A/N: Hey! I'm really happy and I'm so thankful to all of you how reviewed! You guys rock! Now I know you guys want to read so here is chapter 5 ***I DON'T OWN VA***

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Chapter 5: shocked

DPV:

Stupid, Stupid, Stupid. You should have told her! UGH! That was a good chance to tell her. Why am I so stupid, stupid. Now I have to wait till tonight. No more chickening out this time. You will tell her.

I just hope….that this doesn't end badly…..*sigh* Roza… wait! I have an idea….i just hope she likes it….

RPV:

As soon as I got inside my dad was in front of me. "Where is Dimitri?" he asked.

"Umm he went home. But he'll be back….later…" I said uncertainly. He nodded. "I'll be in my room baba I'll see you at dinner." I hurried up the stairs and into my room. As soon as I got to my room l got in and locked it. I laid my back against the door and sighed.

Who should I believe? Dimitri, who I've known all my life or Adrian, who lies, cheats, and is a dick? Ugh I wish my mom where here….she'd know what to do…

Then my phone vibrated. It was a text…from Dimitri!

From Dimitri:

Roza won't be coming over until seven tonight at dinner. I'm sorry but I'm working on something so I'll just see you for dinner. See you soon, love you

Dimitri.

Great right when I need him the most.

To Dimitri:

Alright I'll see you at dinner than Dimitri. I hope you come over soon…I really need you….i love you too

Roza

Maybe I can play my guitar…. It's been really long since I played. Ever since my mom died I barely even touch my guitar anymore. So I was pretty hesitant on picking it up. I tuned my guitar up and played some strings. *sigh* it's just…..not the same anymore…. Then some lyrics just sprang in my head. "There must be something more…. Do we know what we're fighting for….breathe in… breathe out…." I played that line on my guitar and notes just flowed on…my mom always said I was a natural at making music…..*sigh* mom…..

Then that's when I got the most brilliant idea. If I can't decide while thinking maybe I'll just write it in a song! I always put my feelings into my songs…..i'll make a song for me and Dimitri.

Then I moved to my piano in the corner of my room that has been untouched for two years. I got out my notebook and sheet music and started working on the song.

Dinner time, three hours later.

"ROSE! IT'S TIME FOR DINNER! PEOPLE ARE ABOUR TO START ARRIVING! YOU BETTER BE DOWN IN FIVE MINUTES!" yelled Abe from down stairs.

"Alright! I'll be down in a couple of minutes!" I yelled back. I finished the song and I had to admit. I was pretty happy with myself. This was the first song I had done since my mom died.

"ROSE GET-"

"IM COMING! JEZZZ!" I yelled coming down the stairs. Then that's when the doorbell ring. "I'll get it dad!" I said while straightening my dress out while rushing to the door. I opened the door and saw dimitri carrying in food in a giant pan. "Hey Dimka you need help with that?" I joked. He just rolled his eyes at me then froze. He looked at me and if I had to say so I would say he was checking me out. "see something you like comrade?" he chuckled again, he come in and went straight to the kitchen. Then Victoria, Sonya, and his oldest sister Karolina with her two year old son Paul came through the door. Each sister was carrying more food. "Hey!" I said while trying to give everyone a hug.

"Rose what is going on? Seriously you and dimitri are like sooo….i can't explain it but something is going on now what is it? Please! I can keep a secret." Victoria said one arm hugging me. I looked at her shocked. "I…there is nothing going on between me and Dimitri. Seriously!" I managed to get out.

"suuurrreee…." She said winking. Then she went to the dining room while I was standing there dumb folded. Then Olena and Yeva came in. I saw a twinkle in Yeva's eyes. One I haven't seen in a long time.

"Hi Olena, Yeva." I said while giving them both a hug and kissing their cheek. Then closing the door. I was about to follow Olena to the kitchen but then Yeva grabbed my arm and said "listening to your heart and you'll find the answers that you seek. But don't let fear stop you from doing what your heart wants. It will all come in do time" With that she left to the kitchen. Listen to you heart for the answers that you seek…..does that mean she knows what answers I'm searching for? Don't let fear stop you? why would I be afraid? May-

"Rose. Rose? ROSE!" I jolted out of my thoughts. "What!" I said startled. Dimitri looked at me strangely. "I've been calling your name for three minutes. Are you alright?" he asked.

"yea im fine sorry I was just thinking…..what were you going to say?" I told him.

"oh Dinner is ready and Lissa's mom just called they'll be here in two minutes." Just then the doorbell rang. "Or now." I went to get the door. I was expecting Lissa but what shocked me more was that it was Adrian standing with a dozen roses and carrying a huge box of chocolate.

"Adrian?" I said shocked. "What are you doing here?" he looked smug like this was the response he was looking for.

"Rose look I know I'm the last person you may want to see right now but I just came here to say I'm sorry. I know it wasn't right for me to behave like that on an important day for you. I know that you think all these shitty things about me but I just want another chance. I want to prove to you that i am different than what others say about me. Please give me one more chance. I won't mess up again I swear." He said, practically begging. I looked at him in the eyes and saw that he was telling the truth. But…..i looked back to where Dimitri was and saw that he wasn't there anymore. What should I do…. Listen to you heart for the answers that you seek…..Yeva's words echoed I'm my head.

Then I started thinking. Do I really want him back? Yeah he was sweet and gave me anything that I wanted but do I really want to lose Dimitri because of him? I knew that answer. No. I didn't want to lose DImitri. He was my strength that I needed after everything that happened. I can't lose him. If I did I know I wouldn't be able to survive. Just like that I knew my answer.

"I'm sorry Adrian…. But Dimtri was right….i can't keep doing this…I'm sorry but the answer is no. I'm-"

"ROSE!" I heard lissa scream. Then I was tackled to the ground while being crushed to death in an ultimate bear hug. "LISSA CANT BREATHE!" I said while laughing. "SORRY!" she screamed while getting off of me and helping me up. We both looked at each other and started cracking up.

"Rose sweetheart, how are you?" asked Rhea Lissa's mother while giving me a hug.

"I'm great Rhea thank you. And my dad and Dimitri's mom is in the kitchen getting the food ready." then I saw Eric and Andre carrying bottles of soda and beer and wine. Leave it to them to bring the goods. After them came Christian carrying the baby bag in one arm and Rose in the other.

"aunty rosie!" yelled little rose. Awww.

"Rose! How's my favorite niece doing?" I said in a baby voice while grabbing Rose in my arms. I gave her a kiss in both cheeks than on her nose. It's always what I do when I say hi to her. She's just so cute.

"I'm gooood aunty rosie! Where is uncle dimi?" I laughed. Uncle Dimi was what little rose called Dimitri because she can't say Dimitri yet. It's so adorable.

"Um rose?" I looked back to where Adrian was still standing. "Can you please leave Adrian? I told you no. now please just go." With that I took little Rosie inside because one I'm hungry and two it was getting cold outside.

"How about we go see uncle DImi?" I asked little Rose. "YESSSS! Pleeeessssss." She yelled. I laughed. I heard lissa laugh behind me. I looked back and saw her helping Christian with the bag. I shook my head and laughed again. Then I walked down the hallway and went to the kitchen but saw that Dimitri wasn't there. Then I checked the living room and saw him on the seat of the grand piano we had. It looked like he was edging towards the keys with his hands….like he wanted to play. Before I could say anything little rose shouted. "UNCLE DIMI!" he got up so fast that he could of thrown the seat down to the ground. But then he relaxed once he saw me and little rose.

"Hey there my little cutie pie. How are you?" he said while walking towards me and taking little rose out of my hands. Seeing Dimitri holding Rose got my mood all over the place. Once again the jealously and self-longing came and attacked me. I finally got to my breaking point. I felt tears in my eyes. I saw Dimitri throwing Rose into the air and catching her. She giggled her sweet laughter which got Dimitri to laugh as well. Then he saw my face.

"Oh Roza." He said then put Rose down. "Rose go back to your mom. I have to talk with your aunty rose for a minute okay? We'll play after dinner." With that Rose's face lit up and she ran away to her mom. Tears started falling out without my permission. A sob came into my throat and then I was in Dimitri's arms. He was saying things in Russian but I was only able to pick up "My love" in it. He was running his fingers in my hair and soothing me until I finally stopped crying.

"Why is it always me…." I cried. "shhhh." Dimitri whispered.
"Where's my happy ending? Why did everything happen to me? WHY?" my voice cracked, then I started crying again. Then Dimitri picked me up and carried me to my room without anyone noticing. Once he got to my room he closed the door and locked it. Then he sat down on my bed with me in his lap.

"Roza….please listen." He whispered. I looked up to him and saw many emotions in his eyes. "You will get your happy ending soon. It will come. And with everything that has happened, it made you so strong." I put my head on his chest. He then wrapped his arms around my waist and held me there. "Yes you had to go through hell the past couple of years but it made you become a wonderful woman. Your mom would be so proud of who you have become. Just like I am." He said. My crying stopped and I looked at him.

"You-you really think so?" I asked.

"I know so." He said. Then he did something that shocked me. He kissed me. And the worst part was…I kissed him back.

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