We got to the woods but it was clear to me he wouldn't make it home without human blood so we stopped and I put him down against a tree. He was barely hanging on to reality because his wounds weren't healing and he was losing too much blood…'vervain' I thought…they must have injected him with it in order to weaken him.

I let my fangs out and bit into my wrist…blood showing at the surface of my skin. I put my hand to his lips and urged him into drinking because there was no one in a 10 miles area and Original blood was even stronger than a human's. As the smell hit his senses, he latched onto my wrist with both hands and bit into my veins desperately, drawing more blood…there was nothing erotic about our situation still it felt amazing, him drinking from me. There were few who had tried Original blood because we usually didn't do it…apparently it tasted better than any human's because we were never turned by someone else's tainted blood.

Damon was taking more than he needed and I was growing weaker by the second yet I did not want for this feeling to end…it was the most intimate and connected moment I had with the older brother since knowing him.

"Damon, sweetie, I think you had enough." His eyes snapped open when hearing my voice and his fangs let go of my hand, but not his lips. He licked the wound closed and placed an open kiss to my wrist at which I let out a small moan…"How do you feel?" He raised his eyes and met mine; the only emotion there was confusion…

"Why did you do it?" at my questioning gaze he also added: "Why come after me and save me? Why feed me your blood if you already made your choice? Your life would be so much easier without me in it…just you and my brother…"

"You're wrong…it wouldn't be easier…it would be impossible to live without you. You never gave me a chance to explain but I didn't choose, Damon…because I can't choose. I don't expect you to understand but please stop saying you're not important. You have no idea how much I wanted to drain those vampires dry or rip their hearts out for what they did to you…and you know I don't kill anymore, but I wouldn't hesitate in whipping the entire vampire community for you."

"You're right I don't understand. Because when you love somebody, you give them all your heart, not only half of it…Stefan and I deserve better than that…we deserve better than a second Katherine."

To say the comparison to that bitch was disturbing was the understatement of the century…Katherine was a fool for giving them up while I'm not. I recoiled at his statement as if he had actually punched me yet it was worse, it hurt more than a stake to the stomach.

"I'm nothing like Katherine. I would never hurt you on purpose; I would never abandon you or lie to you…"

"Yet you have…you never told us you can compel vampires. You probably compelled us to feel this way about you and all of this was just a game."

I felt tears threaten to cascade down my cheeks but God is my witness that I won't let Damon Salvatore break me like I did with Noah…

"This is the reason I never told you…because you'd assume everything we have is a lie. But you know what being compelled feels like and it's not this…and you're scared because this time it's real and you can't run from it so you're trying to make it something that it's not. I know because I'm scared too but I'm also tired of running so here I am...it's true, I did compel you once but it was the night me met, when we were outside the bar. I made you invite me to stay at your place for a couple of days so I could get to know you two but that's all I did, I swear."

"Oh right, 'cause we are your next project…isn't that what that Kay vampire said- that you take broken people and put them back together. Do you have like a 'hero complex' or something? Do you travel the world in search of bad guys so you can save humanity? Well let me tell you something, I feel, okay? And it sucks…but your work with me it's done 'cause I finally have my humanity back."

He was doing so much more damage with his words than Noah did with his rejection and it was killing me because I was finally good enough for someone yet they were not enough for me…

"God damn it, Damon, you have no idea what you're talking about…I don't have a 'hero complex', I'm just trying to be better than the monster. I'm just trying to be worth loving for once…"

He watched me curiously, not understanding what I was talking about because if there was someone worth loving it would be me, for all the good I have done to the world…

"Why would you think that you're not good enough?"

"Because I hurt you even though I love you so much… and because this isn't the first time I do. I have only been in love twice in almost 1500 years and the first time I did, it ended badly…I was still being led by the bloodlust and the anger when I met him yet Noah changed me even though he was only human. We fell in love and I was happy, I was finally feeling alive and close to human…but it did not last, like any other good thing. I never told him about my true nature instead he found out in the worst way possible. I hadn't fed in a while because I was afraid the town's people would find out about me and I would have to leave my Noah behind; and he and I were making love when the hunger hit me forcefully and I surrendered to my monster, my features changing…I did all I could to calm myself but it was too late, he already saw my face and was horrified by it. He rejected me and was disgusted for having feelings for a demon but what hurt me the most is the fact he actually asked me to kill him because he was ashamed for mating with a vampire. I should have done what he asked and saved myself a lot of misery but I couldn't muster the power to just snap his neck- that's all it would have taken, a bit of strength from my part and I could shut my emotions off and go back to being the heartless bitch I was before him. However I could not go there because the picture of his disgust was forever imprinted into my memory and I hated myself for letting it happen…so I compelled him to forget me and I left that place with only one decision on my mind- to become worth loving and to no longer have to be alone. That is the reason behind my actions, the 'why' to my intentions…I have helped people find themselves hoping along with them I'd find you and Stefan- and I did, 1000 years later."

It was the first time I told someone about Noah and it felt good to talk about it. It felt like closure…

Damon then realized that what he said earlier was cruel and had hurt my feelings.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know. I didn't mean it like that, I'm actually thankful to have you in my life even though I don't show it…it's just hard to give your heart to somebody else knowing they have the ability to brake it. That was actually what I wanted to tell you when I came into your room, three days ago…I wanted to tell you something but did not find the courage to do it and then I smelled Stefan on you and I went ballistic. I was jealous and hurt that while I was still conflicted about my feelings; my brother knew already how he felt and acted on it; I regretted not telling you why I reacted that way when we went out and the fact that I shut you out, pushed you away, right into his arms."

"Damon"

"No, please, just let me say this. You're nothing like Katherine and I was wrong to say otherwise…you are good and honest; you care about others while she only cares about herself. You gave me my life back and although there have been moments when I hated you for making me feel again, I still want to thank you for choosing us, for being the best part of me, for bringing out the good in me. But I can't share you with my brother, Khloe, I can't have only half of you because I love you. I'm in love for the first time and it's because of you…" He tucked a strand of hair behind my ear and gently traced my cheek with his fingers, stopping at my lips which parted of their own accord… "And seeing you with Stefan is killing me."

"I love you too, Damon! But…" He kissed me and I had to swallow my words. His lips were molding perfectly with mine and he tasted so sweet like vanilla and strawberries…and when our tongues melted together I literally saw stars before my eyes.

"No buts…right now it's only you and me…I don't care about anything else."

"No regrets…"

"None. I want you forever but I'll take what I can get." I kissed him and together we fell to the ground with him on top, his hand exploring the skin under my shirt. His touch was electrifying and it ignited fires in its path, only dulled by his proximity…"Do you care much about this shirt?" I looked at him confused but mimicked a 'no' anyway and soon the noise of fabric being torn reached my hearing and I giggled. My heaving chest clad in nothing but a flimsy lace bra was brushing against his now healed because of my blood and the contact felt so incredible that I wanted more.

"Pants…" kiss "need…" kiss "to go".

"Yes they do." And we took both our pants off, craving for more touching between our naked bodies…I needed to touch him so bad that I ripped his boxers and stroked his shaft altering with gentle squeezes which drove him crazy: "Shit that feels good…but forget about the foreplay, I need you now." He did the same thing with my panties, put one of my legs onto his shoulder and entered me completely in only one thrust:

"Oh, God! Damon…" I raised my hips signaling I was ready for him to move and we both set a hurried rhythm because we were too desperate for release; we were a perfect match for each other and being with him was better than I imagined. "Harder, please!" It's not like I'm a fragile China doll and could break any time- I liked it rough and raw-and the forest was the perfect spot for an unforgettable fuck. Damon put his hands under my ass and lifted us both, then smashing us against a tree, at vampire speed, and the pain from the scratches on my back only added to the building pleasure from my core…the smell of my blood soon made him ache with desire and his fangs came out begging him for a taste.

"Your blood, it tastes fucking perfect…I need more." It sounded like a compliment and an apology mixed together but the feeling of his fangs against my neck threw me off guard and I climaxed while he drank my blood. He sped up the pace, this new position offering him a better access at my G-spot so with each thrust of his cock, my back scraped against the tree, sending me crashing into wave after wave of pure ecstasy. I was feeling so much pleasure and blood loss that I almost blacked out; instead I bit him too, completing the cycle and sending us both over the edge…God, his blood tasted good…

His knees gave in from the force of his orgasm and we both fell once again to the ground, in a perfect tangle of limbs, not once breaking our connection, both emotional and physical. It must have been 5 minutes later that we were able to move again but words still faded us so we just stood there, watching the other right in the eyes and saying everything we felt without the need for speaking. It must have been the best sex ever because I don't remember ever feeling this way, this satiated and exhausted, my mind an ocean of nothing whatsoever.

"Wow…" the simple exclamation seemed to do injustice to how I was feeling but words could not simply describe the state of bliss and content that I was in.

"I love you so much, Khloe, no matter who you choose." What? After all we've been through he was still expecting me to break one brother's heart and my own with it? "At least now you can compare notes about how good we are in the sac…" His tone was bitter but the pain in my heart was even more so…

I picked myself up and dressed in the few items that were left undamaged after our heavy love making and started in the direction of the boarding house but not before I added sourly:

"I don't think I can Damon, I'd rather die than break one of your hearts…and it's impossible for me to be killed. I hope we find another way because if not, I'll have to leave you both and then we would all spend our miserable existence in regret and pain…"

I left him there and stepped out of the woods and into the house, passed by Stefan's intense stare at my state of undress and went straight to my room, locking the door after myself…