Chapter 7 – Beeswax and Banana

A/N: Okay so I've had an idea for a new story too. It will be a SVU and Grey's Anatomy crossover. I have just jotted down a few ideas. I hope to get it up soon.

Katie: Awwww bless you sweetie. Yeah I know you do LOL. Yeah I will hopefully get chapter 1 up in the next few days, maybe tonight if you're really really lucky. I'm glad you think I'm doing a good job. Love you baby. abbierena: Olivia is really struggling eh? She has a huge battle going on inside of her. I feel bad for Kathleen too but I would probably react like Olivia is, how about you? Lamia of the Dark: Yeah I guess it is a little OCC, I hope you will like how things progress. shadow-emotions2: You're comment was AWESOME, I wasn't going to update today but I made sure to finish this chapter for you =) Can I ask what you did in this situation? Or is that to nosey? Thank you for the virtual cookies =) Quinn: I know bless her! Thanks for your continuous reviews =) Calzona: Maybe she will soon. prentiss-be-mine: Yeah, I thought Olivia needed a female friend or a friend in general that she can confide in, I mean she can't exactly confide in Elliot. I thought Hazel was a shade of brown LOL is it not?

It really goes without saying though, I DO NOT OWN SVU! So here is more of the story, hope you enjoy!

Olivia woke up to her alarm clock screeching, calling her from her dream. She was not happy about that fact. Lately her dreams had gone from heavy make out sessions with Kathleen to her kissing her way down the blonde's tight body, but her alarm always seemed to sound just as she was about to lower Kathleen panties. Something that left her very frustrated and caused her to be extremely on edge all day. Elliot bore the brunt of her frustration but it's ok, he gives as good as he gets.

Over the past two weeks Olivia and Kathleen had spent more and more time together, on both of her days off Olivia had chosen to bypass her usual day off routine of catching up on sleep in favour of spending time with the trainee teacher. This friend's thing seemed to be working (in the sense that she had controlled herself), she enjoyed spending time with Kathleen and found herself watching the clock so that she could meet up with her, willing the hands of the squads clock to move faster, she was tempted to get up and move the herself a few times.

On the other hand, it was also getting harder to control herself around the blonde. She had to actively remind herself not to reach out and run her fingers through Kathleen's hair or lean closer to nuzzle her slender neck.

They had talked about Kevin a few times and Olivia falsely smiled and said that Kathleen was allowed to date whoever she wanted and that she was ok with it.

Unbeknownst to her Kathleen was beginning to give up on ever being more than friends, every time Olivia had scooted a little further away from her or tensed at accidental contact made her eyes burn and her heart ache. After a talk with Kevin they had both agreed that pining over others was hurting them so they decided to try casual dating, just for companionship, it helped to know that someone wanted to spend time with her romantically so she agreed, but they were both aware that if the person of their dreams decided they were worth it there would be no hard feelings. It was just nice to have someone, anyone.

Olivia sat up on her bed and stretched the sleep from her tired muscles. She was furious with herself for leaving shopping for Casey's birthday to the last minute. She always did this and never learned.

Dragging herself to her on suite she blindly fumbled for a towel before leaning past frosted glass to turn on her shower. Deciding that after her dream she would need a relatively cold one she adjusted the temperature accordingly before lifting off her sleep shirt and slinking off her short shorts and panties. She put her dirty cloths and slightly damp underwear into the hamper before stepping into the shower, hissing as the streams of cool water assaulted her hot skin.

She quickly lathered up and washed herself down before dressing and making her way out of her apartment building, grabbing a slice of toast and a flask of coffee on her way out. Even though technically she was working she didn't have a case currently but she was still on course, on these days she would usually be at the station but for the first time in like, ever, she found that she was up to date on all her paperwork. Willing time to go faster to see Kathleen she found that digging in to paperwork helped a lot to get the tome to go faster.

Turning off her street she began to think about what she could possibly buy the ADA. She decided she would just take a look around and see what jumps out at her. She hated going shopping with something in mind because she always ended up disappointed when ultimately what she had in mind she could never find.

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Trawling through the shops Olivia was beginning to lose hope, she was never going to find something for Casey that she wouldn't already have nor have a need for. She knew that Casey would appreciate anything but she wanted to get something nice for her friend.

A sweet smelling shop caught her attention. What girl doesn't like bath stuff? Strolling into the shop she was bombarded with sweet smells from every direction.

"Do you need any help miss?" asked a smiling sales assistant.

"Um, yeah. Please? I'm looking for a gift for a friend of mine, it's her 25th and I have no clue of what to get her. Everyone likes smelly stuff right?"

"Sure they do!" the over enthusiastic woman said. "Here follow me chicken."

Olivia stifled a giggle and followed the eccentrically dressed woman. Olivia liked people like this who weren't afraid to be themselves and were friendly to you with no expectations.

"Here, these have proved popular. They are self pamper kits, theses particular ones include the full facial kit, the hand cream, the lip balm, the lip tin ointment, the full hands and feet kit, the sugar scrub, the therapy oils, the body butter, the nourishing bath and shower set, the therapeutic bath crystals, the full body lotions, the face masks, the shampoos and conditioners, and the slipper and robe set."

"Okay wow, that's allot. The price doesn't seem too bad." Olivia was impressed and was thinking about getting herself one too.

"Oh chicken they're a bargain! And they come in a range of flavours too!" she gushed. She obviously loved her job. It was refreshing to the usual bored assistants she'd come across in the other shops shed trawled through.

"Yeah? What kinds?" Olivia was so glad to finally find something; she was hungry and needed more caffeine.

"Well chicken, there's my personal favourite, the beeswax and banana." Olivia smiled at this, she liked this woman. "There's also pomegranate, Cranberry and Pomegranate, Honey and Shea, Orange and Lemon essence, Mango, Milk and Honey, Peach and Willow bark, Chamomile, Chocolate, Carrot, Cookie, Summer Berries and finally Vanilla."

"Wow, Okay um that's some choice you've given me. I think I might have to get a set for myself too." Olivia debated what favours to get.

"Okay Chicken, I'll give you 5 minutes. You have a sniff and decide what you would like." Olivia couldn't help but smile widely at the woman's words.

"Okay, thank you."

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"Okay so I think I'm ready." Olivia told the sales assistant.

"So what's your flavours?"

"Well I think I'll go for the Orange and Lemon essence for Casey and I'll take a Honey and Shea one for myself." The woman smiled and climbed the unsteady looking ladder to reach Olivia's choices.

"Here you go chicken. Anything else?" she handed Olivia her large boxes.

"Um I did spot something else that I liked when you were busy. Those teddies. It says their microwavable."

"Yeah they are they have these beads in them that heat up and they give of the scent they come in as well once their heated. They are lovely to snuggle with let me tell you."

"I'll get two of those too please. I'll take a Lavender one for Casey and I'll have a vanilla one please, I smelt that one and . . . It's nice." Olivia thought about how when she smelted it, it reminded her of Kathleen, the vanilla essence Kathleen gave off was identical to the cream coloured teddy bear. She imagined that she'd enjoy cuddling with it once it was heated on a cold lonely night at home, alone.

"Okie dokie. Here you go. Follow me and I'll gift wrap the ones for your friend for you. Oh and the teddies come with incense and candles too." Olivia was looking forward to having her apartment smelling like a special someone.

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After picking up a bottle of champagne from the shop next door Olivia decided that if she didn't have some coffee she wouldn't make it through the rest of the day so she headed to a nearby star bucks.

Walking to her destination of caffeine Olivia gazed in through the shop windows on her way. As she was a people watcher she loved doing this but it also gave her a chance to window shop.

Stopping just shy of the window of stark bucks Olivia spotted the hair of a familiar person who seemed to be always occupying her mind.

Stepping closer to the window of star bucks she realised that it was indeed Kathleen and she was with no other than Kevin. Kevin! She growled internally. She felt the green eyed monster take over; she couldn't seem to make her feet move her away from the scene in front of her. Couldn't stop her eyes from looking into the star bucks' window at her 'friend' kissing her date. Can you say déjà vu?

Why am I jealous? I have no right to be jealous. Olivia chastised herself. You are the one who told her to agree to another date with Kevin. She practically begged you to just make her yours but you didn't!

Olivia felt herself move closer still, large shopping bags in hand.

She shouldn't be kissing him! In such a public place! Anyone could see her, I can see her. Ughh that should be me!

Kathleen looked up from where she sat and spotted a red faced angry looking Olivia watching her. She pushed Kevin away. She could see the hurt and pain hidden beneath the more obvious anger and jealousy written over Olivia's face and in her glassy eyes.

"Kevin, would you excuse me for a second please? That's Olivia." She nodded her head towards the brunette outside.

"She looks pissed." Kevin stated the obvious. Kathleen rolled her eyes.

Even though she knew Olivia was hurt she was hurt too. It was Olivia who made the decision that they couldn't be together, that they had to be friends. She had no right to be angry or hurt. She was enjoying herself with Kevin, he treated her well and he was a good kisser. It made her mad that even though Olivia didn't want her she didn't want anyone else to have her either. Without thinking it through Kathleen leaned forward and not so chastely kissed Kevin's lips telling him she'd be right back.

She regretted it the moment she saw how that action made Olivia change from looking angry to completely broken.

"Shit." She cursed.

"Yeah, maybe you shouldn't have done that." Kevin was shocked that Kathleen had kissed him knowing Olivia was watching. This was so out of character, he knew that it was coming from a place of hurt. He knew more than anyone that Kathleen was hurting over this thing with Olivia and she didn't know how to deal with it.

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"Olivia" Kathleen deadpanned in greeting.

"What the hell was that?" Olivia was back to being angry and jealous again, it was easier for her to deal with than the crushing hurt she was also feeling.

"I'm on a date. The date you told me to accept." Kathleen was getting upset, angry that Olivia was acting like she had done something wrong.

"I didn't mean for you to be practically having sex with the guy in a coffee shop Kathleen!"

"And I wasn't! I was kissing a guy who likes me! Who isn't afraid of what someone else might think. Who actually wants to kiss me and tou. . . "Kathleen trailed off she knew she shouldn't finish that sentence. She was mad at Olivia but she didn't want to hurt her anymore than she had.

"Are you sleeping with him?" Olivia wasn't sure she wanted to know but she felt like she had to know."

Kathleen didn't reply.

"Kathleen? Are you fucking him?" Olivia's anger was rising but so was her hurt.

"No." Kathleen said truthfully. "Not yet. I'm not going to stop myself from being with someone else just because you're not comfortable with it. If you want be I'm yours but you don't. And as my friend you don't have a say in who I as you so eloquently put it 'fuck'."

"Oh Kathleen I can't take anymore of this. I can't!" Olivia cried.

"And you think I can?" Kathleen let her tears fall. "I want you Olivia. I've made that clear! You are the one who wants to be friends and I'm trying here. You keep asking me to meet up and hang out, and I really enjoy hanging out but then you go all jealous girlfriend on me when I'm on a date. If I can't be with you Olivia I want to be your friend but you need to act like my friend! Just my friend!

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Kathleen had persuaded Olivia to have coffee with her to see if they could salvage their friendship. Kevin had kissed Kathleen's cheek as he left the pair alone making Olivia's stomach churn and a scowl form on her face.

"See that's what I mean!" Kathleen exclaimed once Kevin had left. "My date kissed my cheek Olivia and your acting like he kissed your girlfriend."

"I know, I'm sorry. But I can't help that can I. How would you like it if I kissed someone in front of you?" Olivia tried to get her point across.

"I'd be heartbroken Olivia. But the difference between that and this is that I want to be with you and that isn't a secret. You have the power to make more yours and yet you made the decision not to, not me. I would be justified in being upset because I would be seeing someone I want to date, would give anything to date, kissing someone else. But you? You are seeing someone you have the chance to date kissing someone else but you still won't take the chance on me." Kathleen made her speech looking Olivia dead in the eye.

Olivia couldn't believe how right Kathleen was, she needed to make a decision and stick with it. She needed to choose what she wanted, needed.

"You're right. Your right! I'm so sorry Kathleen. You're right. I haven't been fair to you but that stops right now. I want to be your friend and this time I won't act like- like I just did okay? I'll be just your friend. I don't want to lose you at all Kathleen I will try again to be your friend if it means I have your in my life and get to spend time with you like we have recently." Olivia wanted to say no, I want to be your girlfriend, your lover, but she refrained.

"You promise? You will be just my friend. I can't deal with you acting like that again. I want you in my life too Olivia, more than anything but that was too hard! It felt like I had to defend myself when I didn't do anything wrong."

"I will try. I have to go but I'm off on Friday. We can hang out? As friends. Just friends. If you want?" Olivia offered, she really did enjoy spending time with Kathleen and she didn't want that to stop, when it was just them it was ok, it was when she saw Kathleen with Kevin that the big problems started.

"Sure. Pick me up at 10, from the dorms?" Kathleen had mixed feelings about this, she wanted to spend time with Olivia but she knew that one or both of them could end up being hurt by this.

"10. it's a date." Olivia said. "I mean it's not a date, I uh, shit! I'll pick you up at 10. See you soon."

A/N: Okay so the girls are going to try harder at being friends. Will it work? Next up we have their 'non-date'. I wonder what will happen. I know everyone says this but reviews really do make you review faster. So you know, review =P