What If Ch 21 I'm trusting you, a harry potter fanfic

Rating: R

Warnings: Course Language, Anal, Male/Male, Sexual Situations, Rape, Uncomfortable Situations, Violence, Eating Disorders, BDSM, Suicide Attempts, Oral Sex, HPDH Spoilers, Mpreg

Parings: DOMINANT/SUBMISSIVE— Alex/Colin (Colin/Alex), Seamus/Colin (Colin Seamus), Dennis/Noah (Noah/Dennis), Charlie/Seamus (Seamus/Charlie), Mike/Ginny, Fred/Mike

. . . Story Begins . . .

"Well Colin . . . I'm not quite sure how to tell you this." She stated nervously. The smaller's breathing caught and panic set in. "But you're . . . well you're pregnant . . ." Blue eyes widened.

"WHAT?" He blanched and retched again, his brother gagging and glaring. "S-sorry!" The smaller frowned and stared at the mess on his lap. The witch casted a cleaning charm for him. She gave him some books and left. "I-I can't keep it." He mumbled staring at the ground. "I'm not taking time off school! It's bad enough I'll barely see Alex since Noah's having a kid and Al will have to stay here! Except every so often when he comes down on weekends so we can-"

"LA, LA, LA, LA!" Dennis yelled covering his ears.

"Sorry." The older stood and started pacing. "We can't tell him."

"Are you mad?" His brother squeaked.

"No. I'm getting a fucking abortion Dennis. I can't handle this, I'm not ready for a kid! You and Noah have me and Alex to look after it alright? But I can't just ask mum now can I?" he hissed. "Please get her back in here. I need this done now!" The younger's eyes watered and he nodded. "And don't you dare tell Alex!"

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Alex sighed and leaned back over the pool table, the medi witch leaving for the second time. He continued his game with Mike and stood when Colin and Dennis walked out.

"Hey everything alright?"

"Yeah of course, just a flu bug, she gave me some meds and it should go away soon." He kissed the older's cheek and walked off. The taller watched him leave with worry.

"What?" Mike asked raising a brow.

"I know when my mate is lying." Is all he said before hesitantly turning back to their game. Colin would talk to him when he was ready.

Colin sighed and ran a hand through his hair. Alex was smiling gleefully, walking with Noah and picking out baby things with him.

"You should tell him." Dennis muttered, watching the joyous look in the eldest's eyes.

"No."

"He needs to know!"

"He'll be crushed!" Colin hissed, watching his lover. Alex was alone in one of the isles, looking at baby jumpers. He looked down and rested a hand on his stomach before shaking his head and putting the blue cloth back.

"He's always wanted a little boy." Noah said smiling. "Little one with blonde curls and bright blue eyes." He chuckled. "Did you know Alex was a blonde with curly hair and blue-green eyes when he was little?" Noah snickered and pulled out his wallet. He grabbed a picture and handed it to Colin. The smaller laughed and smiled.

The small boy had a huge smile. He was holding a small round wooden ball, little socks on and those adorable curls. He shook with excitement and Alexis' hand came into view, the smaller grasping her finger and, what he assumed, squealing. It was adorable. He turned it over and smiled.

Alexander James Anderson,

1 an old,

Février 6th 1980

"Whatcha looking at?" Alex asked. Colin snickered and showed him, watching the red fly across the older's face as he scowled. "Shoulda known you'd see it eventually. Yeah, I was adorable . . ."

"I'm bored!" Dennis groaned.

"Why don't we play a game of truth or dare? Just nothing sexual so the Veela's don't kill anyone?" Fred offered, Mike laughing and nodding.

"Alright, I'm in." Alex gave a toothy grin and sat down in the circle. Fred, Mike, Noah, Dennis, Alex, Colin, Harry, Ron, Hermione and Draco all got comfy and started the game. Fred got dared to give his boyfriend a hickey, poor Mike trying to be quiet and not be too obvious about how it made him feel because he did respond rather differently, almost as if he was marked by a Veela! Ron being dared to read a page out of a sex novel.

Hermione had picked truth and told Ron that she thought he was a 'bloody wanker' that should watch his tongue and actions before he ended up in a body bag . . . But Colin . . . Dennis dared him something he really didn't want.

"I dare you to tell Alex about what really happened with the doctor." He said sternly.

"No." Colin glared and the others gaped.

"You have to!" He sighed and bit his lip, looking away.

"Colin, what's going on?" Alex reached out but the smaller shifted away.

"I-I didn't have the flu."

"I know that. I know when you lie." Alex noted.

"Well . . . I . . ." He bit his lip. "I was pregnant Alex." Everyone stiffened and he saw joy flicker through those green eyes, a huge smile spreading. Then the older froze. His eyes widened and he looked at the smaller who glanced away ashamed.

"W-was . . ?" The blonde bit his lip, eyes watering. "Y-you had a miscarriage?" Alex's breath caught and his heart clenched.

"No."

"Then how did you lose-" He stopped and his eyes widened further. A small noise left the back of his throat, a silent tear falling.

"Alex-"

"No." He stood.

"Alex please!"

"Fuck off Colin." He muttered walking off. He covered his mouth and slammed the back door, the others staring.

"Y-you got an abortion?" Hermione whispered. Noah stood and slapped his brother's mate.

"How could you do that to him? You know what happened!" He shrieked, Dennis eeping and running up to his Veela.

A fist collided with the side of the house, a wail leaving the owner. He pressed his forehead into the brick and turned, his back pressing against it as he slid down. Why would Colin do that to him? If he was worried about taking care of it Alex could stay home and do it perfectly fine! He had baby cousins he used to look after not to mention Conner and the twins! Plus Veelas are a natural at this sort of thing! He buried his head in his knees, arms wrapping around them, shoulders shaking violently.

He was never going to be a dad. Veelas can only get their mates pregnant so many times before their bodies can't handle it! Men aren't supposed to get pregnant! Three is the maximum and they just lost one chance. A louder sob fell from him and he ignored the smaller's presence, his brother rubbing his back anyways.

Colin could feel the pull in his neck and an ache in his heart. He felt almost as if it had snapped. He wondered if this is what Alex was feeling. He sniffed, cheek bruised and headed out after his Veela. Noah walked past and glared.

"You have no idea what you just did!" He hissed. "He can only get you pregnant three times you fucking jack ass! Not to mention it's common for mates to have miscarriages! On average they have two! You may have just fucked yourselves over!" His voice cracked. Colin's eyes widened and his lip trembled.

"How the fuck was I suppose to know that?" He yelled back. So now he may never be a dad? He ran out and around the corner, stiffening. Alex sat there, shoulders shaking violently as he tried to silence his cries. Colin sat down next to him and pulled the older over, hiccupping and his lip trembling, his lover buried his head in his neck, arm wrapping around his shoulders.

"W-we can borrow the time turner! I can go back, stop myself from getting the abortion!" The smaller offered. Alex shook his head and sniffed, kissing his mates neck.

"I-I kinda wanted twins ya know? I wanted three kids, at least two. Twin boys and a girl." He mumbled.

"You might still be able to!"

"No." He shook his head. "When you get an abortion it lowers your chance Colin. We're men, it's hard enough to get pregnant, but scraping the insides or performing difficult enchantment makes it merely impossible. You're only supposed to make those enchantments if you're positive you don't want any kids or no more than one or two for a reason." He pulled back and gave a small smile. "You don't have to go back and force yourself to keep it for me Colin. We can adopt or something." He mumbled, sniffing.

"No. I'm going back Alex." He stated firmly. "And you won't remember this so I'll get to see that smile full out this time. I-I want kids with you! I don't want to adopt! I just . . . wasn't ready to have kids yet . . . I didn't think It would make it impossible to have any!" He sniffed.

"W-what if we go back to when we had sex and it felt weird. Maybe if we go back and change that?"

"I don't know how we'd do that though. It's fine Alex. I'll have the baby! I'll be . . . we're june . . . I'm seventeen in October so I'll be seventeen and you'll be twenty. It's alright." The older looked at him and searched his eyes.

"You swear?"

"Yes." He nodded. The older smiled softly.

"You're not lying." He nodded. "Alright. Go back but . . . wait at lest two days to see if you're sure." He whispered.

"Alright, deal."

Colin had lied. When he went back in time he went with Alex's suggestion. He told himself that as soon as it started to feel different he needed to stop Alex and continue later . . . and it worked. The redhead also had no idea he, for about a month, was a father . . . or would have been depending on one's point of view. But this also ment he didn't get that abortion . . . he no longer had to worry about being infertile. They could have children, up to three even . . . unless thay had twins or something.

Twins run on the female side of the family and well Colin was basically the female . . . he had been a

twin but his twin died when they were around three months in the womb. His cousins were triplets, his

mother's sister. So when one thought about it, there was a chance he could have twons. His grandmother, McGee, she was a feternal twin. She had a twin brother.

He smiled when they walked through the isles, watching Alex with the baby clothes, Noah showing him that adorable photo.

"C-can I have a copy of that?" Colin asked with a smile.

"Yeah, abosolutly!"

"Colin look!" The oldest said grining, other people walking by and chuckling at the tall man holding up really little booties, abnormally small in his large hands. "They're so little!" He smiled and the younger laughed walking up and hugging him.

"Don't buy us baby clothes, how do you know when we do have a baby that he or she will be that small?"

"Because you're puny . . ."

"But you're tall." He pointed out.

"They'll be small." Noah said smiling. Alex's head snapped to him.

"They?"

"Yeah." He smiled. "Wanna know?" The older bit his lip and shuffled his feet, shaking his head.

"Let it be a surprise." He smiled. The other nodded and Alex wrapped an arm around Colin's shoulders.

The summer seemed to practically fly by, Colin still feeling a bit guilty about Alex not knowing what happened. September came back around and Noah was nervous. He left school abnormally thin and now he was . . . well getting fat as far as the others would know.

"Love, stop it." Dennis rolled his eyes. "You're four months along. You barely look pregnant. You look like you're a normal weight. You need to eat a bit more even!" He linked their hands together, walking through the wall. "Please eat more?"

"I'm trying Dennis! It's not easy!" He ran a hand through his hair.

"Noah! Looking good!" Seamus smiled, clapping him on the back, Charlie just behind him. Alex and Colin walked through as well and the blonde's face lit up.

"Seamus!" He tackled the older, both laughing and sharing a hug. Alex and Charlie locked eyes a bit nervous. The blonde and brunette pulled back, smiles faltering. They bit their lips and let go. Colin shuffled back over to Alex and hugged him tight, the taller smiling and leaning down, bringing their lips together.

"I'm trusting you. Please don't break this trust. Please don't." Alex whispered into the blonde locks. "I don't think I could handle it if you did." He mumbled. "I love you Colin William Creevey. More than you could ever comprehend."

"I love you too Alex and I swear you'll be able to trust me this time . . . what if I play truth or dare and I get dared to do something with another person?" The older sighed.

"Tell me about it. Think it through. If you think it will really upset me then don't do it. Explain that your lover is a Veela and will kill not just the one you did stuff with but the people who dared it as well."