Superstar
long ago
and oh so far away
I fell in love with you
before the second show
your guitar
it sounds so sweet and clear
but you're not really there
it's just the radio
don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do
loneliness, is such a sad affair
and I can hardly wait
to be with you again
what to say
to make you come again
come back to me again
and play your sad guitar
don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do
don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do
Audrey
So much has changed in the past months, we had new neighbors move in they were Larry and Lorraine with their two young daughters Angie and Margaret. Lorraine was a quiet and estranged woman who tried to please her husband as much as she could but she never did, Margaret and Angie their daughters were sweet and darling little girls who loved dolls and make-me-believe, I had babysat them quite a lot and we would play all sorts of games and I would take them out for ice cream or to the park, they loved me and I them, and then there was Larry. He was an unnerving man with dishonest intentions, when I went over to the "house" to talk to Moira the permanent servant to the house of terror, me and her always got along well I remember when she was young and beautiful not only in lusty men's eyes but in all eyes. She had warn me of Larry and how he planned to pursue my mother, he claimed he was in love with her but when she turned her eye he was after me just like all of mom's men. Every time she turned her back they would rub my shoulders, touch my arm, grope my breasts, slap my butt, and one time her boyfriend Eddie pinned me against the bathroom wall when I was just coming out the shower but Tate had saved me just in time to spare my innocence.
That was Tate's first murder. I hadn't mentioned it before but Tate has an alter ego, it's dark and dismal and somewhat Michael Myers. When he loses his control his eyes become blank and he thirst for blood, especially when it comes to me. He took Eddie's head and smashed it into the sink I watched brain bits fly everywhere there was so much blood, and just like that Eddie was did. He threw the body away and hid it, he swore that he'd never let another man touch me again. I think that's when I burned for his love.
Larry came and he tried pursuing me by sending me flowers, chocolate, stuffed animals, jewelry. But to keep Margaret and Angie's daddy alive I decided to try and save him from Tate's wrath and merciless blood lust, so I made it look like it was for my mother. She made him do terrible things like smother my beloved brother Beau, we lost him and she said it was because of his disability shortened his life. I can't ever look her in the eye again, I don't know to cope with the entire tragedy but Tate expresses his hatred more boldly now. And the worst is, Larry's wife Lorraine committed suicide by setting her daughters' room on fire taking her daughters down with her. I've been crying every night in Tate's arms. Now mom is with Larry and we're back in the Murder House. At least I get to see my friends Troy, Brian, Moira, and see my true mother Nora. She mothered Tate and I more than our own, she's the mother of the misunderstood monster Infantata, a tragedy.
Maybe this tragedy has explained my behavior. I've been moody, sad and crying about every little thing then happy and giggly the next. Instead of Tate being the seducing one it seems that our roles have been switched. I seduce him every chance I get feeling overly horny even in school! We've also been experimenting, like using toys, doing role play, I found that I liked it a lot when he'd talk dirty to me being completely dominant and spanking me. We've been having sex at least 22 times a week. I've been sick too, staying home from school a lot, regurgitating every morning but then I'd start eating great amounts. Mom told me to hold back or I'll look like Addie which made me bawl my eyes out and run up to my room, Tate yelled at mom most viciously and ran up to check on me. He's been skipping school for me taking care of me even the Moira insist on doing it herself, Moira never liked Tate and she tried to split us up when we were little for some reason. Moira was the woman who had an affair with daddy before he ran away.
What's strange is that every time I see children I couldn't help but want to mother them and hold them and call them sweet nicknames. When I saw pregnant women I became giggly. I've been having odd cravings for cheeseburgers with mushrooms. Mom made an appointment for me to go to the doctors, Tate wanted to come with me but he had to go to school or else he'd fail school and he knew that it would kill me if we didn't graduate together, so reluctantly he went.
That's when I found out that I am five months pregnant with a girl. I was most excited especially since Tate had wanted a child too, but I was worried about how my mother would take it...
It was Thanksgiving dinner and I decided to tell everyone then, it showed that I put on some weight and mom was most displeased. For tonight's dinner I had put on a burgundy long sleeved dress that had the sweetheart line cut low on my cleavage which had gotten bigger to Tate's like. It had a flowy skirt and was shortly cut, I had worn it with black mesh tights and black Victorian ankle boots and the silver chain bracelet with a ruby heart and diamond 'L' Tate had gotten for me. My hair was longer now hanging at my bottom and I had it brushed down, my make up was just a deep red lipstick and I was wearing a sweet Vera Wang perfume. Tate couldn't take his eyes off of me and I wanted nothing more than to let him have his way with me, but alas we couldn't at this moment of giving, no one knew of our relationship except for Addie, we didn't tell her she's just always been very perceptive.
Apparently I was thinking so hard about everything that I was missing the huge fight that Tate was having with mom and Larry after Larry brought up that he had tickets to Brigadoon for all of us to go to. He then confronted Larry about killing our brother but mom still denied it. I was crying now and mom asked whats wrong and Tate rubbed my side to make me feel better, I felt the baby kick. All right sweetie mommy will tell everyone Jeez.
The baby was right it was time. I stood up and wiped my tears away.
"I have something very important to say to all of you." I announced shakily.
"Well alright angel, go on." Said Mom.
Tate was holding my hand looking at me with concern, Addie gave me a knowing look, and Larry couldn't take his eyes off of my chest which made me uncomfortable.
"You know how I was sick and then you sent me to the doctors?"
Mom nodded.
"Yes sweetheart, is everything alright with your health?" She asked with concern.
I gulped and I felt Tate's hand tighten his hold on mine.
"Yes, I'm fine I'm just...pregnant."
There was a collective of gasps and utensils dropping. Larry looked like he was punched, mom looked angry, Tate was utterly speechless and he looked at me wanting to know if it's his. I nodded and smiled. He grinned and laughed bringing me into a hug.
"We're going to have a baby!" He laughed happier than I have ever head him.
Addie clapped and giggled.
"Yay! Auddy is going to have a baby!"
"And it's a girl! I'm five months pregnant-"
"YOU SLEPT WITH YOUR SISTER?" Roared Mom.
A tear escaped my eye and I hid behind Tate he guarded me protectively.
"We're in love Constance so get the fuck over it you old crone, nothing is more wrong than you and your harlot ways especially whoring around with this inexcusable specimen!" He gestured to a disgusted Larry.
Mom turned to me furious and hurt.
"Audrey my angel, my beautiful perfection how could you hurt mommy this way?"
I was crying.
"I-I love him."
"What if the baby looks like Addie? You want that? Because you two are related and it ain't coming out natural!"
I was balling now.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAG! STOP UPSETTING HER!"
He turned around to me and tenderly rubbed my belly, he smiled and kissed my cheek then my belly, the baby kicked.
"She kicked." I giggled through my tears.
Tate smiled and licked away my tears.
"What did you want to name her?" He asked rubbing my belly still.
"I don't know I was going to ask you since you're the father."
He smiled and ran his hand through my hair.
"I like the name Fawn for her like a baby deer."
I nearly balled my eyes right there.
"And for her middle name?" He asked me.
"Avery." I said smiling.
He grinned.
"Fawn Avery Langdon, beautiful."
"NO! I WILL NOT HAVE THIS ABOMINATION, AUDREY AVA LANGDON YOU EITHER KILL IT OR I'M SENDING YOU AWAY!"
I looked at my beyond furious lover/brother, Tate looked like he was literally about to rip her throat out. What am I going to do? I don't want our child to be killed but I also don't want to leave Tate. What's going to happen to us?