I am Unicorn

'Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.' Lao Tzu

Dear Diary,

Will really is an excellent cook. Tonight he cooked a Moroccan lamb tagine with couscous and salad. My taste buds were in ecstasy. Over dinner Will was telling me how Vocal Adrenalin came in second last year and their coach has been fired. Will and the kids have a chance. Then Will said he can't direct the school musical this year. To make up for last year his soul focus has to be New Directions and to meet that end, he is starting up a booty camp with Mike. I'm so proud of him. He's keeping his promise to make things right. We're both focusing on making things right.

Will said, 'You did such a great job helping me with Rocky Horror last year, especially with one particular scene. I looked up at his bemused face and felt myself blush. I looked down at my plate and noticed an odd number of sweet potato pieces. I tried to ignore the desire to hurriedly eat one to make the number even.

Will continued talking, 'Why don't you direct the school musical?'

'Not on my own Will, it's too big a job….all the responsibility.'

'We could find you a co-director.'

'Who could we get to help?'

'What about Shannon, she's down to earth, doesn't take any nonsense from the kids?

'I suppose it would be a good opportunity to get to know her better, I know you've got a lot of time for her.

'You'll have all the Glee kids…what about Artie? He could be the director and you and Shannon can be his co-directors…it's for the kids, it should be by the kids.

Yes! Yes! And It's up to us to bring out their talents.

Dear Diary,

Quite an eventful day. Shelby Cochran is working at McKinley. She's been employed by Figgins to start up a rival show choir just so Motta's spoilt daughter can sing in a choir. Where is Figgins' loyalty to Will? Will says the more arts at the school the better. He is so magnanimous. Will is more worried about Shelby's effect on Rachel, Puck and Quinn. I have to admit, I was a little curious to see this woman that bore Rachel and who Will once kissed.

Quinn and her skanks were caught throwing coloured tampons at the marching band's rehearsal.

Rachel sang 'Somewhere' for her audition. Outstanding.

Quinn and Sue came into Will's office and Quinn told Will her life was his fault! Will told her she needs to grow up. How long is she going to play the victim card? Will stood his ground. He was still angry when he got home. I wish I'd been there…General Schuester really turns me on. I motioned for him to sit down and I massaged his head, neck and shoulders. Finally he got to the end of his rant and simply sighed, 'That feels so good.'

I leant over his head, my hair brushing his cheeks. He looked up at me, 'You smell so good.'

I planted a kiss on his lips and smiled. 'You don't smell so bad yourself.' I moved around the chair and straddled his lap. He slid his hands up the back of my shirt and we had a make out session before dinner.

Dear Diary,

We had more auditions today. Kurt sang I'm the Greatest Star – Rachel gave him permission! He was superb. McKinley really is lucky to have so many talented performers.

Shannon, Artie and I met in my office to discuss who we would choose for the main roles. I could barely concentrate. Shannon put her feet up on my desk and there was gum on the bottom of her shoe. All I could see were thousands of bacteria and what if it got stuck on my desk? Chewing gum is so hard to get off. I'd have to ask Will to scrape it off for me. And then those thoughts were pushed aside by the memory of Will scraping the gum off my Cinderella shoes two years ago and suddenly Shannon removed her feet off my desk and I was ok. I didn't even immediately reach for the spray and wipe. I am so much better but why couldn't I just tell her to remove her feet off my desk? I still have trouble expressing my feelings. Anyway we deliberated over Kurt as Tony:

'There is a delicate wholesomeness to Kurt that is unexpected but not unwelcome for Tony. If I was Maria I'd love to be held in Kurt's toothpick arms on my fire escape,' I offered. Shannon said she wants a Tony that will excite her lady parts. She said Kurt is too much of a lady. Artie too is worried that Kurt might be a little delicate for Tony. Oh this is so hard.

Then our decision was made for us as Kurt decided to re-audition using a scene from Romeo and Juliet with Rachel as Juliet and he as Romeo. He used the word post-coitus which made me very uncomfortable. I ignored it. I was quite moved by their performance but Shannon couldn't stop laughing. His performance was too wordy and too theatrical and when it came to kissing Juliet, it all went pear shaped. We all burst out laughing and then I felt terrible as Kurt ran off in embarrassment. I of all people know how hard it is to kiss someone.

Will and I ate lunch together as usual. He told me Quinn is back in Glee club. It seems Will standing up to her nonsense has knocked some sense back into her. Yay Will. Shannon joined us with her whole chicken. I can't believe she eats a whole chicken at every meal. Then Sue arrived with her barbs even sharper than usual. She called me a golden marmoset, which is just ridiculous and then wanted to know if I was freakishbonyginger gmail. Suddenly I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach. Freak. How I hate that word. I felt Will's hand rub my back and the anxiety that was rising within me, subsided a little. Sue kept raving on and on about the state of the economy and how the arts reek of elitism and self-indulgence blah blah blah. Then she said she's in first place! OMG how can people support her insanity? Are the general public that stupid? Thankfully she walked off to sit at the 'first place' table and Will leant in and asked 'What are we going to do?' I couldn't get my mind off the fact that Will smelled so good and how much I wanted to kiss his lips. I distantly heard Shannon say we need to find someone to run against Sue – the anti-Sue. I looked at Will. He is the antithesis of Sue.

We talked about it later that night. I asked Will if he wanted to run against her. 'I promised the kids I'd be there all year and being an arts teacher it looks like I'm just protecting myself.' I agreed. Mmm, he smelled good, fresh out of the shower. I suggested we try some more of my exposure therapy. He didn't need to be asked twice!

Dear Diary,

Back to auditions. This time Blaine and his song 'Something's Coming.' My God McKinley has an abundance of talent. He reminds me of Will – an all round talent, masculine but sensitive, a great dancer and singer, stage presence. He is our Tony.