I'm purposely making this chapter extremely long! I didn't really like how it sounded, still don't actually, I'm tempted to write this whole series over...but I'll finish it first, than I might do that...if I get better at writing, which would be awesome! Anyways here is the next chapter, The Apologizes!

Kaze woke up to the constant pulsing of his wound. Wincing he sat up on the comfy bed, looking around for Zero. He listened for any commotion,but the van stayed quiet. Sighing he stood up and looked at the clock. It was noon, and he could sleep another 15 hours if he really wanted to, but threw on his uniform pants and opened the door. Walking down stairs he grabbed his coat, throwing it over his arms he looked around for his cape. Which was laying nicely folded on the coffee table near the couch.

Yup, spoiled.

He thought to himself as he grabbed it and tied it on, grabbing his new cell from his pocket and began flipping through the contacts. Stopping as he scrolled over Zero's name, he hesitated for a moment before he clicked on it and began to send a message.

"I'm going to head to work, is there anything you need?" He sat on the couch as he waited for a response. As he sat on the couch he heard his phone go off, playing an unfamiliar tune, he grabbed it and flipped it open.

"Are you sure you should be heading out with that wound?" Kaze felt his heart flutter and smirked with a giggle.

Did I just giggle?

He thought to himself as he gained control of his voice, the smirk still remaining on his face.

"I'll be fine. I feel much better, thanks for your help yesterday." Kaze typed back, his thoughts wandered back to yesterday. He swore he knew Zero from somewhere, Zero DID admit that he knew him but, WHO? He was torn from his thoughts by his phone,

"Be more careful next time, for now I have enough information. I'll contact you if that changes." Kaze let out another giggle as he read the text, Kaze felt his heart fluttered and flipped,

I swear to fucking god if I giggle one more time!

Kaze thought to himself as a blush appeared across his cheeks, he crossed his legs and sighed, thinking only of Lelouch's touch and how much he needed his embrace. He flinched when he heard his second phone ring, grabbing for it he answered,

"Hello, this is Kaze." He said smoothly as he got up of the couch and walked for the door.

"Kaze?" He heard princess Euphemia on the other side of the line and smiled.

"Euphemia? Whats up?" He said as he climbed down the stairs of the van and began walking back to the base.

"I need your help..."

" Severely damaged bodies go to tent two. Personal articles should be attributed to their owners as soon as possible. Identifiable bodies go in tent one. Lets try not to make this harder for the people!" Kaze said into his walkie talkie as he inspected the grounds, checking off various things on his clipboard.

"Of all the things she would ask me to do." Kaze moaned as he sat down on a bolder, he looked over all the bodies and sighed.

This wasn't supposed to happen.

He thought to himself as he turned away from the bodies, noticing the Lancelot begin recharged he smiled and got up. He knew that when the Lancelot was near by, so was Suzaku, and right now. He needed some Suzaku.

"Had enough of digging up the dead?" Lloyd asked as he walked over to Suzaku as he poured the water from his bottle onto his head. Suzaku looked down as he talked, the dripping off his hair onto the dirt.

"I'd like to help with the rescue operations a little longer, if possible." Kaze listened to their conversation as he walked closer to them.

"Continue as long as you like You're under Princess Cornelia's orders anyway." Suzaku looked up to face the smiling Lloyd.

"Lloyd, what are the Black Knights trying to do? What did they hope to gain from such destruction?" Kaze stopped walking toward them beginning to talk about the Black Knights,

"They're champions of justice, as they said themselves." Kaze flinched as he heard Suzaku clench his water bottle, the plastic cracking as he did.

"And this is justice?" Lloyd sighed,

"Hey, hey, please tell me you aren't going to pull me into an argument about the nature of "Justice". We're soldiers you know." Suzaku looked up to what he thought was Shirley, but Cecil interrupted him with a yell,

"Suzaku! You're energy filer has been changed!" Suzaku yelled back an all right to look back at Shirley, only to see Kaze walking over to the forest. He looked at Kaze's sad face and ran to the Lancelot to catch up with him.

Kaze walked into the forest and sat on a stomp, clenching his side. Slowly taking off his coat he examined his bandage, blood soaking through the layers. Kaze sighed and pulled out some spare bandages from his pocket and began removing the dirtied ones, wincing as it tore away from his skin.

He paused when he heard a distant humming sound, almost resembling that of a motorcycle. He turned in the direction of the sound when it suddenly stopped, Kaze looked questioning in that direction but quickly dismissed it as his wound began to pulse. He finished unwrapping the bandage and stood up off the stomp, when the Lancelot came bursting out through the trees.

Kaze jumped and tripped over the stomp, his bruise scrapping along the side. He screamed out in pain as he felt the wound open further. He got on all fours holding his wound tightly as he stood up on his knees, Suzaku jumped down from the Lancelot with a hop only to stop in his tracks as he noticed Kaze holding a wound on his side, blood escaping through the openings in his fingers. Kaze relaxed as he saw Suzaku, he slowly sat on the stomp and began re-wrapping his side up.

"Whew, I thought someone was trying to kill me for a moment." Kaze said with a giggle as he finished wrapping the bandage, sighing in relief as the pulsing stopped. Suzaku stared blankly at the dried blood on Kaze's hand.

"uhhh, Suzaku?" He said as Suzaku looked at him, completely zoned in his own world. Kaze got up and limped over to Suzaku.

"Sssuuuzzzaaakkkuu?" He teasingly said as he stood in front of him, he sighed when he got no response and pinched Suzaku's cheeks, pulling them out towards him. He flinched at the touch of Kaze,

"You know, if your going to zone out every time you see blood, you really shouldn't be a soldier." Kaze said with a sigh as he let go out Suzaku's cheeks.

"Kaze? What happened?" He said as he suddenly lifted Kaze's arms over his head to inspect the wound, Kaze lfintched as he felt himself be lifted off the ground.

So, not fair!

He thought to himself as he looked down at the ground with a pout.

"You know, this isn't how your supposed to treat your superiors..." Kaze said with a frown as he wiggled in Suzaku's grasp, he knew he probably wasn't going to escape but there was no way in hell he wasn't going to try!

"Kaze? Answer me! What happened!" Suzaku asked as Kaze struggled in his arms, Kaze stopping when he noticed the sudden change in Suzaku,

"I'm fine! Don't worry about it!" Kaze yelled as he kicked Suzaku in the stomach, sighing when Suzaku didn't even flinch at the impact. Suzaku sighed and walked them over to the stomp, pinning him down against it. Kaze gasped at their position, blushing when he felt Suzaku's leg rub against his inner thigh.

"S-Suzaku! Stop this!" He yelled as Suzaku removed the bandage protecting his wound. Suzaku gasped as he noticed the familiar bruise, Kaze gasped as the wound began to pulse from the returning circulation,

"I did this..." Suzaku slowly rubbed his hand over the bruise, making Kaze flinch, a little moan escaping his mouth.

"N-no, this is my fault..." He said as he blushed under Suzaku's fingers slowly caressing him. He flinched as they rubbed over his sweet spot and moaned,

"Ah!" Kaze blushed and bit his lip, Suzaku looked up and blushed at Kaze's aroused face. Slowly leaned up to Kaze's lips, his fingers still rubbing Kaze's spot. Kaze twitched in pleasure, he moaned louder as his fingers rubbed faster around it,

"Nnn, S-suzaku, please...AH!" Kaze moaned, Suzaku leaned down and pulled Kaze into a kiss, forcing his tongue deep into Kaze's mouth. Kaze flinched and let a tear fall from his eye as Suzaku pulled away, Suzaku looked down at him,

"I'm sorry Kaze I just-" Suzaku was cut off by a sudden blow to the head, releasing Kaze he fell to the ground. Kaze sat up and rubbed his head from the headbutt.

"I TOLD YOU! NEXT TIME IT WOULDN'T BE A SLAP!" Kaze yelled at Suzaku who looked surprised at Kaze's sudden strength. Suzaku got up and walked toward Kaze, stopping when Kaze flinched as he moved toward him,

"I'm sorry it's just...I lo-"

"DON'T!" Kaze interrupted Suzaku, Kaze placed his hands over his face,

Please...

he whispered in his head

"Don't say it...you can't" His voice now a whisper, Suzaku walked up to him and forced him into his arms,

"Why? Because your Lelouch's-" Kaze cut him off

"Yes! Don't you get it! I LOVE Lelouch!" Suzaku flinched as he listened to Kaze speak and held him harder.

"Suzaku, I know it hurts," Kaze looked up at Suzaku and placed his hand on his cheek,

"I'm sorry, I can't return your love." Kaze sighed and pulled Suzaku's mouth down to his, kissing him deeply. Suzaku opened his eyes and thrusted his tongue into his mouth. Kaze accepted and they're tongues played, Kaze's hands making their way into Suzaku's hair. Intertwining his fingers with the brunettes curly locks of hair, Kaze pulled away from the kiss, laying his head onto Suzaku's shoulder. Sliding hishands down from Suzaku's hair to his shoulder,

"I can't love you this way, I'm sorry." Kaze said as he pulled himself out of Suzaku's arms, he walked over to the stomp and grabbed his coat. Throwing it on, he sighed and stood there for a moment, shivering as he felt Suzaku's glare on him. Kaze turned around and held out his hand toward Suzaku, Suzaku stared at it for a moment and then grabbed it.

"I'll always love you Kaze..." He whispered, Kaze felt the tears build in his eyes as they walked toward the Lancelot, Kaze leaned his head against Suzaku's arm, their fingers intertwined.

"I'm sorry..." He whispered as they walked.

Kaze sat on the Lancelot's hand as they rolled out of the forest, Suzaku watching Kaze carefully through the ride. Kaze looked up at the sun shinning down on them as they rode out of the forests, and laid down letting the sun hit his stomach.

"I could sleep right here..." Kaze said to Suzaku as they rode through the dirt and debris, Suzaku spoke through the mic,

"Then go to sleep, I don't mind. I'll make sure you don't fall." He said kindly as he looked at the sight of Kaze lying on the hand, his cape embracing the air around. He truly looked like a prince, Kaze turned his head and looked through the green eye's of the Lancelot to Suzaku.

"I wonder..." Kaze said to himself as he sat up, eying the Lancelot's shoulder. Kaze got up, bracing himself as the Lancelot moved and jumped onto the shoulder. A bright smile wiped across his face as he felt the wind swirling around him,

"Faster! Suzaku!" He said like a little child through his giggling, Suzaku looked up at him and abided. Kaze held on with all his strength as he felt them pick up speed, taking larger breathes as the air zipped past them. Kaze looked up to the sky and smiled taking a deep breathe, he looked up at the clouds passing them by and smiled.

"Hey...Suzaku." Suzaku slowed the Lancelot to a stop and looked over at Kaze,

"What?" He asked in a happy tone, only to stop when he saw a serious glare on Kaze's face.

"Do you hate the Black Knights?" Kaze looked up at Suzaku,

Why did I even ask, I know the answer...

He thought to himself in the silence, the wind blowing his hair around his eyes,

"Yes..." Was all Suzaku said as he began moving the Lancelot towards the camp once more. Kaze looked up at the sun, a tear falling down his cheek.

Dammit...

"He was a devote servant of god, and a good friend to us all. He was a good husband to his wife, a good father to his children. May he rest in peace, in the kingdom of the lord." The priest finished speaking and the coffin lowered into the ground. Shirley's mother interrupted the silence of the ceremony.

"No Stop! Don't make him go through it again! darling! Darling!" Shirley's mother fell to the ground before the grave, Shirley knelt next to her, comforting her. The student council stood watching, Lelouch looked down at the floor speechless. Kallen spoke up,

"Shirley, I'm so sorry."

"W-why are you apologizing?" Kallen gasped and looked down at the ground.

"I'm sorry to! When you were in that hotel-jacking, I was watching TV, and I thought they looked kinda cool..." Rivals said slowly looking away from Shirley and toward the ground."No, no, that doesn't have anything to do with this." Shirley said with a soft smile on her face, Milly grabbed her shoulder as she walked closer

"Stop it. I'm concerned, Have you cried enough?" Kaze slowly grabbed Shirley hands,

"If you hold it inside, it'll only hurt more." He slowly said his tears threatening to fall. Shirley looked at the ground as she spoke,

"Its all right.I've...I've cried plenty." Suzaku yelled,

"Its not fair! The way Zero does things...it's not right! They don't fight for themselves. All they do is take advantage of others. They can't change anything." Kaze and Lelouch went silent, staring at the ground. Milly changed the subject

"Well, its time we get going. Shirley, we'll be waiting for you in the student council room." Milly turned around,

"All right everyone, let's go." Rivals turned to Lelouch,

"Come on Lelouch" Only to be pulled away by Milly. Kaze walked away from Lelouch and Shirley. As they became out of sight he turned to Milly,

"I'm meet up with you guys later okay?" Kaze said as he began to walk away, Suzaku noticed the tears streaming down his face as he turned the corner.

"I'm going to go check on him." Suzaku yelled as he ran to catch up with Kaze.

Kaze wobbled over to a nearby garden and hid away in it, he slowly looked around him checking for anyone else among the trees. When he saw no one was there he fell to his knees, no longer able to hold in his emotions he cried. His sobs muffled by his sleeve, he hit the ground with his fist in anger.

"Why? Why do they have to pay!" Kaze screamed to himself as he fell to the ground, tears streaming down his face. Suzaku followed Kaze until he heard Kaze's sobs and rushed over, running into the garden he saw Kaze sprawled out on the floor. Tears streaming down his face as he looked up at Suzaku. Suzaku gasped as he looked down upon Kaze and pulled him into a hug, Kaze tightly squeezing him, crying into his shoulder as Suzaku wrapped his arms around his waist.

Lelouch slowly walked back to the school, when he heard Kaze crying and went to find him. He followed the sobs through the trees of the garden, he slowly walked in on Kaze crying into Suzaku's shoulder.

Kaze continued to cry onto Suzaku's shoulder, Suzaku slowly rubbing his back. He felt himself dieing inside spewing out inaudible apologizes in his head.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm evolved, I'm sorry that I'm a Black Knight, I'm sorry I love him, I'm sorry I love you!

He cried out even more as he thought, Suzaku pulled him to face him wiping tears from his cheeks, only to have more fall onto his fingers.

"Suzaku...I wanted to save them! I-I-" Kaze was cut of by a kiss from Suzaku, Lelouch flinched as he walked in on the scene, Kaze pulled away from it only to be pulled into another. His eyes went wide as he felt Suzaku thrust his tongue into his mouth, he continued to fight. But found himself quickly giving up, he placed his arms around Suzaku's neck and leaned father in, unaware that Lelouch was watching. Lelouch stared in dismay as he saw Kaze accept his advances and walked away, a tear falling down his cheek.

Kaze laid sprayed out on the floor of his dorm, daydreaming about earlier that morning. He shivered as he remembered him leaning into Suzaku's kiss, when a sudden knock on his door drove him from his memories. He slowly got up, rubbing his tired eyes as he walked to the door, not checking to see who it was he opened the door.

"Lelouch?" He felt a rush of remorse as he looked into Lelouch's eyes, and moved out of the door way,

"Come in." He said flatly as he walked into his kitchen for a glass of water. Lelouch walked in, closing the door behind him he walked in and sat on Kaze's bed.

"Do you want anything to drink, or something to eat? I can make you something if your hungry, Lelouch?" Kaze looked out of the kitchen and saw Lelouch sitting on his bed, staring blankly at the floor. Kaze sighed and walked over to Lelouch, who looked up blankly at him.

"Kaze do you-" Kaze's phone cut him off, he sighed and walked over to the counter, grabbing it and answering it again, not checking to see who it was.

"Kaze. This is Cornelia. I have a job for you."

Fuck me and my so called "Luck". Kaze thought to himself as he politely answered Cornelia.

"We are-" Kaze listened as Cornelia spoke the plan and hung up when she was done, sighing he sat next to Lelouch. Laying his head gently against Lelouch's arm.

I'm going to kill that bitch one day, god I hate her gut-. Lelouch interrupted his thoughts with a question.

"Do you still believe in the Black Knights?" He asked slowly his voice a slightly louder than a whisper, Kaze stared at him for a moment before he answered,

"I don't know." was all he could say as he looked up at his ceiling.