When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
And that that was the day that I promised,
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist
(Clare's pov) I placed the picture frame back in my night stand, taking a deep breath; I started ascending down the flight of stairs. I turned to see my dad sitting on the couch with the TV on, he tried to fool me but I knew he wasn't focused on the golf terminate he was too busy thinking of her. My mother, it's been a year today since they been divorced and she left to the states I never heard from her again. ~flashback~ "Clare, honey" my mother began, I sat in the wooden chair in the kitchen dinner. My eyes traveled between my mom and my dad, he refused to make eye contact with me, and I knew then and there that this was it. I didn't want this to be true but my mom's lack of emotion told me she was leaving, and the suitcase, bags on the first step of the stairs. "your father and are getting a divorce, we stopped loving each other" she still kept her face emotionless, dad got up and left the room he tried to hide the tears that were falling down his wrinkled, red cheeks but I saw them. I made my decision the moment the door closed with a thump "I want to stay with dad" I immediately spoke, she wasn't startled she unfolded her fingers "ok sweetie, I wont forget you, ill write to everyday" she hugged me and got up took her suitcase and bags and walked out the door, and out of my life. ~end flashback~ I shook my head, as to rid of the memories as I kissed my father's forehead and reached for my coat, "daddy" I murmur "I'm going out now, will you be okay?" he waved me off and with that I step out my door and into the waiting hearse outside….
But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
(Clare's pov) the whole car ride was silent, Eli knew what day it was so he didn't question my lack of talking. I couldn't believe on how she could just so easily say she stopped loving the man she was married to for 20 years. It didn't add up. My breath fogged the hearse window I placed my forehead on the window and closed my eyes as another flashback hit me. ~flashback~ "Clare!" I turned to the calling voice; my mother stood smiling at me from the front door of the cabin. I couldn't help but giggle as I saw my dad quietly creep up behind her; he picked her up in one quick motion. "Randle!" she gasped but quickly giggled like a school girl. My dad began to spin her around on the porch, Darcy and I smiled at them. Dad then placed my mother down but before he did he kissed her nose, my mother blushed. He turned to us "come on girls time for dinner" we raced to the cabin Darcy of course winning she bolted threw the doors and my mother went right after her but my dad grab her hand and spun her around and kissed her with the most passion my 10year old eyes have ever seen, when they finally broke apart they were smiling at each other, locked eyes, not aware of anything else but one another. Flashback ends~ tears were begging to form on my eyes, oh how those were happy times….
Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keep a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
(Clare's pov) maybe love is not real, maybe it the feeling fades away. Maybe there is no such thing as love it just a lie. I gritted my teeth, if this was true then why is Eli with me? It can't be just for lust right? Are we going to end up like my parents if we stay together?"Clare!" Eli snapped me out of my thoughts, "we are here" I ripped my gave from the window to the scenery in front of me. We were in a deserted park; I squinted my eyes and saw an old playground a few feet away. Why? I thought why are we here? Eli smirked and got out of the car I followed his lead and stepped out. Eli came to my side and took my hand and we made to the playground.
But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
I've got a tight grip on reality
(Clare's pov) Eli's grip on my hand stayed in tact as we our feet made contact with the over grown grass. I kept my gaze away from him, I couldn't let him see my glassy eyes, this was supposed to be our date, just him and I and I couldn't ruin it by talking of my parents lives. I bit my lip as he started to whistle an unfamiliar tune, the wind blew Goosebumps appeared on my arms but I kept walking. When we reached the jungle gym I thought we were going to swing but he surprised me when we passed it and keep walking, Eli then separated our hands as he speed off to a merry-go-around. He began to slowly spin it, when he got a good speed on it he jumped , he went around once when he was half way to where I was standing, he smirked extending his warm hand towards me "my lady" I smiled as he neared, reaching for his hand…
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof
It's not a dream oh
(Clare's pov) I laid my back on the cold, rusty merry-go-round as it kept on twirling. Eli laid next to me, I absentmindedly got closer, his fingers intertwining with mine, I closed my eyes as I let the wind blow on my face." Clare" he whispered in my ear, my eyes fluttered opened and my breath got caught on my throat. His eyes, his green emeralds shone so brightly on the moonlight, his dark brown hair was sticking up in different places, his skin-tone looked paler, I couldn't tear my gaze away from him, "I know it hurts, even after a year but just know I wont ever leave you" the tear that I kept fighting off all day pour out with those words, he wrapped his arms around me I cried into his chest as my sobs increased I felt like my lungs were going to collapse from the lack of air, my vision became blurry. I didn't know if I was strong enough to handle the pain if Eli ever left me, I would brake even more. He was the glue that kept me together…but all thoughts evaporated when he whispered those three little words that I was afraid of hearing for so long "I love you" those words were what I was most terrified of, instead of my heart being guarded, my heart somehow became full. That empty space my mother once left was now filled, it became mended. I wasn't afraid anymore…
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing
song: the only exception
artist: paramore
authors note: ilovetaylorswift13 im sorry for making you cry, i thought that that story fitted well with that song :) but im glad you enjoyed it and MadameDegrassi96 lol you make me laugh and er..i guess i got no way out of it huh? im only kidding. im glad i know atleast you read my songs and actually review! *hint, hint* and uh i guess this is it? feel free to ask for more request my ipod needs more songs! :D