BPOV
I was angry and distraught, if Edward were to become a vampire would he follow the Swan way? Could I still ensure his protection in the vampire world? And most of all, could I spend eternity watching him live with another a mate?
The last thought alone drove me to action.
Only few knew that when humans turn into vampires they cross over in the spirit realm shortly before going back to the earthly realm. The pain of the crossover lasts for three days, but the time in the spirit realm lasts just a second. If I could intercept Edward as he crosses over, then I might be able to present myself to him as a mate. If he accepts me fully then I would once again be able to exist in the earthly realm and could live my life with him. But if he rejected me, I would slowly begin to perish, until I was no more.
I watched over him as the doctor began to change Edward, making sure to try and time my interception of him perfectly, because I only had enough strength to do this once.
When the time came near I wrapped myself around him and met him on the threshold of both realms. I could see his internal pain from the change and wished I could ease it for him; but if he accepted me I would only make it worse.
I laid my hand near his head and sat next to him. How could someone so beautiful inside and out want me?
I didn't know, but I could surely hope.
As we spoke, I shared what was happening to him, who I was, and how we could be together. I told him about the Swan power and the mating process; but most importantly I shared with him my love.
Too soon, his eyes began to glaze over and I wasn't sure if he understood even half of what I was saying. I started crying in my frustration to be heard.
He had to hear me; he couldn't leave me here alone.
I couldn't exist without him!
Seeing my frustration, he told me that "Angels shouldn't cry."
Hearing those words come from him, I once again had hope.