ok! Chapter two is up now! sorry for the long delay, I'm still new to all of this so just bare with me! :) Thank you to all of you that are watching this story, and please do not be afraid to review!

Note: I'm sure you've notice that Yuy is a little different than most people people portray him. I just recently rewatched the whole Gundam Wing series and I can't figure out for the life of me why everyone thinks that he's unemotional. He even told Trowa that it was ok to act on ones emotions. On top of that, he does show a lot of emotion at a lot of different times throughout the series. Now, that being said, he is very focused and does what he has to. His main goal is to win the war, and no matter what, he's going to do that. That doesn't make him unemotional, just determined and focused. He's really a good guy and a great character. So, thats my reasoning for making Heero the type of Character that I did. Duo as well is going to be a little bit different in this, not the normal joker everyone makes him out to be. Oh, and as for the time line, this is happening right after the Maremaeia (sp?) war or second war. So i think that puts them at being 17 years old or close. Let me know if I'm wrong on that and I'll be happy to fix it. Thanks again everyone!

Chapter 2

1 month later

I woke up feeling like something was off. I looked at the clock on the bedside table 0750, still early. Duo didn't have to be at work until 10 so usually didn't get up until 0830 or so. Over the past few weeks I had stopped being such an early riser. I no longer woke at 0500 or 0530. I now easily slept as late as Duo. So since it was so early, where was the braided baka? I looked around the room not noticing anything in particular out of place. I listened for any signs within the house. Suddenly I did hear something, it sounded like voices. Slowly slipping out of bed I pushed my feet into my house shoes and threw my robe on before padding quietly down the hall and towards the living room. I stopped before turning the corner; Duo was on the phone and in some sort of heated argument with the other person. "Now listen here asshole! We are ex-Gundam pilots! We've seen a lot more shit than you can possibly even dream of! How dare you try and tell me either one of us is not "qualified" for your stupid job! We don't have diplomas? Fuck that! Or a college degree! We've got the hands on experience! Doesn't that mean something! He saved the whole fucking world for crying out loud! And you tell me that he's not qualified! Fuck you! I'll take your organization down buddy! Just you wait!" I blinked, I obviously wasn't meant to hear this conversation. It was most likely one of the security agencies I'd applied to work for as a computer tech. I was a little surprised. I hadn't heard Duo that mad since the war. I heard him slam the phone down and quickly stepped around the corner and up behind him. I wrapped my arms around his waist and pressed my lips to his very bare shoulder. He had come out here dressed in only his boxers and house shoes. He jumped slightly at my touch before relaxing and turning around to bury his head in my shoulder. "How much did you hear?" he questioned softly not stupid enough to think that I didn't hear anything. "Not much, just the tail end. I take it another corporation rejected me for lack of a piece of paper?" he nodded softly in answer, his hair tickling my neck sending chills up my spine. I pulled away gently and grabbed his chin, forcing him to look up at me. "Duo," I started staring straight into his eyes "I don't want you to worry about me so much. I'm fine. Please don't let those assholes get to you. They are just doing their job. We are still very young I'm just going on 18 and so are you. It's no surprise that they don't want us. I'll find something; I still have the preventers to fall back on if I can't find anything else." He bit his lip and looked away his eyes flashing bright purple in rage for a brief moment before calming into a darker blue/violet. "I'm sorry Heero, I just can't help it. I want to do something for you, to show you how much you mean. You saved the world and yet these assholes can't even give you a chance. One guy even told me that you were too dangerous! I mean yeah, you can be, but you're not some sort of crazed bomb ready to go off at any moment!" Duo might have continued on his rant but I effectively cut him off by pressing my lips to his in a dizzying kiss. All we had done so far was kiss and and some light touching, neither of us had been quite ready to take it much further. I moaned into the kiss tasting and caressing every part of Duo's mouth with my tongue. Gods above, but I loved the taste and feel of this man. My arms which had been around his waist holding him close released him and I brought my hand up to cup his face while I slowly broke the mind-numbing kiss. "Duo…" I breathed gently caressing his check with my thumb. "You have already done more for me than anyone else and continue to give me more every day. Do not be so hard on yourself. If it's that important to you that I find a job, I will go and work for the preventers. At least, until I secure another position elsewhere." He nodded silently avoiding my eyes leaning into my caress. We had yet to really talk about our relationship. I think we were both afraid that if we defined it, it would somehow disappear. I knew that I cared a lot about him and desired him a great deal. I also knew that it was only a matter of time before something tore us apart. I'd been deliriously happy these past weeks and owed everything to Duo. It felt like a vacation, and I could feel something forming in the back of my mind saying that it was about to come to an end.

Eight weeks after the end of the war and I was back to normal. I was completely healed, stitches removed ribs strong again, and everything was functioning as normal once more. I was working for the preventers now alternating between field agent and computer information specialist. Basically I was the one to find and secure the safe houses and contacts for the agents and to dig up any other useful info on their current mission that I could. Une had agreed to only use me as an agent if absolutely necessary, so far I hadn't been on a single mission, But, I'd only been here two weeks. Six weeks with no missions and no war and I was finally starting to feel it. I'm surprised I lasted as long as that without any problems. It was most likely due to the fact that I was healing and yet during that entire time something in the back of my mind kept bugging me, as if there was something important I was trying to remember and yet it was just out of reach. Then one day, it all became clear as my mind finally caught up with everything and I did the only thing I could, I lost my mind.

The day started out normal enough, I got up got ready for work, kissed Duo goodbye and left. Like I said, it started out normal. Once I got to work, that strange feeling I'd been having got suddenly stronger and turned into something almost painful. I quickly went to my desk and sat down, hitting the button on my computer I quietly waited on the machine to boot up. I looked over at my phone and saw that the little light was flashing indicating that I had a voicemail. I picked it up and hit the button to listen, it was Une. There was a mission for me and she needed to see me in her office right away. With a heavy sigh I pushed myself away from my great mahogany desk, stood up and started for the door to her office. I was about halfway there when I suddenly heard a great loud bang and the whole building shook. At that moment time seemed to stop. My brain shut down. I don't know exactly what happened but from what I've been told one of the scientists in the ground floor messed something up and it exploded. The building shook but nothing serious happened. It wasn't a terrorist attack; it was an accident, a mishap. This is where the real problem started. I hadn't been around anything like this in months now. It had been 3 months since the war and since I had been in any combat situation. For someone that's been trained since birth to fight, this is a hard reality to come to terms with. With the explosion my mind suddenly snapped. That thing in the back of my mind that had been nagging at me finally came forward. It told me that I was back in the war, that all of these co-workers were OZ officials and had to be eliminated, especially Lady Une. I don't know what happened, I blacked out and don't remember a thing. I've gathered enough from stories though to know that, what happened was not nice, and/or pretty. It was a near massacre, with me at the center.

From what I've been told, I quickly found a weapon and started using it on anyone in my path. If anyone was in my way I shot them. My mission? To kill Lady Une, and nothing and no one could stand in my way, except Wufei Chang. It's a blessing he was there that day because without him, I would have killed Une. My mind cleared just enough to recognize him as a fellow Gundam pilot and not an enemy; until he attacked me. The whole floor I was on was destroyed, I had set off small bombs all over the place, knocked out everyone in my path, and made it all the way to the elevator before Chang finally stepped in and stopped me. Apparently it was quite the fight between him and I. He won, but I left him pretty well battered as well. I'm thankful that he won though; otherwise I would have destroyed the entire Preventers agency.

I woke up some time later in the hospital ward, with my arms and legs tied down. As soon as I noticed the restraints it brought me back to the war when Duo had helped me escape. I didn't understand why I was there but I knew I had to get out. I promised Duo I would be home for dinner and I intended to keep that promise. Just like back in the war I kept my brainwaves and pulse even and steady and slowly tried to wriggle out of the bonds. I had just about gotten one hand free when I heard footsteps approach. I quickly closed my eyes again and pretended to still be asleep.

"Any changes?" a voice said, I recognized it as Sally Po. "None so far Doctor Po. Should we give him something to wake him up?" another voice spoke up, one I did not recognize. "No," Sally stated "He has a very strong resistance to most all drugs and it would be dangerous to try. We'll just let him sleep it off and in the morning hopefully he'll wake up and we can find out just what happened." With that being said I heard the footsteps retreat and a door open a close. Cautiously I opened one eye to a slight slit and looked around as best I could. Once I deemed it safe I quickly broke free of my bonds and hightailed it out of there. I didn't know what time it was or how long I had been there but I knew I had to get out. I used all my same tactics as during the war and just knocked out any doctors or orderlies in my way. I was outside in less than two minutes in a stolen taxi cab driving away. I knew of a safe house that hadn't been used in a long time and took myself there first. I needed some time to think.

Once I pulled up to the safe house I cut the engine and quickly made my way inside. After setting up the security cameras and making sure everything was safe I finally allowed myself to relax. I lay down on the cold hard bed in the one bedroom and tried to remember what I had done. The last thing I recalled was the explosion and then waking up tied to the bed in the Preventers hospital. Why couldn't I remember what happened? I noticed my clothes were covered in blood, but I was relatively unscathed so that meant that this was others blood. I sat up and put my head in my hands, "oh god…" I moaned what had I done? I decided to try and find some answers so I went into the kitchen where a small laptop was hooked up and went the search the local news. Several headlines popped up 'Mass controversy over attack at Preventers HQ", and "Several injured by war vet at Preventers HQ". I couldn't believe it; it had even made the news. Somehow my name had been left out, it was just known that some former war pilot went crazy and tore the place apart, amazingly enough, I didn't kill anyone, that alone was a huge relief. After I read all I could and even hacked into preventers for more info, I shut down the lap top and wearily climbed into bed. I'd deal with the rest in the morning.

I woke early feeling very stiff and disoriented. I could not figure out where I was for the longest time, then like a wave crashing into the shore, it all came rushing back to me. Wearily I groaned and rolled over. I knew I had to go back, to face up to what I had done and try to atone for it in some way. First thing I needed to do though was to call Lady Une and find out what my options were. I also was in a debate with myself over whether to call Duo or not. He must be worried sick by now. I figured I would decide what to do about that after I talked with Une.

I slowly rolled out of bed and made my way to the phone, picking it up I dialed the number to Preventers headquarters and requested to speak to Une. I was sure to use the voice over only and left the video portion of the phone off, just in case. After a long hold Lady Une picked up sounded harried and upset, "Preventers this is Une." She clipped out obviously having lost all patience overnight. "Lady Une…." I paused suddenly very unsure of myself. "This is Heero Yuy…" I finally got out. I was met with a long dead silent pause before she started yelling, "Yuy! Where the hell are you! What happened? I demand some answers Yuy! I've got the press breathing down my back over your little fiasco!" I gulped "Ah… I… uh.. that is…" I suddenly couldn't get anything out; it was like I was a little kid being scolded by a parent! I was more afraid of her then I had ever been of anyone during the war. "Well Yuy! Out with it already? At least let me know you are Ok! We've been worried sick about you!" I blinked in surprise at that "You have? But… I thought…" I was cut off from anything further from what she said "Of course we have! We know that you weren't in your right mind when you attacked everyone. That much was obvious! Besides that Chang injured you, I hope not too badly, and you were out cold for six hours! Then you just up and disappear leaving only a trail of unconscious people behind you." I sighed, and couldn't help but smile. I thought for sure I would be hated now. "I apologize Lady. I woke up tied to a bed, the same way I had during the war. My first thought was to get out, that if I'm restrained like that it must mean I'm in enemy territory. I didn't calm down until I got to where I'm at now."

"And just where is that?" she asked taking on a very cold tone

"In a safe house approximately 2 hours drive north of Sanq."

"Send the coordinates and I'll have someone you trust come and get you."

"Ah… Can I make one request?"

"You may"

"I know I need help, this has proved that to me. I don't remember anything that happened past that small explosion. I just blanked out. My best guess is that the Zero system is still a part of me and I need help to get rid of it. "

"That was already going to happen Yuy, so this really isn't a request, but I get the feeling there is more."

"Yes, if you would please not tell Duo about any of this, or any of the other pilots I would greatly appreciate it. Just tell Duo I'm away on a lengthy mission and will contact him upon my return."

Lady Une laughed at this "You'll contact him upon your return to sanity you mean! That is fine Yuy, I will go along with your request as long as you promise to stay in therapy for as long as you need it."

"Agreed. I am sending the coordinates now." I nodded and punched in the codes through the vid phone and hit the send button.

"Alright, I'll have someone there in 45 minutes to get you. Please stay put until then."

"Yes Lady, mission accepted."

"Oh, and Yuy. Just for the record, I'm glad you are safe and that even in your rage, you didn't kill anyone. You still have a job here once you medically cleared." With that I heard the soft click as she hung up the phone.

I decided that it would be for the best if I didn't contact Duo. If I heard his voice now I would just lose my nerve and want to run back to him. I sunk down heavily into the chair beside the small table in the kitchen. I put my head in my hands and suddenly started to shake uncontrollably. What if something had happened during the months that I was living with Duo, what if it was at home that I had gone crazy and hurt him? I would never be able to live with myself after that. I was having a hard enough time knowing that if I ever went back to work people wouldn't want me around as it is. I am dangerous; I am a ticking time bomb that no one knows when will go off. I don't know how long I sat like that just wallowing in misery before I heard the distinct sound of a chopper outside. I sat there a moment longer before going outside and jumping into the chopper and settling into a seat beside the pilot, who just happened to be Wufei.

Without saying a word he handed me my helmet which had a headset in it that allowed us both to talk without having to yell. I turned mine on and looked over at him. "Chang, good to see you alive" I said.

He chuckled, "Yuy, it takes a lot more than that to kill me off. You're a tough opponent though. I'd love the opportunity to spar with you again sometime." At his words I let out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding. I was feeling very relieved that he wasn't upset with me over everything that happened. "Look Yuy," his words cut through my thoughts bring my attention back to him "Don't feel so bad about this, everyone that has used that damnedable Zero system has done this. You lasted a lot longer than any of the others, but they still did it. Even Quatre went mad. "My ears perked up at this last bit, "He did? When?" I had to know. "About two weeks after the war ended, you were just getting out of the hospital so you probably didn't see it. His was a lot worse than yours; it lasted three times as long and he was noisy about it. He kept telling everyone that they were the enemy and that he had to destroy them. It was a good thing that Trowa was there or he may have killed everyone that has helped with rebuilding his corporation. He was in his office that day." Chang stated all of this with a very calm look on his face as if it was just another thing that happened. "That system is horrible and should be destroyed. Once you finish with the therapy we should look into maybe getting rid of the gundams as well." I looked over at him in surprise. "Get rid of the Gundams? But why?" he snorted at my question. "Because Yuy, they are nothing but symbols of war now. They are no longer needed. We should all get together and destroy them once and for all. It will probably help you to be free as well. It was Quatre who suggested it, he even ran the idea past his therapist and she wholeheartedly agreed. I confess, I agree as well." I looked away from him then, getting lost in my thoughts and was still lost in thought when we landed a few minutes later. As we stepped up to the building Wufei put a hand on my shoulder halting me from going inside. "Heero," he spoke softly using my name as he's never done before "I want you to know that no one blames you for this. We all care for you and are just happy that you are ok. You'll get through this. You'll see. You'll be home in another couple of weeks I'm sure." I smiled weakly, "Thank you Wufei, that means a lot to me to hear that. Could you do me a favor?" He looked confused but nodded at me to continue. "Could you look after Duo for me? Don't tell him where I am or what has happened, just look after him and make sure he stays safe until I return." He looked confused, "You love him don't you?" he asked. "Yes, I do, very much. I don't want him to be hurt by my absence any more that he has to be. Just tell him I'm away on a mission. It's not entirely a lie." Wufei nodded, "Alright, I give you my word. He will be safe and as happy as I can make him, until the day you are free to return." I clapped him on the shoulder in thanks and turned to go inside the building. "Oh and Heero!" he called from behind me, "don't take too long ok?" I waved at him in return and continued on my way first to Une's office, then to the psychiatric ward where I would be spending the next undetermined amount of time.