This is a Part of Me Chapter 2, a glee fanfic

You chewed me up you spit me out like I was poison in your mouth

SORRY IF THE LAST CHAPTER DID NOT MAKE SENSE I MISSED SOME WORDS AND I SAID ONE YEAR LATER AND THAT RYAN WAS HER BOYFRIEND OF THREE YEARS SORRY I MEANT FOUR YEARS LATER (A/N Rachel's performing outfit is on my page.)

I know that the bridges that I've burned

Along the way

Have left me with these walls and these scars

That won't go away

And opening up has always been the hardest thing

Until you came

So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go

This feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known

And I just can't take my eyes off you

I love when you tell me that I'm pretty

When I just wake up

And I love how you tease me when I'm moody

But it's never too much

I'm falling fast but the truth is I'm not scared at all

You climbed my walls

So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go

This feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known

And I just can't take my eyes off you

Off you

So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go

And oh.. this feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known

And I just can't take my eyes off you

Here I was singing at the rodeo when Noah was most likely watching. You know what whatever I can face him, at the end of my performance I hear everyone cheer and clap, I feel happy on the outside but on the inside, sick to my stomach. I thought about just running away again, instead I just got off stage and met up with Ryan and Noah. Ryan wrapped one arm around me, Noah flirted with me"lookin good Berry uh what's uh that? " He said pointing to my finger while Ryan's arm wrapped around me even tighter I swear I could feel a fist form too but I wasn't really worried about it "not to bad yourself Puckerman, and my pumpkin right hear gave it to as a promise of our love forever" I managed to say back after a minute of thinking. "Ladies and gentleman we going to get started or what?" the announcer of the rodeo said. "Good luck babe" I said after reaching up to kiss Ryan, and then I felt bad cause Noah looked pretty sad so I kissed him on the cheek and wished him good luck too. Ryan got on Buddy (his horse/best friend besides me) they rode around the barrels perfectly so did Noah and everyone cheered for him even more, I wonder why.

Ryan and I went home that night before we heard a knock on the door. It was Noah and some friends "hey Rach and Ryan whatcha up to?" Noah said "oh nutin much just chillin watching a movie" I said back. "Well can I join in this little fest?" he said back, I looked at Ryan and he said ok. That night turned into a party all the guys including Ryan got drunk and called everybody up to have a party. That night Ryan was so wasted he was flirting with other girls. Usually when girls flirted with Ryan it was like they were invisible. Now I was sad and decided to call the party off. As soon as everybody left I took care of Ryan and put him to bed. I was so sad I went to the store and bought some cigarettes, I don't know what I was doing I was just so sad with everything happening right now, Noah coming here, Ryan getting wasted and flirting with all kinds of girls, Thinking about how my dads were doing without me. I had a lot to think about I knew a cigarrete wasn't worth it so I put it out and went to take a shower, I slowly began to sing. I don't know who to, Ryan or Noah, all I know was by the time I finished the very last note I was crying. Is it really that bad to be so sad and have the most perfect things in life you could get? I don't even know what to do, where to turn to, and who to turn to. After some deep thinking I got dressed and called Noah up he wasn't as wasted as Ryan was so maybe he'll be sober by now.

Rinnnng…..Rinnnng…."you go for Puckerman"

I smiled at this I remember in high school when we went out I would call him late at night from nightmares I had during storms, he would always say that same cheesy line. Awaking from my thoughts I finally said" hey Noah it's me Rach I was wondering if you would like to meet up at the bar just a few miles down the road to talk?"

"Yea that'd be fine be there around 6:00?" (It's 5:30)

"Sure" I said with a smile before hanging up and getting my makeup done.

About thirty minutes later I met up with Noah at the bar. We sat down and talked about how our life went after or before graduation for me, I told him everything. Then we got to the difficult part, confessing our feelings for each other. I didn't know if I was ready or not but I was sure ready to tell him so here's what I said

"Noah I have to tell you something" I started. "Go ahead…." He said back, "Well you know how we went out in high school and how you were my first kiss and first love?" I asked him "yea what about it?" he said back again. "Ok well before I broke up with you everything I said was only half true. When my dad told me if you love someone you've gotta let em go so I let you go and that's the other half of why I broke up with you, and also because I liked Finn too. When I ran away from home I ran because I was so tired of being broken down one to many times. I left my dads a note they don't know why I ran they only know where I ran and now that you're here all these feelings are resurfacing and I don't know what to do and right now I'm rambling and I'm so nervous cause I've never felt this way around anyone else besides Ryan and it's really nerve wrecking so that's it, that's why I ran away and what I feel for you." I finally breathe, oh gosh; he's giving me that look…." I feel the same way" he says and then next thing I know we're leaning toward each other and…..

SORRY FOR THE CLIFF HANGER I DO NOT OWN I JUST CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF YOU, LADY ANTEBELLUM DOES. THANKS FOR READING AND DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW THE BUTTON'S RIGHT BELOW THANKS AGAIN BYE.