Hello again! I just wanted to write a quick note to thank everyone that has read this story, I hope you have all enjoyed it so far and know that this is only the beginning! I also want to apologize for taking so long to post more. I have been very sick and in and out of the hospital for the past 2 and a half weeks and am just now well enough to write more. So if you've stuck with it so far I thank you!

Warnings:yaoi, agnst, rape, sexual situations, torture, drug use, and I'm sure there are more but I can't think of them at the moment. Just know that its rated M for a good reason.

Disclaimer: Once again I do not own the gundam characters as much as I wish I did, all the other characters are mine. There is one in paticular that is based off of a character from another anime. Can anyone guess who he is? lol

anyway, onto the story! Enjoy!

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Chapter 3

Two months had passed and I was still stuck here. The doctor claimed that I just wasn't making enough progress. We had not been able to figure out what triggered the zero system. They even tried surprising me with smoke bombs to see if that would trigger it. Nothing, no matter what drugs they used, or what tests they came up with, I stayed stone faced through all of it. I was just letting them do whatever they needed to so that they could figure out what was wrong and fix it. I was losing patience though. I longed to go home and sleep in my nice warm bed with Duo wrapped in my arms. I tried talking to the doctors about letting me leave but they were very adamant that I stay until they figure out what the trigger was. I got really cheeky one day and even threatened a doctor. I walked right up to him and spat out, "You'd better pray that once you find the trigger you can get out of the way quick enough, because you're the first one I'll come after." The man wisely looked shaken after I said that and I hope that that means he'll work faster and figure something out soon. I wanted out of this place and away from bare white walls and the stagnant smell of alcohol day in and day out. I hate hospitals and yet here I am living in one. It's enough to make someone want to let Zero just take over.

Two more months; I'm now working on my fourth month in here, and it's really starting to drag me down. I hadn't heard from anyone in the outside world since I got in here. Not even Lady Une has contacted me, although I've been reassured that she was being updated on my care. The care I was receiving wasn't all that bad. The tests they ran on me sucked, but I have a talent for blocking out pain so it was no big deal. Aside from the tests they fed me alright, I've got my own room with a private bathroom and shower, I've got books to read and my computer to type on. It could be a lot worse I guess. When I first thought that, I didn't realize just how right I was, or how it was going to get a lot worse. I was at my 14th week in the psychiatric ward when everything suddenly changed. I was in my room asleep in the middle of the night when suddenly I was roughly pulled from my bed and a cloth covered in something pressed over my face. I tried to fend off my attackers but the chemical I was currently breathing in stopped me from doing anything. Whatever it was they were using it didn't knock me out, but it did render me completely useless. I couldn't move at all. I could move but just barely, everything was really sluggish. "Damn!" I heard my attacker mutter to another, "That doc was right about his strong tolerance. That should have been enough to knock out and paralyze a horse and he's still awake. He's too sluggish to do anything though so it's enough". I was then dragged out of my room and into one of the "testing" rooms. It looked just like an operating room complete with tools set out all over the place and a hard metal bed in the center. I recognized my attacker then, it was the doctor I had threatened. I guess he was really trying to set me off. I tried to turn my head to see the others that were working with him and found that even that small movement was near impossible. I couldn't do anything at all other than lay there and pray for it all to be over quickly.

I must have dozed off because I don't remember what happened after that, I only remember waking up to the feeling of ropes being tightened around my wrists and ankles. I couldn't move at all. It was a horrible feeling. I kept wishing that Zero would just manifest within me so that I could be free of this. I didn't know what that doctor was going to do to me, but I didn't have a very good feeling about any of this at all. Once I was more awake I quickly noticed that I was completely nude and laying spread eagle on the operating table. I must have made some noise for suddenly that evil demented doctor was leaning over me. He really wasn't a bad looking man, quite handsome in fact. He had short silvery hair with bangs that fell over his clear ice blue cold eyes, and an evil smile with perfectly straight small white teeth. He had a good body too, well fit with a solid six pack abs and well defined shoulders and arms. He was young, I'd say only around 28 at the most. But, he was obviously evil and planning something horrible. That alone made him ugly, I wanted to take that white lab coat and shove it down his throat. "Ah your awake" he stated with an air or haughtiness. "I am surprised that you haven't gone zero on us yet, but do not fear, you will." His evil smile gleemed with fresh malice and I strained in my bonds to try and wipe it right off of his face. He laughed then at my expression, "You know Heero, it was you that told me to hurry up. So I'm doing my best to accommodate you. Now that those meddling nurses are not here I can finally do with you what I want. And I will have fun doing it too." The smile that he gave me then chilled me and I visibly shuddered. It didn't go unnoticed either. "You see Heero, you and the Zero system were meant to be. It was built for you! I don't want it to leave you, no, I just want to control it within you. Just think! If I can find the trigger, then I could set you off anytime I want! You would be my own personal weapon! We could take over the world together! Wouldn't you like that Heero?" throughout his entire speech he was pacing the room and just as he was finished and leaned down so that his face was right above mine. I did what any respectable person would do, I spit in his eye. He howled and pulled away from me to wipe at his eye, then quickly turned around and backhanded me across the face, hard. "That was a very stupid thing to do Heero. You will pay for that." I just gave him my best death glare. The drug he had given me was completely worn off now and I was already formulating a plan in my mind to escape. Right now though I had to bide time. I don't know what he did to get rid of the other nurses but I hope that they are alright. They were kind to me and I would hate to know that they were killed for such a pitiful reason. The doctor disappeared from my limited field of vision for a moment then came back holding a needle. I started to struggle in earnest now, desperate to get free before he stuck that in me. I saw him flick the syringe a couple of time to dispel any air bubbles before turning to me. "You know what this is Heero?" he asked "It's a drug to enhance mental abilities. Kind of like a steroid for the mind. Aren't you interested to see what this would do to someone with the Zero system?" he laughed at my horrified look before jabbing the needle roughly into my thigh. I fought as best I could against the system, against the drug, but it was useless. The last things I remember is hearing the sound of his maniacal laughter which followed me into darkness.

When I woke up it was to the complete darkness. I don't know how long I had been out, but apparently either nothing had happened with that drug or the doctor was dead and I was now free. Only, I was still tied to the hard surface of the operating table so obviously I wasn't that lucky. Suddenly the light above the table was turned on blinding me for several moments. I couldn't see anything around the brightness until the doctor pushed his face into my field of vision. He looked pissed, his whole face changed into one of pure hatred and anger. "What did you do! Nobody can completely rid themselves of the Zero system! How did you do it!" he spat at me. My eyes widened in surprise, I was rid of the Zero system? Then I was free to go home! To go to Duo! I tried to keep my face still and not show anything but the doctor still must have seen something. "Oh, don't think you are free just yet. I'm not done playing with you yet. I may no longer be able to use you as my personal soldier, but I can still use you for…" he trailed off as his eyes traveled down my body, "other things." He finally finished reaching up to give my balls a squeeze with one hand and run his other hand down my chest.

I started to struggle, to thrash around anything to get that hand off of me. "No! Don't touch me you sick bastard! Leave me alone!" I cried out as his hand grabbed my limp dick and squeezed. "You know Heero, " he started sounding very nonchalant, "You really do have a very nice, perfect, body. You have grown into a fine young man. I think I deserve a taste before I even think about releasing you. By releasing you, I mean to kill you. I can't have you going to the cops about this now can I?" As he was talking he was removing his clothes. I was getting more and more panicky as the time passed. Suddenly he was on top of me, his already hard member pressing into me. I felt bile rising in my throat and wanted to push him away more than anything. I struggled more with my hands now, the ropes cutting into my wrists making me bleed. Blood was ok though, it could be used as a sort of lube to help me slip out of the ropes. I was hoping that I could make that work. I worked harder at my wrists now, moaning in pain at the terrible rope burns. Apparently he took the moan as meaning something else and chuckled lightly, "Ah, my little Heero. Are you ready for me? I think I am ready for you." Without any warning or preparation he slammed into me and I did something I never thought I would do at enemy hands, I screamed. He thought that the whole thing was quite funny somehow, "I guess even you can scream Mr. Perfect Soldier. Not so perfect now are you!" I couldn't help it, I screamed and cried and begged for him to stop but it was all to no avail. He stopped only when he was done. Then once he was dressed, he stuck another needle in me claiming it was nutrients to keep me healthy and left.

I lay there for many hours' afterwards feeling more broken than I ever had during the war. During the war when I had been captured, I had been tortured, but never like this, and I never before screamed. I was feeling dirty and I hurt all over. I wanted to just give in and give up, but I knew I had Duo waiting for me at our little house in the woods. I still wanted more than anything to just be home with him. I knew I needed to escape. The blood on my hands was completely dried now and useless. I had lost my chance with that for the moment anyway. I knew I had to reopen the wounds on my wrists and try again, I also knew that it would hurt like a bitch. Quickly, before I could lose my nerve I started tugging back and forth on one of the ropes. I don't know what happened but the ropes binding my left wrist suddenly felt looser than they had earlier. It was a very small minute amount but it was enough to give me hope. I kept tugging, pushing, and pulling until I felt the blood again and did my best to flatten my hand and pull it through the ropes. I could just feel my hand starting to slide through the ropes when heard footsteps. I quickly pushed my hand back through, knowing that it was loose enough now to work with. The hope was there, it wouldn't last long however, for every time I came close to pulling one hand free, he would once again appear before me and either drug me again, or force himself on me once more.

I don't know how long this continued, his daily torture. I had no way of knowing the passage of time as there were no windows anywhere nearby and the only time there was light was when the doctor was with me. My internal clock told me that only days had past, but the doctor let slip just once that one of the drugs he had given me didn't work as planned since it had knocked me out for nearly a week. So the amount of time I spent tied to that hard metal surface with my hands and feet bound is entirely unknown. All I knew was that I still had not managed to break free even though one of my bonds was loose. That in an of itself was disturbing. This last round of his had left me feeling quite numb to everything and even the stillness of sleep would not come to me. I was suddenly very afraid, I had never been afraid of anything before, but now I was.

The room was very dark and still once again. The Doctor having left some time ago to do whatever it is he did. For once I wasn't drugged, which was more of a curse than a blessing because it then left me alone with me thoughts. Without warning a chill passed over me, he was coming back I just knew it. It was too soon for him to be back, it didn't fit his normal pattern at all. I could hear the telltale footsteps rapidly approaching, signaling that my feelings were correct and he was indeed coming footsteps got louder and closer and only stopped once they were right beside me. Once that horrible light was turned back on and I saw the doctor I was surprised to see him looking so angry. He was definitely less than pleased with something. "D-Doctor? Is something wrong?" I ventured trying to sound interested in him. Maybe if I could keep him talking long enough he wouldn't have time to do anything with me. "Yes, you damned brat! That abomination Lady Une, keeps bugging me about you! Now she wants to come and see you herself!" he was pacing angrily around the small room. I was straining to turn my head and keep up with him. "So, what are you going to do?" I asked unable to keep the fear from my voice. His smirk was murderous and as he turned it on me I grew very cold and did my best to shrink away, "Why, my little Heero, I'm going to kill you of course!" I think he sounded way to happy about that and I did my best not to cry out. "But don't worry; I'll make it look like you killed yourself. You just couldn't part with the Zero system, you had grown to love it and when I discovered how to do away with it, you lashed out at me and killed yourself in the process by a brain aneurism. It's all planned out already so no need to worry." I gaped at him then and couldn't believe what he was saying. I knew I needed to get out of here and soon. I had to be able to buy some more time. "When are you planning on doing this?" I timidly got out. "Hmm…." He pondered rubbing his hand down his chin, "Maybe in two days time. She won't be here until next week so I've got some time. Besides, I want to taste you again, you are entirely too delicious, I want another go." I shuddered suddenly horrified at the thought of him touching me again. "Please…. No….." I begged but knew it would do no good. He just laughed while taking off his clothing before starting the torture all over again.

Once he was finished and cleaned up he cleaned me up some. At least he had the decency to do that much. When he was done with that he left without a word. I lay there for a while feeling spent and broken, I think I even slept some I don't know but I do know that quite some time passed and once I finally came to I immediately got back to work on freeing myself. I just about had one hand free when a thought suddenly stopped me, even if I was able to get out of here, how would I convince Une that the doctor was wrong? That he was crazy, and that he had done horrible things? I could still feel some of his seed inside me and knew that if I could find a way to preserve that, than I could use that as evidence. I was grateful for one thing at least, this whole fiasco had proved that the Zero system was truly gone from my system and that I could return home knowing that I wouldn't be a danger to Duo in anyway. I stopped my thoughts and continued to move my upper body more and more to try and slip my hand free. I was rolled almost completely onto my side when my hand finally slipped free. I almost let out a cry of triumph but held it in just in case he was somewhere he could hear me. I quickly untied the rope holding my other hand and started work on my feet when I heard footsteps again. I quickly laid down and spread my arms back out hoping that he wouldn't notice the ropes gone. I lay there praying to all of the gods I could think of to let him just not notice. However, I was entirely unprepared for the site that greeted me when the light was turned on.

Oooh! A cliffhanger! And you'll never guess what it is! I dare you to try, I would so love to know just whats running through everyones brains just now. Please share your thoughts! Also, I'll be posting the next chapter hopefully in just another couple of days. Enjoy everyone!

Tsuzukinyo