Hello again all! Ok! Another chapter!
First tho, I want to dedicate this chapter to my ONE AND ONLY reviewer! Thank you Voldyismoldy! You are the only person that has sent me a review. C-mon people! Say SOMETHING! lol I need to know that I'm doing to. Thank you to all of you that have me on your story alerts list as well. Just so you all know, I'm working on two other stories besides this one. One is a fantasy/sci-fi where Heero goes to another planet that is rumored to be like earth in search of intelligent life, and finds Duo, a Nekito! The Nekito's are very similar to the Na'vi people of Pandora, only they have bigger ears and are different colors, not blue. Nekito's are also not nearly as big as a Na'vi and the planet they are on is nearly identicle to earth. The story involves Heero, Duo, Quatre, and Trowa as the main characters, who together have to figure out how to save this wonderful new world from human interaction. No, its not going to be like Avatar, well maybe in a couple ways, but theres no teaching Heero or Trowa. Wufei is so far not in the story at all, but that may change in time. The second story is about a fallen Angel, its his story all about why he fell and who he fell for. Let me know if any of these sound interesting! Thanks for reading! Now on to the story!
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Chapter 4
I lay completely still after the light was turned on and waited for the doctor to come within sight. When he did my heart froze. In his arms was something, something dark, and dripping with blood. I couldn't see around the light well enough to see what it was, even with straining my eyes. It was long and started out thick on one end and ended up much thinner on the other. A snake? perhaps? I wouldn't have realized that it was covered in blood except for the sound of it dripping on the floor, each drop hitting the ground with a loud smack and echoing off the walls. My eyes moved up to the Doctors face and I immediately noticed that the doctors eyes were unfocused and strange, and eerily glowing. He looked like he was on something, definitely not in his right mind, not that he ever was, but this was worse than usual. "I've figured it out my little Heero! I know how to draw the Zero system out of you again!" he cackled out, his voice rising and falling in pitch in a strangled sort of half laugh half language that I could only just barely make out. Without warning he threw the blooded thing on me and in my surprise I almost brought my hands up to catch it, but caught myself at the last second. No matter how out of sorts he was, he would definitely notice my hands being free if I did that. So far he hadn't noticed. The thing landed on my chest with a wet smack and as I focused in on it and realized what it was, I found myself unable to breath. It was a long chestnut braid, coated in blood. "No!" I whispered. His laughter drew my eyes away from the blooded hair and onto him. "Oh yes! I found out that you lived with the little slut! You should have heard him, screaming your name to the last breath! HAHAHAHAHA! He's dead! I killed him! I strangled him with his very own braid! It was beautiful my little Heero. You should have been there, to see him begging and pleading like the pitiful little whelp that he is!" he was once again laughing in that long crazy evil laugh that I had grown to hate so much. I looked down at the braid on my chest, blood dripping down across my ribs and onto the floor, hoping and praying that it wasn't true, it couldn't be true. He couldn't have killed Duo. There was no way! I was soo busy with my sorrow and focus on the braid that I didn't even notice when he had climbed on top of me. Reaching down he grabbed the braid, pulled his dick out and proceeded to coat it in the blood, then he rubbed the slimy thing all over me. He started with my chest and moved down to my stomach, covering me in the bright red substance before tossing the braid over one of my arms and slamming himself into me all the while laughing.
For the first minute I just laid there letting him use me. What was the point, at least once he killed me I would be with Duo again. Oh Duo! No! No! No! I shook my head violently. No, I couldn't give up. Duo could still be alive and even if he wasn't I must avenge him! I could feel the rage building within me, the stupid doctor was so lost in his slamming into my body that he didn't even notice when my hands came around and grabbed the long braid. Before he even knew what hit him I had the braid wrapped around his neck and pulled so tight that I broke the bastards neck. The whole thing took less than 3 seconds and I quickly pushed his now dead body off of me before losing it completely. I screamed as loud as I could, for as long as I could, before passing out completely the rage and sorrow and pain having used up what little energy that remained. My last thought before the darkness consumed me was of Duo, "I'm coming Duo, I'll be home soon...".
When I woke I was in a completely different room. One I didn't recognize. 'Great' I thought 'once all the hard work was done then I finally get a rescue…' I looked around the room taking stock of my surroundings. The room was small but friendly. The bed I was in was definitely a hospital bed but the room itself didn't look like a hospital room. It had a nightstand and a dresser against the far wall. A TV was mounted to the corner up by the ceiling and over by the door was a smaller door to what I guessed was a bathroom. It was almost like a hotel room. The best part about it was that I was covered in blankets and was wearing clothes! I never thought I would love wearing hospital pajamas so much. I took a minute to run my hand over my clothed chest, reveling in the feel of the fabric against my skin. The soft cotton was amazing and felt so familiar yet new to me, I loved it. I moved my hand down to the sheets of the bed I was laying in, soft and warm. I felt like I had never experienced warmth before and cuddled a little more into the blankets before looking around the room. I was sad to notice that I was alone in the room, this time Duo wasn't with me. I choked back a sob, realizing that it could be true that the bastard had killed him. I wondered how long I had been in here, there were flowers covering every available surface and cards around them as well. It looked like I'd been out for quite a while. I looked up as I heard the door opening, allowing myself to hope but I couldn't help the obvious disappointment on my face when it was Wufei that entered. "As pleased as I am that you are finally awake, you could look a little happier to see me." He joked.
I looked up at him and just stared blankly, unable to muster up any sort of emotion at the moment. Wufei just shook his head and sauntered over to me. "You gave us quite a scare you know" he stated calmly while pulling up a chair to sit beside my bed. I turned away from him to look out the window. I had nothing to say to those that had left me in that place, forgotten and abused. I felt a small touch to my arm and violently jumped away from it fear making itself evident in every part of my body. I turned to look at Wufei who had a hurt look in his eyes. "Look Heero, "he started, pleading with me "We didn't know what was happening. That doctor sent us pictures and updates of you. He even sent a video once of you talking and laughing with the nurses! You looked like you were doing well. He told us that it was normal for the treatment to take six months or longer and we trusted him. God above, Heero, we are soo sorry. All of us. We never thought he would do something like this." I turned away from him then and went back to staring vacantly out the window. It was winter. I'd been gone since spring, I lost almost a year of my life to that place. I didn't want to talk, not to Wufei not to anyone. I just wanted Duo and he was gone now. He tried a few more times to get me to talk by telling me of what was happening. He spoke for a long while on how there wasn't even going to be a trial because I obviously acted in self-defense. I wanted to ask him how long ago I was found, how long I had been in this hospital but it didn't matter now. Nothing mattered now.
When it was obvious that I wasn't going to speak he whispered something else softly and left the room allowing another person to come in a grovel at my feet. I don't know how many people tried to come in and get me to talk but I ignored everyone and just continued to stare out the window. I was enjoying watching the snow storm outside. It was as if I was looking into my own tormented soul swirling wildly around in an angry dance of wind, snow, and ice. It was oddly comforting, and before I knew it, it was night once more.
At some point I must have dosed off because when I woke up I could hear someone outside my door arguing. "What the hell man! Why didn't you tell me he had woke up!" my eyes widened, that voice…. "I am sorry, you were at work and when I tried to call you were always busy!" that was Wufei's voice. Then the other voice again "Ok fine, but did he say anything? Did he even ask for me?" the first voice again. "No, I'm afraid we have been unable to get him to talk so far. Perhaps you will have more luck, he's hasn't uttered a single word since he woke up..." Before my brain could catch up with my body I was stumbling out of bed and running towards the voice that I knew so well. My heart was in my throat as I flung the door open causing the two to stop mid-argument and turn shocked faces towards me.
When I first laid eyes on him my mind went blank for just a moment. He was there, he was alive! My Duo! He was alive. I couldn't stop it then, the pain, the fear, the frustration and hurt and sorrow all came out. With tears now pouring down my face I launched myself into Duo's arms, crying out his name. "Duo!" It was all I could say, over and over again like some healing mantra. I could not stop crying, I'd never cried like this before in my life but even the perfect soldier has to break down some time I guess. Duo must have sent Wufei a glare because he then bowed and turned and left. Duo gently picked me up and carried me back to my room and laid me in my bed. He tried to let me go, but I wasn't having any of it. Finally with a soft laugh he crawled in beside me, wrapped me in his arms and allowed me to cry myself to sleep without any questions.
I woke up the next morning thinking that it must have all been a dream; that I was still back with that damned doctor. I felt a weight on my chest and could feel the panic rise up within me. My heart beat and breathing must have increased considerably because suddenly the weight was lifted and a soft voice was whispering in my ear, "Heero, it's ok. Your safe now." I squeezed my eyes shut and willed my breathing to even out before the voice continued, "Its ok now, Heero. Open your eyes love." I slowly opened my eyes and was greeted with the best sight ever. Duo was leaning over me with his face right in front me me and those beautiful violet eyes that I adored so much filled with concern were directed solely on me. I let out a breath of relief and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him tightly. As tightly pressed against me as he was, I could feel him smile. He pushed himself back just enough that we could look at each other. "I missed you sooo much Hee-chan." He whispered as he lazily drew patterns on my chest and stomach with his fingers. I finally decided it was safe to talk a little. "Duo…. I thought I had lost you. The doctor…." I swallowed audibly before continuing "The doctor told me that he had killed you. He had a long braid that looked like yours and was covered in blood. He said that he finally figured out how to bring out the Zero system in me and that he had killed you. I couldn't handle it! The thought of losing you was worse than anything else! I lost all reason and when I finally was able to free myself I broke the bastards neck using that very same braid that I thought was yours." I let out another strangled sob at the memories that came flooding back "Duo, I was so afraid of losing you. I can't do that again. It killed me the first time. When I heard your voice outside my door I felt like life had been breathed into me again. You are my life Duo. I love you, I love you more than anything, more than anyone." I was crying in ernest now, the sobs shaking my entire body. I felt a light kiss being pressed to my temple before a heavy weight was pressed down on my chest. I opened my eyes enough to see that Duo was now laying completely on top of me. I felt him chuckle lightly before commenting, "well, that explains your reaction to me yesterday." After pressing a soft kiss to my cheek, he tucked his head under my chin and I heard him let out a whisper, "I love you too Heero"
We must have drifted back to sleep because I was woken up by a loud voice, "Mr. Maxwell!" it was one of the nurses and we had been caught in bed together. "Yeah, yeah… whats all the noise about Mary?" Duo mumbled still half asleep himself. The one I can only presume was Mary spoke up again in a harsh tone, "Mr. Maxwell, you know very well that we don't allow patients to share beds with anyone!" Duo just chuckled at this, "Yeah I know, but tell that to him!" I had my eyes open now and was giving my best death glare to the nurse. She was a short pudgy person with mousey brown hair pulled back in a tight bun and soft brown eyes that hid nothing. She took one look at my glare and actually seemed to find it very funny. "Now, Mr. Yuy, You're still recovering so you're going to have to let Mr. Maxwell go so that I can do my job. I can only feed one of you and it's time for your breakfast." I growled loudly and tightened my hold on Duo. There was no way I was letting him go now. Duo laughed again and gently pushed against my arms, "Heero baby, " he whispered just loud enough that I could hear. "C-mon love, let me go for just a bit. I'll run to the bathroom and then go get some food for myself. I'll even get it to go so that I can come back up here and eat with you. Ok?" I grunted and reluctantly pulled my arms away and sat up. He scrambled out of bed, got scolded again by nurse Mary, and quickly ducked into the bathroom. By the time he came out I was sitting up in bed with a tray of food in front of me. He smiled at me and looked around the room, I'm guessing to make sure Mary was gone before pressing his lips to mine in a quick kiss. Just as he was turning to walk away I grabbed his arm, preventing him from going further. I gave him a pleading look and squeezed just a little. He seemed to understand what I was trying to say and gently removed my hand. Giving my hand a soft squeeze he smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'll be back before you know it." Then with a kiss blown in my direction he was out the door.
After he left I stared at the door for a long while not sure what to do with myself. I turned back to my food wondering what I was supposed to do with it. I suddenly felt very very helpless. I don't know how long that doctor had me tied to that bed, but during the entire time, he never once fed me. All he did was pump me full of nutrients to keep me "healthy". I realized quickly that I did not want this food and the more I thought about it, the more sick it made me. I just barely made it to the bathroom in time before throwing up all the fluids that I had in. Making my way slowly back to bed, I pushed the offending tray away before finally taking stock of my own condition. I was terribly thin. I could easily count all of my ribs just by lifting my shirt. My wrists were still raw and heavily bandaged and I was guessing I had stitches in at least one. When Duo got back I would ask him to read the hospital report to me of everything that was wrong. Thinking about Duo brought forward the fact that he wasn't back yet. It had probably only been about five minutes but each second seemed like an eternity. I looked up at the clock hanging on the wall and watched each second tick by. I don't really know what happened after that, one minute I was just looking at the clock and the next Duo was shaking me. I blinked a few times and turned to him. "Duo? When did you get back?" He looked a little shocked at that question but shock quickly turned to concern. "Heero, when I walked in you didn't even notice I was here. I waved my hand in front of your face and everything. It took a full thirty seconds for you to respond. It was like you were in some sort of trance." I blinked in confusion, how could that happen? All I did was stare at the clock. I shook my head and looked once more at the clock before turning my full attention onto Duo. He glanced past me at my still untouched tray of food. "Heero," he questioned, "why didn't you eat anything?" I shrugged, "I didn't want it. I still don't. The very thought of it makes me want to hurl." I turned away and looked to the door, "Duo, can you do me a favor?" I asked still not looking at him "Sure Heero, Anything you want" I felt the bed dip down as he sat down next to me. "Can you get me the hospital report? I want to see just what all is wrong with me. Then I want to get out of here. I never want to see a hospital of any kind again." He smiled, grabbing my hand and pressing a kiss to it. "Now that I can do." He stood up and walked to the door, "Be back in a sec!" he called as he darted out the door.
He wasn't gone very long at all but when he came back he was reading what I can only guess was the report I had asked for. His brows were drawn together creating a very severe expression on his face that was a combination between concern, fear, and anger. I couldn't tell which emotion was winning. "Duo…." I spoke softly. "What does it say?" He quietly came over and sat down beside me again. He was very quiet and when he finally looked up at me, there were tears shimmering in his eyes. "God Heero! I can't believe you went through all of this! I'm soo sorry! I should have been there for you! I should have done something!" He was crying now, I smiled at the thought and pulled him into my arms. "Duo, love. It's ok, you couldn't have done anything! You didn't even know I was there! Please baby, don't be upset for me. I'm with you now and I'm not ever going to leave again." He pulled away from me and rubbed his eyes looking at the report again he spoke, softer this time, "Heero, do you really want to know what this says? Wont it be hard to hear?" I nodded, he was right it would be hard to hear. "Yes Duo, I need to hear it. I know most of what that bastard did to me, but I was unconscious a lot and don't know what he did during those times." Duo sighed and flipped back to the first page. I had sixteen stitches in my left wrist and 8 in my right, I had severe bruising and damage to the rectum as well as a broken ankle. Funny thing, I still have yet to even notice the ankle. It never once hurt. Still doesn't. Weird. I had several different drugs floating around in my system including, but not limited to; Mescaline (1), psilocybin (2), LSD, and Scopolamine (3), and PCP. Just to name a few. The bastard had tried every drug in the book on me to cause the Zero system to activate. The report also stated that I had been a victim of several different forms of abuse as well; sensory deprivation, isolation, and of course verbal and sexual abuse. I had obviously been exposed to hypnosis and would have to undergo several more sessions on that just to undo whatever was done. I sighed not believing how much happened without me even realizing it. Some perfect soldier I was. I couldn't even fight off one crazy doctor. I even went along with most of it willingly! It must have shown on my face what horrible thoughts were drifting through my head since Duo grabbed me and crushed me roughly to his chest. He was crying again, saying over and over how sorry he was. He wouldn't stop saying sorry.
We sat there, me in Duo's arms, Duo crying and whispering sorry over and over, for a good hour at least. Then out of nowhere my mind snapped, again… I was seriously losing what little bit of sanity I had left, I started to laugh. It all seemed so ridiculous all of a sudden! All of it! The war, the people, the "therapy", the crazy doctor, all of it! It was hysterical! I was laughing and laughing and couldn't stop. It was that same laugh that I used after destroying something with Wing, that cold unfeeling laugh. Duo grabbed my shoulders and shook me roughly trying to get me back to my senses. I knew he was yelling at me but I couldn't hear him, I was still laughing. He must have left me at some point because when next I knew a nurse was jabbing me in the arm with something to calm me down. As I slowly calmed and fell into a fitful sleep, my last thought was, 'great, more fucking drugs…' then, only darkness.
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1, 2, and 3 are all "natural" drugs that can cause hallucinations and play with your mind. 1)Mescaline is a natural drug that was onced used by the Native Americans for spiritual reasons. It is made from a cactus, and has been known to cause hallucinations. 2)Psilocybin is basically shrooms. Mushrooms, that when eaten can cause mild to moderate hallucinations depending on the situation. 3)Scopolamine is a drug used for treatment of nausea and motion sickness, treatment of intestinal cramping, for ophthalmic purposes, and as a general depressant and adjunct to narcotic painkillers. Although those are its primary uses, it can also cause hallucinations when overdosed. Also, when combined with other drugs, it causes the mind to disassociate with the body and "forget" about the pain. It doesn't stop the pain, but it causes the body to sort of forget that its there. All of these drugs are still around and used today and would be very easy for any doctor to get ahold of. Also, remember he was trying to mess with Heero's mind. I think the last drug explains why he never noticed his broken ankle. His brain has conveniently forgotten about it.