Chapter 8
"Is everything in place?" Alexandra asked holding her red grown so she could walk with out fear of tripping on it as she entered the Great hall.
"Yes yes an for the hundredth time yes. Will you chill out." Draco told her walking in after her.
"Uh it's so...Gryffindor." Severus stated in discuss.
"Being that there both from that house that dose seem to make since, what did you think you see green an silver?" Nathaniel asked with a smirk.
"Watch yourself boy." Severus warned him.
"Both of you stop now." Alexandra told them as she walked up to the high table making sure everything was in place. "You will all behave an be happy for them i don't care if you fake it. BE NICE."
The wedding was beautiful an everyone was on there best behavior. Alexandra how ever felt very depressed, she had been so happy for her friends but when they finally said i do she looked around at all the happy couples an felt so alone. She could never have that because she was to scared to even try to get it. Some Dumbledore she made.
"Alright ladies time to trow the roses!" Hermione yelled.
Alexandra stepped back an leaned against the wall to watch.
"Aren't going to join in?" Lucius asked coming to stand by her.
"The flowers go to the next to wed, that isn't me so i see no point." she said looking up at him.
"Alex watch out!"
She turned as her name was called an froze as her hand rose to catch what was flying at her.
"Well i guess Dumbledore' don't know everything." Lucius smiled
Alexandra looked at him, then the flowers an then to the crowd who were looking at her.
"Excuse me please." She said running from the room.
Holding her dress with one hand she flew down the hall tossing the follows out the first window she came to she rushed to her office. 'Stupid flowers! how dare they fly to me!' she fumed swinging her door opened she slammed it shut behind her. She had no one in her life why had they gone to her?
"Uhhhhhh!" Alexandra screamed as she spotted the roses sitting on her desk. "Inflamora!" She shouted pointing her wand at the flowers. A grin crossed her lips as the roses went up in flames, that grin quickly turned in anger as the fired died down an the flowers laid there untouched. "BLOODY DAMN MAGIC!"
"My dear child are you alright?" her father called from behind the door.
Alexandra turned a flicked her wand so the door would open. "Tell me you didn't do this?" She asked pointing to the flowers as Albus an Minerva walked in.
"Of course not dear some magic can not be messed with." Minerva told her.
"Why my child are you so upset? This should be a good thing." Albus asked her.
"Papa i have no one in my life these should not have come to me. It has made me very confused." She sighted leaning on her desk.
"Then you probably don't want to know who caught the garter belt do you?" Minerva asked her.
"No not re-"
"Severus did." Albus cut in with a smile. "Although he wasn't trying to that's what's so funny, it landed on his nose." Albus laughed remembering the look in Snapes face.
"Yes well he didn't think it was to funny." Minerva smirked.
"If you both would excuse me i really would like to be alone." Alexandra said rubbing her forehead.
"If you need anything please come to us." Albus said giving her cheek a kiss before taking his wife' hand an leaving.
Alexandra looked back at the flowers, grabbing them she tossed them across the room before storming up to her room.
Severus sat in his office the garter hanging from his finger as he smiled. There was only one women in the world he would marry an the fates had shown him that it was meant to be when he saw the roses land in her hand he had fear someone else would get the garter but with out even trying it came to him. He knew that in time she would come to him as well. But Severus didn't want to wait he had waited long enough he wanted her by his side now. His smile got wider as he put the garter down an got up. Going into is privet storage room he pulled out the green an red pensive that he hadn't seen in years an headed to Alexandra' office.
All she wanted to do was cry, why was life being so cruel to her? was someone just playing some sick joke on her or had the fates chosen her as there life long joke? She just couldn't understand it, felling a pull at her wards she got out of bed an headed down to her office. Stopping on the stairs she pointed her wand an watched as the door opened to show Severus standing there. Great just what she need.
"How can help you Severus?" She said walking down to meet him her eyes eyeing the pensive.
"I want to take the memories out of here." He said setting it down on her desk.
"And you brought it to me because?" she asked him.
"Because this is are Pensive i can get anything out with out you, that's how we designed it." He told her.
"Oh, right I'm sorry i forgot."
Holding her hand out for him to take they both pulled there wands an pressed the tips to the rim of the pensive. Then they both spoke;
"Reveal to me your secrets."
All at once millions of voices could be heard as the memories flew back to were they belonged.
'Severus promise you'll always love me.'
'Always.'
'Well that was easy i thought you'd give a love won't last forever speech.'
'Only fools who have never loved believe that, but i wonder will you always love me?'
'Always. Even when my heart stops an my soul departs from my body i will always love you Severus.'
'Do you like when i touch you like this love?'
'Uh yes oh yes.'
'Hmm but what about this, do you like this as well?'
'Oh Gods Severus!'
'So god oh Alex...Merlin' bread women I'm coming undone.'
'Severus oh gods yesssss!'
Alexandra's hands flung in the air trying to stop the images an voice's she had forgotten about. Severus how ever embraced every thought with a smile on his face. When the pensive was empty Alexandra fell to her hands an knees crying as the emotions still ran threw her body.
"Alex i didn't mean-" Severus rushed to her side
"Oh Gods... you love me so much. How can some love that much? I can still feel it...i... I don't know what to do." She cried looking up at him "I can feel your pain an i just don't know what to do to stop it. I'm so sorry i just don't know what to do."
"Your heart Alex, what dose your heart tell you?"
"I doesn't want to hurt anymore."
"It won't Alexandra i swear just please let me back into your heart."
"I don't-"
"Alexandra i will go mad if can't have.I have never wanted anything as much as i want you. No it's not a want, Alexandra i need you. With out you i will surely die a slow, lonely painful death."
"That's a little much don't you think?" She asked sitting back as she wiping her tears away.
"That is how i feel, a life were i see you but can not have you is a fate more cruel then anything the Dark Lord could have dreamed up."
"Do you think, maybe we can be friends an see what happens?"
"If that is what you want, i will do what ever it takes."
"Alright friends." She smiled as he helped her up.
"Would you care to join me for a friendly drink?" Severus asked her.
"Yes that would be fine, shell we stay here?"
"My chambers if you don't mine, for a drink a nothing more i swear."
"Alright." She nodded.
Making sure to avoid the rest of the wedding party the two headed down to Severus' chambers. Once there Alexandra took a seat while Severus fixed there drinks.
"Are you feeling better?" He asked handing her her drinks before he sat down.
"Yes i do, an do you feel better?" she replied before taking a sip.
"I too am feeling better. I seduced you once I'm more then sure i can do it again.." He grinned.
"You didn't seduce me Severus, you weren't even aware that i loved you until i told you." She pointed out with a smile.
"Yes but i did kiss you first, an there must have been something i did to have you fall in love with me." Severus said drinking his whiskey.
"Everything. I don't think it was just one thing."
"What did you notice about me first Alex?"
"Um...your walk." she smirked as his glass froze mid way to his lips.
"My...walk?"
"Yes, Severus your walk. You have this...perfect walk full of power an those robes, it's like they have a life of there own. It's was very heard not to watch you."
"Is that all, my walk?"
"No i noticed your walk first, but that was nothing when i heard you talk. It was something else to hear you talk about something you felt so passionate about."
"Or when i was being passionate.?"
"Yes, but you asked what made me fall for you not love you more." she smirked.
"Of course please go on, I'm not use to hearing compliments."
"Your eyes an how when ever i looked into them i felt as if you could see right into the heart of my being. and the faces you make, be it mad or that nasty little smirk you get when ever Slytherins top Gryffindor. Or the simple way you brew a potion."
"What's so special about that?" Severus asked watching her.
"You're relax, your face it free from all tension. You see to be at peace as you move around gracefully. It's truly a beautiful thing to watch, your beautiful to watch like that." She replied with a sigh seeing the image in her minds eye. "Not that you're ugly any other time, i think you're very handsome. But at that moment you're just breath taken beautiful. I also like the way your hair falls down to shield you from the world. You look very sexy when you peak out from under your hair."
Severus watched her truly surprised at what he heard. "Thank you Alex, i have never heard myself described in such a handsome way."
"As I've said, you are handsome."
"May i tell you why i fell in love with you?"
"Please do."
"I will admit because you were a Gryffindor i paid little if any attention to you."
"Am a Gryffindor but go on." She smiled.
"I took notice to you that day Granger answered a question an you corrected her an gave me the right answer. At that moment i wished you were a Slytherin. Of course from that day on i looked forward to having you in my class. But it was that night in the library that i first noticed you as a women an not a child. I was pulled to you, then when i learned you hadn't told your friends about me crying i know i would never look at you as a Gryffindor either."
"But what did you notice about me Severus?"
"Besides that your an Emotional?"
"Yes Severus, besides that."
"I noticed that your eyes change colors depending on your mood, i noticed you walk with a soft bounce an that when you laugh it is the most beautiful sound in the world. An your smile could melt the coldest of hearts. Something in which you did by the way. But i noticed that your robes couldn't hide the fact that you were a full grown witch."
"You like my laugh?"
"Yes i do it's soft an sweet, though i have not heard it in a while."
"I'd laugh but it would be forced." she smiled.
"A smile will do just for now."
For hours the two sat an talked enjoying there drinks. Then a knock came to the door, excusing himself Severus went to answer it.
"Severus." Lucius said walking in.
"One usually waits to be invited in before entering some ones home."
"I haven't seen you in ages an this is how you greet me?"
"I think i will excuse myself." Alexandra said sitting her glass down an standing. "It was really a pleasure Severus."
"Theres no reason to leave on my account." Lucius told her.
"No i must,I'm afraid it's late an i have to find temporary fill ins for are newly weds. Besides i think you two have plenty to talk about."
"Must you really leave?" Severus asked with pleading eyes.
"Yes, but there is always tomorrow Severus. Goodnight gentlemen." She smiled walking out.
"Night." Lucius smiled.
"Goodnight Alexandra."
"So, i have been some help i see." Lucius commented fixing himself a drink.
"How have you been helped?" Severus asked sitting down.
"Who do you think sent that note, I told her life was to short to hold on to hate. I think i have been some help Severus."
"We're just friends Lucius."
"Well that's something, you weren't even friends the first time." Lucius grinned having a seat.
For the rest of the night the two old friends sat an talked. Alexandra in the mean time went back to the party to find her to replacement Professors. She had the two perfect people for the job an she knew they'd say yes.