Being alone in my room gave me some time to think. I didn't go to sleep until two o'clock in the morning because I was thinking so much. I thought about everything in my life: my dad, my mom's death, and even Embry. I wondered what I was going to do with my life. I never really worried about my mom's death in a while until Embry mentioned it. He made me really think about it; it was all I really thought about. It was always in the back of my mind, but it never really came forward until Embry asked about it.
So I thought for a while. I thought about how I was with my dad, and how terrible it was to leave my friends and my family in Louisiana, I thought about my mom and how great it would be to have her back, and I thought about Embry and what I was going to do with him. Sure, I liked him a lot. Maybe I even liked him a little too much, and that's what scared me. It wasn't because he was too sweet, or too handsome, or anything like that. It was because I liked him too much; I had had crushes in my life, but I never liked anyone this much before.
Although my mom was gone, I started imagining what it would be like for her to be in La Push with me. I wondered how she would've reacted if she saw me in that dress the night I went out with Embry; she hadn't seen me in a dress since I was four. I wondered how she would help me handle Embry; she probably would've been more helpful than my dad. Sure, he was helpful, but my mom would've been an inspiration for me. She would've helped me realize that it was okay to like Embry so much.
But since she wasn't there, I thought it was bad to like Embry so much. I thought that no one should ever like someone that much. I almost decided not to talk to Embry anymore, but I couldn't do that. Like I said, I liked him too much to ever let him leave.
Eventually, I went to sleep. I had a dream, a very bizarre dream that was even too much for me to remember. All I remember was that my mom was there, and so was Embry, and I had to choose between them. It was scary for me.
I didn't have school the next day. Embry was coming over later that day to work on my car, which meant I did have to wake up at some point. I kept sneaking peeks at my clock, but didn't actually get up until eleven.
I decided to take a shower before I went downstairs to eat breakfast. I finished my shower, pulled my hair back into a ponytail, and put on a white wife beater and a pair of sweat pants. I knew that we would just be working on my car, so I didn't put any make-up on. I just went downstairs to eat breakfast.
My dad was gone; he left a note on the counter. He went over to Billy Black's house to help him with some stuff around the house. I was kind of excited to have the house to myself. I wondered if my dad knew Embry was coming over.
I ate a bowl of cereal and then went back upstairs to brush my teeth. By the time I finished that the doorbell rang. It was Embry.
I ran downstairs to answer the door, and there Embry was, leaning against the door frame, shirtless. I was so taken aback; I didn't know what to say. He smirked at my silence.
"You ready to work on your car?" he asked, crossing his arms over his chest.
I nodded breathlessly.
"Where is it?"
"In the back," I whispered. "Let me take you there."
Bravely, I took his hand and led him to the backyard. There my truck was, a complete mess. I had been working on it a little before Embry came over, and I got somewhere, but not anywhere enough to get it to run. That's why I had Embry over: to get it to run.
"So this is it, huh?" Embry laughed.
I smiled. "Yeah."
"Well, let's get working on it."
We started working. After about two hours, we stopped. Embry sat down in the bed of my truck. He beckoned me over. I climbed in and lay my head on his chest; he wrapped his arm around me.
"Do you wanna go over to Emily's?" he asked, pressing his lips to the top of my head. "She should be serving lunch."
I looked up at him. "I don't want to be a bother."
He touched his forehead to mine. "You're never a bother."
"Okay. I guess we can go."
He kissed my lips softly. "Good. Let's go."
We went around my house, hand in hand, and climbed into Embry's car. He started the car, and we drove over to Emily's. There was one other car parked outside.
We walked in and all the guys were there, including their girlfriends. I was surprised that there was only one car outside.
"Ana!" Jacob exclaimed, getting up, running over to me, and picking me up. "How's our girl?"
"Good," I giggled. "Now put me down!"
Jacob put me down and walked over to Nessie, but she got up and hugged me.
"Big change from last night," she laughed, holding my hands and looking me up and down.
"Last night?" Molly laughed.
"Yeah, I helped her get ready for her date with Embry."
"A date?" Rachel laughed. "Oooooooooo."
I blushed and smiled nervously. Embry put his arm around me.
"Ana!" Emily came from the kitchen and hugged me. "Looks like you've already made yourself at home."
My smile grew. "Yeah. Thanks so much for lunch."
Kim looked behind her and smiled. "Yeah, thanks Emms."
"No problem, darling." Emily came over with a tray of sandwiches. "And ladies first!"
"Yeah, yeah," Paul shook his head. "We know."
The girls helped themselves to sandwiches. Embry gave me a little nudge forward to encourage me. I walked over to the tray and grabbed a sandwich. I started picking at it.
Then the boys got their sandwiches and started pigging out, even Embry. They ate so much; it was crazy. It was also kind of funny, to see them eat so much.
Embry finished and came next to me. I hadn't even finished one sandwich, and he had two.
"Are you not hungry?" he asked, wrapping his arm around me.
"No, I just eat slow." I held the sandwich up to him. "Bite?"
He took a bite slowly and smirked at me. I smiled and shook my head as I took a bite as well. When we were both done chewing, Embry leaned down and kissed me. Jared wolf-whistled.
"Oh shut up!" I complained.
"Yeah, you're really going to get me to shut up," Jared laughed.
"Leave her alone," Emily warned.
"Yes mother."
I smirked as Embry kissed the top of my head.