Chapter Eight – Lies
Avoidance.
Deception.
Lies.
Tales we tell ourselves to justify our actions.
I don't want to lie to Sam.
Don't want to hide who I am or what I'm capable of.
Don't want to hurt him.
But I will…hurt him, betray his trust.
Either through my actions.
Or by my lies.
It's inevitable that he'll find out.
Nothing stays silent forever.
The other shoe will drop.
I know that.
For now, I lie to myself.
That it's easier this way.
That I'm protecting Sam.
That doing what needed doing and hiding it was necessary.
More lies before the truth wins out.
The End
bjxmas
October 2011
All standard disclaimers apply.
I too don't like the lies and deception between the boys, but I understand the whys of it. Nothing good will come of it. Nothing but guilt and more pain. But it isn't done with malice, rather it is done to protect, as misplaced as that may be. You gotta feel for these guys. And I do believe it eats Dean up to lie to Sam, the one person he never wants to shut out.
Comments appreciated. Thanks for stopping by, B.J.