
Severus looked at her expectantly, but she didn't continue.
"What did he do then?" he asked.
"He...skipped me ahead a year and...and...switched which house I'm in...I'm in Gryffindor now," she rushed out.
Severus looked livid. "WHAT? He can't do this without asking your opinion! After all, it's your life and all..."
Lily felt miserable. "He did ask me my opinion," she said quietly. "But...I didn't really have a choice..."
Severus' face turned deathly white. "You told him you wanted to change houses?" he whispered.
"Well, not in so many words. I don't want to be a Gryffindor, Sev, really I don't!" she yelled out desperately.
"Sure you don't! You don't want to be in with James...did you think I didn't see those roses he sent you? So you're leaving me all alone! All alone with Lucius who keeps breathing down my neck about joining the muggle haters? Thanks a lot Lily. That sure repays me for our years of friendship," he ranted.
"No...Severus, please listen to me!" she cried out.
"I'll get your trunk," he said coldly, walking over to where Adrienne had put it in the common room so she could get to her stuff while sleeping there. He brought it over along with all of her stuff and hauled them out of the common room, all without looking at her.
"Severus..." she started.
"No, don't worry about me..." he said cruelly. "Go off with your James now Lily. I hope you're happy together," he spat before returning to the common room and slamming the door behind him.
It was then that Lily started to cry. She knew most of the Slytherins hated her, but it had been her home for the past five years. She had lost her home, but worst of all she had lost Severus.
***
The rest of the year was awful for Lily. Because she was not in Slytherin anymore, she lost her place on the Quidditch team. She tried to get contact with Severus to explain, but he always avoided her. She tried to get into the Slytherin common room, but they had changed the password since she'd left. O.W.L.S. seemed of little importance to her at the moment, but she studied to take her mind off of her problems.
Her relationship with James and Sirius had almost healed completely. That was the only plus of the situation for her. She didn't think it was worth all that she had felt she had lost.
She was thrilled when the end of the year came, meaning summer was there and it was almost time to go visit Tara. Tara would give her advice. Tara would help her through this...she hoped.
(A/N) OK HAPPY EVERYONE? SEE–THERE–it almost KILLED me–but THERE–it works with the books...well pretty much–
anyways–hope that (A/N) didn't sound too bitter...rofl
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(A/N) Holy cow I finally did it–well enjoy–maybe...
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter...or it's characters
For Christmas, Lily and Severus decided to stay at school while Lucius went home. Even though he didn't say so, Lily suspected that Severus was staying at school because of his parent's problems. Lily didn't mind him being there at all, though. They had fun by themselves, enjoying the holidays.
It seemed like life was going great until Christmas Eve. When Lily went into her dormitory that night, she found all of the occupant girls sitting in a tight cluster discussing something. When they noticed Lily, they hid what looked like a cluster of papers in a drawer and feigned innocence.
"Um, hi guys," Lily said, trying to break the awkward silence. When no one answered, she added, "So...what are you guys up to?"
One of the nicer girls in her dormitory named Adrienne stood up and walked over to sit on her own bed. "Um, nothing Lily...how are you?" she said, brushing her reddish-brown hair out of her face and giving her a half smile.
Before Lily could answer, the girl who had gone out with Goyle said in a loud, annoyed voice, "We weren't doing nothing, Adrienne, we were having an important discussion! This mudblood can just go away and leave us alone!"
Adrienne glanced warily from Lily to the girl. "Jenny, that was uncalled for..." she said softly.
"It was not! Especially with this new...news we've received," Jenny protested, giving Adrienne a meaningful look.
Standing up and moving towards Lily, Adrienne looked like she was preparing to fight a war. "That news..." she said, her voice gaining in strength, "isn't right, and you know it!"
Jenny snorted. "I'm surprised at you, Adrienne! Too bad...I thought you were all right...but I suppose we could kill you and the mudblood easily enough..." she ended with a smirk.
Adrienne laughed, getting out her wand. "I'd like to see you try," she said, "especially since my dad is your dad's boss..."
Jenny's smile disappeared at this, but returned after a moment. "Your dad supports him even if you don't...he might have a problem with us hurting you, but he certainly won't if we knock this mudblood off and make it look like an accident."
Through this conversation, Lily stood near the door, becoming more horrified by the moment. Him? They must mean Voldemort... she thought. The rumors were real!
"You'll have to go through me," Adrienne said coldly. "Besides, I'm sure some of you will help me..." she said looking expectantly at the cluster of girls, but none of them moved. "Fine," she said after a minute. "I'll find someone sane enough to know right from wrong elsewhere."
With that, she grabbed Lily's arm and pulled her out of the room, slamming the door behind them.
"The rumors are true then," Lily gasped out.
Adrienne nodded bleakly. "Yea, too true. Some people are getting so caught up I this new...doctrine." She paused for a moment. "I can't believe Liz didn't say anything. She knows it's wrong too, but she's too scared to stand up to Jenny."
"Thanks for what you did," Lily said, looking at Adrienne. "Who knows what they would've done to me..."
"Probably nothing today...Jenny is all talk, but I'm still worried," she said, going down to the common room. "His beliefs are gaining strength–eventually one of the fanatics might decide to do something drastic."
Just then, Adrienne realized Severus was seated in a corner. He had been reading, but had stopped when he heard voices.
"What's going on?" Severus asked, sounding very worried.
Adrienne sighed. "Jenny's causing problems again," she said. "I think it's best if Lily didn't sleep in there tonight..."
Severus made an angry sound in the back of his throat. "Jenny's been going too far lately," he said angrily. He then turned his attention to Lily and his tone softened. "It's ok, Lil, we can get some pillows and blankets and you can sleep on the couch."
Adrienne looked up at the girls' dormitory door apprehensively. "Is it ok if you get the blankets from somewhere else? I was going to make myself scarce for a few hours..."
"Yea, it's ok. I'll get some from mine," he said, starting for the boys' dormitory. "Thanks, Adi," he said sincerely.
Adrienne smiled wryly. "I don't know how much longer I can hold them off...but I'll try," she said before going out into the hallway.
Severus returned a few seconds with a few plain green blankets and a pillow with teddy bears all over it. He smirked, "It's Luc's...who would've guessed, huh?"
Lily grinned back. "Thanks, Sev" she said, helping him spread them out on the couch.
"No problem," he answered. "You ok?" he asked with concern.
Lily nodded slightly. "Yea, I'm a bit scared, but I'll be ok."
They both sat down on the couch and he put his arm around her. "Don't worry, Lil, I won't let anyone hurt you."
She sighed and put her head on his shoulder. "Thanks, Sevy," she said, smiling a little and then looked at her watch. It was after midnight. "Happy Christmas," she said, stifling a yawn.
"Is it that late already?" Severus asked in surprise. "You need to get to bed or Father Christmas won't come..." he said teasingly as he stood up.
Lily grinned and laid down, wrapping herself in the covers. When Severus was about to go up to his dormitory, Lily said in a small voice, "Sev...please, could you sit with me awhile? I know it's silly, but I'm...scared."
Severus stopped in his tracks and walked back to sit in an arm chair next to the couch. "It's not silly, Lil..." he said sinking into the chair, "sure I will."
"Thanks," Lily said, snuggling under her blankets.
After a minute of sitting in silence, Severus said in a joking voice, "You don't want me to sing you to sleep or anything, do you? Because I don't sing all that well..."
Lily laughed. "No, just being here is more than good enough."
"Good," he said laughing back.
***
Lily woke up by the noise of an owl dropping packages on the floor next to her. She sat up quickly and looked around. Severus was still sitting in the arm chair. He seemed to be just waking up, moving his neck gingerly.
"Ouch," he groaned.
"You stayed there all night?" Lily asked, amazed?
He smiled. "Yea, what kind of guard would I be if I left? I was trying to stay awake too, but that obviously didn't work."
Lily jumped out of bed and gave him a big hug. "Thanks, Sev," she said. "That...really means a lot to me..."
"Ouch," he groaned again.
"Oh," Lily said, jumping off of him again. "Sorry."
He laughed. "It's ok. Happy Christmas Lily!" he said, standing up.
"Happy Christmas!" she replied, walking over to her presents and grabbing the first one.
Severus grabbed his first gift as well, and they began ripping them open.
Lily got a beret, a necklace, and a bunch of pictures of cute French men from Tara, a broken quill from Lucius, which actually exceeded her expectations, and a box of assorted candy with a lengthy note from Sirius attached from Lupin, Sirius, and Peter. She then came to a huge box of roses. Who could these be from? she wondered. She opened and read the attached letter.
Dear Lily,
I am so sorry for behaving like a complete idiot for the past few years. I know I have no right asking you this, but could you please find it in you to forgive me? I've missed you so much as a friend. I also am worried sick for you. The rumors of Voldemort are increasing. I'm worried that you will be hurt in some way.
Please, please Lily, forgive me for being an idiot. Name your price...Tara already has told me what I have to do before I will have her trust again...What do you want? Please give me another chance!
Yours always,
James
Lily sat there for a moment after closing the box to hide them from Severus, thinking. She missed James, but could she ever fully trust him again? What was Tara's price she had demanded?
She was snapped out of her thoughts by Severus saying expectantly, "Hurry, Lily, you still haven't opened the best one!"
Lily looked down and saw an envelope lying on the ground with "To Lily" written in Severus' handwriting on it.
She snatched it up and opened it quickly. It was a ticket to France.
"So you can go visit Tara this summer," he explained, smiling.
Lily's parents had had to really save to send Lily to Tara's house last summer, so she had been sure she wouldn't be able to go this year.
"Thanks, Sev! This is the best!" she said, giving Severus another big hug.
"Glad you like it," he said slightly out of breath. "Thanks for the glasses by the way..."
Lily smiled. "I'm glad you liked them. I didn't really know what to get you..."
The glasses were magic, of course, allowing the wearer to see the exact location of a lost object.
"They're perfect," he said grinning.
The rest of Christmas was wonderful, with the exception of the glares she got from some of the Slytherin girls. She had read Sirius' letter. It had contained an apology similar to James', except it said that if he didn't forgive him, at least to forgive James. "It's killing him!" the letter had said. Lily sighed. She didn't really know what to do.
Finally, she got out two pieces of parchment, and wrote a very simple message on the front of each.
I suppose...
Lily
***
For the next few nights, Lily continued to sleep on the couch in the common room, even though she assured Severus it was ok if he slept in his dormitory. He said ok, but only after saying he would come check on her every few hours.
After Christmas break ended, however, it became more awkward to sleep in the middle of the common room. People started to spread rumors about why she couldn't sleep in her dormitory. It eventually got back to the headmaster, apparently, since he called her into his office one afternoon.
When she entered the room she noticed that James, Sirius, and Lupin had come as well. She gave them a confused, half smile.
"Sit down, Miss Evans," the headmaster said.
She took a seat and nervously looked up at him.
"I've been hearing some disturbing rumors of death threats...against you...in your own house," he said quietly. "Is this true?"
She took a deep breath and then answered, "Well, yes sir, but..."
"This is serious, indeed," the headmaster interrupted her. "I didn't know the teachings of Voldemort had penetrated so deeply in my school...the question is, what is to be done?"
James spoke up at this. "She can't stay there...it's too dangerous. She needs to be moved to another house."
"Another house?" the headmaster mused, "unheard of in other times..."
"As is putting a muggle born in Slytherin," came a voice from the corner. The sorting hat was speaking.
The headmaster turned his head curiously and said, "What?"
"I bet that old coot Slytherin was turning in his grave when I put Lily Evans in Slytherin five years ago..." the sorting hat continued. "But, what did he know. It was the best place at the time for her. Now, I'm not sure." The hat stopped.
"Are you going to tell me your reasoning or are you going to leave us in suspense?" the headmaster said dryly.
The sorting hat looked like it was thinking deeply. "In some ways, to change her would be best, but there's no way to know for sure. Put me on her head, perhaps that would help."
The headmaster placed the hat on her head and it continued to speak. "Oh, yes, moving her to Gryffindor would be the safest course of action for this young lady, but the question is, does she want to go? She has at least one friend there whom she is very close to. But, is risking her life worth being with this friend? Hmm...interesting...what do you think, Lily?"
"I don't want to leave Severus," she said determinedly, but then her voice grew quieter, "but, I can't keep sleeping on the couch forever..."
"That settles it!" James jumped in. "She's moving to Gryffindor..."
"Wait a minute, young man," the headmaster said, turning to face him. "I suppose you think you three will be able to protect her better if she changes houses?"
James nodded. "Yes, we will."
The headmaster thought over this carefully. "What will happen when you three graduate, though? Will she still be safe?"
"I'm sure there are other people in Gryffindor who will take care of her..." Sirius started.
"But, she doesn't really have any friends in her own year," Lupin finished.
The headmaster nodded and thought for a long while. "Alright," he said after a minute. "I've decided. Lily, I have every faith in you as an intelligent young woman. That is why I've decided to skip you ahead a year. This should help with your protection, seeing as you have good, loyal friends in Slytherin and Gryffindor of that year, which is truly an amazing feat. Also, since you cannot continue to sleep on the couch, I do find it necessary to change you into Gryffindor house."
James cheered, but Lily sat quietly, thinking.
"Ok," she said quietly. She felt funny. All house pride seemed to be being stripped away from her. Also, she was sure she would have to do lots of work over the summer to be able to skip a grade. Most importantly, however, how would Severus take this?
She continued to think of this question through the rest of her meeting with the headmaster. In a daze, she walked through the hallway to her house to tell Severus.
Apparently news traveled fast and people knew what her meeting had been about, so Severus was waiting for her at the door.
"So, what'd he do, give you your own room?" Severus burst out as soon as she entered the room.
"No," Lily said in a small voice.
Severus looked at her expectantly, but she didn't continue.
"What did he do then?" he asked.
"He...skipped me ahead a year and...and...switched which house I'm in...I'm in Gryffindor now," she rushed out.
Severus looked livid. "WHAT? He can't do this without asking your opinion! After all, it's your life and all..."
Lily felt miserable. "He did ask me my opinion," she said quietly. "But...I didn't really have a choice..."
Severus' face turned deathly white. "You told him you wanted to change houses?" he whispered.
"Well, not in so many words. I don't want to be a Gryffindor, Sev, really I don't!" she yelled out desperately.
"Sure you don't! You don't want to be in with James...did you think I didn't see those roses he sent you? So you're leaving me all alone! All alone with Lucius who keeps breathing down my neck about joining the muggle haters? Thanks a lot Lily. That sure repays me for our years of friendship," he ranted.
"No...Severus, please listen to me!" she cried out.
"I'll get your trunk," he said coldly, walking over to where Adrienne had put it in the common room so she could get to her stuff while sleeping there. He brought it over along with all of her stuff and hauled them out of the common room, all without looking at her.
"Severus..." she started.
"No, don't worry about me..." he said cruelly. "Go off with your James now Lily. I hope you're happy together," he spat before returning to the common room and slamming the door behind him.
It was then that Lily started to cry. She knew most of the Slytherins hated her, but it had been her home for the past five years. She had lost her home, but worst of all she had lost Severus.
***
The rest of the year was awful for Lily. Because she was not in Slytherin anymore, she lost her place on the Quidditch team. She tried to get contact with Severus to explain, but he always avoided her. She tried to get into the Slytherin common room, but they had changed the password since she'd left. O.W.L.S. seemed of little importance to her at the moment, but she studied to take her mind off of her problems.
Her relationship with James and Sirius had almost healed completely. That was the only plus of the situation for her. She didn't think it was worth all that she had felt she had lost.
She was thrilled when the end of the year came, meaning summer was there and it was almost time to go visit Tara. Tara would give her advice. Tara would help her through this...she hoped.
(A/N) OK HAPPY EVERYONE? SEE–THERE–it almost KILLED me–but THERE–it works with the books...well pretty much–
anyways–hope that (A/N) didn't sound too bitter...rofl
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