After.

Chapter Five: Go

"Want to dance?"

Shepard glanced up at Kaidan, her eyes narrowed, "You think I'm that drunk?"

"Yes."

Smiling, she took Kaidan's hand, as he led her to the dance floor. It was a slow song, so he pulled her close – moving slowly with the tune.

"I didn't know you could dance, Alenko," Gaz teased, as he spun her.

"I didn't know you could walk in anything other than combat boots," he replied, as the music's tempo began to rise.

Shepard carefully moved a bit quicker, in order to knock him into a table. He stumbled slightly, before regaining control of the dance.

"Everything's a fight for you, isn't is Shepard?" he asked, his voice not kind – his moves a bit more aggressive.

"Is anything not a fight...ever?" she asked, holding an innocent expression, before laughing.

"I guess when all you've done is fight for about a year straight, I can understand that outlook."

"Nah, it comes from the fact that there are several mercs in here that possibly recognize us," she whispered, turning Kaidan so he could see a very specific side of the Dark Star.

"Shit...what do we do?" he asked – Shepard able to feel his heart skip a beat in his chest.

"I'm always your Commander, aren't I?" she asked, as the mercs approached – her eyes shooting to the table that had previously housed some of her crew. It was now empty.

"Spin me," she ordered, then roll me out. I can take out the closest merc."

"I missed you," he smiled, before following orders. Shepard moved carefully, stabbing the merc in the throat with a knife she had previously hidden in her dress. The batarian fell silently. Luckily the crowd was thick enough and the movement was ordinary enough, no one had managed to notice the kill. Somehow.

Kaidan pulled her back, his eyes shining. A grin upon his face. Shepard's expression was blank as she studied the next nearest batarian.

"Most likely next round is going to alert everyone. I have a gun that would be pretty useful right now," she bit her lip in thought, "Okay this is going to feel weird."

Kaidan gasped slightly, as she used him to cover the fact that she was removing a weapon from her inner thigh.

"Would you like a gun or a knife?" she asked, as Kaidan's expression recovered.

"I have biotics – you don't. You can have both."

"Knife it is," she smirked, sliding the folded weapon into the palm of his hand, before she leaned close to his ear and whispered, "I duck down and start knee-capping the ones on the right, you warp the ones on the left...got that?"

"I warp the ones on the left while you take the ones on the right."

"Three...two...one...go!"

–

"Ahh..." Joker gasped as Kelly moved herself up and down slowly – her eyes never leaving his face. It was almost if she was studying him.

"You think that feels good?" she purred, as she pulled him up slightly – forcing his back against the headboard – his pants quickly being ruined by Kelly's actions – for they were still over halfway up his thighs. Kelly had only managed to undress herself fully, before sliding onto him.

She let herself move a bit quicker in this new position – Joker's mouth falling open as he gasped. Kelly giggled, throwing her head back, before leaning forward and passionately kissing the fragile pilot. He wrapped his arms around her as she moved. He grit his teeth slightly, as both their breathing increased. Kelly suddenly became notably more audible – causing Joker to focus more upon the naked woman that was having her way with him. Her face distorted in ways he had only ever seen in porn. Mouth hanging open, he watched as she moved faster and faster – never hitting him hard enough to cause any damage. She finally let out a large gasp – and everything he felt of her tightened, increasing his pleasure ten-fold. A pressure was quickly building inside him – but Kelly slowed for a moment to regain her composure, before going all out. Her eyes focused upon him, as she quickly moved up and down – Joker bucking slightly with each thrust. Then – release. He let out a gasp, and grunted a few times, before relaxing into slow pants. His eyes studied her, as he smiled. That was...amazing.

Kelly climbed off, and lay next to him – smiling, before she sat up and began sliding back on her clothing.

"I'm glad I got laid tonight. I was afraid I'd be the only person on shore leave who didn't," she laughed, shaking her head. Joker remained in place – still panting. Her words not sinking in, as he adjusted his now crooked hat.

"What?" he finally asked, feeling a tingling sensation through his arms and legs. He half wondered if he somehow broke something but missed it because boobs were in his face.

"You know – people try to get some when we have shore leave. A bit of a tradition. I struck out earlier," she shrugged, straightening her bra strap under her shirt, "Glad to have you, Joker," she kissed his forehead lightly, "I'm going to go rinse the sex off before people start coming back. Need any help getting somewhere?"

Joker blinked, before shaking his head, "No...no...I'm fine."

–

"Well this drink with you managed to kill ten batarians," Kaidan frowned, as they left the Dark Star, shortly after the authorities questioned them and found out that they were both Spectres.

"Sounds like an average vacation to me. Skyllian Blitz?"

"Ha...right. I forgot about that."

"I try to. Though people like to bring it up."

"People like the past like that. Tend to focus on it and ignore the present."

Shepard stopped and watched Kaidan for a moment.

"What is it, Gaz? Everything all right?"

"I'm not sure."

"What's wrong?"

"People tend to think about the past, which overshadows the future," she stated – rewording his earlier words.

"It's true."

"I wish it wasn't."

"Gaz?"

She placed a hand on his shoulder, "If I concentrate on the past with you, I can trick myself into ignoring the fact that you've been an ass to me. If I actually pay attention to now, I think of the other crew from the SR-1 days, and how they all had my back without hesitation. Tali and Garrus stopped their lives to come back to the Normandy. Wrex supported me without even a second thought. Liara uses her information to constantly help us," her voice was growing heated, "Joker was there right at the beginning with the Normandy."

"It's not the Normandy, Shepard. It's a different ship," Kaidan's voice was cold.

"Then I'm not Shepard. I'm a different person."

"You're right," he threw up his hands in defeat, and started to walk away, "I don't know who you are. You aren't the woman I fell in love with over two years ago. You aren't the woman who defeated Saren. I don't know who you are," his eyes narrowed, as he continued to back away from Shepard, "This was a mistake. Goodnight," he shot her a half-hearted wave, and disappeared into the crowd of the Citadel – leaving Shepard standing alone.

–

AN: SO MUCH EMOTION. And oh god – sex. I tried to make it fun to read without being like PENIS IN THE VAGINA stuff. Sex isn't something that should be like...gross. It's two people making each other feel good. And the Kaidan/Shep part. Oh god that was so sad to write. I see them both as a bit "unstable" towards each other – like higher emotions that they don't know what to do with. I've been there with people. It ain't fun. I've even had conversations like that before – when you realize that being with someone is just going to annoy you. Blah. Depressing. And gah! Kelly why are you running away! I am far too emotionally invested in these characters...

Rated M for: Language, future sexual situations, future violence, and so I can have freedom without fear of scarring a teen for life.

Oh – and I don't own anything ever.