How can it be wrong? Chapter 8: Just so you know, a law and order: svu fanfic

Chapter 8 – Just so you know

A/N: My new story is now up! Check it out =) My muse is just running away with me lately. Allot of people seemed to really like Kathleen's speeches from last chapter, I'm so glad =) I was worried people would think she was mean.

Katie: I know you kept telling me how Kathleen was right LOL. I love cuddle time =) Quinn: Yeah you did get what I was saying; Kathleen and Kevin are both in love with others but can't be with them so are together so that they aren't alone. abbierena: I would be afraid of getting hurt so I think that's why I would be cautious. There's a story behind why she kept calling Olivia chicken, but long story short I was out shopping with the family and there was this really eccentrically dressed lady that kept calling me chicken so I just had to put it in. shadow-emotions2: wow in love with sisters, that must have been tough. It won't be ending anytime soon, I promise. I mean they haven't even shared their first kiss yet. I look forward to more of your reviews=) underc0vergirl: It was very soon LOL =)

It really goes without saying, I DO NOT OWN SVU! So here is more of the story, hope you enjoy!

Why am I so nervous? Olivia had just pulled up outside of Kathleen's dorm building and was patiently waiting for the blonde to join her. She had been so excited about spending the whole day with the blonde that she had a hard time falling asleep last night. In fact she had been looking forward to it all week. Everyone at the squad could tell that she was happier than usual.

She was brought from her wondering thoughts when she caught a glimpse of the object of her affections descending the stairs down to the car park she was currently waiting in. Oh my, she looks . . . radiant, so beautiful. Those tight skinny jeans make her legs look ravishing, and oh my God she's wearing fuck me stilettos. Is she trying to kill me? She's not even wearing that much make up and she looks stunning. I love when her hair falls in natural soft curls like it is right now, framing her angelic features. I just want to grab hold of that scarf and pull her flush against me. Shit, she's going to be in this tiny space with me alone, with her sweet smelling and wonderful self. You are in so much trouble Olivia Benson.

Kathleen bent a little to smile adorably at Olivia through the window, Olivia squirmed in her seat. Think friends, friendly thoughts, friendly thoughts. Kathleen reached out to open the door before gracefully sliding into the passenger seat. She even makes getting into a car look refined.

"Hey Olivia sorry I took so long, I forgot to iron my tank last night so it was all creased when I when to put it on and then there was a strawberry jelly incident with my fitted cream blazer so I had to pick a whole new outfit." Kathleen rambled. Olivia grinned, she loved that Kathleen wanted to look nice just to spend time with her.

"It's fine. You look lovely."

"Thanks." Another alluring smile was thrown Olivia's way. "I was wondering if we could go shopping, I really wanted to pick up a few new outfits for Uni and some night clothes, my roommate says my sleepwear reminds her of what her little sister wares."

"Sure, the mall ok?" Olivia asked trying not to think of Kathleen in skimpy nightgowns and teddies.

"Yeah. Maureen say's they have some really lovely places to get 'flattering' nightclothes." Kathleen did up her belt has Olivia turned the key in the ignition before pulling out of the car park, loving how Olivia looked behind the wheel of her shiny black Mercedes.

"Do you mind if I put the radio on?" Olivia asked, she wanted to ease some of the growing tension.

"Sure. I can do it." Kathleen reached forward to ply with the radio, deciding on what to listen to. She finally settled on station that she knew played all genres of music.

After a few tracks had played, a song came on that ironically spelled out exactly how Olivia was feeling without her having to speak a word.

"Oh I love Jesse McCartney. His songs are awesome. As they song continued to play Olivia became increasingly uncomfortable. She kept sneaking glances at Kathleen wondering if she knew how much this song represented how she felt for the young blonde and described her conflicted feelings down to a T. As the lyrics flowed over Kathleen spotted Olivia start to blush and shift stealing sly glances when she thought she wasn't looking, she quickly realised that this must sum up how Olivia was feeling.

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

Oh Jesus, this song just had to start playing now! The universe freaking hates me.

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

Kathleen saw how much the song was affecting Olivia but didn't want to change the station, listening to this song felt like having Olivia admit how she was really feeling and judging by how Olivia continued to blush and smile awkwardly she knew Olivia was thinking the same thing.

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Jesus it's like this song was written for us. I really can't stop feeling this way about Kathleen no matter how hard I try and boy have I tried. Olivia chanced a peak at Kathleen who appeared to be nervously taking in her every move as though trying to read her thoughts.

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

I can't change the station because that will make Kathleen think I don't want her to know all this, the look on her face is telling me she knows this is how I feel and she wants to keep listening.

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

Could these lyrics be anymore true? I can't take this anymore! I have to change the station. She reached out to change the song but before her hand reached the radio Kathleen's hand had grasped her own preventing her from pushing any buttons.

"Don't I want to listen." Kathleen confessed just loud enough to be heard over the meaningful song. She gave Olivia's hand a squeeze before returning her own hands to her lap.

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Kathleen looked at Olivia, feeling a little overwhelmed by the emotion she could clearly see painted across the detective's bronzed face. She wanted to scream, don't try to make your feelings stop Olivia. We both know it's not working! And then she'd remember that she had made such a big deal about Olivia acting as just her friend. She knew how impossible that was becoming so she decided that today she would just go with the flow.

Maybe I should say something?

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing. I mean maybe Casey was right; Elliot would get over it, eventually. Right?

As the song came to an end Olivia looked over at Kathleen. The blonde blushed and to the detectives pleasant surprise she continued to smile at her.

"That song . . ." Olivia started.

"I know." Kathleen interrupted. No more words were needed.

Olivia reached over and squeezed Kathleen's slim thigh before returning her hands to the wheel.

XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

Other than the Jesse incident in the car earlier, their friendly shopping trip was turning out to be a success. So far they had bought a few new outfits each, both advising each other on clothes they think suited each other.

"Do you mind if we buy some sleepwear now? I really need to get something that isn't something a child would ware to bed." Kathleen asked stopping in front of the shop Maureen had told her about the night before.

"Yeah that's fine." Olivia gulped; this store was famous for sexy but sophisticated night gowns and pyjamas.

"Great." Kathleen linked her arm through Olivia's and led the brunette into the shop passing quickly by the shops large array of sex toys. Gulp.

Kathleen flicked trough rails and rails of nightgowns and pyjamas and ended up liking most of the ones that she tried on so she bought them all. Kathleen seemed reluctant to use the fitting rooms alone so Olivia waited behind the curtain complimenting Kathleen on all the ones she tried on. She had to hold back moans a few times when Kathleen had tried on some things very sexy and short. At one point she audibly gasped when Kathleen had reached up to the hooks on the wall of the room to hand to Olivia to put back on the hanger causing her shirt to raise showing off a strip of tempting soft skin, making Kathleen smirk and reach higher before realising she was playing with fire and making things harder. Is it normal for someone's heart to beat this fast?

Kathleen needed up buying a pale blue short strappy night gown made of a light silky material that moulded to her feminine frame, skimming her petite body perfectly showing of her small curves. Olivia had to admit it was her favourite. She'd also bought a few pyjama sets, one in pale blue that consisted of a vest top and three quarter length trousers that hugged her pert bottom, one pair of white pyjamas that were white with a small pink floral design covering them, the shirt had buttons and the shorts were just short enough that they showed a little of the blondes cheeks on show, another set was an alluring red t-shirt and long trouser pair that matched her skin tone perfectly and went beautifully with her hair. She was more than pleased with her purchases.

XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

A little while later a laughing Olivia and Kathleen sat down next to a woman on a bench outside of a clothing store. Sitting closer together than would normally be classed as friends and leaning in slightly when the other said something.

"You to make such a lovely couple." The woman sat next to them smiled after she had been watching the captivatingly beautiful pair for about 10 minutes. The chemistry between them was clear as day, they must have been together a long time. And the adoration in the blondes eyes every time the brunette spoke was breath taking. "She must be very special to you." She said to Kathleen.

Olivia was shocked that they had been mistaken for a couple. She froze unsure of what to say for a moment, she was about to correct the misled woman when Kathleen spoke up.

"I'm a very lucky girl." The blonde said to the woman who was now turned to face them fully. She's going along with this? What is she doing? We're not a couple! Surely we don't give that vibe off. She looks at Kathleen confused for a moment at the emotion she sees in the younger woman's crystal blue eyes.

Kathleen squeezes Olivia's fingers and then slowly raised them to her lips, and gave them a soft heartfelt kiss and replied to the woman "She's more than that, she's amazing. Special isn't a nice enough word to describe her," she looked into Olivia's eyes and whispered, "Really".

Olivia could hardly believe her ears, the words sounded so sincere and she said them so softly but with such firmness that either she really feels that way or she's an astonishingly good actor.

Olivia looked down at her hand that was still encased in Kathleen's before looking up again into her eyes.

"C-co-coffee?" she stuttered not knowing what else to say. Kathleen smiled before excusing them from the woman who had unknowingly just opened floods of feeling between two very confused women.

XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

The two had somehow ended up at a juice bar instead of the coffee place as initially intended but neither minded, caffeine and added sugar might not be a good thing right now.

They were escorted to a private booth by a young girl who took their orders and brought them out to the silent pair minutes later.

The sexual tension between the two beautiful women became almost a physical entity in itself, they reached out for a straw at the same time, accidently touching, they carefully made sure not to touch again because they both knew what was sure to happen between them if contact were ever made.

Conversation began to be forced at first talking about the juice they had, Olivia even going as far as commenting on how the colour of her straw complimented her drink before conversation once again became easy between them.

Olivia had just asked Kathleen if she wanted to eat at her apartment instead of eating out seeing as they had already spent allot today.

"Sure. Can you cook?"

"A little, not that I do often, I never have time and its not really very fun cooking for one." You don't have to cook for one anymore if you don't want to Kathleen didn't say.

XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

Dinner had been delightful and conversation flowed freely over a glass of wine after they had eaten.

The pair had now retired to Olivia's sofa and were sitting close but not as close as they had earlier.

Olivia smiles at her and Kathleen decides that she has to been honest now; she can't lie after everything she had said that day.

"On the drive back I wanted you to stop the car, I wanted you to face me, touch me. Inappropriate hmm?" Olivia couldn't answer, because the same arousal was burning in her right now, she wanted Kathleen so bad.

"M-Movie?"

A/N: I was listening to that song and it seemed perfect for this. What do your guys think? Okay so they are beginning to realise that whatever is happening is really happening. Will anything happen? Next up Kathleen asks Olivia a question that could make things move faster. I know everyone says this but reviews really do make you review faster. So you know, review =P