Chapter Twenty - Believe
Some might think this is all about Sam.
About changing who you are.
About self-determination.
They're wrong.
Oh, sure, I wonder.
Hope that Sam can maintain.
That he'll always be my brother.
Always do good.
I can't dwell on it.
Can't wait for him to falter.
Expecting him to turn evil.
I have to believe.
In him.
In us.
That what we do matters.
That who he is means more than what's been done to him.
He's my brother.
I love him.
I believe in his goodness.
If I can't believe in that then I have nothing…
So I believe.
The End
bjxmas
October 2011
All standard disclaimers apply.
As Dean says here, it isn't all about Sam. It isn't all about whether you are a monster or not, it comes down to whether you have taken human lives. Amy had, Sam never did. Sam sees himself in Amy. Dean doesn't, never has. Dean will always be the big brother, the guy who looks out for everyone...his family, his brother, all the innocents in the world. Amy was a danger to them.
Dean believes in Sam. It is an integral part of who he is, what he has to believe to carry on. I don't want him to ever lose that, but he can find a reason to believe in himself. A reason beyond the hunt and protecting his family. There is no argument that he deserves that, but not at the loss of all he's ever had to believe in. Family...it is what matters most to Dean, and Sam is all that's left now.
I love discussion, so comment away. Thanks for reading, take care, B.J.