Chapter 4: Falling

Izaya had hoped, no, prayed that his boss forgot about torchering him. His prayers went unanswered. The end of the day came and he was almost out the door when Mr. Arinawa called him into his office.

He grudgingly walked in, his boss backing him against the door. He used the palms of his hands to close the door behind them. He didn't bother with pre-arousal, instead he turned the raven around to face the door and lifted the sarong over the other's hips.

"Bet you thought I forgot." He pulled down the other's shorts. Izaya didn't answer. He just wanted his boss to get it over with so he could leave.

"You're awfully quiet." The raven's hands started shaking against the door and his body trembled. Mr. Arinawa smirked. "Don't worry~ It won't hurt that much."

Shizuo waited at Izaya's apartment for the raven to return home. His shift ended two hours ago and he was nowhere to be found. He was becoming worried. He contemplated going to the restaurant to see if he was still there.

He walked down the stairs to do as he thought. Just as he got onto the side walk, Izaya nearly ran into him.

"Shizuo...what are you doing here?" He tried to hide his pain as best he could. Shizuo chuckled and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend. "I was waiting for you silly!" He kissed the raven on the forehead. Izaya had forgotten that they were going to watch a horror movie at his place.

"Are you okay, Izaya?" The blonde cupped his cheek in his large hand. Izaya nuzzled the other's hand. He wanted to cry into his hand and tell him about the horrible things he's being forced to do. He wanted Shizuo to make everything alright.

"I'm alright. Shall we get inside and start the movie and make the popcorn?" He tried to put on a smile as best he could. He didn't want Shizuo to see how broken he really was.

They went into the apartment and settled down on the couch with a bowl of popcorn. Izaya handed Shizuo the remote and they flipped through the movies on demand.

"Which one should we watch?" The raven looked over each movie title. He couldn't decide between Drag Me To Hell or Insidious. "You pick."

Shizuo chuckled. "I think I'll go with one of your favorites." He selected favorites and flipped to a random movie. Lucky for Izaya, it was Scream 4.

The raven started to get tired halfway through the movie and almost dozed off. Shizuo noticed and paused the movie. "Izaya...wake up..." Izaya mumbled something and snuggled against the blonde's arms.

Shizuo laid him on the couch and covered him with a blanket. "Good night, Izaya." He placed a gentle kiss on the raven's cheek and showed himself out the door.

Izaya woke up around 3 a.m. He looked around and noticed Shizuo wasn't there. He probably needed to head home. He got up and noticed a yellow envelope on the floor. He walked over and picked it up, surveying it for a name of the person who sent it.

He opened it to find photos in it. Photos his boss took of them while he was being raped. He let them drop to the floor. He finally broke down. He went into his bedroom and grabbed his flickblade off his nightstand. He dragged the edge of the blade across his wrist. Deep enough to break the skin but not deep enough to cause him to bleed out. He did it a few more times, blood dripping onto the comforter.

He went into the bathroom and bandaged his arm. He thought about how he was going to hide it from his sisters and from Shizuo.

"I hate my life."