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New Day, New Town

Chapter Eleven

Dean stood in the doorway for what seemed like forever, finding it too hard to actually enter Anna's room. Once he stepped in, still he wasn't able to bring himself to sit by her side. He moved a few feet from the door and slide down against the wall until he sat on the floor. He stayed there even when Anna woke up for a short period of time, no longer than 15 minutes. She was weak and drowsy and only concerned about Ellie, worried something had happened to her like she always has been. Anna told Ellie she needed to take care of herself by going to the hotel to get some sleep, her waiting around at hospital wouldn't do either of them any good. She had told Dean he should go too, but he just stared up at her from the floor and shook his head saying how he wasn't even tired.

"Then why are you just sitting on the floor?" Dean smirked at her and Anna chuckled softly. Her eyes became heavy, slowly closing until she was asleep once again.

Sam stopped by his brother, kneeling down to talk to him before walking out behind Ellie. "You really should come back to the hotel, there isn't anything we can do here, like Anna said, and being exhausted won't help her in anyway either."

Dean shook his head numbly. "No, I'm not leaving her. Not unprotected, I'm fine here."

Sam nodded, not up for a fight with his brother right now not when it was a guaranteed loose. He gave his shoulder a firm pat before getting up and meeting up with Ellie down the hall.

The only sound in the room was the steady beep of the heart monitor, and the soft sound of Anna breathing. Dean continued to sit on the floor working on a strategy, how was he going to get Anna to change her mind about a new heart. He was probably the only one who understood why she was willing to let herself die rather than live because someone couldn't. He was also sure that she didn't see how she was more worthy of getting the transplant over someone else; her job was to protect and save people so of course she'd want the heart to go to another person who would need it. But if she died then the people who she would have protected in the future would died too.

I need a good argument; she'd be give someone's life meaning after death, they won't really be gone they'll be living on inside her. Dean shook his head. No, that sounds a little creepy. How is she supposed to help people if she's dead, with her death that could mean the death of 100 people; that could be a good point to make. She's already said Ellie doesn't need her, so no point in wasting my time with that and she already doesn't care how the person may have died, natural causes or DOA at an accident.

Dean looked up when he noticed movement at Anna's bed; he finally stood up and approached her bed when she made a soft groan. "Anna?" His voice sounded tired and depressed even to his own ears. Who would have thought I'd ever be this distraught by someone other than Sammy or Bobby being in the hospital. I would fall for someone who's dying.

She looked broken, Dean never would have thought he'd ever see Anna look like someone who just went 20 rounds and lost. Her eyes had dark circles around them, which only seemed more pronounced when her green eyes open slowly. He put his hand on the side of her face gently, running his fingers through her hair, leaned down and softly placing a kiss on her forehead.

The corner of Anna's mouth twitched up in a slight smile, she turned her head into his affectionate kiss fearing for a second she had only imagined his touch. "Dean?"

"Yeah, right here." Dean closed his hand around her own small one, giving it a gently squeeze as her eyes opened fully and met his. "How you doing?"

Anna shrugged, the best she could in the position she was currently in. "I feel stiff, this is probably the worst bed I've ever been stuck in."

Dean felt a pang in his heart the way he heard Anna say 'stuck in'. "Anna, how many times have you ended up in the hospital over the last say five years? Not because of the job, I mean because of your heart."

"I don't know, I don't think I've ever thought to count or keep track. Enough to be able to write reviews and give them star ratings; I could probably make suggestions to anyone in almost any state. It's not really a big deal, I go in one day and two later I'm out."

He leaned back letting go of Anna's hand. "No, actually it is a big deal. You realize this is really it, don't you? Anna, you need a new heart the one you have has lost its fight and can't take anymore strain."

Anna shook her head, pushing herself up to a sitting position. "No, I'm not doing it. I've been prepared for this for years, Dean and I made my decision a long time ago. I know Ellie can take care of herself now, even though I worry about her it just part of being a big sister."

"Do you think she doesn't worry about you? Hell, she might worry about you more than you do about her. She has a sister she loves and needs, no matter how much you many think she doesn't, with a deadly condition. She has to worry about waking up one day to find you not breathing on the bed next to hers. That's a huge thing to have on your mind constantly."

Anna closed her eyes tightly and sighed. "I get everything you're saying Dean, I do but I'm just not prepared to live thanks to another human being. I know I personally am not the reason whoevers heart I may get didn't die because of me but that's not the point. They'll still be dead and I won't be what if the person has a family or kids?"

"They wouldn't be giving you the person's whole life story and-"

"So is that supposed to make it okay? The fact that I won't know anything about the donor, not even if it's a man or woman? That doesn't change anything Dean and you know it, it doesn't make it better and it doesn't make it okay."

Dean could see Anna beginning to get worked up and knew he needed to get her to calm down. "I didn't say that to make it okay, maybe not knowing would make it easier."

"I sorry but it doesn't, not that it even matters because this is a wasted conversation."

"But it's one you know we have to have, just put yourself in my shoes for a few minutes. What would you be doing or how would you be acting if I were the one basically on my death bed and I could be saved if I just would stop being stubborn?"

Anna sighed, looking down at the blanket covering her lap. She knew exactly what she would do and it was something very similar to what he was doing only she'd probably cry a little. Get the sympathy going in her favor, make him change his mind.

"Look, I get your reasoning more than anyone else I'm willing to bet on that but your life has purpose, meaning. You do amazing things that you shouldn't be forced to stop just because something has decided to give up on you. How many people do you think you saved last year? And I'm not just talking about any targeted victims but anyone who would have been killed if you didn't stop whatever monster you went after."

"If you count future victims, I don't know hundreds I guess. But that doesn't-"

"How many people do you think will suffer now? How many people will end up dead if you don't go through with this operation? Too many to even think about, Anna your life it matters. You save people, there aren't that many people who would do what we do or give up all that we've given up. Most people give up completely when they've lost ever thing and everyone that they could possible loose but people like us, hunters, it makes us stronger makes us fight harder. You're giving up Anna and you can't, you're too important."

She shook her head, the feeling of tears burning in her eyes making her angry at herself. "How could my life be any more important than anyone else's? If it's my time than it is what it is."

"How can it be 'you time' if there is someone out there able to help because their time was up? You're being a hypocrite and not even doing it right, you're time is up when there are no other ways out or no alternate plans. You have another way out, you time obviously isn't up yet you just have to be willing to take the jump. People volunteer to be organ donors; they want to be able to help others should something happen to them you refusing to accept their help is a slap in the face. What happens when people refuse our help? They die and what does that do to us? Makes us feel like we've failed our fathers and failed at what we're supposed to be the best at."

Somehow, Dean had no clue how he manages it, his voice was calm and even the entire time he had been speaking with Anna. Inside he wanted to scream, throw a chair out the window, do something to show her how frustrating this was for him but he was level headed. It all sounded goo to him, his argument to her, but was it good enough to get her to change her mind and agree with him? She needed to see his way of thinking, or at least see this point. If he were to be perfectly honest he was being completely selfish about the whole thing, he didn't want to lose Anna. Dean figured he'd lost everything except for Sammy that he deserved to be selfish just once in his life.

Anna said nothing for a while, two sat in silent for what seemed like hours before she started to talk again. "Even if I wanted to get the transplant who knows how long it would take to find a donor that's a match."

"A match isn't a problem; the doctor told me your blood type is AB universal or something at least as a recipient. And after this whole thing you're bumped up to the top of the donor list, Dr. Stiles said you'd be prepared for surgery in the next 24 hours." Dean could practically see the gears turning in her head; he could see her mind changing right in front of him.

"Would it be weird for me to say that I'm scared?"

Dean laughed lightly. "Why would that be weird, this is a big thing to have done."

"With what we see every day going through something like this shouldn't scare me, I stare death right in the face all the time."

"This isn't the same thing; it's not weird to be scared."

Anna sat still for a couple of seconds then nodded. "So, I guess this is going to happen then. I bet you're proud of yourself, you did something Ellie's been trying to do for years but couldn't."

"I must be better at negotiating; maybe I should have been a cop or something. I could always try the law enforcement gig for a while; see how it works for me. I don't how well it would work seeing how I've been a wanted felon about 4 times, something to think about though. Hey, I could talk suicides off the ledge maybe that's my calling."

"You'd never be able to put this stuff behind you; it's in your blood and you kind of love being the hero."

"I do like being the hero, you're right but see now if I was a cop I'd be doing pretty much the same thing only without the demons and ghosts. So I wouldn't really be putting anything on the back burner or giving up anything. Besides, I've been starting to think that maybe I want out someday. I mean this isn't my ideal life; something more relaxing would be nice. I'd like to spend two days without having to constantly watch my back to see if anything is coming at me or at Sam."

"Dean Winchester, are you saying that you want to settle down? I feel like that's way too much of a jump for you, well beyond your character. You're a lifer, just like me. We're not like Sam or Ellie, I could see them getting out they're all about school they'd find a new life. But us? We were meant for this and nothing else, as much as I'd love to get out I know I'd always be looking for that next job."

Dean smiled, leaning down until their lips touched. "It'd be nice though, living without worrying."

"If it wasn't monsters we were worrying about it'd be something else, house, bills, living in a good area."

"Yeah, I guess you're right. I'm gonna go find your doctor; let him know he'll need to get ready for a transplant. I'll be back in a little bit."

Anna nodded, watching him get up and move toward the doorway. "Hey Dean?"

He stopped, turning to look at her lying in her bed. "Yeah?"

She smiled at him. "I love you."

Dean grinned back at Anna, no longer feeling as if he was going to pass out from exhaustion at any second. "I love you too Anna."

TBC

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