What If Ch 4 I was gonna say cuddle!, a harry potter fanfic

Rating: R

Warnings: Course Language, Anal, Male/Male, Sexual Situations, Rape, Uncomfortable Situations, Violence, Eating Disorders, BDSM, Suicide Attempts, Oral Sex, HPDH Spoilers, Mpreg

Parings: DOMINANT/SUBMISSIVE— Alex/Colin (Colin/Alex), Seamus/Colin (Colin Seamus), Dennis/Noah (Noah/Dennis), Charlie/Seamus (Seamus/Charlie), Mike/Ginny, Fred/Mike

. . . Story Begins . . .

The smaller wanted him dead then so be it.

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The fireplace went and the others jumped looking up. Seamus stood and Alex sighed, leaning against the wall. Ms. McGee raised a brow at him, Mrs. Creevey glaring.

"What do you want?" Seamus ground out.

"Come with me." Al grumbled. Ms. McGee analyzed the tall boy carefully, seeing the pain and hurt in his eyes. The same look she had seen in the mirror when her husband had left her.

"No."

"Do you want Colin or not?" Alex spat. He cleared his throat and looked away. Seamus walked over and followed him. It was a little bit later that the brunette walked back out with a small blonde.

"Mom!" Colin ran over and hugged her tight, followed by his Gran and Dennis.

"What on earth is going on here?"

"That Alex guy mated with Colin and is trying to steal him away from Seamus now."

"He raped my grandson?" Ms. McGee asked her other grandson, face hard. Dennis shuffled his feet and nodded. Their mother's eyes widened and watered.

"I'm going to take him upstairs." Seamus muttered and the others nodded.

"Erase his feeling please." Colin mumbled. Seamus closed the door and swooped down, capturing the parted lips, tongues twining instantly. The brunette yanked the younger's shirt off and dropped it to the floor, pulling down the other's boxers and swallowing him.

Colin cried out and tangled his fingers in the darker locks, panting and biting his lip hard. Seamus pulled back and tugged his own clothes off, leading the smaller to the bed and crawling on. The blonde disappeared under the covers and pulled the thick member to himself, letting the head slip into his mouth. Seamus grunted and reached down, pulling the smaller up his body and attaching their mouths in a heated kiss. The door flew open and they froze.

"Dennis?" Said boy looked up and ran over to the younger. Noah was hyperventilating and tears were falling down his cheeks. "W-where's your b-brother?"

"Why?" He stepped back, a stern look.

"Alex-"

"No." He turned his back to the taller and stalked back to his game with his Gran.

"Please!"

"No!" Dennis glared at him. "He's a fucking wreck! I am not putting him through that again!"

"Alex is trying to off himself because your fucking brother told him to you fucking prick!" Noah screamed, his voice many octaves higher. A loud cry fell from his lips and his legs gave way.

"W-what?" Dennis' eyes widened and he bit his lip, turning and running up the stairs. Mrs. Creevey and Ms. McGee both rushed over to the sobbing boy trying to calm him down.

"Colin!" Dennis threw his brother's bedroom door open, the smaller looking up from the brunette's bare chest. "It's Alex!"

"What about him?" Colin grumbled, sliding next to the taller and playing with the sheet.

"He's gone bloody mad Cols!"

"So?" He snuggled closer to the Irishman and smiled breathing in his sent.

"He's doing what you asked him to apparently." Dennis said with worry. The older raised his brow. "For fuck sakes Colin he's trying to fucking kill himself!"

"WHAT?" Him and Seamus both shot up and stumbled out of bed yanking clothes on. The older blonde was down the stairs and to the chimney in record time.

"No." Dennis put a hand on the brunette's shoulder. "It could make it worse."

Noah was still sobbing heavily and Dennis sat down next to him, pulling the younger to him and lightly scratching the back of his Veela's neck. "Colin went after him. It'll be alright." The younger nodded and gripped the older's shirt tight.

"Alex!" The blonde shrieked and slid across the bathroom floor, carefully grabbing the instrument out of the shocked boy's hands and tossing it in the trash. "You're hands and wrists are all red!" He stated, grabbing a cloth and soaking it in cold water, rushing over and carefully rubbing the other's abused limbs. Alex continued to stare confused, barely a nick present on his arm.

He watching the smaller's shoulders shake and heard him sniff. He looked away and felt a pull in his chest, a pleading, hopeful one. He looked back at the other and hesitantly reached out to rub the smaller's cheek, something wet spreading across it. The younger let out a frightened and relieved sob and climbed onto the older's lap, gripping his shirt tight.

The redhead slowly wrapped him arms around the smaller and held him close, breathing in his sent.

"I'm sorry." Colin hiccupped against him, lip and jaw trembling. "I d-didn-n't want you t-t-to d-d-do tha-at!"

"But you said-"

"I was angry at you!" he pulled back and locked eyes with the other. "I'm mad at you but I don't want you dead!"

"But you don't want me at all either." Alex mumbled dryly, looking away. Colin bit his lip and glanced down.

"Why do you have my shirt?"

"Because I couldn't have you and this way I wouldn't feel as alone when I died." He stated, playing with the fabric of said item, one arm still around the younger's back and lightly resting on his waist. "I love you." He whispered sniffing.

"I-I know." The younger mumbled back.

"Two weeks." Alex turned pleading eyes towards him. "Give me two weeks and if you still want to leave me then fine, but just give me these two weeks. Please." The smaller searched the green eyes and nodded, a smile crossing the older's face, a happier noise leaving him. He leaned in and pressed his lips to the blonde's, the shorter slowly responding to him. "You should eat."

"I did." Colin said. Alex raised his brow and stood up, the smaller still in his arms bridal style.

"Please do not lie to me. You're my mate, I know when you are lying." He gave the petite boy a gentle smile. "Tweety brought us that cracker sandwich thing you like so much."

"He did?"

"She." Alex cleared his throat. "Apparently Tweety is a she, not a he . . ." The redhead shrugged and put the younger down. "Where do you want to eat?"

"Al?"

"Hmm?" He looked at the other.

"School starts up in less than a week." He bit his lip. "I'm still in sixth year." The older nodded.

"I'll owl Dumbledore and see if I can get us a room there. You need to finish your schooling but you cannot separate a Veela and his mate for too long." He ran a hand through his hair. "This means even if you did choose Seamus, if I'm not dead, we'll have to continue sexual encounters rather regularly."

"I know." The younger mumbled out sighing.

Alex smiled as he watched the smaller play with a white, fluffy fennec fox. Alex had gone out whilst his mate was asleep and got him it. It had been three days since Alex's suicide attempt and things seemed to be going well. Colin had packed already and was leaving for school in the morning. Alex was allowed to go as well but only if he did something that was school related. So he promised to help out in the kitchens and helping the teachers and Filtch clean. Pomfrey said she could even use someone with his medical knowledge in the infirmary.

"What do you want to name it?"

"Jesse." He smiled playing around with it. He laughed when the tiny fox attempted to attack his hand.

"It's the runt of the litter you know? The owner was going to put Jesse down even but I wanted him for you." The younger looked up at him. "It was the smallest and cutest with a soft little squeak, very mouse like. It had been scared huddled in a corner whilst the others got to feed first, leaving it the scraps. So I bought him. I thought you'd like him most. He'll always be small too." The blonde smiled at him and stood up, walking over, the small fuzz ball attaching his socks with his barely there claws and teeth.

Colin reached up and tangled his fingers in the darker locks, the taller leaning down and pressing their lips together. Sometimes the smaller would still get upset when he thought about Seamus but there wasn't much he could do. He never went back on his promises and he swore that he'd stay with him for two weeks. The older smiled into the kiss, slipping his tongue out and tapping the smaller's lips. Said items opened and a wet muscle joined his.

A whine sounded and both looked down at the small animal no bigger than a kitten. Colin reached down and picked it up, the tiny thing easily fitting in one hand. He cradled it to his chest and leaned against the taller. A shiver wracked his body and he pushed his hips closer.

"It's about that time." Alex said quietly. "When we'll need the sexual contact." Colin blushed and cleared his throat taking a step away.

"I should finish packing."

"You did . . . two days ago." The redhead raised his brow and carefully pulled the other back towards him, taking the small animal out of his arms and placing it on the special bed he got for the fox.

"B-but I ah, I forgot to pack something?"

"Like what? A better excuse?"

"Yes! I mean no!" He shuffled his feet and Alex sighed, shoulders sagging and nodding.

"Alright. You can't keep putting it off. I can guarantee that in an hour's time you'll be begging for something." He locked eyes with the smaller. "And I'll make sure you don't get it right away." He winked, the shorter blushing heavily and scampering off.

"I-I should head to bed." He mumbled jogging up the steps. Alex turned his head to the side and grinned.

"Fuck I love his arse." He muttered to himself before following the other, Tweety playing with Jesse.

Alex stifled a laugh as his mate pretended to sleep. He knew for a fact that Colin did not sleep on his back. Ever. He shook his head and pulled his shirt off followed by both bottoms, slipping under the covers.

He smirked to himself and lifted a hand trailing his fingertips down the clothed chest. Colin groaned and shivered, casting a glare in the older's direction. Alex looked down and grinned, the smaller blushing and turning on his side, giving his back to Alex. The redhead laugh out loud and kissed the blonde's temple, pinching his arse.

"EYAH!" He jumped and smacked the older. "Owah!"

"Sorry it was too tempting." The taller chuckled. "You know you have a really firm-"

"Ok! I'm going to sleep now and you're going to stop talking!" He said a bit nervously, unsure about how to lie down. Alex tapped his chest. "Hell no."

"Fine, sleep on your side." The other glared. "I promise not to fondle you." Colin gave him a disbelieving look. "I swear it."

"Ok . . ." He turned and snuggled under the blankets.

"You're wearing a shirt?" Alex frowned.

"It's cold Alex!"

"Then we can always-"

"I'm not sleeping with you!" Colin shot back.

"I was gonna say cuddle!"

"Sure you were."

"I was!" Alex sighed and frowned. "Fine. Sleep well." He did something he had never done to the smaller, he turned over his side and gave Colin his back. The smaller blinked and looked over his shoulder, feeling a slight pull in his neck, not painful, but there. He bit his lip and contemplated his options. He had promised that he would 'date' him for two weeks.

"I'm sorry." Colin whispered turning around to face the taller, receiving a grunt. "Please?" Alex sighed and rolled onto his back, surprise crossing his features when Colin placed his face in the crook of his neck and shoulder, an arm tossed over the pale chest. The taller gave a brilliant smile and warmth spread through Colin. He could feel how happy this made his Veela. He gave a soft smile and pressed his lips to the skin beneath them, arms wrapping around him, the French man purring. He felt a tingle and bit his lip. He hated it when the Green eyed man was right.

"A-Alex?"

"Hmm?" He rested his head against the smaller, breathing in his scent. Colin let out a shaky breath and pushed his hips into the older's leg, a chuckle reaching his ears. "See I told you so. And I'm not going to do anything about it like I said too." The smaller groaned and pouted, pressing his lips to the pale neck. Alex closed his eyes as the smaller gave a hesitant suck, nipping the flesh. As long as he stayed away from that spot behind his ears and the far back of his junction then all would be swell.

Colin pushed his hips against the muscled thigh and moaned, trailing kissed up to the crease under the taller's jaw. Fuck it felt good. Alex raised his brow at himself and gently pushed the smaller away, a hopeful, lust filled gaze meeting him.

"No Cols." He turned on his side, giving his back to the smaller.

"You seem to forget that I can tell what you want too Al." The smaller whispered awfully close to his ear.

"R-really now?" The taller mentally cursed himself when he stuttered. A mischievous chuckled reached him and lips pressed to the spot just behind the pale ear. A gasp slipped out and green eyes widened before squeezing shut. "Sh-shit!" he shivered and groaned, a tongue running along it. "Colin don't!"

"Hmm?" The smaller hummed, moving down the expanse of the taller's neck, getting far too close to his junction.

"D-don't!" He sat up and shook his head, a slightly panicked look on his face. The smaller whined and yanked his shirt off, eyes glazing over. "You can't Colin! We waited to my limit for the contact! You can't tease me there or-or-"

"Or what?" He asked, the older's back to him, head bowed and shoulders sagging. Colin carefully moved closer and looked down at the older's junction closer to his back.

"Or the Veela could take over Cols!" His eyes widened and he cried out, a hard bite being delivered to his sensitive spot. A moan fell from his lips and his pupils dilated.