Author's note: this is one that's kind of personal, I like to dedicate it to a lovely person I had the pleasure of meting, his name was max. He was only 19 when he died of heart failure, so kid this is one for you. And yes you were the best thing that's has ever been mine. :) Basically this is OUR story huh? Just a little different….I miss you already! R.I.P MAX Feb.-28- Oct 15, 2010
Oh, oh oh
Oh, oh, oh
You were in college working part time
Waiting tables
Left a small town
Never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I leaned my chin on the palm of my right hand; I stopped doodling on my notebook. I kept my gaze on Eli; he was cleaning the remains of the deserted table. Sweat was around his forehead, but he kept scrubbing the dirty table mumbling curse words under his breath. A small smile appeared in my lips as I saw him stand straight up, our eyes locked and I couldn't help but smile brighter. He gave me his famous smirk and winked placing the white towel around his shoulder and duck in his tips in his brown apron with the THE DOT slogan. He gave me a wink and proceeded to make his way to the new group of highshcoolers forming in the back booths. I sighed and looked down to see my whole notebook have pictures of us holding hands, his name Eli Goldsworthy & Clare Edwards scattered all around. I blushed hoping no one saw that and closed the black note book and stashed it in my backpack and continue to slowly slip down my coffee twirling the straw aimlessly waiting for his shift to be over so that we could go home together..
I say can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes I can see it now
A few minutes later, Eli was off work, he smiled looking at me; I returned the gesture and laced our fingers together as he pulled me closer to his body, his smell automatically consumed my nostrils and I was intoxicated, his body heat made me feel like I was wearing a blanket in the dessert. Yup that hot. He kissed my temple and we headed to morty. I knew that there was no way to describe what we had, it wasn't friendship but I couldn't put my finger on it. We surprised me by taking a detour home instead of taking the short cut he went the long way by the lake. The same lake that we took our first dip, my first underwater kiss, the one were we lay underneath the stars and traded I love you's. I pressed my forehead against the window and smiled as we seemed to slowing down once we reached the little path….
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
The path was covered by sakura cherry blossom trees, the wind blew them into the windy air, Eli kept his gaze on the road, and did he know where we were? I stole a glance away from the window to him; he was smiling, actually smiling. I threw my hands around him; he chuckled and placed one arm around my waist kissing my cheek. He knew where we were!
Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents mistakes
But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes this is what I thought about
We stepped out of morty and sat on the steel bench that was there, I placed my head on Eli's shoulder and closed my eyes letting the peaceful serenely invour me. Everything was going perfect. But of course nothings ever perfect between us, don't get me wrong this scenery made me feel like the weight was lifted off my shoulder's but only because I was with Eli, he was my rock . We still had no support from neither of our parents, so we had to find a way to pay for our own little place (his apartment that I'm moving in soon! I hope) we had the electric bill, morty's gas all this for us both…soon to be three (Eli doesn't know this yet, I'm trying to find the best time to tell him)…but for all those negatives were instantly replaced with the good, we were both honest with our past relationships and he even knew about my parent's fighting my dad's cheating and their divorced. But he did not once leave me alone to deal with it in the contrary as soon as I left my guard down a little he spurned to save me from landing on the floor with a splat.
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Who would have thought that I, Clare Diane Edwards finished high school a year early ran away from home, am a 17 year old that's pregnant with the hearse-driving-gothic boy who stole her heart from the moment he crushed her glasses? I for sure didn't believe it, this "gothic boy" was the best thing that has ever happened to me, he was a blessing in disguised, in all black at that. No one could understand how we felt for each other, we had a special bond, words weren't needed here, and our eyes could read into our souls. I opened my eyes and gave him a smile; he looked down and captured my lips in his. A quick flashback of our first kiss here came to me. I remember it was way past midnight on our second date after I suggested getting matching piercings that Eli decided what we were going to do, so instead of every cliché movie-dinner date that every normal guy takes you Eli took me to a dead hand special show for a few selected fans that took placed in a sports bar that I knew this guy would make me break rules faster then I could think and I was totally fine with it. He as he put it "rebellion frees the tortured soul" and I couldn't help but agree I needed an excuse to leave my wretched household. I knew it was now or never…."Eli I'm-pregnant" I softly chocked on the last word. His eyes went wide…
And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
The next few words were a blur all I remember is rushing out of the bench out of his grasp and started running away, my feet barely touching the concrete floor, he I presumed called after me but his voice was barely audible. I couldn't believe this I was a 17 year old pregnant girl with no place to go, no job experience, and now no boyfriend to turn to. The tears seemed too increased as this thoughts formed into my head. I was stupid Eli didn't love me like I loved him, I gave him everything. Even my pureness! I forcefully wiped away my tears with the back of my hand, I felt a cold hand around my arm and I was sponged around by its owner…Eli stood there not knowing what to say, he released his grip on me and I crossed my arms around my stomach as to protect the unborn child. He or she was all I had left now. The sakura bubs fell slowly around us, it was as time stood still just for us, and I could see he was struggling to find the words. He was going to break my already breaking heart….I was bracing myself…
B raced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's al I've ever know
Then you took me by surprise
You said ill never leave you alone
You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine
I was dreaming, it had to be! There is no way that Eli is crying his arms around me squeezing me so tightly. He kept apologizing for the sudden outburst, I patted his back as to re-sure him it was okay. I was sincerely lost. He loosen his grip and cupped my face, the sudden touch sent shivers down my spine as his eyes look deep into mine, I couldn't blink I couldn't stop this gaze. It was moment like this that I knew that Eli was truly remarkable and spellbinding. His soft velvet voiced spoke"Clare, this is our baby I'm not leaving you alone to take care of it and yourself. I have always taken care of you so I won't stop now, Ill take care of you and how many other's come. We made this little buddle of joy-together so we figure everything out that way. Got it? " I couldn't believe my ears; he was going to take the responsibility with that we kissed…
Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you believe it?
Were gonna make it now
I can see it
I can see it now
Song: mine
Artist: Taylor swift
Author's note: not my best I believe but either way this one is for you max….