Hey everyone! First off I want to apologize for the long delay in this one. I started back to school and with being in the military and going to school I don't have that much free time anymore. But after Jan. 1 all of that will end and I'll have a lot more time. So with that being said here is chapter 6, it is a little shorter than the others but the stopping place was just too good. I had to end it there.

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Chapter 6

As promised the next day I gave Quatre's therapist a call, she readily agreed to see me right away and even went as far as to board the next flight from L4 to earth. I wasn't really too surprised, I assumed Quatre had already talked to her about me, she probably already knows everything that has happened by now. I wasn't mad at Quatre for this, which actually surprised me. Instead I was actually grateful, the less I had to tell her, the better. Besides, there are lots of points that I don't remember. He had me down there for months apparently yet to me I only remember it as days, a couple weeks at most. I must have been unconscious more than I realized. A violent shiver tore through me as my thoughts turned dark and focused around what could have been happening to me during the times I was out. Was I even out? Or was I just too drugged to remember what happened? Did he play with my memory too? I was suddenly very angry and if I could go and kill the bastard again I would. I was currently laying in my bed with Duo curled up asleep next to me and since at that moment I couldn't hold in my anger I turned to the wall and roughly slammed my fist into it, crushing through the dry wall and plaster creating a nice sized whole. Of course this woke Duo up. With a jump he looked over at me sleepily, "….ro? What happened? You ok?" he mumbled looking from me to the wall, a frown marring his face. I sighed running a hand through my unruly brown hair. "I'm sorry Duo, I just got so mad at that bastard all of a sudden I just…." I looked over to the whole in the wall hoping that would be enough of an explanation. Duo just nodded and took my now reddened hand to place kisses along my bruising knuckles. I knew he understood, probably more than anyone else, and that alone meant the world to me. I really don't think I would have been able to survive without him. No, I know I would not have survived without him.

"I hate this for you, Heero." I jumped as I was jarred out of my thoughts by Duo's soft voice. My brows creased in concern as I looked at him. I laid my other hand over the top of his and squeezed gently in what I hoped was a type of reassurance. I took that chance to study him, taking in every detail that made up the love of my life. I loved his hair, it was full of so many colors; some reds, various shades of brown, and even some blond. As usual his long hair was pulled back in a braid starting at the base of his neck and trailing down his back reaching all the way to his hips. At the moment the braid was loose from sleep allowing several strands free to wisp softly around his heart shaped face. He had long bangs obscuring all of his forehead and draping into his large expressive blue-violet eyes. Those eyes, I think it was those eyes I fell in love with first. He can't hide anything with those eyes and I love the way they change color. When he's mad they go really dark turning into a deep violet, when we're making out they turn into shining amethysts, and when he's really happy they go pale blue with just a touch of violet. Everything I ever need to know about him is in his eyes. His nose, was small well defined and fit perfectly with him. Now I was at his lips, full dark pink lips that were made for smiling but were currently frowning. I didn't like that one bit so I quickly leaned forward placing my own lips over his in a soft, quick kiss, nipping playfully at his bottom lip before pulling away. Once I pulled back I saw those lips slowly turn up in a soft smile, 'there, that's much better' I thought. My eyes once again met his and I was staring into very violet orbs that held too much emotion to fathom. I decided that it was time to really define our relationship. I knew we loved each other so there was no point in denying what we already were.

"Duo?" I started reaching my arms out to him and pulling him closer. He snuggled into my chest before letting out a soft "hn?" in response.
"Duo… You know I love you right?"
He chuckled softly, "Yes Heero, I think I've figured that out. I love you too".
I smiled and hugged him a little tighter, "Say you'll be mine forever? That you'll never leave me. I can't live without you, you're my life, my soul, and without you, I am nothing." I felt his smile against my chest. "Heero, you already had me. You had me the day I shot you I think. I've always been yours and will always be."
"Marry me?" I blurted out before even thinking about what I was saying, but oddly enough, I felt a strange sort of peace fall over me once the words were out. I knew that was exactly what I meant to say and maybe the timing wasn't the best, but it worked for us in a strange sort of way. His arms tightened around me and he buried his face into my chest and mumbled something that sounded strangely like 'baka'. I didn't say anything I just sat quietly and waited for an answer, I knew he would give me one.
"Heero no baka!" he said pulling back just enough to look into my face. The first thing I noticed was the tears welling up into his eyes then the large smile pasted onto his face. "Yes! Yes! A thousand times yes!" he laughed, and he cried, and best of all, he kissed me; several times. A small smile somehow made its way to my face and for that one moment, all was right with the world.

The rest of the day passed in a sort of blur. I still had very little strength and wore out quickly. I don't know how I managed to make it out of the hospital to be honest. I was so weak I could hardly walk and while I still somehow retained enough muscle and power to punch through a wall, even that one outburst left me drained. I couldn't do anything. I was really happy that Duo had agreed to marry me, but after talking with him on it, we decided to wait until next year for the actual ceremony. Hopefully I would be back to normal by then. Although… normal at this point was debatable since normal for me was the stoney focused soldier, I didn't know what to be or how to act beyond that. Duo kept reassuring me that I was doing just fine and not to worry so much, but I still did. Before I even realized it, it was night again and Duo was going through the process of getting ready for bed. I slowly made my way into my room and looked around. When I got back from the hospital I automatically went back into my old room. For some reason, we had separate rooms. I never questioned it before. Even though we loved each other we hadn't gone that far and had never discussed sharing a room. I frowned in thought, Duo had been sleeping in my room with me for the past couple of nights anyway, so why not just switch to his room? I quietly made my way to his room and slowly opened the door. He was still in the bathroom attached to his room so I padded softly over to the bed and quickly slipped between the sheets. I laid down pulling the blankets up and rolled onto my side so that my back would be facing the bathroom when he walked out. I had already gone through the process of locking the house up and turning off all the lights so Duo should just come out and go straight to bed, in theory.

I heard the bathroom door open and the soft click as the light was turned off. There was a pause as I'm guessing Duo noticed me before I heard the gentle sound of his footsteps against the carpet. I kept my eyes closed pretending to be asleep as I felt him slide into the bed and turn out the lights. Once the lights were off he pulled the covers up and scooted closer to me. I felt an arm wrap around me before I was pulled into a solid chest. "Baka, if you wanted to sleep here before I never would have denied you." He said softly, his breath ghosting across my ear as he spoke. "Hn" was all I responded before wrapping my own arm around him. I tightened my hold on him and forced my weary eyes opened. I was extremely tired and yet no matter how my eye lids drooped I could not bring myself to go to sleep. I was terrified that as soon as I did I would be transported back into that room. In all honesty, I was having a hard time believing that I wasn't still in there and that this was all just in my head. Duo's explanations for what happened before all made perfect sense, but it still didn't seem real.

I lay there in the darkened room for quite some time, just listening to Duo's steady breathing, his hot breath ghosting across my shoulder. The sound was oddly soothing and I found myself concentrating on that alone. I am unsure as to the amount of time that I lay awake, maybe an hour, maybe a minute, who knows, but gradually I noticed a new smell in the air. It came on suddenly, like a change in the air, and yet so slowly that I was unable to notice it until it permeated the air around me. It was a smell I was very familiar with, the smell of sterility, death, and alcohol. I tried to look at Duo's face and realized with a start that it was too dark in the room. When had it become so dark? I tightened my hold on him desperate to grasp back onto reality. He still felt warm and solid in my arms and yet, I no longer felt any breath on my shoulder. I started to shake violently. Maybe I should move, just release Duo to roll over and turn on the light. Everything would be ok once the light was on. That was my hope at least. I could still feel the soft bed under me so I was still home. It was all ok, it would all be ok. It will be ok, it will be ok, it WILL be ok! I repeated it over and over in my head, like a mantra that would eventually make it all true. I couldn't understand what was happening, I was still awake! Why was I feeling this! I was starting to shake, cursing myself for my own fear and yet helpless to stop it. Somewhere in the distance I heard a soft sound. I couldn't make out what it was at first but slowly the sound got closer, louder, rising in pitch until it reached a deafening crescendo. It sounded like someone screaming! The scream continued on forever and yet lasted only a heartbeat. It was the most heart-rending blood curdling sound I have ever heard. Without even realized that I had moved I placed my hands on my head rolling around in agony, the sound of the scream still resonating through my skull. I could vaguely hear something else, a voice….what was it saying? "….o…." what? I listened harder, "….e…o". It was definitely a voice but I couldn't make out what it was saying. I squeezed my eyes shut, not trying to sleep but trying to block everything out. It wasn't working though and I no longer could hear the voice, instead the scream was building back up. This one seemed worse than the first, even louder and once it hit its peak my eyes snapped open and stared right into the silver grey eyes of the cruel doctor, and he was laughing. I closed my eyes again and felt more than saw, a light turn on. That scream was still going! I wanted it to stop, the pain and misery in it was so evident anyone could feel it. I felt a sharp pinch to my arm and once again snapped my eyes back open and this time I was greeted with Duo's worried violet orbs. Suddenly the scream stop and it was then that I looked around. Duo was leaning over me but not touching me, both hands on his head covering his ears. I blinked rapidly trying to figure out just what happened and Duo slowly lowered his hands. "….ro?" I tried to speak and suddenly found my throat to be very raw, that was odd, it felt as though I had been screaming, but I would know if I had… right? I cleared my throat before trying to talk again, "Duo…I saw him again….I didn't even fall asleep! I didn't sleep and yet he was there! Right in front of me, laughing! What do I do? I didn't sleep! I didn't…. I—" I was cut off from my hysterical speech by a strong pair of arms pulling me into a solid chest. I sat still for a minute just taking in Duo's warmth. "Was that me that screamed?" Duo silently nodded in reply.
"Both times?"
Another small nod
"I heard a voice calling, but I never was able to hear what they were saying…. I'm sorry for waking you up. I don't know what happened, I didn't even know it was me screaming…."
Duo frowned, "Heero please don't apologize. I'm here for you, I want to help you in any way possible. Would you like to try taking some sleeping pills? You didn't dream when you were drugged up at the hospital so maybe you won't dream if you take some, it's worth a try right?"I thought about it for a minute before nodding silently. I really didn't like the thought of taking more drugs, but I had to try something. I watched as Duo slipped from the bed and made his way across the room and out the door.

He came back surprisingly quickly and handed me a glass of water and two small red pills. I stared at them in disgust for a second before tossing them in my mouth and rinsing them down with the water. I wiped the back of my hand over my mouth as I swallowed and placed the now empty glass on the night stand. Duo smiled softly and gently pulled me back down on the bed. He leaned over me and flipped off the light before pulling me close once more and settled down to sleep. I wrapped my arms tightly around him and closed my eyes willing the pills to work quickly, luckily they did. Within minutes I was in a dreamless blank state unaware of everything until the light peeking through the windows softly woke me the next morning.