Chapter Thirteen

Adam POV

I tried to get through the day as normal as possible and not focus on the night before, but it was proving incredibly difficult and I couldn't stop myself thinking about Jake. A guy sneaking into my bedroom at midnight and snogging my face off, that kind of stuff didn't happen in real life - at least not mine. Thankfully, Dad nor Kate had no idea Jake came over but I still felt jumpy and guilty whenever they asked me a question at breakfast this morning.

Why had a let Jake kiss me?!

Because you wanted him to, that annoyance thought came straight away and I groaned in frustration as I tried to concentrate on the textbook I was reading in History Class.

I seriously was trying to keep my mind focused on the text I was meant to be reading about World War Two, but flashes of last night kept coming back to me.

I moved my hand to cup the side of his face as he Jake moaned silently against my lips, gently pushing me back onto my pillows and then straddled my waist.

The small smile that curved Jake's amazing mouth was unbearable and I grabbed Jake's neck and pulled him into another kiss, loving the taste of his mouth as I let my hands trail up his shoulders and slid off his leather jacket and threw it on the floor. Jake chuckled and grinned at me, pulling back and sliding his T-shirt off his body and my eyes drank in his beautifully toned muscles.

No, I am reading about how Hitler destroyed all the history books because… because…

"God, you're beautiful" I breathed, sitting up with Jake still straddling my hips and let my fingers feel his strong chest. Jake's body stiffened when I touched him, but quickly relaxed as I softly kissed his neck and his breathing quickened as I found the soft spot on his neck that was making him gasp with pleasure.

"A-Adam…" Jake gasped, slowly grinding his hips against mine and that nearly drove me over the edge.

I screwed up my eyes and put my face in my hand, trying to clear my head and stop thinking about how sexy Jake's voice had sounded saying my name like that, I need to stop thinking about Jake. The way his lips felt against mine, the way his strong arms held me in his arms and the way…

For fuck's sake!

Jake reluctantly pulled back and his hands lightly tugged at my shirt, so I allowed him to take it off and his alluring brown eyes stared at me in astonishment. This was so new to both of us and felt so familiar at the same time, the nervousness and passion was undeniable and all I could think about was that Jake's touch was pure heaven.

I'm starting to sound cheesy now and saying that Jake touching me felt like pure heaven may have been over the top, but it had been pretty incredible. Ugh! Pull yourself together, man!

With my hands on either side of his face, I moved closer and kissed him again, allowing his tongue to enter my mouth and gently caress my tongue. His lips moved perfectly with mine and he bit playfully on my bottom lip, making me moan with delight into Jake's mouth and I felt his lips curved in a satisfied smirk as he kissed me again.

Yeah and then Jake grabbed my arse and completely over stepped the mark, which made me realise how stupid I was being. Not being funny or nothing, but how could someone like Jake (a heartthrob athlete and an amazing dancer) be attracted to someone like me (a bookish guy that focuses on his studies and working out to escape the real world) and actually like me. I'm not pitying myself, but I knew that Jake and I couldn't work - we were from completely different worlds, my Dad would kill me if he found out I was gay and these idiotic students would be a hell of a lot worse.

Last night was a one of and was never going to happen again, Jake would get over it and probably go back with Marley or Kitty or whoever. Even as I tried to reason with myself, tears stung my eyes as I walked down the corridor and tried to ignore the painful emotions in my gut.

Things weren't going to be the same between Jake and I, it would become too awkward for us to be in the same room and it'll get to the point where we won't be able to have a decent conversation. God, this wasn't going to end well.

At my locker I began pulling my books out for my next class, but the sound of a familiar voice made my stomach dropped to the floor and I turned to see Jake running towards me.

"Adam!"

I looked at him warily, feeling slightly nervous about what he was going to say.

"What?" I asked cautiously as he moved closer to me and brushed his fingers gently on my forearm, which made my skin tingle (how the fuck does he do that?!) and thankfully he didn't notice me suppressing a shudder.

"About last night, we need to talk." Jake began and I automatically shook my head in denial, which made Jake sigh with frustration. If we just pretended the kiss never happened, maybe we could still be mates and as much as that kiss meant to me - which was a lot because that was my first kiss, I'll just have to pretend it wasn't a big deal.

"Jake, just leave it, ok-" I began, but he cut across me. The look of determination on his face was telling me that he wasn't giving up until I'd heard him out.

"I can't" Jake said earnestly and the look of sincerity on his face made my heart melt, it didn't help that he was looking imploringly at me with those beautiful brown eyes "Adam, please just give me ten minutes… that's all I'm asking, somewhere alone where we can really talk… I mean, we're still friends…"

His voice faltered and I saw him glance at his shoes, avoiding my eyes and Jake looked completely crestfallen. I knew before I spoke the words that I couldn't leave our conversation like this and I should hear him out, because no matter how weird things had become between us in the last twenty-four hours… he was still my friend and I cared about him.

"Of course we are, Jake." I said gently, which made him look at me hopefully and I hesitated before continuing "alright, ten minutes."

Jake nodded with a bright smile on his face, grabbed my hand and pulled me into the deserted choir room - which luckily was across from my locker and no one seeemed to notice us holding hands. Once inside, I pulled my hand away from Jake's (although a big part of me wanted to hold it again) as he closed the door and locked it.

I raised an eyebrow and looked at him sceptically as he turned and grinned at me.

"Is locking the door really necessary?" I asked him and he simply shrugged, but I noticed the small bruise on his neck and my mouth fell open in horror "is that a love bite?"

"Yeah," Jake said casually and he winked at me as he rubbed the small mark "thanks for that. My Mom nearly ripped my head off and don't worry, I didn't tell her how I got it"

Shit, shit, shit, shit!

I put my face in my hands, my face burning bright red with humiliation and I quickly sat down in a spare seat on the first row of chairs. I flipped out at Jake for touching my butt (which I was still justified to do so, it was crossing the line too quickly), but I was just as bad and had gone all Dracula on him and left a visible mark from where I kissed his neck. Talk about pot calling the kettle black though.

"I'm sorry, Jake." I muttered in embarrassment as Jake chuckled and pulled up a chair, sitting directly opposite me.

"Hey, you've got nothing to apologies for, man" Jake said gently, leaning closer and taking my hands in his "I'm the one who overstepped his boundaries and I didn't mean to upset you, I was just sort of caught up in the moment."

"You're not the only one," I said with a reluctant smile, not bothered in the slightest that Jake was holding my hand again.

"And don't worry about the hickey, I wasn't complaining at the time I got it" Jake reassured me with a cocky grin, but his facial expression quickly became serious as he continued "but that's not why I'm here, I wanna talk about us…"

Us? I struggled to find my voice as he looked at me patiently, my mind trying to come up with a clever answer. What do you say when a drop-dead gorgeous bloke is talking to you like this?

"What do you mean" I said quietly, but mentally kicked myself for asking a more in-depth question. Jake however, didn't seem bothered by this and continued.

"I can't stop thinking about you," Jake said softly and my heartbeat quickened at the honest tone in his voice, he looked absolutely serious "you're one of the few people that know the real me and I feel like I can tell you anything… like now."

"Jake," I began, but he shook his head and I waited as he continued… he clearly needed to get this off his chest.

"Hold up," Jake continued awkwardly and sighed deeply "Adam, I pretty much know that I might be gay, but that's not the issue. The issue is, I'm attracted to you, I have feelings for you, I care about you and I wanna be with you… but I'm fucking terrified you don't feel the same."

Oh. My. God…

If I didn't know what to say earlier, I definitely had no idea what to say now. Jake Puckerman was baring his soul to me and expressing his feelings for me, but here I was sitting like a stunned moron and looking at Jake's concerned eyes while I tried to find my voice. Okay, you can do this… just be honest.

"Are you sure? I choked out and Jake nodded slowly, which meant this was the moment of truth and I took a deep breath to ready myself "Jake, I care about you too and as gay as this sounds, I feel the same but I don't want to risk our friendship being messed up."

Jake nodded in understanding, but it seemed like he had an answer for everything today and said softly:

"I know, man. But I won't pressure you into doing anything you don't want to do, but I think if we take the risk it'll be seriously worth it. I'm not saying that we have to be all flamboyant and go to gay pride parades, we could just be two people that care about each other a lot and want to be together."

I chuckled at Jake's confident grin and completely loved the way he was so sure that us being a couple could work, but I knew it wasn't that simple. Jake may just be accepting he's gay, but not everyone else will and I was still nervous about my Dad finding out about my sexuality or worse… my Mum.

"I need some time to think about it." I said gently and couldn't help but grin at Jake's hopeful smile.

"Cool," Jake grinned "you'll have plenty of time, I've been suspended for a few weeks and I'll be back before you know it."

"You're not getting expelled?" I said with relief and sighed, glad that this day had gone from bad to bloody fantastic in a few minutes.

"Nah, you can't get rid of me that easy," Jake said in an easy voice, but then his voice became husky and a hell of a lot sexier "but just in case I don't see you in the meantime, I want to give you something to remember what I said…"

Before I knew it, Jake cupped my face in his hands and pulled me into a soft kiss, making me shiver with pleasure as I quickly returned the kiss - neither of us caring where we were or that we might get caught.

Jake pulled away and rested his forehead against mine, closing his eyes and a peaceful smile on his lips.

"You know I'll probably see you outside of school," I told Jake with a snigger as he opened his eyes and his dark complexion became a little darker as he flushed with embarrassment "so that line wasn't only pointless, it was cheesy and stupid."

"I just wanted an excuse to do that," Jake defended with a grin as he gave me another soft peck on the lips and stood up "okay, now I really have to go or my Mom will cut me."

I laughed as I watched Jake leave, a sudden idea coming to me as I remembered what my Mum said I should do if I ever got a love bite - mainly because she would've killed me if she saw me with one.

"Toothpaste," I said simply, which made Jake turn and look at me in confusion so I explained "If you scrub the love bite off with toothpaste, it'll be red for like a day and then it should go back to normal after that. My Mum always warned to do that before she saw one on me or I'd be toast.

Jake chuckled and winked at me, looking impressed.

"Thanks for the tip," Jake said with that adorable grin "I'll see you tonight than."

And before I could say anything else, Jake opened the door and left.

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