Hey… it's been forever. Seriously, I gave up on this story, and I have no excuse really, I'm a horrible person – more like I lost my inspiration. But recently I realized I couldn't just leave unfinished stories like that. You have every right to hate me and decide not to read this. But I'm trying to write a decent ending for this, for whoever might be out there reading.
Chapter 17
Packing up and getting ready to leave felt extremely depressing to Deidara. He didn't want to go, because this whole vacation had gone by way too fast. He wanted to keep spending all of his time with Itachi, he didn't want it to end.
In the plane he slept pretty much the whole time. He hadn't gotten much sleep the night before after all.
"Are you okay?" Itachi asked him when he woke up.
He made a little smile and pressed himself closer to the raven, "Yeah," he said in a low voice, and he closed his eyes again.
Itachi kissed his hair and said, "We still have like, an hour left, so you can go back to sleep."
"But it's boring for you," Deidara protested.
He pulled away and they locked eyes. He reached out to place raven bangs behind his ear.
"Tell me what's wrong, seriously," Itachi insisted.
The blonde sighed and glanced away, "It's just… I didn't want it to end," he admitted, "I mean, now you're gonna go back to school, and I have to work, and we won't have time to see each other."
"Of course we'll have time! I'll always have time for you," he frowned slightly.
"Me too," Deidara added quickly, "but I mean, it won't be the same."
Itachi wrapped his arms around the smaller male and held him tight.
"We still have tomorrow off. You'll sleep at my place tonight and then we can spend the day together."
Deidara chuckled, "I like how you're not asking, but just ordering me."
The rest of the travel back home was uneventful, and so was the ride back to Itachi's house. The main problem was that they were extremely cold in this rough weather and the annoying teenagers in the back seat kept harassing Itachi to put the heat at max.
Just like Itachi said, Deidara decided to stay the night with the Uchiha family. Everyone was tired and they just retired to their respective bedrooms, leaving the unpacking for tomorrow.
After the vacation, Deidara actually felt like he belonged with this family. He just wanted to be with Itachi all the time. He dreaded the next day, when he would have to go back to his apartment alone.
But at the moment he made some efforts to clear his thoughts, and he sat on the bed, smiling, as Itachi handed him a package.
He shook his head, embarrassed, "You didn't have to get me anything…"
"I wanted to," Itachi replied softly.
Deidara unpacked it, and laughed when he saw what Itachi's gift was.
"A winter coat," he nodded, "I should've seen that one coming."
It was really nice, actually, all in black leather. As always, Itachi had managed to find something that fit his style and was fancy at the same time.
"I love it," he said sincerely.
Itachi smiled and leaned closer to kiss him.
"I love you," he replied.
Deidara pushed him away softly, "I don't even have anything for you."
"I don't care," Itachi tried to kiss him again.
"You should…"
"You're gonna give me a free tattoo, right?" The raven argued, "That's a pretty cool gift."
It was such a tease to have Itachi's beautiful, full lips so close yet Deidara kept his hands on the taller male's shoulders firmly to maintain a distance between them.
"Yeah but it's not really… I mean…"
"Just shut up," Itachi chuckled, "who cares about a stupid Christmas gift…"
"But I would've given you that for free anyway," Deidara argued.
"And I would've have bought you this anyway," Itachi replied.
"Mm…" Deidara finally let Itachi kiss him, and they ended up lying down on the bed together. In between two kisses he said, "It's a good thing I have it, cause after coming back from the South I feel like it's so fucking cold here…"
"Are you cold right now?" Itachi whispered.
"A little…" Deidara admitted.
Itachi didn't lose any time in wrapping his arms around him tightly to warm him up.
It wasn't too long before they fell asleep, exhausted from all this travelling.
They pretty much spent the next day relaxing as well. They were doing everything together, never leaving each other's side. This made Deidara all the more depressed at the thought of going back to his apartment the very next day. How could he deal with being alone when he'd spent the past week constantly with his lover by his side?
This depressed state was not accepted easily by Itachi.
Late in the evening he grabbed his arm and led him outside, in the backyard.
"What the hell, it's so cold…" Deidara complained.
Itachi closed the door and then he went directly to the hot tub, while Deidara stayed behind hugging himself and shaking.
"You're insane," he said through chattering teeth.
Itachi sent him a wicked smile. Deidara suddenly remembered one thing his boyfriend had said back in Miami; he didn't want to use the hot tub there because it was already so hot outside, and he only enjoyed this activity in the cold.
Itachi removed the cover and checked the temperature of the water.
"Perfect," he said, "come here…"
"I don't have my bathing suit."
"Um… Dei… are you really trying to use that excuse? Your bathing suit is still in your luggage, in my bedroom. And honestly, you don't need it anyway, do you?"
The blonde sighed. He was shaking in the cold and just standing there he felt like he would literally freeze. Itachi was still smiling, and honestly Deidara was beginning to suspect he wasn't human because it was way too cold outside to even think about…
"Come on let's do this," Itachi took his hand and uncrossed his arms.
He helped him out of his shirt and then took off his own shirt as well. He pressed their bodies close but as comforting as Itachi's warmth was, Deidara was still trembling like crazy.
"You're insane," he repeated, "you want me to get sick again?"
Itachi leaned closer to whisper in his ear, "That'll give me an excuse to skip my classes and stay by your side all day to take care of you."
"Fuck that," Deidara whispered half-teasing.
The raven chuckled, "Why are you so mad?"
He unbuttoned his jeans and Deidara shivered intensely at the mere idea of being completely naked.
"Why am I… because I'm dying here…"
Itachi chuckled again and in a swift movement he pulled down his jeans and boxers. Deidara stumbled and had no other choice but to step away from the clothes. And Itachi caught him and picked him up, only to put him in the water despite his protests.
"Are you fucking crazy?" He shouted.
It was such a big difference of temperature that his skin felt like it was burning at first. Now he really was mad. But at the same time, the hot water was better than the freezing cold, so he stayed inside.
Itachi quickly took off the rest of his clothes and joined him in the hot tub. He laughed and tried to hug him and kiss him but every time Deidara pushed him away.
"Why did you do that for?" He exclaimed, "You know Itachi, I'm not a fucking pet you can do anything you want with."
"Oh come on," Itachi was unfazed, "don't tell me you don't think this is fun."
He held his gaze defiantly, "As a matter of fact I don't."
Itachi leaned closer and Deidara tried to push him away but this time the raven caught his wrists. The blonde was trapped and there was nothing he could do to escape from him. Itachi tried to kiss him but he turned his head to the side. So instead the raven kissed his neck. His kisses were so soft and warm that Deidara felt his body relax despite himself. And their bodies were dangerously close - also they were naked.
"Get off me," Deidara whispered weakly.
Itachi chuckled in his ear, and at the same time he brought his hand to Deidara's now hard cock.
"I think your body disagrees…"
"…hate you," he muttered.
"…Dei don't be mad, I'm sorry," Itachi whispered in his ear and he started stroking him skillfully at once.
"That's not fair," the blonde breathed out heavily.
It felt so good when Itachi was touching him like that, under the hot water; Deidara had no choice but to give in this sinful pleasure. With each stroke Itachi was bringing him closer to this perfect moment…
But then he stopped.
Deidara opened his eyes and locked them with Itachi's dark, amused ones.
"Oh," the raven smiled triumphantly, "so now you don't want me to get off you anymore…"
Before Deidara could reply, Itachi slid his finger to his entrance and he rubbed it a little teasingly. Blue eyes widened in shock and he tried to get away but Itachi held him close firmly.
"Just relax," he whispered.
"What're you doing?" Deidara asked.
"I'm not doing anything you don't want me to do," Itachi reassured him. But his finger was starting to slide inside, Deidara could feel it.
"Well I don't want you to do this," he snapped.
"Shh… relax."
"Stop telling me to fucking relax…"
His eyes widened again but this time it was because he had felt something rather… nice. Actually more than nice, it was just so intense…
"You want me to stop?" Itachi asked teasingly.
"I… ah… what… are you doing to me…"
"You're so cute," the raven chuckled, "it's called a prostate massage if you must know."
"I know! I'm not a fucking idiot! I just never… thought it could feel so…"
"Good?"
Itachi was holding him and their erections were close to one another. And of course there was this thing he was doing with now two fingers… Indeed it felt so damn good… It was sending waves of pleasure throughout Deidara's body, and he wasn't sure he could hold it in for very long…
"Stop," he breathed, "stop, or I'll… I'll…"
"I don't care," Itachi smiled.
"But… in the water… it's kinda…"
Once more the raven chuckled in his ear, "Fine…"
Itachi stopped and instead wrapped both arms around the smaller male. Eventually Deidara held him back and caressed his smooth skin. He was still trembling from the intense, foreign sensations in his body.
"I kinda hate you and love you at the same time now," the blonde admitted.
"I'm really sorry about before," Itachi kissed his neck, "it's just… you looked so depressed and I wanted to do something fun…"
Deidara rolled his eyes even though the other couldn't see him.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever… But if I get sick it'll be your fault."
"My entire fault. I told you, I'll stay with you day and night if I have to."
"Itachi…"
"Mm what is it?"
"Your dick is kinda…"
It was rubbing on Deidara's hip and he just couldn't take it anymore. Since they weren't letting anything sexual happen in the hot tub, maybe it was better not to hold each other so close as they were completely naked. Itachi got the hint, bit his lip and pulled away reluctantly.
As they sat next to each other, Deidara knew the moment would have to end soon. He pressed himself a little closer as Itachi threw his arm casually around his shoulders. And they allowed themselves to relax quietly just a few more minutes. At some point the raven started saying something, but stopped himself right away. Deidara frowned and turned his head to look into his eyes.
"What was that?"
Itachi had been averting his eyes, and he seemed kind of thoughtful. But when Deidara reached out with his hand to caress his cheek he returned his gaze.
"We should live together."
"You mean like… move in together, in an apartment or…?"
"Yeah," Itachi nodded slowly.
"But… I thought you wanted to stay with your parents…"
"I did," Itachi shrugged, "but now, having you in my life, it makes me see things differently."
Even though the idea was a little bit crazy, Deidara couldn't help but smile.
"We've been together what, a few weeks?"
"Who cares?" Itachi chuckled.
"What if…" the blonde shrugged slightly, "what if we get into a fight?"
He was starting to get a little bit cold because of the wind hitting his upper body so he hugged himself. Itachi squeezed his thin shoulders tightly.
"We'll have make up sex."
Deidara just laughed, glancing away. Itachi's dark eyes were teasing and he was just so handsome. Deidara was cold yet he felt so hot at the same time. Damn, he almost felt sick being this close to Itachi, and not being able to do anything. Maybe he was a pervert too.
Reading his mind Itachi erased the distance between their lips and next thing they knew the two young males were kissing passionately. When they broke for air, Itachi was smiling.
"So what do you say?"
"What about money…"
"What about it?"
"You'll want to live in a nice place, and I can't afford that."
Itachi tilted his head to the side while he ran his fingers across his boyfriend's wet blonde locks.
"Who said you'd have to pay for it?"
"Itachi," Deidara snapped, "if we move in together, I wanna pay half the rent. And I'm just not sure I can so…"
"We'll find a place you can afford then," Itachi replied.
"I'll… think about it."
But the blonde was smiling again. And Itachi smiled back.
"I'll take that as a yes."
"If tomorrow I miss you as much as I think I will, then I'll probably say yes," Deidara whispered as they locked eyes.
Itachi's smile faded a little, "I'll miss you too… All right let's get back inside. It's getting late… I have to go to school tomorrow, and you have to go to work…"
"Ugh… don't remind me."
Itachi chuckled, "Dei you love your job."
"But I hate being away from you."
"Me too… God I think we sound like some lovestruck teens right now."
"Hey I'm nineteen, I'm okay. You're the weird one."
"Fair enough. We should really get out of the water…"
"I'm… working on it," Deidara frowned worriedly as he glanced into the cold, dark night.
They eventually hurried back inside, picking up their clothes on the way. They hugged each other for warmth and then they went to the bathroom, uncaring that water was dropping everywhere – they were way too cold at this point.
After a comforting shower they went to bed, deciding it was better if Itachi drove Deidara home in the morning. But really it was another excuse to spend more time together.
…
At work things got pretty crazy for Deidara. He had a lot of customers. Most people who usually waited to be put on schedule with either Nagato or Sasori now chose Deidara as their tattoo artist instead, because they'd heard around that he was very good and professional despite his young age. Since the blonde had just gotten back from a vacation, well his schedule was full. He was a little bit overwhelmed – but pleased of course – when he found out about this.
"I hope you're ready," Yahiko just told him with a tap on his shoulder.
The slender male bit his lip slightly, repressing a disbelieving smile as he looked at the notebook they used for the schedule. Yeah, of course he was ready. This was what he loved to do. That his talent was finally recognized made him feel extremely good.
With the customers who brought a picture or drawing of their own, it was simple enough. But for people who needed him to come up with a design, well Deidara often discussed it with them then rescheduled for them to come back in a few days, to give him time to actually draw it.
All in all, things were going great. Konan, Yahiko and even Nagato were plain happy for him. And Sasori had a little chat with Deidara in private at some point. He told him that he was seeing someone, and that he hoped they could put what happened a few months ago behind them.
"I wasn't myself. I was so frustrated back then and I was crazy about you. I'm really sorry; I shouldn't have tried to force you I was such an asshole. But yeah I moved on, I just wanted you to know."
Deidara just gave a slight nod, and replied that he appreciated his honesty. Such an apology from Sasori was surprising after all, but in a good way.
So with Itachi they didn't end up seeing each other that week. They texted each other, and that was it. They were both busy with respectively school and work, of course, so it was for the best. Still, they were planning on seeing each other Sunday, for Deidara's day off. Itachi was coming to meet him at his apartment on Sunday morning.
Since things were going so great in his life, the blonde male was doing a lot of thinking. For sure he thought about Itachi's idea of moving in together. Also he thought about sex. A lot. He considered it, and surprisingly, instead of making him feel afraid and apprehensive, he was actually sort of excited and fidgety.
His colleagues no longer recognized him. But they made the assumption that Deidara's good mood was due to the fact that he suddenly had a lot of customers.
Deidara actually got a nice paycheck that week, and he spontaneously decided to get himself a small makeover. Nothing too crazy, basically just some new clothes and shoes, a visit to the hairdresser – he hadn't been there in years. Also he bought a couple new steel studs with color on them, something he'd wanted to do in a while but just never did. Well at least he had a very good price on those.
He was as nervous as could be on Saturday night and didn't get much sleep. The reason for that was of course, he was ready to have sex with his boyfriend now – which Itachi didn't know about yet. But Deidara just knew it. After everything they'd been through together, and especially after everything Itachi had done for him, how could he not be ready? How could he not give him his full trust?
…
Even if he knew nothing of Deidara's intentions, Itachi was pretty excited to see him on Sunday morning. Well just the fact that he got up early on a Sunday morning was saying something. They simply wanted to spend as much time as possible together for the day they both had off.
The streets were really calm. It was just 9 am when Itachi parked his sleek black car in front of the apartment building. There was fresh snow on the ground that had fallen over night. Right now it was sunny, and the air was calm but cold. Just like he used to, Deidara waited for him outside, and when he saw Itachi's car he smiled and walked toward it.
But Itachi was breath taken, Deidara looked… different. He noticed the clothes and hair first. Well his outfit was just plain sexy; black combat boots, stylish black skinny jeans, and the slim black leather jacket Itachi had recently bought him. His hair was loose and sleek, it seemed just a bit shorter with layers, and he had stylish bangs covering the side of his face. Under the sunlight it was golden blonde, and Itachi was glad he hadn't altered his natural hair color because in his opinion it was totally beautiful.
When he sat in the car Itachi noticed a few more things. Well he had eyeliner but that was nothing exceptional for Deidara. Still, Itachi smiled because he knew his boyfriend applied said eyeliner when he wanted to look particularly good for him. He was so silly sometimes. That guy didn't even need to make efforts to look good. But the other changes were some of his piercings actually. In his eyebrow he had a delicate, navy steel barbell with cones. And Itachi couldn't be sure because his hair was hiding most of his ear but he thought he saw glimpses of black and blue where before there had been only silver. The nineteen year old looked absolutely adorable, he decided.
"Come here," Itachi simply said as he leaned closer, and used both hands to place blonde strands behind his ears. Deidara was a little flustered as his boyfriend took a good look at his new jewelry. "Looks cute," he finally said in a low, fond voice before kissing his lips softly.
"I wasn't even sure you'd notice," the smaller male replied.
"Course I noticed," he faked an offended tone as he tried but failed to place Deidara's bangs behind his ear. Stupid sexy emo bangs.
"We sound like some old couple," blushing at their closeness, Deidara pushed him away playfully.
"Oh god we kinda do, don't we?" Itachi laughed, recalling his parents' discussions whenever his mother came back from the hairdresser. "Anyway I just wanted to say you look great."
Deidara seemed nervous for some reason as he looked down at his hands in his lap. "Thanks," he made a slight shrug, "so what do you wanna do?"
"Um… well I'm starving, you?"
"Yeah," he smiled.
Itachi nodded and started driving. They discussed it then chose which restaurant they should go to. Meanwhile Deidara plugged his IPod to the car's sound system and chose a song. It was a lot softer than what he usually listened to. Itachi was pleasantly surprised.
"I love that song." It was Soul meets body, by Death cab for cutie. Deidara smiled knowingly.
"Yeah I know."
"You don't have to change your IPod selection just for me, you know?" Itachi was amused as he kept his eyes on the road. But he could feel Deidara's blue gaze lingering on him.
"So how was your week?" He asked, changing the subject.
"Well I already told you, but…" Itachi proceeded to explain some of the things he'd already texted him during the week. He had a lot of school work already. He needed to really get back into it and keep up his excellent grades to have access to the best internships in the spring.
After that they talked about Deidara's week, and all of his new customers. He told Itachi anecdotes on the tattoo designs he had to do – some of them made the blonde really enthusiastic, some others, not so much.
"There's this weirdo guy… wants a Jesus tattoo," Deidara face palmed.
Itachi chuckled but said, "You have to respect his choice I guess…"
"Yeah… it's still not as bad as the girl that wants her boyfriend's name in a heart I mean come on… I can't believe people still do that sometimes. She'll sure look smart if they break up."
"There's always the cheese grater," Itachi added, recalling the small poster with that particular image, and which said 'tattoo removal' at Deidara's work place.
This made the blonde laugh, "Yeah. Hey remember, like, the first time we talked was because of that poster."
"Yeah I remember," he said and they exchanged a smile.
Later, at the small brunch restaurant they'd chosen – Itachi had chosen, really – they talked about their project of moving in together.
"I still haven't told my parents but I'm definitely looking for something. I'm thinking we should live downtown, close to your work. I mean I have a car so it's easier for me to move around town…"
Deidara tilted his head and replaced his hair behind his shoulder in a swift movement of his hand, "You're really serious about this aren't you?"
"Uh yeah, aren't you?" Itachi was worried all of a sudden.
But Deidara slowly nodded, and locked eyes with him, "Yeah. Let's not rush it though."
"I want to be with you all the time," Itachi insisted, "I don't know if it's a family thing… Seeing my mother and my brother so happy with their partner all the time just makes me jealous I don't get to live with you."
"And I hate living alone when I could be with you," Deidara bit his lip, "but I'm just saying… I don't wanna go too fast. I was thinking, maybe you could…"
"What?" Itachi asked eagerly, leaning forward on the small table. They had both stopped eating for the moment, taken by their conversation. Deidara just took a sip of coffee before replying.
"Never mind, I'll tell you later."
"Dei you're killing me! Just tell me now."
"No I'll tell you later," he insisted, averting his eyes.
"Fine…" he sighed. How cruel… Usually Deidara was so easy to read for Itachi, but right now, he couldn't figure him out. Why was he nervous anyway? What was on his mind?
They dropped the subject. After their meal they walked outside together, but it was a little cold so they eventually just decided to return to Itachi's car. He drove across town with no direction in particular in mind while they listened to Deidara's great music. Eventually he asked what he wanted to do.
"I don't know," the blonde shrugged, looking out the window, "you decide."
"You wanna just go to my place and watch a movie or something?"
Deidara shifted slightly in the seat and said, "Actually… you wanna come over to my place instead?"
"Uh… sure." Itachi didn't particularly like Deidara's place. Not only was it a really old building, but his apartment was really small and utterly messy. But he'd pretty much do anything to make his boyfriend happy.
It turned out, when they got there, Itachi almost didn't recognize his apartment. Deidara was looking at him expectantly as they stood in the entrance, in between the living room and kitchen area and the small bedroom. The place was tidy and clean; no clothes on the floor, no food leftovers, no dirty dishes in the sink. Itachi was impressed. Not only could he step on the floor without tripping on something, but the place really did look clean. Deidara had clearly spent a lot of time making this place look decent.
"Wow," he chuckled.
"I… I guess I wanted to hum…" Deidara glanced around and flipped his bangs to the side, "Show you that you wouldn't have to pick up after me all the time if we do end up living together, you know?"
"What makes you think I was worried about that," Itachi said as he slipped off his shoes. Deidara imitated him, leaning onto the wall as he got rid of his boots.
"Come on you're a neat freak Itachi," he said with a small smile, "back in Miami you always picked up after me and it made me realize I should make some efforts to change that…"
"You did all this for me?"
"Yeah…" Again Itachi got the impression that Deidara was a little nervous.
He stepped in his bedroom and took off his jacket, putting it on his chair. He also took off his hoodie which left him in just a sexy, tiny black tank top. With his silver chain belt and black skinny jeans he looked too hot for words and how the hell was Itachi supposed to stay away from him?
So the raven took off his coat adding it to the pile, and then stepped closer to his boyfriend to caress his bare arms. They kissed softly, before pulling away and locking lidded eyes. The next instant Itachi slid his arm around Deidara's thin waist and kissed him more intensely, using his tongue to tease him a little. They both smiled through the kiss before deepening it even more.
Itachi ran his pale slender fingers through golden blonde locks. Then he slid his hands down his back, feeling the curve of his lower back and sexy little ass. He couldn't resist giving it a squeeze which surprised Deidara a little. But he didn't stop kissing him passionately, and his hands were doing some exploring of their own. Actually soon he was lifting his shirt. They broke the kiss so that Itachi could lift his arm as his boyfriend slid the fabric off him and threw it across the room.
"Making a mess again already," Itachi teased gently.
"Shut up," he whispered and captured his full lips in another deep kiss.
They were at it for a few long minutes. It was their most intense making out session so far and Itachi wondered where this was going. Well, if they ended up just doing this all day it would still be awesome. But of course the raven craved more. His growing erection was already beginning to hurt in his tight pants. And he could tell Deidara was in the same situation as he pressed his thigh in between his legs slightly.
The blonde didn't freak out; actually he moaned through the kiss and leaned into Itachi even more.
"You're so intense today," Itachi breathed into his cheek, panting.
"I don't hear you complaining," he teased but there was still this nervousness to his voice. It was hard to notice but Itachi was beginning to know him very well.
"What's on your mind?" Itachi whispered, cupping Deidara's cheek with his hand.
"Nothing," Deidara kissed him and grinded into his hips to distract him. Needless to say it worked.
Itachi just lost it. He wanted to feel more of Deidara so it wasn't long before he got rid of the tank top. He just wanted to flush their heated bodies and hold him so tight. At some point he stopped kissing his lips, only so that he could trail his lips across his jaw, and reach his ear. Placing the thick blonde locks behind his shoulder he licked his ear, purposely breathing heatedly. Deidara shivered violently in his arms and Itachi squeezed him tight. He proceeded to give him a hickey just below his ear, and he could tell the slender male absolutely loved it. He was entangling his fingers in Itachi's hair, almost tugging at it aggressively. This was way more intense than what they were used to. Sexual tension was at its highest and that was saying something.
"Dei," he breathed in his ear as their clothed erections rubbed onto one another… god he couldn't control himself any longer. "I want you so bad…"
Itachi was shocked as Deidara didn't reply, instead leading him to his bed. He even took the lead and unbuttoned Itachi's jeans. When he was completely naked, the raven smirked and returned the favor, slipping Deidara out of his clothes. They lay down on the small bed together, messing up the turquoise colored sheets already as they continued making out.
Now Itachi was expecting some amazing hand job or blow job action and that was totally fine. But actually, Deidara was the one who seemed to want to take things in a new direction. He actually spread his legs while locking eyes with Itachi so suggestively, and the moment was so intense that the taller male held his breath.
Eventually he went still and asked, "What are we doing?"
"Itachi… I'm ready…" he finally revealed and a weight seemed to be lifted off his shoulders. "I want to do it now."
"Are you sure? I mean…" he frowned. It was difficult to think clearly when he was so turned on, and the sexy blonde male was very much naked under him. And he was spreading his legs and… oh god. Itachi had to close his eyes for a moment to try to calm down.
"I'm sure," Deidara caressed Itachi's hair, replacing it behind his ears almost tenderly. By now his hair tie had joined the scattered clothes on the floor.
"Really?"
"Yes, really!" He laughed softly.
"But… what made you change your mind?" The raven was confused. Sure he was happy but he didn't understand…
Deidara swallowed and glanced away. He seemed to be gathering his thoughts. Itachi pulled away from him because this position was way too distracting. He ended up sitting on the side of the bed and Deidara crawled closer to him. Itachi wrapped one arm around his waist.
"Well you," he finally answered, "you made me change my mind. You're amazing Itachi. You fixed me," he whispered, voice full of contained emotions.
Itachi felt warm inside yet there was a pang in his chest. He also felt very emotional all of a sudden. They were still hard and turned on though, as they sat together and talked, so the situation was almost comical. Still, Deidara continued.
"I decided I don't want to press charges… even if you do find those guys…"
Itachi frowned and looked down. He'd been looking indeed. He'd found two of them so far, one was still a skilled football player in college, the other was trying to start his own business. Itachi hadn't decided what to do yet though.
"I had a dream a couple days ago," Deidara rested his head against Itachi's shoulder lightly as the taller male held him. "It was like, in the future, or whatever… and one of them… he had… y'know a family, and a job, normal life… And hum… he was still thinking about what he did to me back in high school and it was eating at him… cause he was scared that something like that could happen to his kids one day."
"Just because of a dream…" Itachi frowned, unable to finish his sentence.
But Deidara understood, and he said, "It's not just the dream. I just don't want to try to find them. I finally moved on, Itachi. I'm only stronger now, for the first time in my life I know that I can have sex and not be thinking about them," he shrugged, and pulled away so he could look up into deep onyx eyes, "And I've got you," he smiled. "I don't know what their lives are like but I sort of believe in karma, you know? Let's just not talk about it ever again."
"…If that's really what you want."
"It is," he said sincerely. Itachi looked into his blue eyes for a long time and they were so close he could see the imperfections in his eyeliner.
"Who are you? You changed Dei." He whispered, smiling, and suddenly he pulled Deidara close, sitting him on his lap. With a small gasp the blonde wrapped his arms around his neck and smiled back.
"It's called growing up, I guess. Moving on. Whatever. Or maybe I'm just so in love with you…" he finished as a light blush colored his cheeks. Itachi parted his lips, shaking his head in disbelief slightly. He felt so incredibly happy right now.
They kissed for long minutes, their lips bruised but they didn't care. Eventually they were lying down on the bed again, Itachi flipping their positions so he was on top. He wanted this really badly but he realized something and freaked out a little.
"Dei you don't have any lube or condoms do you?"
Blue eyes widened, "Oh, uh, no I don't. Does it matter?"
Itachi repressed the urge to smack him, "Does it matter? Of course it does you idiot. I don't want to hurt you!"
"No but I mean… we can use like…" Deidara glanced around his bedroom and shrugged, "Lotion, or whatever… And we don't need condoms we're both clean. I mean you can't honestly think I didn't get checked after what happened to me. And with my ex we used condoms she wasn't on the pill. You trust me don't you?"
Deidara was so nervous and cute right now. How could Itachi possibly not love him so much? He nodded, smiling.
"Yeah of course I trust you. I got checked too. And I haven't done anything with anyone ever since I met you."
"I fucking hope so," Deidara teased.
They kissed again, the last of Itachi's reticence disappearing. Deidara soon slipped away to go get aforementioned lotion, and Itachi smirked. He applied some on his fingers and started stretching him right away. This was so much different from any other sexual experience Itachi had before. One night stands couldn't possibly compare to this.
He'd known Deidara for nearly five months now. And right now, as Itachi pleasured him with two fingers skillfully, seeing the lust in those beautiful blue eyes he loved so much, it was so intense and created foreign feelings inside of him. So this was what it was like, he thought, to have sex with someone he actually cared for… someone he actually loved.
Deidara felt some pain when Itachi stretched him using three fingers. But he was distracted by the sweet kisses the raven dropped everywhere; on his neck, chest, nipples, then his lips again… His moans became ones of pleasure. Itachi eventually lathered his cock with the lotion they were using as lubricant. Of course it would hurt a little, it couldn't be helped, but he would do his best to make this experience amazing for his boyfriend.
He did look a bit nervous now as Itachi positioned himself.
"You can still change your mind," he whispered reassuringly, his lips brushing his soft cheek.
"No," Deidara said holding him almost desperately, "no I don't wanna change my mind. Itachi, I want this, with you, no one else."
"I feel the same way," he kissed his lips heatedly one last time before sliding inside of him at last.
Deidara moaned in pain and he clawed at Itachi's back.
"Shh… relax, Dei… please, try to relax…" he whispered gently in his ear then kissed his neck. He really needed to relax before Itachi could move. He wasn't even all the way in.
Eventually the blonde seemed to get used to this. His hands relaxed as they held Itachi's back, but surely his nails had left marks. The raven didn't care though. The only important thing to him right now was how Deidara felt.
"You ready…?" They locked eyes. Deidara nodded.
Itachi pulled away slightly so he could hold the smaller male's hips. Itachi slowly, carefully started moving inside of him even though this was killing him. His body wanted to just pound inside him repeatedly and reach climax as soon as possible but he forced himself to calm down. Looking at Deidara's pained face helped a lot. He was already hurting him, so he didn't want to make things worst by going too fast.
"You tell me to stop I stop," he said.
"No don't," Deidara reassured him, "I'm fine."
"You sure?" Itachi tried moving just a little faster.
"Hurts and feels good at the same time," he eventually admitted as he caressed Itachi's hair.
"I wish it could stop hurting."
"Just keep going…"
Itachi nodded and leaned closer to kiss his beautiful, darkened lips as he continued making love to him. Eventually Deidara moaned and the raven pulled away to look into his eyes. They were wide open.
"Itachi…"
"Yeah?" He asked fervently.
"Faster."
He didn't need to be told twice. He pounded faster and deeper inside him and Deidara arched his back, the sensations clearly making him lose control. He was so beautiful, so amazing, this moment was so perfect, and it was theirs, and right now Itachi didn't think it could get any better than this. That was how good he felt. It was like his first time having sex all over again.
Itachi slid his hands across Deidara's arms, feeling the thin scars and thinking of everything they'd been through together, how far they came, and how far they would go. Their hands touched and they laced their fingers, squeezing tightly.
"Itachi… ahh…" Deidara kept moaning over and over, and his sexy voice was the best music to Itachi's ears. He was himself moaning and grunting in pure pleasure with each thrust.
Deidara folded his legs and spread them even more to give him better access.
"Ita… chi… fuck…"
"I love it when you say my name."
"Itachi, Itachi, Itachi…"
The raven smiled and leaned closer to kiss him. Deidara moaned and tried to say his name again so they just pulled away and chuckled softly. Itachi straightened up and grabbed his thin hips to pick up the pace again. With each thrust they were coming closer…
They were moaning loudly, locking eyes, and sent completely over the edge. This was out of this world; Itachi had never felt anything like it before. He couldn't even think anymore, couldn't even do anything but hold Deidara while making love to him passionately. Right now, nothing else mattered. This was perfect.
They came together. Panting, they locked eyes, unable to move, and reveling in this blissful moment. Slowly, almost carefully, Itachi let his body rest on top of Deidara's. They held each other fiercely.
"Oh my god," Deidara said, trembling, "that was intense."
"Yeah…" Itachi breathed in the sweet scent of his hair, and kissed his cheek softly. Deidara turned his head a little so he could kiss his lips instead.
"I loved it," the blonde whispered against his lips, "but… ugh…" he made a noise of displeasure as Itachi slid out of him.
"Sorry," he chuckled.
"It's okay."
"What were you gonna say? You loved it but…"
Deidara caressed his back, and his sleek black hair as he said, "But how the hell am I supposed to like… walk… now?"
Itachi burst out laughing, but then he got a little worried, "Are you really hurting that bad?"
"I think I'll survive."
"Well the good news is we have the day off. We can just stay like this for a little while if you want."
"I'd like that."
"I'd probably suffocate you though," Itachi teased and he shifted to lie down on his side instead.
Deidara also turned so they could face each other. He smiled, "I didn't mind having you on top of me."
"How convenient, I liked being on top of you too."
"We're being so silly," the blonde laughed as he placed his arm under his head, curling up on his side a little more.
The sheets were stained but they didn't care. They could take care of that later. Right now they just held each other close, enjoying this moment and unwilling to let it end.
Deidara's smile faded a little, and he became thoughtful. He caressed the tattoo on Itachi's arm lightly. "I'm really glad I met you. I'll have to thank your brother for deciding to get a tattoo back in September," he chuckled, "it's crazy isn't it? I met you by chance and it fucking turned my life around."
"It's not just me. Don't sell yourself short. You were really strong, keeping all your secrets to yourself, living on your own like that…"
"More like surviving," he chuckled bitterly.
But Itachi frowned, and cupped his cheek, before brushing his hair behind his ear, "Well my point exactly. You were strong and when I showed up you actually managed to accept change, to try something new. Remember when I was texting you, inviting you to go out and stuff, and you just ignored me… well you could've just ignored me forever and believe me I would've given up. But you called me back. So it wasn't just me. And Deidara I'm glad I met you too," he said sincerely, "now I can't imagine my life without you."
They were silent for a long time, but Deidara was smiling. And Itachi was glad. He caressed the long blonde locks absentmindedly, as they let the rays of sunlight creeping in the room warm their bodies.
"Staying like this for a little while sounds good," Deidara finally whispered.
"Yeah," Itachi said simply, and kissed his forehead.
So they did stay like this, holding each other on the small bed. Itachi thought of what their life together would be like, and he just smiled, because he didn't have any doubts, or second thoughts. He was in love, and that was enough, for now. He squeezed his lover gently in his arms and closed his eyes.
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A/N: I remember when I was writing that story, all those months ago, I wanted it to be really long. And maybe that's partly why I lost my inspiration and gave up on it. Honestly, I don't think this story could be good if it was like, thirty chapters long… It would just get boring, lose the main focus and I'd hate for that to happen. I'm gonna write one or two more chapters for this, which I will update within the end of the month. And then that's it. Thank you.
(I don't know if you're still reading this, but special thanks to mountaingirl47, Nychta, mammacass99, Seras Kyra Silvering, AnimePriestess425, you guys, sorry about not updating soon after all, and SinGrin, thanks for correcting my errors, and brightnight003, Villagefox, ishala8, Uchan382, DragonFire44, kissama, Ms. Wolf, you guys really made me want to try to finish this story)