And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches everything.
Just say it again and mean it,
We don't mess a thing
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convince yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
I took in my surroundings, the white wall, the blue and white tittles forming a pattern all around the room, the waist length mirror that reflected me. A boy broken, lost angry for the last time. I took the small but sharp blade from the box that was hidden in the back of my closet. Just like in my mind, it was the most horrendous box I ever had; I kept it as a reminder of what I was, of who I became. But most importantly it was what I did, before I became Adam. I was someone who did what was expected of them, what was best for others, not myself. I did cut back when I was Gracie, so when the silver blade made contact with my skin I couldn't help but smile. I had control. Each time I dug it on my arm the thicker, longer, and bloodier it became…
And oh how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh I need an ending just long enough to explain?
"Clare" Eli whispered so only she could hear. Adam was too engaged in his own thoughts to pay Mrs. Dawes any attention nor to his friends. Clare swiftly and carefully turned her attention from the movie they were supposed to be watching to the boy who said her name "yes Eli?" she harshly whispered, it better not be another of his sarcastic remarks on how the movie was cheaply done. But to her surprised Eli's face was masked with worry and panic hit her. Eli's eyes averted to Adam's (now dressed as Gracie) arms and Clare's eyes followed and widen at what she saw. Adam's arms were scrapped with lines, each getting thicker as they ascended upward. Her blue eyes were getting puffy as she saw what caused Eli's facial expression she couldn't comprehend why Adam would do this to himself…
And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you?
From everything
Why couldn't they leave him alone? The names wouldn't stop, they kept getting worse and worse and he was getting tired rather quickly. He gritted his teeth; he changed for them to stop calling him a tranny. He felt repulsive when he heard that word. He wanted to punch something, anything. The only ones that stayed by his side even after he was exposed was Eli and Clare but he was scared that maybe they would change their mind any day and join in the taunting. As the thought grew inside his head, he began distancing himself from them. He didn't want to get hurt anymore in the long run, and them hurting him was going to be his last straw…
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep till May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore.
And oh how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh I need an ending just long enough to explain?
Clare and Eli gave each other sadden looks as they replayed what Adam said in their minds once again "we cant be friends anymore, I don't think that's a good idea anymore. Just pretend you don't know me and then you can be like the rest be normal without having to associate with a tranny" Adam's eyes were foggy but he refused to cry in front of them, he said those words but his mind his heart was screaming at them otherwise. As soon as he said what he need to say, he turned his heel and ran out of the building and home back to his trusty blade...
Take your time
Take my time
Take these chances to turn it around (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around (take my…)
"Adam" voices full of horror and panick echoed inside the nearly empty house. Clare and Eli rushed to his house, afraid if he was going to harm himself as many times before. The anxiety only grew and the air seemed to be fading as they began to searched everywhere looking for him when they heard muffled crying coming from what seemed to be Adam's restroom, Clare gently knocked afraid of using her voice for you see she didn't trust it to be strong at this moment. Eli opened the door to see Adam dressed as Adam hunched over the toilet with the blade at his feet his arms were blood free but his face was tear stricken, they immediately rushed to his side, Clare giving him a bone-crushing hug. "We were just in time" she cried, "we are here for you, just take our time let us help you keep strong" She was relieved to have Adam back, he was no longer Gracie. Eli's mouth formed a small smile as he joined their hug before ruffling Adams hair. Adam frozen with the scene in front of him but soon came to and hugged them both. He now knew that he had the best friends in the whole world and that he was indeed a boy, regardless of what other's thought.
Oh, how could you do it?
Oh, I never saw it coming?
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh, I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?
You can take your time, take my time
Song: when it rains
Artist: paramore
I think I killed Adam's story : T tell me what you think, any requests? I did this one rather quickly lol